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  • That old, familiar feeling

    Last night when I was going to sleep a few things happened. Firstly, I couldn't sleep, which hasn't happened to me in ages. (I attribute it to the huge portion of liver-infused beef Bolognese that I devoured for dinner). Secondly, I realised that for the last ten days, whilst I've been feeling withdrawn, tired, and demotivated, I've actually been mildly depressed.

    This isn't a bad thing. If you've been reading you'll know I've been bleating on about how this energy dip is a breath of fresh air. I'm so used to crashing, burning and binging, that the subtle shifts in severity give me hope that one day I'll reach my goal (simple balance).

    Empowering. Realising that I'm not the helpless victim of my mood anymore. Remembering that the low phases don't last.

    Saying that, today was the lowest ebb so far. The fatigue was debilitating; my lack of enthusiasm, pervasive. I had intense sugar cravings: ended up eating a large pineapple, two bars of 70% chocolate, and drinking maple syrup as though it was cough bottle. I was resisting the cravings initially, and then I remembered that I promised myself at the start of this journal to trust my body. I obviously needed whatever was in those foodstuffs, and maybe tomorrow I'll be over this hump.

    This sounds strange, but I have the sense that the progesterone has confused my body, and thrown it out of it's weird cycle. I think I was about to get my period when I started taking the medication, and then it threw everything off-course, which is why I've been so exceptionally bloated for so long now.

    Anyway, would like to end with some profound quote, but all I can keep thinking of is how devastated I am about "Game of Thrones"..!

    Oh yeah, and how I can't wait to go to CALI tomorrow



    Nom.
    Last edited by YogaBare; 06-05-2013, 03:41 PM.
    "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

    In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

    - Ray Peat

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    • I hope you have a great flight to california and a good time while you are there.

      I also agree with not caring about your foods while on holiday. I find that i tend to eat well, but not over-eat, and I enjoy the process. So it's great.

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      • Ha, yeah I love Kubrick! WHich is your favourite of his films? Oddly, "Eyes Wide Shut" is mine...
        Ha, that is odd. mine actually is Dr. Strangelove. It's the best satire, ever. Though the book it was based on, Red Alert, was actually a straight thriller.

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        • areyouthereyetareyouthereyetareyouthereyet??? Our meetup is so close! Shit, I need to buy plane tickets...

          I wonder if the progesterone has something to do with your mood recently. You might have said that. Anyway, I think mood also has a lot to do with your environment so perhaps being out of your regular one + being too busy traveling to think too much about it will lift you up! xoxo
          Is it weird in here, or is it just me?

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          • Originally posted by zoebird View Post
            I hope you have a great flight to california and a good time while you are there.

            I also agree with not caring about your foods while on holiday. I find that i tend to eat well, but not over-eat, and I enjoy the process. So it's great.
            Thank you! And thanks for ALL your advice. xx

            Originally posted by Zanna View Post
            Ha, that is odd. mine actually is Dr. Strangelove. It's the best satire, ever. Though the book it was based on, Red Alert, was actually a straight thriller.
            All his films are based on books actually... I really want to read "Traumnovelle" by Arthur Schnitzler, which is the novella "EWS" is based on.

            If you're a Kubrick fan, you might be interested in this The Making of Kubricks 2001

            Originally posted by CiKi90
            This.

            This is so beautiful. I am ecstatic that you are in this head space. I know I keep praising you for how much I'm watching you grow as I read your journal, but because this is where I want to be in my life -- it just makes me so full of joy and hope. Joy, for such a great person like you find the path towards peace and balance, and hope that one day, my efforts will lead me to your position.

            I hope you have a great, safe flight to the States, and I hope everyone is friendly!
            Thanks Ci I don't know if I'm doing as well as you perceive me to be, but I really appreciate your kind words <3

            Originally posted by ombat View Post
            areyouthereyetareyouthereyetareyouthereyet??? Our meetup is so close! Shit, I need to buy plane tickets...

            I wonder if the progesterone has something to do with your mood recently. You might have said that. Anyway, I think mood also has a lot to do with your environment so perhaps being out of your regular one + being too busy traveling to think too much about it will lift you up! xoxo
            Nope. It's a cycle. I get tired all the time: up and down I go... I am coming to the conclusion that it's probably hormonal, but it's not related to taking the progesterone. It's been happening for years.
            "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

            In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

            - Ray Peat

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            • Is the progesterone helping at all? And have you been increasing protein consumption?
              Make America Great Again

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              • Originally posted by Derpamix View Post
                Is the progesterone helping at all? And have you been increasing protein consumption?
                Helping with the fatigue? Not at all actually. But I've only been taking it for a week, and it feels like my body is fighting it in a weird way... Like it was trying to continue on it's usual cycle, and this was throwing it off.

                My protein consumption is the same as it was, but it was already pretty decent: I eat meat or fish once a day...

                How's your mood these days? <3
                "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                - Ray Peat

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                • Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
                  Helping with the fatigue? Not at all actually. But I've only been taking it for a week, and it feels like my body is fighting it in a weird way... Like it was trying to continue on it's usual cycle, and this was throwing it off.

                  My protein consumption is the same as it was, but it was already pretty decent: I eat meat or fish once a day...

                  How's your mood these days? <3
                  Well, with anything, in particular. It's weird it's affecting your fatigue, but it's probably just a cyclical thing, and will improve.

                  Ah, gelatin too?!

                  Bretty bad tbh but w/e it's just the heat and summer and me being a big 'ol Derp

                  <3
                  Make America Great Again

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                  • Safe travels and happy holidays.
                    I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                    • Hey Yogabare, WHERE are YOU?

                      If you are in Cali I hope it's cooler where you are, it was 92 here today and is supposed to be hotter tomorrow and Saturday!

                      You'll be happy to know that I ditched the autoimmune protocol. I wasn't feeling any better and I was driving my husband crazy. I think the only way I could do a restrictive diet like that is if I had the support of a trusted practitioner.

                      Where ever you are I hope you are having fun!
                      Life is death. We all take turns. It's sacred to eat during our turn and be eaten when our turn is over. RichMahogany.

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                      • We watched Dr. Strangelove in one of my classes last term. The class was called "Better Living Through Chemistry" Lalz.
                        Is it weird in here, or is it just me?

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                        • Originally posted by Derpamix View Post
                          Well, with anything, in particular. It's weird it's affecting your fatigue, but it's probably just a cyclical thing, and will improve.

                          Ah, gelatin too?!

                          Bretty bad tbh but w/e it's just the heat and summer and me being a big 'ol Derp

                          <3
                          Noooo... it's aint affecting my fatigue at all. Been coming down for two weeks now, only started the prog 6 days ago. Feels like my body is fighting it cos' I've been on a 21 day menstrual cycle, and now the drugs are changing that. So I've been getting PMS symptoms, without the M>.

                          Of course! Bone broth and Great lakes every day. I honestly don't notice any difference in my energy or skin when I eat it though.

                          Awww. Well at least you have your journal now to chronicle your thoughts. I think it helps a lot. Have you moved into your new place yet?

                          Originally posted by badgergirl View Post
                          Safe travels and happy holidays.
                          Thanks Badger!

                          Originally posted by Urban Forager View Post
                          Hey Yogabare, WHERE are YOU?

                          If you are in Cali I hope it's cooler where you are, it was 92 here today and is supposed to be hotter tomorrow and Saturday!

                          You'll be happy to know that I ditched the autoimmune protocol. I wasn't feeling any better and I was driving my husband crazy. I think the only way I could do a restrictive diet like that is if I had the support of a trusted practitioner.

                          Where ever you are I hope you are having fun!
                          I live in London, but right now I'm in Ireland, waiting in departures for my flight to NYC. Then on Monday we're flying to SF! I think it's pretty temperate there...

                          YES! I'm very happy to hear that I think two weeks is a fair trial... In most cases I believe that if something's going to work there should be some kind of initial green light. What were you eating before you started it? I think this Fast Metabolism Diet sounds really interesting... it's designed to support the endocrine system, so it could be really useful. I ordered the book so I'll be looking into it when I get back.

                          Originally posted by ombat View Post
                          We watched Dr. Strangelove in one of my classes last term. The class was called "Better Living Through Chemistry" Lalz.
                          Have you seen "What the Bleep do we know?" It's a documentary about Quantum physics... it's a bit annoying, but it outlines the concepts quite succinctly. I've meant to watch the Morgan Freeman series about the Universe for ages, but only got through the first episode...
                          Last edited by YogaBare; 06-06-2013, 11:53 PM.
                          "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                          In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                          - Ray Peat

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                          • By the time you get to California the heat will have died down and SF is always cool, it can be downright cold in the Summer. It varies quite a bit depending on what part of SF you're in. Make sure you have layers you can put on and take off as the temp. can change quickly. I'll think of you when I'm across the bay in Oakland on Tues/Wed. My son and I have picked out a nice place to eat dinner at on Tues. evening.

                            Before I went on the autoimmune diet I was eating regular primal, nothing extreme. I gave it a good it a good 3 weeks and I saw no improvements. So I'm back to having milk in my tea and I may even have an egg for breakfast! Our chickens are laying a lot lately and since I wasn't doing my part in eating them they've been piling up. We had so many my husband had to give them away.
                            Life is death. We all take turns. It's sacred to eat during our turn and be eaten when our turn is over. RichMahogany.

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                            • Originally posted by ombat View Post
                              We watched Dr. Strangelove in one of my classes last term. The class was called "Better Living Through Chemistry" Lalz.
                              Hah! Sounds like an awesome class. i took some awesome classes in college too.

                              My journal

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                              • Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
                                Have you seen "What the Bleep do we know?" It's a documentary about Quantum physics... it's a bit annoying, but it outlines the concepts quite succinctly. I've meant to watch the Morgan Freeman series about the Universe for ages, but only got through the first episode...
                                I did see it, but it was quite some time ago. Maybe I'll get around to it again.

                                I want Morgan Freeman to follow me around and narrate my life.

                                Originally posted by diene View Post
                                Hah! Sounds like an awesome class. i took some awesome classes in college too.
                                It was a course on the history of chemistry from antiquity (alchemy) through WWII. We touched on some of the early 2000's in terms of climate change as well. It was fairly interesting. I wish I had done more of the readings. I still have the course packet so I might do some this summer.
                                Is it weird in here, or is it just me?

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