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  • #91
    From a friend...

    "Today may there be peace within. May you trust that you are
    exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite
    possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you
    use the gifts that you have received and pass on the love that has
    been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you
    are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul
    the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and
    every one of us.

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    • #92
      I have to remind myself to be strong. To know that the way I feel is true. That looking or sounding crazy to average people is a good thing. I can only follow my heart and instincts and hope for the best. That's what I will do. No matter what. Rough day today. Every minute reminding myself of my strength.

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      • #93
        I gambled and lost. Oh well. Tomorrow's another day, it's just sadness, it's just a little heartache, it's just knots in my tummy, won't kill me. Tomorrow I'll wake up stronger and go back out there and fling myself back into life. It feels good to not be afraid of pain anymore. I accept it, embrace it, and let it float away, not overnight, no, but soon enough. I'm excited for what other beautiful disasters await me.

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        • #94
          Omg. Some days I feel like I have to fight for every single step, every single rep. And it's not like I'm in some hard core fitness routine. Some days it just comes so much harder, like today. But I got through it. It's a confidence booster at least!

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          • #95
            Just delurking long enough for you to know that you have a cheer squad.
            I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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            • #96
              Originally posted by badgergirl View Post
              Just delurking long enough for you to know that you have a cheer squad.
              You're awesome. I appreciate it so much and I appreciated your posts on my "depressed" thread too. I am doing much better. I was just on the floor in the office comparing push-ups with my co-workers. We were laughing our butts off. I'm active and eating right. I am excited about life again.

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              • #97
                That's wonderful, Jena. Keep it up

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                • #98
                  Thank goodness for my mid afternoon walk at work. After all the new crap piled on me today I really needed a breather. Happy to be trusted with more responsibility, but it's stressful nonetheless. I am excited, so very excited to go out and be crazy this weekend. Getting out of this state and having an adventure. No worries, no deep fucking thoughts, just fun an shenanigans with my best friend! Woo hoo, road trip! F U Michigan okay, well I still have to make it through work tomorrow, but by 6 pm I'll have a glass of wine and be cruising downtown's "Fall Into the Arts" then Saturday morning hitting he road! Sunday shopping and cruising around, Monday recovery and replenishment. "I get by with a little help from my friends".

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                  • #99
                    I'm waking up angry today, waking up feeling like things aren't fair. Then I am angry at myself for having that poor attitude, lol. Go figure. I'm sad, but that's far from being depressed so I think I'll be okay. Sometimes I wonder why I was made the way I am, with such a sensitive heart that is so easily hurt. I know there must be a reason and I hope that it will reveal itself soon. I don't want to get out of bed today, I don't want to go face the world, but I have too. I feel like a foolish child right now. My theory is usually to "sleep on it". Didn't work this time.

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                    • On the road! So happy to get out if town for a weekend of fun and spend some qt with my best friend. 2 nights in downtown Indianapolis on the weekend of a Colts home game! It's going to get crazy for these two single ladies. Hope we don't get into too much trouble

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                      • I'm a bad person. I hurt people that I care about when I feel insecure sometimes. I haven't felt this low since my "rock bottom". I hate myself for what I've done. Just remember words are so much more than words... their doing can be permanent.

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                        • Losing people hurts. Whether you drive them away, they leave, they die, they move away... it hurts. One day of boo hooing for my two losses (for very different reasons) and back at trying like hell to not fuck my life up again tomorrow. I'm good at being alone. This must be why I push people away. I better start embracing my loneliness instead of fighting it.

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                          • CaptainAwkward.com | Advice. Staircase Wit. Faux Pas. Movies. you can learn to change - I have found this site very helpful.
                            I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                            • Originally posted by badgergirl View Post
                              CaptainAwkward.com | Advice. Staircase Wit. Faux Pas. Movies. you can learn to change - I have found this site very helpful.
                              I will check it out definitely. It's not that I'm socially awkward or even anti-social... I just tend to push/scare people away, men specifically (whether or not it's a relationship of romantic context or not). It's something I need to work on. I'm lucky enough to have a long term group of friends, about 90% female of course... around 20ish people that accept me as I am. I love being with them. I just require a lot of solitude also. I'm at a confusing, but hopeful time in my life. I always love your input, thank you <3

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                              • Hello dear,
                                I do the 'TOO INTENSE so you'll reject me and prove that you were an untrustworthy git and reinforce my rejection complex' thing to romantic partners. I'm also sometimes kind of a shitty person. I've been reading that site for a few months now and it has helped rather a lot - I see extra layers of oddity in my responses to situations - boundary crossing and so forth - that I hadn't noticed before. I really like how she explains things and is also very inclusive.
                                I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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