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  • Lisa's Long boring journey

    Where to start....
    I'll try to keep this short since I tend to ramble on a bit. Which necessarily wouldn't be a problem for someone that had any skill in writing... but that's not me. I totally suck at it.
    So here goes...

    I'm 33 (good lord where has the time gone?), married to my best friend and we just had our first child this past August after trying to get pregnant for 3 very long years.

    I have PCOS, hypothyroidism, insulin resistant and who the hell knows what else. I'm fairly certain I have some food sensitivities (eggs, mushrooms, & spicy peppers... basically everything I LOVE )

    At my heaviest, I weighed in at 250lbs in 2008. That's on a 5'1" frame. Yikes.
    Because of my insulin resistance, I was put on metformin and while it caused some rather unpleasant bathroom issues, it did help me lose weight. And being diagnosed with hypothyroidism and getting put on synthroid helped with actually keeping me awake long enough to do anything.

    Fastforward and 2 years ago, my husband and I tried primal living. I was at 213 at this point. We did a strict 30 days. I lost 8lbs and he lost around 12. AWESOME!
    With a loose primal lifestyle (mostly just diet for myself)... I managed to get down to 189 at my lowest.
    November 2011.... I found out I was pregnant! Naturally!!! I did gain back a little bit of weight before falling pregnant, but holy crap... after 3 years of fertility treatments, 4 chemical pregnancies, and only 2.. yes, TWO natural cycles... I fell pregnant on that 2nd one! WOO!

    9 months later, we welcomed out little miracle in to this world. After the swelling went down, I was 193lbs! WOO! Yeah, that's until I started stuffing my face with easy crap foods and giving in to every single sugar craving I had.
    Obviously I regret it now since it has resulted in me getting back up to 217lbs (as of today). BLEH!

    Anyway, so here I am, again!
    We want more children and well, that's just not going to happen if I remain this large, so I need to get myself healthy and lose some weight. Fatness is causing my infertility and that is just not acceptable.

    I've joined sparkpeople to mostly keep track of my carb intake. Other than Friday dinners (for now), every other day will be trying to keep carbs under or around 60g a day. I'm eating like I did when I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes pretty much... oh yeah, and I had gestational diabetes
    I have also started exercising. Playing the game Just Dance for some fun light cardio, and doing strength stuff every other day.

    And yeah, we'll see what happens. Putting in my info in sparkpeople, losing 2lbs a week, I could potentially be at my set goal of 150lbs by November of this year. NICE. I'll aim for that but hope that I get pregnant again around the 170-160 mark
    DD born August 2012
    TTC #2
    SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
    CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
    Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
    Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

    My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

  • #2
    Alrighty...

    No exercise today boo

    Food

    Breakfast:
    Egg drop soup - 6 (yes 6) farm fresh eggs, 1.5c beef broth

    Lunch: 4oz leftover pan fried in coconut oil boneless skinless chicken breasts w/ 1.5tbs ranch dressing

    Snack: 4 hard boiled eggs

    Dinner: IHoP, Colorado Omelette w/ 3 Chocolate Chocolate Chip Pancakes w/ 1tbs Butter Pecan Syrup.

    Oh dinner was so so bad with the pancakes but it's my only cheat for the week and it was F-ing delicious. Other weeks will of course have better picks just depending on where the family decides they want to go.
    And good lord, I ate a LOT of eggs today!!! Remember when I said I have a sensitivity to them? I'm sure that will catch up with me later. I can't help it though, I frickin love eggs! And since we get them from my husband's parents who have free roaming chickens... it can't get any better than that.
    Honestly they don't taste any different than store bought to me, but I know they're much healthier.

    I probably shouldn't be cheating at all, but this way of eating has to be long term and it's just easier to say F- it on Friday family night dinners.

    According to sparkpeople, today's carb count is 153. Ouch! Anywho, next week's Friday night dinner shouldn't be this bad. *nodnod*

    Feels like I'm forgetting something... meh. If I think of it, I'll post it but it probably wasn't anything important.
    DD born August 2012
    TTC #2
    SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
    CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
    Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
    Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

    My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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    • #3
      Hmm, guess I should do a bit more About me?

      I'm a hobby artist. For the last oh... 10 years I haven't really been able to complete a drawing, but I've been getting in to crafts. Fairly recently, I FINALLY learned how to crochet! YAY! Been making hats and whatnot all over the place.
      Have 3 mutts and a mutt cat.
      4 fish tanks
      A garden outside that needs to be weeded. Can't frickin wait to grow some stuff in it!! I'm a total hobbit. I love watching the plants grow! And bonus, eating what I've grown!

      We always grow our own cucumbers. Fresh picked cucumbers are just F-ing amazing! None of that nasty waxy crap you get at the store that barely has a flavor.
      Also was thinking about doing cherry tomatoes again. Had great success growing that last year.

      Other than that... *shrugs*
      We don't have a lot of room in the gardens so it would have to be something a bit compact and something preferably easy and low maintenance

      We tried zucchini, but damn squash bugs killed the plants last year.

      *shrugs* Was thinking some kind of pepper plant. They're usually really easy and produce a ton of peppers. Lots more than we would ever use. Love sending DH off to work with a bag full of stuff to give to his coworkers heh.
      Hmmm, think I'm going to have to get my DH to clear off another spot for some smaller items. Like radishes, garlic, maybe carrots OOO I love gardening if you couldn't tell yet!

      We also bought a few blueberry bushes and raspberry bushes last year. It will be interesting to see if they produce anything. That's if the birds don't eat everything first.

      OO I found photos from last year!

      Cucumber plants.


      And this one had various types of tomato and the dying zucchinis


      And the back of the backyard fence where the berry bushes are


      Once things get cleaned up and start growing I'll get more photos.
      DD born August 2012
      TTC #2
      SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
      CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
      Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
      Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

      My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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      • #4
        Hi Lisa!

        just wanted to say hi, and good luck!

        Your garden looks so cool!

        Traveller.

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        • #5
          Hi! And thanks

          DH takes the credit for making the garden look nice. I just planted the seeds heh.

          Anywho... so yesterday (Saturday) was also a cheat dinner. The inlaws came over to use the tax program and after they were done we all went out for some Mexican.
          *shrugs*
          There are going to be weeks like this so I'm not going to worry about it. Just gotta make sure I make the next 5 days really count w/ diet and exercise.

          I think we're going out this Sunday w/ family b/c of Easter. And then next week there is a wedding so yeah... these next few weekends aren't going to be diet friendly :P

          Things have been going sorta well. We're poor primals. We can't afford grassfed anything. Hell, we're lucky to be able to afford anything actually. And we are very lucky that we get our eggs from DH's parents or else that would be another $10 to tack on to our already large grocery bill. The only one that does eat organic is our daughter :P
          She gets organic formula (I stopped pumping for her when she was 4m old. Pumping sucks... now I know what it feels like to be a cow), and since she started solids, all of her veggies and fruits have been organic as well. She eats better than we do lol.

          So yeah, bought some breakfast sausage today. I know I know.. it's not the best but it's gotta be better than toast, grits, and all of those wheats and grains.
          Maybe one day we'll be able to make our own sausage. OOO I bet it would be delicious too. I'll have to do some research on that to see just what we would need.

          Anywho, feeling good. Hopefully the outside will start reflecting how I'm feeling inside.
          DD born August 2012
          TTC #2
          SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
          CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
          Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
          Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

          My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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          • #6
            What the hell am I doing that my body feels the need to retain SO much water??
            Maybe it's the 2 cheat weekend that's screwing me all up.
            I need to stop weighing myself so often too. I'm addicted to it even though the battery in the scale has been dying for the past 3 months now. I step on it until it finally comes on. It's sad really.

            Or maybe it's the lack of good sleep? Sleep is so important but how the hell is a parent w/ a baby (or any child that wakes up during the night that you have to tend to) supposed to get any kind of quality sleep??
            I shouldn't complain, I usually only have to get up once, maybe twice during the night to check on our baby girl, but it still leaves me feeling so drained in the morning. Especially since I'm on HER clock and not my own any longer.

            Today was a good food day.
            Had some pork & chicken breakfast sausage, hot sopressata w/ mustard for breakfast.
            Brunch b/c I was hungry, I fixed some egg drop soup. Chicken broth w/ 4 eggs.
            And dinner was bakes split chicken breasts w/ butter & hot sauce w/ a romaine lettuce salad w/ kale, tomato, broccoli, & avocado. Oh and ranch dressing.
            Yep, we don't make our own condiments either. Making things from scratch would be best of course, but we need items that will keep and well, homemade stuff usually doesn't.

            Anywho, little more about myself. I'm a nerd without the smarts. I used to play video games, but since most 'good' games are first person shooters.. I've stopped. I always get so frazzled and spaztic and end up using all of my ammo in those types of games lol.
            I love reading, fantasy, sc-fi, horror. Right now I'm loving zombie books. Honestly can't remember the last time I read a book that didn't have a zombie in it.
            Love watching movies and some tv.
            Basically, I love everything you can do while being totally and completely relaxed and lazy! Too bad being relaxed and lazy and a giant couch potato loses you weight!
            DD born August 2012
            TTC #2
            SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
            CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
            Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
            Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

            My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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            • #7
              Today was a pretty decent food day.
              Had some A LOT of sausage for lunch. I skipped breakfast since I went out to buy a dress (more on that in a bit).
              It was store bought sausage so not the best, but still not too bad. Better than what I would've done which is go to Chick Fil A or some other place and gotten a breakfast biscuit w/ some greasy hash browns/rounds.

              And dinner was pan fried in coconut oil pork chops w/ a salad and green beans.
              Yummy! Well, yummy for me, my husband doesn't particularly care for pork chops but tough dookie.. they were on sale!

              Don't think I've eaten nearly enough. I've had plenty of fat today thanks to the sausage and the meat and oil at dinner, but I put in all of the info in sparkpeople and it says I've only had 9 carbs today!!! Yikes. I wanted to go low, but that low seems a bit too much?

              I've been craving sweets like crazy though. Hoping it's my body trying to get me to eat some carbs, but will eventually (soon, please soon!) give up and start burning off this fat!
              I have been using those water sweeteners though. Yes, artificial sweeteners are evil, but *shrugs* this is all a transition. Maybe one day I'll be happy with just plain old water ALL the time.

              Anywho, back to that dress. Going to church this Sunday for Easter and then we have a wedding the next weekend.
              Sigh, I hate my body shape. All fat in the front and small boobs. Buying ANY kind of girly top is a PITA. I can't get plus size crap b/c all of that is for BUSTY plus size women. Genetics and bad food did not give me big boobs damnit!
              So yeah, it's very difficult finding anything that looks decent on me without making me look like I'm too pregnant *grumble*
              I'll have to suck in a little when wearing the dress I bought, but whatever.. I'm used to it.
              Hopefully later this year I'll be able to wear what I want without sucking anything in.
              DD born August 2012
              TTC #2
              SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
              CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
              Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
              Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

              My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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              • #8
                If you eat carbs too often is is difficult to get and stay in fat-burning mode. Once you get to where you don't "cheat", the weight will drop and drop. But when you slip it can take a couple of weeks to get dialed back in.

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                • #9
                  Thanks Mitch.
                  I know that I would lose quicker if we didn't 'cheat'. And most weeks will only be Friday dinner.
                  There is this weekend, next weekend, and a weekend in April? May? that will be 2 cheats during the week.
                  Still not terrible IMO. But other than that, it should be just the one and hopefully just that one meal won't cause my body to try to hold on to the fat.
                  We'll see how it goes. If I'm not losing anything after only cheating once a week... then I'll know that I'm gonna have to get more strict during those dinners.

                  So lets see.... I started back on the Primal path a week ago... well, seriously back on a week ago.
                  And I'm already down SIX pounds!! What???
                  Now I know most of that is water weight but still... GEEZE.
                  Too bad it can't be like that every week lol.

                  While I can't wait for my belly fat to go away, I'm so looking forward to one day looking in the mirror and only seeing ONE chin and a jawline! lol
                  DD born August 2012
                  TTC #2
                  SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
                  CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
                  Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
                  Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

                  My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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                  • #10
                    Alrighty, food today...

                    About 8-10oz of left over pork chops (YUM)
                    And I made some chicken veggie stew for dinner. It was made up of... beef broth, salt, pepper, rosemary, 2 cans of diced tomato, 1 can of no salt added green beans, 4 large carrots, 1 onion, 5 garlic chopped, celery, 2 chicken breasts.
                    Chicken was dry b/c I overcooked it a bit, but meh, the veggies and broth were delicious!

                    Calorie count for today is kinda low again. Going to treat myself with a piece of fruit or a cup of coffee tonight. Can't wait!
                    DD born August 2012
                    TTC #2
                    SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
                    CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
                    Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
                    Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

                    My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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                    • #11
                      I had my cup of coffee and it was delicious! Used heavy whipping cream and it makes it so much richer and smooth.
                      I do use some sugar though. I KNOW... don't roll your eyes too much lol.
                      It's adding on 10 more carbs and with that I'm still around 30 carbs today so I'm still good

                      I drink decaff coffee so it's not like this is a MUST HAVE IT every day for the caff thing so yeah. Just a treat since I could afford to drink those 10g of carbs. At least I hope so.
                      We'll see how the scale agrees later.

                      Alrighty, back to stalking journals
                      DD born August 2012
                      TTC #2
                      SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
                      CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
                      Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
                      Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

                      My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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                      • #12
                        Heavy whipping cream...hmm. I should try that! Every so often I have a spoonful of butter in my tea, and it makes it smoother and...well, buttery!

                        Hey! Cream and butter!! That would be the ultimate treat!

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                        • #13
                          I've never heard of anyone putting butter in their tea I'm sure that would add a pretty interesting flavor though. I bet heavy cream and butter combo would be good! Tell me how it goes if you try it!
                          ____

                          So... today was pretty good. Well, as far as eating goes. My energy level for exercising has been pfffffft. I'll get to that.

                          So today I had some sausage links, turkey wings (3), and dinner was baked split chicken breast w/ a salad.
                          Total carbs is somewhere in the 20's.

                          Man, those turkey wings are DELICIOUS! They take some planning but they're so worth it!
                          I bake them at 350, pour olive oil all over them. Salt, pepper, onion powder.
                          And bake one side for an hour, flip, and bake for another hour. Sometimes it takes a little longer to crisp them up just right. I did it for 2.5hours today. YUM. And NO baking for so long does not dry them out. The wings have enough fat in the skin to prevent most of the meat from drying out. Some of it can but I like that b/c it gets all jerkified and tasty! Awesome!
                          Too bad chicken doesn't work the same way!

                          As for the lack of exercise. Our daughter has been getting up around 3-4 and refuses to go back to sleep. When she does eventually get back to sleep... I'm wide awake and it usually takes me over an hour to fall asleep.
                          It leaves me feeling SOOO drained during the day.
                          Oh the joys of having a baby... and to think... I want another one.. and SOON! So that would be a baby and a toddler by the time it arrived. YIKES!
                          I can say I'm ready for it all I want, but pffft, who am I kidding. Still though... I can't wait for those sleepless nights. Yes, it will be miserable, but it will be worth it.
                          DD born August 2012
                          TTC #2
                          SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
                          CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
                          Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
                          Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

                          My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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                          • #14
                            Where are people finding the money to spend on all of this grassfed meat??
                            We go to a health food grocery store weekly to fill up our water bottles, and looking at the price of this stuff (hell most of it isn't even grassfed, just 'organic') and it's expensive as shit!
                            And looking at the bacon, or sausages... it's like 8 dollars for a pack of 4! What??
                            How the hell are people affording this stuff??

                            Just blows my mind when I read what some people here eat on a daily basis.
                            We already spend about 100 weekly on groceries... and that's a CHEAP week.
                            Guess we all just gotta do what we can.

                            I have been trying to convince my husband to go in on a grassfed cow with his friends.
                            2 of his friends are big in to the whole organic eating thing and I think they would be willing if he would just frickin remember to ask them! But he uses the excuse of "We don't have enough room in our freezer." Well if we ever did it, we could always buy a freezer. They're not that expensive and we have a garage or even room in our kitchen to put it in. Excuses excuses...

                            Just wanted to blab a bit while I try to get the little one down for a nap. Girl is fighting it tooth and nail even though it's obvious that she is tired. I'll never understand why babies fight sleep. Sleep is AWESOME!

                            OH! If they're open this weekend, we may be going strawberry picking! I can't wait! Fresh strawberries are so amazing. They put store bought ones to shame! Store bought ones have 0 flavor. Too bad our LO can't have strawberries yet. She would love them!

                            Hubs can't wait for blueberry season which is late summer here for the farm. That place is amazing. Bad harvest last year, but we managed to go once while I was heavily pregnant. So yummy!
                            DD born August 2012
                            TTC #2
                            SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
                            CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
                            Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
                            Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

                            My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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                            • #15
                              Man.... browsed sparkpeople message board. Saw a post where someone lost 50lbs!
                              AWESOME! So I click the thread and see that this person lost it by basically starving themselves.
                              bran cereal in the morning, 1 piece of toast w/ low fat turkey slices for lunch, and chicken or fish w/ veggies for dinner.
                              Hell, even reading that makes my stomach grumble for MORE FOOD.

                              Saw another thread for something called "Carb lovers diet" wha????
                              I guess whatever works for people. Hopefully they'll keep whatever weight they may lose off.
                              DD born August 2012
                              TTC #2
                              SW: 1/20/14- 212.4
                              CW: 2/21/14- 202.6 (9.8 loss)
                              Goal: Short term, get below 200 and get pregnant. Long term, get to 120-130
                              Mini goal, get in to a size 12.

                              My boring uneventful journal for your viewing pleasure

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