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  • #46
    I am glad to hear you've ruled out the military. I know it's hard when you don't what direction to take but try and stay focused on what gives you the most pleasure. The farm would be isolated and maybe that's not what you want right now. Just stay open to new possibilities.

    When I was 22 I decided to go to Europe, I stayed for 1 1/2 yrs traveling and working odd jobs. Sometimes it was pretty rough living but I learned so much, I'm glad I did it. When my husband was 18 he did Outward Bound and it had a profound effect on his life. You are young, healthy and smart and from what I've seen you do with your health it seems like you are very focused. I wish I knew what you know about health when I was your age. You know you can always try something for a while and if doesn't resonate with you, try something else.
    Life is death. We all take turns. It's sacred to eat during our turn and be eaten when our turn is over. RichMahogany.

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    • #47
      The sour milk I drank tonight reminded me of how much I love the stuff and how important fermented foods are. I need to get back on consuming them everyday. I want to start including a wider variety of foods particularly ferment and live foods. Going to start some homemade sauerkraut soon and will start consuming fermented dairy daily again. About to start more soured milk and also have cream cheese in the works. Really wanting to include fermented plants, high meats, and perhaps some sprouted nuts into my diet. I remember reading in the experiments with Stefansson, their gut flora was almost instantly killed off on the all meat diet. Although during his travels in the Artic, stink fish consumption was almost daily. Tonight, I did something I rarely do. I ate some ice cream and some nutella...and then some cookies. Felt just terrible after it. I told myself I'd just have one ice cream bar, after that I felt life I was back in my childhood days again just raiding the pantry. Like a cocaine addict or something. This is what sugar does to me. I rarely have these cravings for sweet food anymore, but when I do they can be powerful. I mostly crave savory nowadays. It's not like I have a cheat day once a week, rarely even once a month. They never end well. Winding down for bed now, need to be well rested for tomorrow. Gonna freakin blast my chest!
      Last edited by BennettC; 09-30-2012, 04:43 PM.
      Paleo since November 2011 - Carnivore since June 2012
      Before and after pics
      http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65846.html
      Primal Sucess Story
      http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65400.html
      Primal Journal
      http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...tml#post955444

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      • #48
        Words cannot describe how fucking horrible I feel right now. This is the last time I will ever eat that shit again, fucking shitty ass processed ass junk. My body is basically screaming at me in agony right now, like what the fuck did you do to me? What is this junk? Fake food, crap, SAD food. This is a feeling like non other
        Paleo since November 2011 - Carnivore since June 2012
        Before and after pics
        http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65846.html
        Primal Sucess Story
        http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65400.html
        Primal Journal
        http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...tml#post955444

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        • #49
          Back from the gym and just finished a post workout meal. 5 cups raw goat's milk, 6 raw eggs, 1tbs coconut oil, 1tbs cocoa powder. Still getting used to the goats milk lol. Still felt pretty shitty when I woke up, but feel much better now that I had a good workout and some nutritious food in me. I've decided to start taking coconut oil again as I've noticed when I do I feel better mentally and physically. Going to start using I on my skin and hair again as well. Cutting calories now, trying to stay in the 2200-2350 range. Down to two meals a day now and staying on top of my IF. I don't know that all these 24 hour fast I did last week were very beneficial seeing as how I ended up breaking down last night. Wasn't very happy with the numbers on the scale this morning but I realize a lot of it is water weight. It won't be very hard to get those numbers down with IF, consistent workouts, and 2200 calories a day. Not that they were substantially higher, I weighed 162. I think IF is much more sustainable than long fast. I got down to 156 in the 58 hour fast, but obviously I've gained it all back. With IF, it's easy to stay on top of calories as well as keep the numbers down. On the other hand, my workout went very well this morning. I did the most dips I've ever done in my life. Here's the results.

          Monday - Chest & Shoulders
          (Started with usual warm-up)
          Push-ups:
          Set 1: 12
          Set 2: " "
          Iso: 10 secs up 10 secs down

          Bench Press:
          Set 1: 8 at 105lbs
          Set 2: " "
          Iso: 10 secs at 55lbs

          Overhead Press:
          Set 1: 8 at 60lbs
          Set 2: " "
          Iso: 10 secs / bar

          Dips:
          Set 1: 15
          Set 2: 10
          Iso: 10 secs up & down

          Butterfly Machine
          Set 1: 15 at 60lbs
          Set 2: 10 at 60lbs
          Iso: 10 secs at 40lbs

          Cooled down on the row machine
          Paleo since November 2011 - Carnivore since June 2012
          Before and after pics
          http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65846.html
          Primal Sucess Story
          http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65400.html
          Primal Journal
          http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...tml#post955444

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          • #50
            Originally posted by BennettC View Post
            Just got back from the farm, what an amazing experience! Over 70 acres of beautiful land. They had every animal you could imagine. Horses, goats, donkeys, cows, chickens, geese, ducks, pigs, dogs, cats, ponds full of fish. Ended up staying 3 hours on the farm and really hit it off with the ladies. Picked up four gallons of fresh raw goats milk one of which was milked right before I got there and was still warm! Also picked up 9 dozen assorted eggs. I got a full tour of the farm and they like me so much I was offered a job and place to live. I'm seriously considering it, but we agreed first and foremost to get my GED then move forward from there. It would be a great opportunity and wonderful experience. I have been considering agriculture for quite sometime and after witnessing farm life firsthand today, I have to say I really fell in love. I love animals and sustainable living off the land. It was so peaceful out there, words can't even describe how wonderful my experience was today. I had some milk in my coffee on the way home today, but I haven't tried it straight up yet as I'm in the middle of a fast right now. The flavor was kind of goaty, which I didn't mind. It came from the warm jar so I suspect the flavor will somewhat mellow out in the fridge. Either way I don't mind the taste at all. Going to get some rest, I'm exhausted from the drive.
            YOU TAKE THIS JOB! Well, if you can get that GED at the same time. You have an opportunity to break away from a bad situation and be embraced by a culture and group of people who have like minds. It is a place of peace and health and hard work; but good work! You are young... spending a few months or years at the farm will not derail your path or it could create a new one! I don't see anything but positives except for the GED issue.

            If you are serious about this and will work for them as they expect you to do, then do it! Trust me, at age 47 I wish I had taken risks and done things that break from the norm when I was young and had only myself to worry about. The people at the farm were so impressed with you that they offered you a job??? GO FOR IT. Go back and visit again to make sure it is what you want and if you have the same feeling (and the same offer) then I say do it.

            I'll keep reading to see if you say anything else about it.

            Good for you.
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            Age 48
            Start date: 7-5-12
            5'3"
            121lbs
            GOAL: to live to be a healthy and active 100


            "In health there is freedom. Health is the first of all liberties."
            Henri Frederic Amiel

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            • #51
              Originally posted by BennettC View Post
              Thanks for the advice. I have officially ruled out the military, just not something I want to do and I know I would be miserable with it. What I really want is to do something in nutrition or be a personal trainer. Or both. I'm considering the farm, but I just feel like it would get old and I don't see myself doing it long term. I have plenty of time to think about it though as I'm working on my GED and if I did take the job it wouldn't be till late winter or early spring. If I didn't take the job I could continue to work in the restaurant business, save money, and still live in the city and do what I want. If I were to go to the farm, it's pretty isolated and that would be my life. I think it would be nice and peaceful for a while as well as being a good learning experience, but If it is just free food and a place to live, when I decide to leave where do I go from there? I'll have no money, unless of course it is paid work. Any money earned would be saved as I'll basically have no expenses as well as all I want of some of the most nutritious foods on the planet. This is a really tough time in life for me, I've never felt so lost.
              Well, revising my earlier post: take the job only if it pays you.

              How isolated would it be? You have transportation to get to the gym or wherever you work out? Internet connection? Isolation isn't a bad thing for some people; and probably a good thing for all of us at times in our life!

              As an employer in the restaurant business, I would be so impressed with a young man who went to work on a farm. I think it might make you MORE marketable in the food business for those healthier restaurants if you had real life experience growing and raising the food they bring into their kitchens. Not sure what you do right now for money; I didn't read every single post of yours. Where do you work?

              I still believe this is a great opportunity. I hope you continue to think about it and that the offer stands even if you don't make an immediate decision.
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              Age 48
              Start date: 7-5-12
              5'3"
              121lbs
              GOAL: to live to be a healthy and active 100


              "In health there is freedom. Health is the first of all liberties."
              Henri Frederic Amiel

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              • #52
                Non primal food

                I gave into a temptation on Thursday evening. My results didn't really show up until Friday evening and all day Saturday. Sometimes I don't connect the dots but today on my way into work I realized I didn't have any head fog, I wasn't achy - I simply felt so much better.

                So that awful temptation will not be calling to me any time soon. I need to stay away from the local fare named "Chinese Food". All bread coated, deep fried, and surgary at the same time!

                I guess we need lessons every now and then to realize these things.

                All the best to you.
                Female back to the basics: 11-12-16
                CW: 10-11-16: 144
                GW: 130 a dream, I know
                Muscle soreness surrounding Neck, Thyroid and Rosacea issues.

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                • #53
                  The only way I would consider the job is if they payed me, which I think it is a payed job. It's maybe 20 minutes from Charleston so not too isolated and there are stores down the road. It is 2 hours from my mother though. As far as a gym, the outdoors would be my gym. Prolly get one of those pull-up bars that you can do dips and other exercises on too. Just working on the farm would keep me in shape for the most part. It also happens to be in a national forest. I'd be living on good clean soil with all natural foods. The freshest possible at that. I would have raw milk straight from the teet every day, free range eggs, wild animals to hunt, ponds full of fresh fish. Would start a big garden for myself and to make extra money selling at the Charleston farmers market. It's going to take some serious consideration. The ladies and I both agreed that I need to get my GED first and then move forward from there. I know the pay won't be much, but it would be more about the experience. Most of the money could be saved as well. As of right now I don't have a job and am looking for one.
                  Paleo since November 2011 - Carnivore since June 2012
                  Before and after pics
                  http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65846.html
                  Primal Sucess Story
                  http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65400.html
                  Primal Journal
                  http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...tml#post955444

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                  • #54
                    I keep noticing in other posts how dedicated to meat you are. Have you ever stumbled across the "Dirty Carnivore" forum. It is for people who only eat meat. Im a true omnivore myself...but you might get some great ideas from the Dirty Carnivore site.
                    It's just another day in paradise
                    As you stumble to your bed
                    You'd give anything to silence
                    Those voices ringing in your head
                    You thought you could find happiness
                    Just over that green hill
                    You thought you would be satisfied
                    But you never will-
                    Learn to be still
                    -The Eagles

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                    • #55
                      Yes, I've been lurking on there lately but have yet to join. They seem like good people over there and I plan on joining their discussion soon. I have made some good friends over here and this forum is much more active. I learn new things daily here and am constantly coming across great new studies and products. I am about to start eating a lot more fermented foods including fermented vegetables to heal my gut, a lot of them over there are big on fermented veggies as well.
                      Paleo since November 2011 - Carnivore since June 2012
                      Before and after pics
                      http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65846.html
                      Primal Sucess Story
                      http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65400.html
                      Primal Journal
                      http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...tml#post955444

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                      • #56
                        My mom fucking pisses me off! Why am I always up to something and doing something wrong? So fucking tired of this bullshit. She's so fake and is really making me depressed.
                        Last edited by BennettC; 10-01-2012, 02:25 PM.
                        Paleo since November 2011 - Carnivore since June 2012
                        Before and after pics
                        http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65846.html
                        Primal Sucess Story
                        http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65400.html
                        Primal Journal
                        http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...tml#post955444

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                        • #57
                          Originally posted by BennettC View Post
                          My mom fucking pisses me off! Why am I always up to something and doing something wrong? So fucking tired of this bullshit. She's so fake and is really making me depressed.
                          You are an adult? Over 18, I mean? If this is such a toxic environment, then perhaps it is best to find a way to be on your own. Or to somehow distance yourself by being gone all day or gone when she is home (except for sleeping). Since it is her home you have to abide by her rules, be respectful, yada yada yada. I know it isn't easy, and I know there is history between the two of you that we don't know.

                          Make this situation more of an incentive to get that GED and move on (not to get you down on yourself). Your relationship with her might improve once you are out of the house. You have done so much for yourself over the past 4 years despite your living situation. You are a motivated, smart, intense person. Look what you've done to your health and your appearance over the past 4 years. That is someone who can get the job done!
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                          Age 48
                          Start date: 7-5-12
                          5'3"
                          121lbs
                          GOAL: to live to be a healthy and active 100


                          "In health there is freedom. Health is the first of all liberties."
                          Henri Frederic Amiel

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                          • #58
                            Thanks for the encouraging words and I apologize for my language, I was very frustrated when I wrote that. I think I'm going to take the job on the farm as soon as I finish my GED and can negotiate things with them. I think my mother just sees me as a problem child and always will. I did a lot of really bad things in my teen years, terrible things. A lot of these were to rebel. After the divorce, I never wanted to be home because I could never have peace of mind around her. She has been depressed almost my entire life and it's a terrible thing to be around. Nothing has ever been private with her either, I learned in my teen years I could never tell her anything in private without the whole lot of her friends and half the town knowing. I just don't trust her plain and simple. When she found out about my pot smoking she called the police on me. That happened more than once too. She once had a Lieutenant come to the house and try to scare the living shit out of me and tried to make me feel like a junkie once. When I finally got a car I was never ever at home. Basically lived at friends houses and in fact one time she kicked me out of the house and I did live with a friend for a month. I would also intentionally work heavy hours to stay away from home. I totaled my car in a DUI accident in November of 2011 and almost killed two girls. She has never even looked at me the same since then. She trashed me to my probation officer in front of my face during the first visit. I simply have no trust with her and feel like I can't talk to her about anything...because I can't. A friend is mailing me some kefir grains and a few other health items and she saw a text between us about it. She immediately began questioning me and asked if I was lying to her. I said lying about what? what would I have to lie about? This is a short list to say the least. Yeah I did some horrible things, but I'm not that person anymore. I'm clean. I don't smoke or drink and I'm healthy. She can't see that.
                            Paleo since November 2011 - Carnivore since June 2012
                            Before and after pics
                            http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65846.html
                            Primal Sucess Story
                            http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread65400.html
                            Primal Journal
                            http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...tml#post955444

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                            • #59
                              Sometimes family members aren't able to up-date their view as you change. My husband was pretty wild in his teens years. His parents were divorced and his mom was depressed and angry at men in general. He had a pretty volatile relationship with his mom. My husband moved out early, eventually went to college (in High School he went to a continuation school) and became a responsible person. His mom continued to think of him as a difficult teen, even years later when he had a Masters in his field, a steady job and was exceptional parent to our son. Sometimes you just have to take care of yourself and move on.
                              I always tell him you can't choose your family and just because you are related doesn't mean you have that much in common with them. You need to be around people you trust and that appreciate you.
                              Life is death. We all take turns. It's sacred to eat during our turn and be eaten when our turn is over. RichMahogany.

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                              • #60
                                Hey mate! Just seen your profile and you seem like you have got a lot of gains from going primal! I too sometimes struggle with my ma! she is a nurse that gives dietry advice but she is indoctrinated by CW and doesn't understand what this lifestyle is and the benefits it gives.

                                I noticed that you switched from Stronglifts 5x5 in your workout routine, any particular reason?? What are your overall goals?

                                Keep up the good work!!

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