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    I think this is my third journal, which now that I think about it does not fit with the title but the difference is that I will not abandon the attempt. I realize the dangers of recommitting at the New Years but my promise has been I would drop the unhealthy foods once the holidays are over. So...the holidays are over.

    My (non-thought experiment) has been what will happen if I eat wheat. I have not had wheat in 6 months and even through Thanksgiving and Christmas did not have any. I did start eating potato chips as a snack at night and the rashes that had cleared up began to come back. I also periodically had corn chips (mostly organic). Then yesterday I just lost it. There were brownies and cinnamon rolls; one little bite led to another and another and boom. To add to the upset tummy the rash is all down the inside of my forearm, my joints hurt and my I am all stuffy.

    If you want something different...

    Since I started this post in Tallahassee I have gone for a walk with my niece and nephew, done 3 pushups from the ground, and driven home to Gainesville. I have a surprising amount of energy and a sinus headache. It is not just getting back to eating good food but living life in a sustainable, primal way. Moving more, getting out more, meeting people who are also primal, learning to live outside something I have never done.

    So here it goes...

    -.............you have to do something you have never done.
    You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

    Age 48
    height 5'3
    SW 215 lbs
    CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
    LW 172 lbs
    GW 125ish lbs

  • #2
    glad your back home. yae on energy

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    • #3
      Thanks Phigment...what are your plans the next week?
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      The sun is out and it was not nearly as cold as I thought it would be. Went to a local consignment store trying to find jeans, one pair too small, one pair too big, another had fashionable rips in them. Sigh...still no jeans. I have one pair that fit at this point. Did get a new pocketbook for 12.00. Vera Bradley no less

      Finally got to Devil's Millhopper geology site. Neat place, it is a sink hole that is several thousand years old, has tiny waterfalls, limestone grottos, etc. Stairs have been built so you can climb to the bottom and back up. There were too many people though. THis one family with their dog, trying to take a picture and make the dog look at the camera, kept saying the word 'treat' but not offering one. Irritated me. Then they will get mad when the dog no longer listens to them. It is not far from my home and a good place to go in the afternoons when it is not so crowded. I guess I have just reached a point where outdoors is sacred. Granted I had a diet coke w/ me and was taking pics with my cell phone so I certainly wasn't perfect but no one seemed to appreciate the beauty around them. There was this one little guy who was more fascinated w/ the electrical tower being so tall than the huge trees. Sigh...the world is too civilized. I guess as humans we just have no balance. All of the griping aside it was a beautiful walk and I look forward to exploring it more.

      Did an IF (17 hours), shooting for 15 in general. Not up to the point of more than that I think but it's a goal to work towards. A greater goal is to just quit thinking about food so much. I am always thinking about food. Just before the holidays I actually got busy at work and forgot to eat. I can honestly say this may be the first time in my life that has ever happened. I was so excited when I realized. I hope it is a sign of things to come.

      So far today I have had coffee w/ coconut oil and a kale and broccoli salad w/ turkey and cheese and TJ's champagne pear dressing (very very good dressing btw). Planning a ribeye, sweet potato and another salad for supper. Trying not to obsess over macro's at the moment but just focus on eating clean and paying attention to what makes me feel good and what doesn't.
      You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

      Age 48
      height 5'3
      SW 215 lbs
      CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
      LW 172 lbs
      GW 125ish lbs

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      • #4
        I'm in a mini vacation until wednesday. i have no plans of yet. we could get together and walk around a park or something.

        i like devil's millhopper. o ccasionally a freind and i would walk to the bottom and run to the top or as close to the top as we could get. i took kc there once but he was afraid going up the stairs and i ended up carrying him the entire way. he was so fearful that he limped around the next two days.

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        • #5
          Sounds good! Maybe Monday?
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          So far I have been very lazy today. Woke up about 8 feeling tired but couldn't get back to sleep. Got up, had two cups of coffee, futzed around on the computer for a while and took a two hour nap. Back up again with a sinus headache. Trying to convince myself to do some cleaning and take a walk. I know I will feel better when I do. Funny, just typing that made me want to do it..hmmmm, maybe I am on to something here! Going to get something to eat and see where this leads!
          You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

          Age 48
          height 5'3
          SW 215 lbs
          CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
          LW 172 lbs
          GW 125ish lbs

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          • #6
            Monday seems fine. Is Westwood park okay and what time is good for you?

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            • #7
              No clue where Westwood is early afternoon..1ish?
              You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

              Age 48
              height 5'3
              SW 215 lbs
              CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
              LW 172 lbs
              GW 125ish lbs

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              • #8
                see you at 1.

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                • #9
                  sounds good...!
                  You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

                  Age 48
                  height 5'3
                  SW 215 lbs
                  CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
                  LW 172 lbs
                  GW 125ish lbs

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                  • #10
                    There are primal days and not so primal days. Today was less primal than it could have been. No movememt other than cleaning house. At least I got that done. I have an on again/off again sinus headache that consistently brings with it vertigo. Very irritating and uncomfortable. No wonder I have such a lousy sense of balance. There must be a way to overcome that. Finally left the house about 8 to go to the store and get gum and potato chips. Isn't that a ridiculous reason to leave the house? Damn snacky urge. I have to overcome this! Walked outside and realized its an amazingly beautiful night. Cold and clear, stars shimmering and a full moon. Made me wish I had someone to got out in the woods with away from the city lights. Part of me thinks I should just go by myself but then I get hung up on how unsafe that is. Damn unsafe world! Gainesville is not a huge town by any means but I want to be away from all the lights. Where I can walk outside and just sit and enjoy the night. I apparently am having some poor poor pitiful me's tonight. Time to get over that and get back to reality.

                    Food today: 2 cups of coffee with coconut oil and HWC, a dark leafy green salad w/ turkey and cheese, 2 hamburger patties with organic cheese and tater tots and a handful of cashews. And a stupid bag of chips sitting in there waiting on me. Will probably have some dark chocolate too.

                    Tomorrow is a new (Primal) day.
                    You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

                    Age 48
                    height 5'3
                    SW 215 lbs
                    CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
                    LW 172 lbs
                    GW 125ish lbs

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                    • #11
                      A more primal day than yesterday. Went back to Devils Millhopper, this time with a friend, climbed down and back up again and walked around the rim, then came home and walked for about another 45 minutes. So almost 2 hours of movement in there. Used the curbs like a kiddie balance beam in the hopes that doing this will help increase my sense of balance. My proprioception is off. When I go up and down stairs i ahve to look at the stairs or I get dizzy, I have no sense of where my foot will go next. My thought is by learning to balance again I will help correct the proprioception. No clue how true that is however. Perhaps I should google it.

                      Food wasn't all that great. A green salad, bacon and a little bit of sausage (I figured out the sausage I bought had MSG, tried to eat it anyway because damnit food costs but it just didn't even taste good) and grits with cheese and butter. Did do an appx 17 hour fast so hopefully that helped. I just have go to wean myself off the carbs and snacky foods. Damn snacky foods!
                      You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

                      Age 48
                      height 5'3
                      SW 215 lbs
                      CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
                      LW 172 lbs
                      GW 125ish lbs

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                      • #12
                        An adventure with Phigment As I have mentioned I have no sense of balance, there is a wooded area of trails that has open walkway bridges on it across a creek, just wood nailed together. I went there once by myself and couldn't cross the bridges. I felt like I was falling with every step. I managed to do two today! With PHigment behind me refusing to move so I could go back There was another one but I just climbed down and back up. Read her version of the whole adventure, it is much more exciting. I am just excited I got across those bridges!
                        You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

                        Age 48
                        height 5'3
                        SW 215 lbs
                        CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
                        LW 172 lbs
                        GW 125ish lbs

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                        • #13
                          Sugar causes depression. No...feeds depression. Yep..thats it. Sugar feeds depression!
                          Scenario:

                          Me at the family farm...everyone talking about trips they have made, good times with their husbands, kids etc. Upcoming fun things. Me...laughing, jumping in with 'what fun! how cool!' sometimes. Nothing to contribute. No family trips. No special someone I spend my time with. No trips with my son because we were always too broke and I was always too damned depressed. Me..realizing how much of my and my son's life I have wasted. And getting more and more depressed as I ate..7 layer salad with mayonaisse and I think sugar, not to mention the fake cheese, rice with black eyed peas and hoe cake. So no...food isn't going to fix it all. But the damned sugar fed the damned depression in a vicious circle that has been going on for decades. I am finally figuring this shit out. All my life I thought I didn't deserve a life that involved people and fun. People yes..people who expected more out of me than I had and people that I needed to take care of. Relationships? Sure as long as it was just sex. Don't expect much more because you are too fat and ugly for that. But a life where you went places and did things? Nope, not happening. Never been to the Keys though I am a Florida native, have only left Florida 3 or 4 times in my life. You get the picture. And yes, this is whiny and self pitying. Blame the sugar. And screw the sugar. Because you know what? I deserve to have people and fun in my life. I deserve to go kayaking and camping. I deserve to spend a weekend in the Keys if I want to. So screw the sugar and screw the effin' depression. I ain't settlin' no more.
                          You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

                          Age 48
                          height 5'3
                          SW 215 lbs
                          CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
                          LW 172 lbs
                          GW 125ish lbs

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                          • #14
                            Good for you. Kick out that demon name sugar. Such a sweet name for an evil entity.

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                            • #15
                              THanks!

                              Realized I was having a tempter tantrum and forgot to post my weight. It has sadly gone up over the last couple of months. I want to be able to look back and say look what I did in 2013

                              SW appx. 215 Jan 2012-removed all processed foods
                              SW HCLF moving to Primal 200 April 2012
                              LCW 172 around end of Oct 2012
                              CW 180 Jan 1 2013
                              You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

                              Age 48
                              height 5'3
                              SW 215 lbs
                              CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
                              LW 172 lbs
                              GW 125ish lbs

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