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  • I think you need to tell him how you feel, that you truly cannot go on this way. Having said that, I'm not sure an ultimatum will change anything.

    This was my Father's MO and it took a huge toll on the family. He made a lot of excuses and promises while my mother worked her Ass off to make sure we had a home and food. The minute I went off to college, she asked me if she could leave him.

    I loved my Dad. He was a fun guy, but no job was good enough, no boss nice enough for him. He had a dream that didn't happen and his self esteem issues wouldn't allow him to just work a job for the sake of the family.

    Sorry you are going through this.
    Primal since 9/24/2010
    "Our greatest foes, and whom we must chiefly combat, are within." Miguel de Cervantes

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    • Thank you Pebbles. I know I have to tell him.

      He told me about an issue once (I had extreme intimacy issues) and the way I reacted after the initial meltdown was swift and healing for both of us. It is my turn to give him the opportunity. It will also end any confusion. It isn't an ultimatum, there is no threat. I know it is implicit in saying I cannot go on this way, but I do not know what I will do or the time frame I will decide. I am remaining open. However, if he decides that he doesn't have time, it isn't important, or he is helpless, then all of my questions are completely answered and I can go from there.
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      • SOLDIERS OF TWILIGHT "Believe" - YouTube

        How do you see what you wanna be
        Don't look at me I can't make you change
        If you believe you're halfway there
        Oh you can reach it if you look within

        If you just believe maybe your life will change
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        • I feel empowered now. I did my 20 minute burst training dvd, which I really liked and can feel. I just have to talk it out.

          I also made a date with a friend to go paint next week. I am important.
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          • I am alive and well, with probably a 10 lb weight increase to show for my anxiety over the last couple of weeks. I think I have moved through it. I don't plan to do many activities, except for fun stuff this week.

            I am prepared, bought a ton of food and know what to cook or have for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I feel ready to reinvest in myself.

            I have placed all of my food for the day in MFP, and will be in good ranges for the day, can even add some cream cheese clouds, which I may make tonight. I am ready to meet this week and make it a good one.

            Off to workout soon. LOVE the Burst training with Dr. Axe. 20 some minutes and it is over. We started doing it early so we get it done before the work day takes over.
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            • Well, food was screwy yesterday, but at least it was primal. Had some mashed potatoes for lunch, but oh well. However, I have done my burst dvd both mornings and am really enjoying it. Hopefully, I can get my food back in line and keep up the exercise and break through the current mental and physical barriers I am dealing with. I am trying to focus on just this at the moment, as it is something I can control, and not much else is.
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              • Down 5 lbs of inflammation. I have a feeling I will have a net gain of 3 lbs next Monday, and my prediction of 2 weeks to undo 1 week will be true. Maybe I will see some acceleration with the use of Burst training in tandem with EMF. We are doing it every morning. I really hope so. I sure would love to lose 20 in a month like the dvd says, lol. I'd take any loss of course.
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                • Back to 230.8.

                  I am having a lot of frustration. I am going to do a round of hcg in May. I am done with doing it all naturally. I have read and watched a group of women achieve their weight loss goals while I took the longer path of food and exercise. I have worked at WOE and natural for over 2 years.

                  I will continue to take the longer path until late April. Then I am saying f it and getting myself under 200. THere are health risks with everything. Being obese and depressed about it is a horrible risk for me. Getting under 200 would be a huge help. So I am going to end this ride and in the interim, keep on the HFLC path and hopefully eat this way for the rest of my life. My thinner life.
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                  • 228.4

                    Food was better yesterday, went over on macros, but kept out of non-primal foods for the most part (peanut butter). It was good, because I had tons of anxiety yesterday again. Thank goodness fro premsyn, it really took the edge off.

                    I am feeling the need to get things cleaned and organized to let some of the pressure off in my head. But I have no motivation to make myself do tasks. So tonight I am going to do the 15 minute mode for my bedroom and my mail/junk pile on the dining table. Then I will do one load of laundry, and cook pork chops and roasted okra for dinner. Maybe if I take little steps to get it done, it will help lead to getting it done.
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                    • 226

                      Weight is coming down, I am sure a lot of it was inflammation. 6 more and I have gotten off the yo-yo. I am feeling empowered.

                      Made cream cheese clouds and definitely ate too many, but not too many for a couple pounds to eat. I do find the more fat I eat, the more hungry and satiated I get. I mean, I feel hunger growls this morning, but also get more satiated when I eat. Love that part!
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                      • So, still planning the hcg?

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                        • Originally posted by canio6 View Post
                          So, still planning the hcg?
                          Most likely.

                          The weight thing has been a huge struggle for over 5 years. I am ready to see what is next, what happens after I am no longer a full time weight loss obsessed woman. I may get to April and decide against it. Or I may say f it and hit the "easy" button once to get some momentum moving.
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                          • Originally posted by Kymma View Post
                            Most likely.

                            The weight thing has been a huge struggle for over 5 years. I am ready to see what is next, what happens after I am no longer a full time weight loss obsessed woman. I may get to April and decide against it. Or I may say f it and hit the "easy" button once to get some momentum moving.
                            Sounds like a plan. I look forward to reading your experiences

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                            • Kymma, You are doing a great job getting back on the wagon!
                              Primal since 9/24/2010
                              "Our greatest foes, and whom we must chiefly combat, are within." Miguel de Cervantes

                              Created by MyFitnessPal.com - Free Weight Loss Tools
                              MFP username: MDAPebbles67

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                              • 225.4

                                I think the burstfit dvd is helping me shed the uptick from the binge fest. I have eaten too damn many of those delicious cream cheese clouds, but I think the fat is helping. I am feeling engaged and empowered again.
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