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  • Originally posted by Derpamix View Post
    ei gurl I'll compliment you all day long you're hot

    also, it could be worse, I still get carded for cigs in my mid 20s ;_; no man wants to be carded for cigarettes in their mid 20s...
    Awww... Thanks Derp

    Today's Rumi quote:

    "If light is in your heart, you will find your way home."

    and this one... more age appropriate :

    "Apart from Love, everything passes away.
    The way to heaven is in your heart."
    Last edited by YogaBare; 04-05-2013, 11:00 AM.
    "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

    In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

    - Ray Peat

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    • E.M.T.W.L

      Entry Twenty One: Eating like Prey


      Sleep:
      1am - 7am.
      Went to bed last night thinking of breakfast. That's not a good sign for me - it usually means I'm depriving myself. I only ate 2k cals yest...

      "only ate 2k cals yest"? That's one thing I never thought I'd say

      Digestion
      Good.

      Skin
      Better, but seeing the hint of dermatitis on my knuckles. To rectify it, I ate a tablespoon of coconut oil... from a SPOON! Ha. The high carbers are probably freaking at that, but I actually love the taste! And it makes a big difference to my skin.

      Food
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      Breakfast: 7am
      Snack (berries and coconut milk): 11.15am
      Snack (banana): 12pm
      Lunch (broth): 2pm
      Snack (Orange): 4.30pm
      Snack (cucumber): 5.30pm
      Dinner: 7pm
      Snack: 9.30pm

      Second day of grazing. So far, I love it. It's so nice to snack and not feel guilty; to eat and not feel like I've got to stuff myself to get me through to my next eating window.

      I think I'm getting a lot more sensitive to the rhythms of my body. The last two days I've been very satisfied with small portions of food; then tonight I ate a lot. I made an amazing (if I do say so myself!) Thai yellow curry with prawns, and I ate a huuuge portion of it. I'm starting to understand that my body wants different things at different times. Tonight it needed a huge meal, but tomorrow it won't (or it might!).

      And at the end of the day:
      On average I think my calories are dropping. I actually stepped on the scale today and I'm down a kilo (2.2 lbs) since last week.

      I've also been exercising more and more each day, and over the last few days I feel a buoyancy in my body that I haven't felt for ages. Usually when I'm in good shape I'm constantly bending, kicking, stretching. Without being too hippie about it, I really experience my body. I've been doing that over the last few days, but I havent felt that kind of freedom in my body since last July, when I started to relapse. I thought it was cos' I had put on fat, but now I'm thinking that it's something else. Stress? Inflammation? Who knows...

      Actually, I feel remarkably unstressed at the moment. It's the regular sleep, the regular eating, being at home... but mostly I think it's the journalling. I've never talked about this issue at length before, and I think putting it into words, riding through this experiment, and most especially getting support from so many amazing people is helping me so much.

      I'm actually a bit scared about going back to London on Tuesday. While I do feel relaxed, I also feel pathetically fragile. I started crying talking to a friend yesterday, for no reason at all, and I'm pretty firey. I can fly off the handle quite easily, and then I hate myself for it. It's safe here. Safe and isolated. That's not really life though, is it?

      Sometimes you live by healing, but sometimes you heal by living.
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      Prey.
      Last edited by YogaBare; 04-13-2013, 03:01 AM.
      "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

      In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

      - Ray Peat

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      • Great post! Dont have much to add except I eat coconut oil straight up too. And how was derp lucky enough to see a pic! No fair.

        Keep up the great work. If things are going really well then maybe you should stay longer? Dont know your obligations but you shouldnt have to live your life by anyone elses standards, just do what feels right at the moment.

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        • Originally posted by Zach View Post
          Great post! Dont have much to add except I eat coconut oil straight up too. And how was derp lucky enough to see a pic! No fair.

          Keep up the great work. If things are going really well then maybe you should stay longer? Dont know your obligations but you shouldnt have to live your life by anyone elses standards, just do what feels right at the moment.
          Ha - the photo Derp saw was taken before I gained these all this weight..!

          I would love to stay home longer but I'm teaching Yoga in London on Tuesday. But I totally agree with you about not living life by other people's standards: it's funny how easily you can fall into it, irrespective of what path in life you have taken...
          "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

          In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

          - Ray Peat

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          • Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
            Ha - the photo Derp saw was taken before I gained these all this weight..!

            I would love to stay home longer but I'm teaching Yoga in London on Tuesday. But I totally agree with you about not living life by other people's standards: it's funny how easily you can fall into it, irrespective of what path in life you have taken...
            The whole 8 pounts? :P

            To be a yoga teacher do you have to go to India to study? I have been doing yoga lately its it really is interesting with how much history it has. All the teachers i have been to also have gone to India.

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            • E.M.T.W.L

              Entry Twenty Two: Three weeks?!

              Wow. Time flies when you're eating all you want!

              Sleep:
              12.45am - 7.30 am. Woke up with a bit of a blocked nose.

              Actually had a terrible night's sleep. Tossed and turned all night. Weird, since I ate so much. Maybe it was the spices in the curry? Difficult to know. But it's interesting to note that some foods make me sleep better than others. Rice is worse than potatoes for example. Bananas are better than any other fruit.

              I think before I go back to London I'll make a log of all this info and see if any patterns are forming.

              Digestion:
              Fine.

              Skin:
              Skin is so much better today! My lips aren't chapped at all and my hands feel better. I think it might be all the coconut milk.

              Food:

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              Breakfast: 8am
              Lunch: 2pm (Broth)
              Snack: 3pm 1/3 mango
              Snack: 6pm (carrots)
              Dinner 7pm
              Snack: 11.00pm Banana

              Feels weird that I barely scraped 2k cals today. I woke up feeling hungry and I anticipated that it would be another hungry day. But after a generous breakfast, I didn't feel hungry for lunch until 2pm. For dinner I made a spicy coconut sauce to go with turkey, potatoes, and Ray Peat's carrot salad, but when the time came, I found that all I really wanted to eat was coconut sauce over carrot salad! I ended up leaving my potatoes, and some of my turkey. Not the norm for me to leave food on my plate! But I have to reiterate: I believe it's because I keep assuring myself that I snack whenever I want; I can stuff myself whenever I need.

              And at the end of the day:
              My energy was great today. Hallelujah!

              My Mum said something interesting tonight... Both my parents have drink problems, but each of them insist that the other is worse. At exactly 10pm, my Dad went to pour himself a glass of wine. My Mum (who'd been drinking since dinner) told me that was the sign of a TRUE alcoholic: someone who watches the clock til the time they can drink.

              Sidling away from the debate about who's the bigger alcho, her comment hit a nerve, because that is exactly how I was with food: Watching the clock for the sacred times when I was allowed to eat. Can it really be as simple as "no rules" and "listen to the rhythm of your body"? We come from a culture where people spend nearly 100 pages on an internet forum debating CICO - can it really be this simple?

              Today was the first time in a long time that I felt happy. But, joy, like energy, can go so quickly, so I'm not expecting to wake up tomorrow morning feeling happy, energised, and full of life, like I felt for all of today. Today was a great day. Tomorrow will be another day, with new insights, and new experiences.
              Last edited by YogaBare; 04-13-2013, 03:01 AM.
              "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

              In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

              - Ray Peat

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              • Originally posted by Zach View Post
                The whole 8 pounts? :P

                To be a yoga teacher do you have to go to India to study? I have been doing yoga lately its it really is interesting with how much history it has. All the teachers i have been to also have gone to India.
                Oh man... since the start of "Primal" it's 16lbs! Well, 14lbs now I think... To be fair, I have more muscle than I did back then, so it's not all fat, but still...

                Nope, you don't have to go to India to study. But it's a completely amazing place. I've been three times and spent eight months there and I can't wait to go back I could babble about India for a while

                What kind of Yoga are you doing?

                And ah - so you've left MDA anon and have put your pic up - more power to ya
                "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                - Ray Peat

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                • Digging the hair Zach ^-^ you hottie
                  Make America Great Again

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                  • Originally posted by YogaBare View Post
                    Oh man... since the start of "Primal" it's 16lbs! Well, 14lbs now I think... To be fair, I have more muscle than I did back then, so it's not all fat, but still...

                    Nope, you don't have to go to India to study. But it's a completely amazing place. I've been three times and spent eight months there and I can't wait to go back I could babble about India for a while

                    What kind of Yoga are you doing?

                    And ah - so you've left MDA anon and have put your pic up - more power to ya
                    Yea, been meaning to put a pic up for awhile. Took a pic of my derp cut and figured id use it. You guys convinced me not to abandon this place. Threw up a few photos in the profile too so peeps can see.

                    Its mostly just flow yoga, vinyasa or ashtanga? Its in a heated room so its actually a pretty good workout. I do a fair amount by myself as well. Im actually really interested in more details if you would like to write something up. I would ask my teachers but they are busy. One thing i will say is i love being the only guy in a room full of sexy sweaty women!

                    Also im really impressed with how your experiment is going. I see a lot of myself in your little revelations. And i do think it is all about listening to the body. Watching the clock for just about anything just seems like a negative habit.

                    Originally posted by Derpamix View Post
                    Digging the hair Zach ^-^ you hottie
                    Your my hairspiration, brother!
                    Last edited by Zach; 04-06-2013, 04:24 PM.

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                    • Originally posted by Zach View Post
                      Yea, been meaning to put a pic up for awhile. Took a pic of my derp cut and figured id use it. You guys convinced me not to abandon this place
                      Group hug!

                      Thought your hair looked like derp's actually! He's growing his hair based on my suggestion. We're all inspiring each other y'all
                      Last edited by YogaBare; 04-07-2013, 12:58 AM.
                      "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                      In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                      - Ray Peat

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                      • Originally posted by Zach View Post
                        Its mostly just flow yoga, vinyasa or ashtanga? Its in a heated room so its actually a pretty good workout. I do a fair amount by myself as well. Im actually really interested in more details if you would like to write something up. I would ask my teachers but they are busy. One thing i will say is i love being the only guy in a room full of sexy sweaty women!

                        Also im really impressed with how your experiment is going. I see a lot of myself in your little revelations. And i do think it is all about listening to the body. Watching the clock for just about anything just seems like a negative habit.
                        Of course, what would you like to know? I started a thread on it a while ago, there's a lot of good info here: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread81163.html

                        You could always reply on that with questions, and I can answer them there; that way some of the other yogis can also chime in . Zoe really knows her stuff.

                        And cheers for the encouragement - I really didn't expect the experiment to go this well! The challenge is going to be when I go back to London. I need to find some way to manage stress that doesn't involve macocism...
                        "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                        In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                        - Ray Peat

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                        • "Patience is not sitting and waiting, it is foreseeing. It is looking at the thorn and seeing the rose, looking at the night and seeing the day. Lovers are patient and know that the moon needs time to become full."

                          ~Shams Tabrizi

                          E.M.T.W.L

                          Entry Twenty-Three: All just a little bit of history repeating


                          Today was a great day again I had loads of energy and feel positive and optimistic (even though I'm completely bloated and am dreading being reunited with my measuring tape on Tuesday...)

                          Sleep:
                          1am - 8.15am.
                          Sleep was fitful, but not terrible.

                          Digestion:
                          Okay.

                          Skin:
                          Skin is so much better! Dewy and no breakouts

                          Other thing to note:
                          At the start of this experiment I started getting a lot of sleepydust in my eyes. I remembered a thread where someone said since eating low carb they never get it anymore, so I thought it was because of all the extra starch I was eating. But for the last few days, my eyes have been totally clear in the mornings. Interesting. And did you know that sleepydust is actually called Rheum? The things I google...


                          Food:
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                          Breakfast: 8.30am (yogurt and fruit)
                          Snack: 1pm (banana, carrot)
                          Lunch: 2.30pm (Broth, meatloaf)
                          Snack: 2pm 1/3 mango
                          Snack: 6pm (Fruit and yogurt)
                          Dinner: 8pm (meatloaf, potato)

                          Ate a lot today again, but I wasn't actually hungry until the evening time. I'm going with it, and still listening to my body, but I really find the hunger patterns weird. I keep expecting the calories to drop, but I'm still consistently eating more than 3k. I also really wanted some chocolate tonight. I was going to have some, but I was tired after all my running around today and wasn't bothered getting off the coach! (By the time I did, I opened the sweet cupboard and nothing looked good). But yeah. Chocolate cravings again.

                          Weight loss doesn't seem very realistic at this rate. I haven't weighed myself, but I'm pretty sure I've put back on the kilo I lost.

                          And at the end of the day:
                          I'm starting to think my little belly is cute, I know that bubble is going to burst as soon as I get back to London, City of the Beautiful. At least I've got one more month of wearing my winter coat... then I'll probably start to panic!

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                          Last edited by YogaBare; 09-25-2013, 05:18 PM.
                          "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                          In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                          - Ray Peat

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                          • E.M.T.W.L

                            Entry Twenty-Four: The Night before London


                            The moment you accept what troubles you've been given,
                            the door will open.

                            - Rumi

                            I wish I didn't have to get up at 5am tomorrow, because I have loads I'd like to write tonight. I'll try to be concise...!

                            Sleep:
                            1am - 6am. Worst sleep I've had in a while. Night sweats, tossing and turning. Falling asleep I was feeling my heart pounding again. I'm guessing these are stress hormones, but I don't know why I'm suddenly getting these waves.

                            Exercise:
                            My energy has been through the roof, so I'm reintroducing the exercise section For the last week I've been going for hour-long walks everyday, and doing an hour of yoga. As the week progressed, my daily movement became more energetic, and now I'm at the point where I feel restless if I sit still for too long. I'm pretty much constantly "moving around slowly" - except for the evenings. I started jogging a bit on the walks and I'm seeing "gains" in my yoga.

                            Digestion:
                            Good.

                            Skin:
                            Great! Lips aren't dry.

                            Food:
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                            Breakfast: 6.30am
                            Lunch: .....
                            Snack: 6.00pm, Broth
                            Dinner: 7pm
                            Snack: 8.30pm, two persimmons

                            Food was weird today. I was hungry in the morning, so had a big breakfast, but after that the day kept passing and I didn't want to eat. I felt tiny hunger pangs a few times, but there was no food I desired.

                            This evening, all I wanted was Ray Peat's carrot salad. I made Goan fish curry for my parents, but I didn't even want rice. Then I realised that my calories were way too low today, so I ate two persimmons, but I still didn't get to 2k. I hope I'm not subconsciously restricting... I don't think I am, cos' I know I can eat more than 3k cals whenever I want, but I do want to lose weight so...

                            I guess the answer will become apparent with hindsight!

                            And at the end of the day:
                            Today started badly. I woke up way too early, and I went straight into the bathroom and weighed myself. This is my typical obsessive behaviour - the second I get up, I measure my hips to see if I've "lost weight". I didn't bring my measuring tape with me to Ireland, so I was free. But this morning, I went on autopilot to the scales. The numbers told me I gained back the kilo I lost.

                            It knocked me back a bit. I know that my body is doing what it needs to do, and I can feel that shifts are happening. I knew that this was not fat gain, but I panicked. I was going to post on MDA, or in my journal, but I'm tired of boring people with complaints about weight gain, so I joined an ED recovery forum! Got no answers to my post.

                            At some stage over the day it crystallised for me: I'm being good to myself, and I deserve to be happy. Okay, I have a little belly, but who's really going to judge me because I don't have a six pack? If I want to recover I have to do more than accept my body the way it is right now - I have to embrace it. I have to be proud of my little belly, my thighs, my lack of hips bones. I have to feel like this body is good enough to look at, good enough to hold, good enough to love. If I don't feel it's beauty and perfection then there's no point in going through each day, waiting until the time when I can feel good enough. That time will never come.

                            Which brings me to love. Saying goodnight to my parents, I had a feeling of guilt. I had such a nice time with them, and they loved having me here, and I am so, so appreciative towards them. And that made me feel guilty. I feel guilty that they love me, guilty that they share with me, guilty that they give me things. I do loads for them when I'm here - cook them gorgeous food, help with the house etc. etc. but when I think of all they do for me, I feel like I don't deserve it. I guess I feel like this with most people. Maybe that's why I struggle so much to create the life that I want: deep down I don't believe I deserve to be happy and loved.

                            Back to London tomorrow. No more hiding in my house because I feel fat. Back to life.

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                            Last edited by YogaBare; 04-13-2013, 03:02 AM.
                            "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                            In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                            - Ray Peat

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                            • “Like most humans, I am hungry...our three basic needs, for food and security and love, are so mixed and mingled and entwined that we cannot straightly think of one without the others. So it happens that when I write of hunger, I am really writing about love and the hunger for it...”
                              ― M.F.K. Fisher, The Gastronomical Me (M.F.K. Fisher Quotes (Author of The Art of Eating))

                              I thought this would speak to you.
                              I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                              • I dont think the heart pounding and night sweats are stress hormones unless are they cold sweats. Its actually sounds like you might have ate too much, too close to bed. I do think heavier/warm food should be consumed early and light/cold food closer to bedtime. If thats not the case then it may be adrenalin but i dont see any reason for it to be happening.

                                Secondly, why are you so hard on yourself? Its such a strange thing to fight against yourself or your body. You are one and should always have unconditional love for yourself.

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