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    I started this journal for the reasons you see below, but it evolved in a way I didn't expect. This journal documents the entire process by which I recovered from an eating disorder that was ruining my life. Day by day, you can see the evolution in my thoughts and behaviours, as I gain clarity and gradually heal.

    Over the last few months I've gotten a lot of PMs and messages from people suffering from EDs, saying how much reading this has helped them. The journal has gotten looong, so if I could sum up what I've learned it would be:

    EDs are psychological and physiological.

    - The first step to combatting an ED is to take yourself off a restrictive diet and make sure you're getting enough carbs and protein.
    - Get your hormones checked. In this journal I discover I have a health condition, and the diagnosis changed my life.
    - After that, read a self-help book or two. Learning about psychology has helped me understand myself and others, has increased my empathy and generally made life easier. It's very empowering to understand your subconscious fears, and how these drive us.

    Don't be a stranger!

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    03-17-2013

    I'm crap at keeping journals, but I've decided I'd like to document my journey to perfection. Ha No.

    The biggest impediments to living a fruitful life are within me. My battles are with depression, an eating disorder, insomnia. And, most lately, wrinkles This journal is about me experimenting with new ideas to try and find what works for me.

    Problem is that I'm notoriously crap at seeing any experiments through! I'm hoping that keeping a journal will motivate me to stick with things. (It should really have the word "Fad" in the title, but I'm a slave to subject lines with song references... and typos

    Disclaimer: Enter with a bag of sea salt. I'm usually wrong about everything.



    Age: 31
    Gender: Female
    Last edited by YogaBare; 09-08-2013, 11:10 PM.
    "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

    In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

    - Ray Peat

  • #2
    Hi! All the best for your experiments.
    Annie Ups the Ante
    http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread117711.html

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    • #3
      Contents (of Journalled Fads):

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      ♣ First fad: Women who Eat A Ton without gaining (E.A.T), Pages 1 - 26.

      ♣ Second fad: Restoring body temperature (R.B.T), Pages 27 - 47.

      ♣ Third Fad: Fuck the Fads, Pages 48 - Current.


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      Last edited by YogaBare; 06-26-2013, 02:28 PM.
      "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

      In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

      - Ray Peat

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      • #4
        First fad: Women who Eat A Ton without gaining (EAT)

        E.A.T

        My latest fad is inspired by the "Women who eat a ton without gaining" thread. I'm experimenting with what happens if I eat circa 3K calls a day.

        The background:

        After a life of ED and 13 years of yo-yoing weight, I've had enough.

        People here keep saying that EDs can be caused by nutritional deficiencies. I don't know if it can be pinned on that, but it's the only approach I haven't tried. And it's not like I've led the healthiest life.

        I stopped exercising when I was 16, and was seriously unfit for most of my twenties. I spent about ten years partying, boozing, smoking way too much dope, and taking drugs. I have a long history of under-eating / binging on junk. I have had chronic insomnia for 9 years. I get incredibly stressed and depressed. I was vegetarian for eight years, vegan for one, and lived on cereal for a lot of my life.

        I can only presume these things have impacted my physical health in ways I don't understand. Could my ED be part of a vicious cycle of ignoring strong messages my body sends me? Have I damaged my metabolism by years of chronic under eating, binging and purging?

        What would happen if I bathed my body in nutrients, got tons of sleep, exercised right for me, and treated myself as though I'm healing from an illness?

        It feels like the only approach I haven't tried.

        I'm trying not to focus on weight here - I know I can lose weight easily, but dropping calories is not sustainable long term. I'm hoping that this will reset my metabolism to eat a higher volume of food.

        The plan:

        Basically follow Matt Stone's refeeding diet:

        *Eat at least 3k cal a day of unrefined foods. High in carbs, fat and protein.

        *Stone says not to do any exercise, but I don't feel that's right for me right now. I have lots of energy so I'm going to exercise when I want to. A range of physical activity: swimming, yoga, sprinting, cycling, walking, playing in my local playground. I believe variety is the key to good body composition for me. Plus I need variety or I get bored.

        *Sleep and chill as much as possible.

        *Body brushing twice a day. My circulation is shit. My feet and bum are perpetually cold, and I generally wear at least four layers of clothing. Body brushing should help with that.

        *Start taking supplements. Alfalfa, Vit D, Calcium, Chromium.

        The Stats

        I'm 5'8, and currently 133 lbs, which is about 10 lbs more than what I usually weigh. Since starting Primal I gained about 16 lbs - most of it in Dec-Jan (you can read how here here), and in the last few weeks I lost 7 of those lbs without noticing.

        From here on in I'll:

        - Weigh and measure myself once a week.

        - Take my basal body temp every morning (for my reference: converter Celsius to Fahrenheiht )... Once I buy a thermometer!

        - Track my calories... vaguely.

        The food:

        A fusion of Paleo and Ray Peat, with some anti-orthorexia Matt Stone thrown in. Heavier on meat than Peat would advise, and including pure refined sugar, which Paleo considers the devil, but Peat believes is a good supplement for thyroid. Bone broth, white potatoes, sea food, red meat (lamb and beef), eggs, any fruit and veg I want (a lot of mangos, nectarines, bananas, carrots), white sugar (in my tea), coconut (water and oil) and olive oil. And rice because I love it so Minimal dairy: a bit of low fat milk (Ray Peat) in my tea and coffee, occasional yogurt, maybe a tiny bit of cheese sometimes.

        To conclude:

        I've had a lot of successes with changing my diet, so I'm hopeful at the outset. At any rate, it will be interesting to see what my real metabolism is, as I have no idea any more. (I come from a family of lean people, but half of us have eating disorders...!)

        If this experiment can cure an ED and allow me to be my natural body weight it will be a bonus. No, it will feel like a miracle.

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        Last edited by YogaBare; 06-26-2013, 02:28 PM.
        "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

        In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

        - Ray Peat

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        • #5
          Entry One

          I'm really hoping that this isn't a case of writing three posts in one day, then abandoning the project. You know, the kind of thing I normally do I have four unfinished novels, and two unfinished films sitting around my in subconscious, ha.

          Nobody reads these things anyway, do they?

          I've been doing this experiment on and off for a while, but I was afraid of the weight gain and ended up cycling calories. (My story up to this point is here, halfway down the page: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...d79235-32.html) I decided to commit to it about a week ago.

          So far I havent put on any weight, and the most amazing thing is that I'm sleeping!!! For the first time in nine years, I'm consistently getting at least seven hours. I've been going to bed at 11 and sleeping til 6.30. Yesterday I slept til 8am: nine hours!!! What a result. It's early days though - it's only been a week.

          The irony of this first post is that yesterday I got up and I actually couldn't face eating. I've been eating so much food lately and I'm kind of sick of it..! So I had no breakfast, but I did bung half a lambs leg into the slow cooker to make lamb broth.

          Exercise: 90 mins of Yoga, listening to the amazing Nils Frahm and I was shocked at how much stronger I am. Could hold certain poses for a lot longer than normal. I don't do those long yoga sessions enough these days, but every time I do them I remember how much I love to practice.

          Brunch: two eggs fried in coconut oil, one orange. I still couldn't face much food.!

          More exercise: Taught a three hour yoga workshop, which went amazingly.

          Dinner: Broth with a big chunk of lamb in it but only half a potato. I just don't like potatoes! They're the one food I have zero interest in. I wonder if it's cos' I od'ed on them growing up, or if it's cos' my body doesn't need them? Should I eat them if I don't like them?

          Had plans to continue the healing buzz by going for a swim and going to bed early, but one of my best friends got dumped by her boyfriend, so of course we ended up each drinking a bottle of red wine and crying in our local pub, ha Luckily the wine made me hungry, so I ate more broth and lamb when I came home. Even managed a few potatoes!

          All-in-all I ate the whole half leg (is that gross?) so with the wine etc. I must have reached 3k cals. It was a lower carb day, but that hasn't been the norm. I reckon it's fine to mix things up anyway - so long as I'm listening to my body.

          The only disconcerting thing is that some of my hair fell out yesterday. That hasn't happened to me in ages. Last week every single one of my nails broke. That's never happened to me. But I'm hoping that this is the result of something I did a month ago, rather than a few days ago.
          Last edited by YogaBare; 06-26-2013, 02:29 PM.
          "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

          In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

          - Ray Peat

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          • #6
            Entry 2

            Sleep:
            A measly four hours... a direct result of the large red wine consumption. Always happens when I drink wine. Though my usual sleeping time isn't much more than that - I usually hit five hours, which is why I'm adoring the extra sleep from eating so much.

            Exercise:
            Really wanted to sprint, but it was raining, so did HIIT skipping (that's "jump rope" to the Yanks ) in my living room! Twenty seconds on, twenty seconds off for eight skips. Did some gentle yoga too. I'm loving how much energy I have.

            Food:
            Bananas, a load of rice, thai green curry, prawns, mussles, calamari, lamb broth, potatoes, avocado, carrots, four cans of coconut water, raspberries, natural yogurt, honey, an orange...
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            And at the end of the day:

            I'm feeling a bit scared about the weight gain. It seems like all the extra food is going straight to my breasts and my stomach. Although according to eh measuring tape I'm still the same, but this weight is still so much higher than my normal weight. When I taught yoga yesterday I felt like a fat yoga teacher... the humanity! My friends say I've got body dysmorphia. I guess I probably do, cos' I'm never happy with any weight I am.

            I noticed today that when I got out of a yoga pose my toes had turned blue!!! That can't be a sign of good circulation. My toes and bum are still cold all the time, but I'm hoping that the brushing will help. On the upside, my skin is feeling really soft. Whoop!

            Going to have some more broth before bed: I usually don't sleep well when I'm hungover either.
            Last edited by YogaBare; 06-26-2013, 02:29 PM.
            "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

            In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

            - Ray Peat

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            • #7
              Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
              Entry 2

              Sleep last night was a measly four hours... a direct result of the large red wine consumption. Always happens when I drink wine. Though my usual sleeping time isn't much more than that - I usually hit five hours, which is why I'm adoring the extra sleep from eating so much.
              Wine does that to me too. I always try to remind people that they can live twice as long without eating as they can without sleeping. Putting all our emphasis on eating is a mistake.

              Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
              Exercise - really wanted to sprint, but it was raining, so did HIIT skipping (that's "jump rope" to the Yanks ) in my living room! Twenty seconds on, twenty seconds off for eight skips. Did some gentle yoga too. I'm loving how much energy I have.
              Only counts as HIIT if you did double-unders.

              Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
              Food today was bananas, a load of rice, thai green curry, prawns, mussles, calamari, lamb broth, potatoes, avocado, carrots, four cans of coconut water, raspberries, natural yogurt, honey, an orange...
              You're hanging out with Derpy too much. He's funny, but you need to eat several more pounds of meat than this.

              Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
              I'm feeling a bit scared about the weight gain. It seems like all the extra food is going straight to my breasts and my stomach. Although according to eh measuring tape I'm still the same, but this weight is still so much higher than my normal weight. When I taught yoga yesterday I felt like a fat yoga teacher... the humanity! My friends say I've got body dysmorphia. I guess I probably do, cos' I'm never happy with any weight I am.
              You should throw out all your mirrors for at least a couple months. Let your body recover from the years of underfeeding.

              Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
              I noticed today that when I got out of a yoga pose my toes had turned blue!!! That can't be a sign of good circulation. My toes and bum are still cold all the time, but I'm hoping that the brushing will help. On the upside, my skin is feeling really soft. Whoop!

              Going to have some more broth before bed: I usually don't sleep well when I'm hungover either.
              Cold toes and bum aren't your problem, they're the problem of whomever you share your bed with. I always sleep better when I have some gelatin or broth before bed. (Uh-oh, maybe I've been reading too many of Derpy's posts!)
              The Champagne of Beards

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              • #8
                Originally posted by RichMahogany View Post
                Wine does that to me too. I always try to remind people that they can live twice as long without eating as they can without sleeping. Putting all our emphasis on eating is a mistake.
                Thanks for the reply Rich aka Adam Totally agree about the sleep. I don't think the long-term consequences of sleep deprivation have been studied. When I'm doubting the validity of this experiment I just remind myself that all the negative things I've been doing over the years haven't been well-researched long term, and that my body is likely to have a lot of invisible damage that goes unnoticed. I'm definitely noticing that I'm more relaxed since starting. I suspect that sleep deprivation causes nerve damage.

                Only counts as HIIT if you did double-unders.
                Ha, I had to google what that meant. It took me to the end of this video to work it out!
                You're hanging out with Derpy too much. He's funny, but you need to eat several more pounds of meat than this.
                Derp doesn't totally approve of my overeating plan..! But yeah, yesterday was a low meat day (250gs sea food). You missed the previous entry though... I ate half a lamb's leg.

                You should throw out all your mirrors for at least a couple months. Let your body recover from the years of underfeeding.
                Thanks for the support Not sure how long I'm going to do this... at least two weeks, but not longer than a month. Maybe I shouldn't weigh myself at all til the end...

                Originally posted by Cierra
                Good luck with keeping a journal. It can be kind of taxing but really helpful.... only helpful if you read old entries, though, in my opinion. It's interesting to see what I've changed, what's stayed the same, and what my mindset is as the days pass by. I'll try and keep up with your journal every so often and keep encouraging you! I've been very interested in your increase in calories, and so I'll definitely be watching how that turns out. Also -- if you don't like potatoes, then don't eat them. There are plenty of other veggies that you can eat that'll give you plenty of nutrition and taste delicious. I, for one, happen to love purple potatoes more than white ones. Maybe just 'cos I like purple better? Hah. I'm also going to start copying you and do some dry brushing as sooooon as I get a brush! I want my circulation to improve, my toes always fall asleep while I'm running. Weird, I know.

                Oh, and as far as not eating bread/gluten goes, it's really amazing. It's got zero appeal to me, now! I served it up to the bf tonight along with my Primal meal of a pan-fried pork chop and purple potatoes, and he hardly touched the bread. He's starting to lean toward my way of eating more and more, which is great. Way easier than making two separate meals! Maybe one day we'll stop buying bread completely. (although, I highly doubt that. Ha.) Anyway, abstaining from grains has decreased the bloating so much, I don't think I can ever go back to having tasteless slabs of empty calories that hurt my body ever again, lol.
                Thanks Cierra Yeah, like I said, nothing else was really working. This is the only approach I haven't taken before. I did it with junk food in Jan, and it completely put me off eating crap. So I'm hoping that my eating as much as I want the novelty of food will lessen and I'll get over my addiction to it.

                Potatoes - I only eat them to get an alternative starch source.... if I had it my way I'd eat rice three times a day I bought a sweet potato yesterday though, will try that.

                Good on you with the bread! It's all about patience with non-primal loved ones. My mum has a degenerative thyroid condition, so I've been slowly but surely whittling her down about gluten. She gave up bread in December, and yesterday she sent myself and my sister an article about teh dangers of gluten! So nice when people eventually listen.

                Looking forward to hearing how the brushing goes! This was the site that turned me on to it. That article is all about cellulite, but cellulite is just symptomatic of lymphatic congestion, which is associated with bad circulation. Part of my approach atm is "looking after my lymph".
                Last edited by YogaBare; 09-25-2013, 04:09 PM.
                "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                - Ray Peat

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                • #9
                  Thanks for the PM, i wish you tons of luck with this and will be sure to check in.

                  I dont think you should measure yourself daily in any way. Once a week is plenty since you really cant gain or loss all that much in a day and checking daily will just fuel your ED tendencies. You should also really take weekly picture so if you feel that your all fat again (like yoga class) you can refer to the pics. You could also post them so unbiased people could offer their opinion.

                  Secondly, dont eat a food you dont like. At the very least, never force down a food that will make you not enjoy the meal. Switch the potatoes out for rice if that would make you happier. Billions of asians eat it at every meal. Yes its not as nutrient dense but you will be fine.

                  Keep at it, this stuff really does take time. 2 weeks to a month will not be long enough to fully heal. Keep track of times you feel the best and worst and keep tweaking your diet to feel better. Timing, macro ratios, fluid intake, etc all effect how you will feel at certain times and it takes awhile to get that in thne with your body to know what it really wants. You dont always have to eat a balanced meal, if sometimes you feel like a big mono meal of lamb or nectarines, go for it. Dont limit yourself in any way to what you think you are supposed to do, learn to go by what your body feels is right at that moment. Think of the nutrition you get in a week, not every meal or every day.

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                  • #10
                    "Nobody reads these things anyway, do they?"

                    Apparently they do I'm subscribing to yours and will be a reader and usually silent cheerleader for you.

                    Where are the wrinkles you mentioned, on your face? Coconut oil is a great night time moisturizer for your face. I'm doing salt baths followed by cold showers every day (yep every day) and the difference in my skin (along with the brushing) is amazing so far. I kind of can't believe it.

                    This - How to Eliminate Cellulite Forever - InfoBarrel - Step 2. That's my salt bath and cold shower. I follow it with coconut oil everywhere!
                    be the hair that knots with my hair
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                    • #11
                      Originally posted by Zach View Post
                      Thanks for the PM, i wish you tons of luck with this and will be sure to check in.

                      I dont think you should measure yourself daily in any way. Once a week is plenty since you really cant gain or loss all that much in a day and checking daily will just fuel your ED tendencies. You should also really take weekly picture so if you feel that your all fat again (like yoga class) you can refer to the pics. You could also post them so unbiased people could offer their opinion.

                      Secondly, dont eat a food you dont like. At the very least, never force down a food that will make you not enjoy the meal. Switch the potatoes out for rice if that would make you happier. Billions of asians eat it at every meal. Yes its not as nutrient dense but you will be fine.

                      Keep at it, this stuff really does take time. 2 weeks to a month will not be long enough to fully heal. Keep track of times you feel the best and worst and keep tweaking your diet to feel better. Timing, macro ratios, fluid intake, etc all effect how you will feel at certain times and it takes awhile to get that in thne with your body to know what it really wants. You dont always have to eat a balanced meal, if sometimes you feel like a big mono meal of lamb or nectarines, go for it. Dont limit yourself in any way to what you think you are supposed to do, learn to go by what your body feels is right at that moment. Think of the nutrition you get in a week, not every meal or every day.
                      Cheers for all the advice Zach! You're right - I should really ditch the measuring tape... it doesn't help. I'm just scared that the weight is going to creep on to me. I found a way I can enjoy potatoes - drowned in coconut milk and salt They taste pretty good. I'm reluctant to eat as much rice as I want as it's one of those foods I feel a bit addicted to, and I don't really want to lean on it too heavily while I'm doing this exercise in madness...

                      Thanks for the support

                      Originally posted by little vase View Post
                      "Nobody reads these things anyway, do they?"

                      Apparently they do I'm subscribing to yours and will be a reader and usually silent cheerleader for you.

                      Where are the wrinkles you mentioned, on your face? Coconut oil is a great night time moisturizer for your face. I'm doing salt baths followed by cold showers every day (yep every day) and the difference in my skin (along with the brushing) is amazing so far. I kind of can't believe it.

                      This - How to Eliminate Cellulite Forever - InfoBarrel - Step 2. That's my salt bath and cold shower. I follow it with coconut oil everywhere!
                      Aw, thanks LV

                      Yeah, the wrinkles are on my face. They literally started forming overnight after I started using OCM. It really damaged my skin, so I'm wary of using Coconut oil on my face... I'm doing facial brushing (in addition to body brushing), salt baths (only once a week) and taking alfalfa supplements. I'm also looking into copper peptides. You're right about the cold showers though - I'll have to add that in

                      Are you noticing a difference on just your body or your face too? I don't know if it's the salt baths or the brushing, or that I've put on weight, but I used to have some lines on my chest and I noticed today that they've completely vanished! Though I'm assuming it's the weight gain...
                      Last edited by YogaBare; 09-25-2013, 04:10 PM.
                      "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                      In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                      - Ray Peat

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                      • #12
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                        E.M.T.W.L
                        Entry Three

                        Sleep - Six hours last night. Unsurprising... but still annoying. That's only 10 hours over two nights. I'm going to bed at 9pm tonight...!

                        On the upside, as I was drifting off my feet and hands were like little irons: reputed to be a sign that the metabolic rate is picking up! I've been having really vivid dreams since I started this overeating campaign too. Ray Peat says that's a low blood sugar thing, but that doesn't make sense to me. I'm eating piles of carbs right now.

                        Exercise:
                        Even though I woke up with plenty of energy, when I went out to do my sprints I failed miserably. I jogged to the park, but only managed two thirds of my first sprint before my legs started to give way. It was really weird. I managed to do a second sprint, but after that I was finished. Not tired - just felt like I was totally unfit... as if I was grossly overweight and it was my first time running.

                        I don't know if this is cos' I was reading Matt Stone's book last night, and he emphasises not doing any physical activity. I can be very impressionable... Or maybe I'm genuinely tired? Or it's still the impact of the bottle of wine from Sat night? I don't know, but today I was ravenous. (That often happens when I'm underslept).

                        Food:
                        I've decided to do the calorie counting. It's easier, and that way I can keep track of my nutrients. Today's cals came in quite a lot higher than I've been planning... 4464cals...fat:212, carbs: 507.6, protein: 180.3.

                        Ground beef, curshed tomatoes, Coconut oil, Coconut cream, Coconut water, eggs, avocado (which I'm afraid of now, thanks to Ray Peat..! But I had a some lying around that needed to be eated), bananas, mangoes, honey, white potatoes, seaweed, mustard, a few tea spoons of sugar, raspberries.

                        Should I be putting a limit to how much I eat? That just seems so excessive.

                        I got two unusual cravings just before lunch: for mustard, and seaweed. I never eat or crave either of these. THe iodine in seaweed stimulates the thyroid, but I didn't know anything about mustard, so I looked it up and found out that mustard speeds up your metabolism.

                        I wonder if I'm craving foods that rev your metabolism because my metabolic rate is rising? If "we are what we eat", maybe we also eat what we are?

                        Saying that, I was also getting cravings for crap. I kept thinking about cookies, Kitkats, easter eggs... Matt Stone would say to give in to those cravings but tbh I just can't face the thought of how shit those foods make me feel. The honeymoon is over with them, and I know that I'm just craving them because my body wants a specific nutrient. I ate three mangoes after lunch, and then three bananas with honey. The cravings didn't go, even though I felt so full I wanted to puke. Not until much later, when I ate coconut cream with raspberries. Maybe it was the coconut I needed? Or the feeling of something sweet and creamy?
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                        And at the end of the day:

                        I actually feel like today has been a "binge" day. I've had that binging mentality, even though I didn't actually eat any junk foods.

                        Contrary to the focused direction of this journal, the quote at the top is more apt to how I'm feeling right now. I'm doubting if I'm doing the right thing. Feels like it doesn't matter what road I take - I always end up in the same place. Am I just using this "experiment" to justify my addiction?

                        (I know the quote is slightly different, but whatever )
                        Last edited by YogaBare; 03-23-2013, 01:31 PM.
                        "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                        In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                        - Ray Peat

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                        • #13
                          Hi Yoga Bare,
                          I noticed that you did not feel satisfied until you had some fat in the form of coconut cream. Perhaps this is something to look at for yourself.
                          The end of your post sounded like you are quite low today. Chin up and keep smiling. It helps me to keep going back to the basics when I feel like that.
                          I think it was SB hikes that said eat
                          protein and veg/salad for breakfast ,
                          protein and veg/salad for lunch
                          protein and veg/salad for dinner with a carb if you feel like it.
                          This is what I return to when I get myself confused with the direction I am heading.
                          good luck
                          link to my journal http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread97129.html

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                          • #14
                            Originally posted by jacmac View Post
                            Hi Yoga Bare,
                            I noticed that you did not feel satisfied until you had some fat in the form of coconut cream. Perhaps this is something to look at for yourself.
                            The end of your post sounded like you are quite low today. Chin up and keep smiling. It helps me to keep going back to the basics when I feel like that.
                            I think it was SB hikes that said eat
                            protein and veg/salad for breakfast ,
                            protein and veg/salad for lunch
                            protein and veg/salad for dinner with a carb if you feel like it.
                            This is what I return to when I get myself confused with the direction I am heading.
                            good luck
                            Hi jacmac, I think you're right about the coconut - it's actually one of the only sources of fat that I find satisfying. In general I'm not avoiding carbs or fat though.

                            Thanks for the support. I appreciate it.

                            Originally posted by Cierra
                            Your post did seem a bit negative on yourself! Youve got to look at the bigger picture and try not to micromanage, I think. Maybe you needed a lot of calories then, but later (tomorrow, maybe even some time next week) you won't be as hungry. Who knows? Dont beat yourself up, and just try to think of the benefits. I've been feeling a little binge-y lately too, and have been consuming Way too many coconut products... But maybe some day I'll need the energy, or maybe the healthy coconut fats are preventing a zit from popping up as I type this! Ya never know. ohh, and I got my dry scrubby brush today! I'm gonna use it tonight before a shower and see how it goes. Do you use any oils? I bought some vit E oil a while ago but it broke my skin out disgustingly... So I'm a little apprehensive of pure oils on my sensitive skin.
                            Another tiny piece of advice I have, is that if you've got energy but don't wanna work out, maybe try using it in a different way, like creating art. I've probably said this to you before, but when my energy levels are high and I'm stuck in the house, I can produce some satisfying art pieces or do some madwoman house organizing! Best of luck, and just recognize that you're doing good for yourself just by bein conscious of your actions.
                            Hey Cierra, Thanks for the encouragement I think you're right... I'm trying to remind myself that doing this with junk food in Dec / Jan has pretty much killed my desire to eat it (I still get cravings, but I know it's not worth it). I'm hoping that something similar will happen with this, but i've got to be patient.

                            Great about the brush! Did you make sure teh bristles are natural? It's for dry brushing, so you do it on totally dry skin. The only oil I use on my skin is coconut oil... it's amazing! Have had bad experiences putting other oils on my face

                            You're right about channelling energy... Good to be reminded At the moment I'm trying not to get too caught up in my emotions, and to recognise that they are just energy in motion, and that they will pass, if I don't ruminate.

                            Rumination is my forté though
                            Last edited by YogaBare; 09-25-2013, 04:11 PM.
                            "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                            In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                            - Ray Peat

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                              E.M.T.W.L
                              Entry Four

                              Well, the inevitable weight gain has begun and my energy is lower. I seem to be peeing all the time and... when I woke up this morning a few of the lines on my face were deeper. I'm NOT imagining this... and it freaked me out, because in January I experienced a period where I started to age rapidly. At the time I thought it was cos' of using the Oil Cleansing Method. However, I did some research this morning, and now I'm thinking it's cos' of over-eating.

                              A few things I read:

                              http://www.heartspring.net/alkaline_water_health.html

                              http://altmedangel.com/gutbrain.htm

                              http://drmyhill.co.uk/wiki/Hypochlor...ts_of_problems

                              In a nutshell, I'm doubting if I'm doing the right thing.

                              I've suspected low stomach acid for a while, so I'm going to add a dose of ACV to my daily regime of brushing and supplementation.

                              Sleep:
                              Fitful and filled with awkward dreams. I experienced horrible night sweats, tossed and turned, and kept waking up. I got up to pee at 6.30, then went back to sleep until 10.30! Got close to 11 hours, but it wasn't restful: it was sour, and I woke up feeling exhausted. I'm pretty sure it's because I ate so much yesterday: that kind of sleep was not unusual after a binge.

                              Exercise :
                              Nada. I had meetings so I was out and about, but felt no compulsion to swim or anything.

                              Food:
                              Totals 2707cals, 81.2 Fat, 420.1 Carbs, 84.0 Protein.

                              It's actually a bit higher - I didn't count milk in my coffees and I'm sure there were other things... I"m not being militant. Potatoes, coconut cream, raspberries, bananas, omelet with cheese and mushroom, wild salmon, salad. I feel stuffed - I don't know how I managed to eat so much yesterday.

                              Just realised that my coconut cream has about six extra ingredients added to it..... Nooooooooo! It's the yummiest one I've had so far. Figures!
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                              And at the end of the day:

                              As I said to Cierra "I'm trying to remind myself that doing this with junk food in Dec / Jan has pretty much killed my desire to eat it (I still get cravings, but I know it's not worth it). I'm hoping that something similar will happen with this, but i've got to be patient".

                              As a positive: my tolerance to high volumes of starch has improved! After being VLC rice or potatoes would make me feel super tired. Today I ate a huge pile of potatoes (with coconut cream.... mmmm ) and they gave me nothing but good energy - happy days!

                              Last edited by YogaBare; 03-23-2013, 01:33 PM.
                              "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                              In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                              - Ray Peat

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