Embracing the Change...
I'm really bloated right now, and my measuring tape is showing half an inch gain, but my clothes are fitting waaaay better. I know it's superficial, but it's so nice to finally be able to wear cool outfits again. I love dressing to express, and my wardrobe was so limited with the extra weight.
AND - today I noticed that my lower abs are starting to pop! I can't believe it. I haven't even been focusing on my core, but it looks like I'm on the way to a six pack!
Appetite finally kicked back in today - woke up famished and ate like a Viking! Put away at least 3K cals today, including three melons, 600gs cottage cheese, half a block of emmental cheese, one mozzarella ball (even went for some olive oil on it ) and some halloumi cheese. Talk about Peat-tastic!
It felt really good to eat all that food though. Today I lifted weights, swam, and played tennis. I do a similar level of activity most days now, so logically I feel I need the calories, and it confuses me when I'm not hungry. Not complaining though - just this is very, very interesting. I can't even believe I used to have an ED that was ruling (and ruining) my life.
Life is like a Novel
Today, I felt a little bit sad because of what I perceive as yet another disappointment in my love life. However, I've had this revelation that life is like a novel, and when chapters end you've got to let them go immediately, because otherwise you prevent yourself from writing the next one. The important thing with life is not to grasp it, to let it flow, and try to write the best novel that you can. Who's to say who will enter and exit chapters, and when. Life is not linear: a chapter doesn't begin or end with time: it begins or ends with thoughts. But the only way to keep your novel going, is to continue to keep living: to give yourself to every experience, and to make life your lover.