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  • Well it was very cute, her wanting to make her cornbread for the family dinner, I couldn't pass it up. She served me a big piece too. It was really moist, and really very good.

    It happens to me more than I like to admit, people making me food, it is a way of showing love and I appreciate it. The difference is that I had the one piece, really enjoyed it and then stopped. In the past I'd have kept enjoying it, piece after piece until it was gone. I even made a big deal about saying that I'm not supposed to be eating this sort of thing, but this looks so good...

    Maybe that will get the point across in a gentle way.

    I am fortunate in that I really haven't reacted strongly to any foods that I have given up, when I do eat some. So for me there is no comeuppance. Except that if I eat too much of it or too often I'll get fatter.
    Height: 5' 10"
    Starting Weight: 292
    Starting Primal Weight: 275
    Current weight: 224
    Goal weight: 172
    Body Fat 30.5

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    • Last golden days of summer...

      SWMBO and boy got back from their vacation. It was cute, boy was so Jacked up about how much fun they had! He wants to move to Maine tomorrow! It's nice to see.

      SWMBO was happy with the amount of work I got done and that the house wasn't totally trashed, still she stayed up until past midnight cleaning. I have lived with women who were compulsive slobs and with women who were compulsive cleaners. I fall in the middle of the spectrum, maybe a bit to the slob side. I let things get away from me and then I clean, but really clean, like as in sanitize. So SWMBO and I are actually a good team in this, she keeps things tidy and I do the heavy cleaning.

      Well it's nice that they're home. 1st grade for the Boy starts Wednesday and he now gets that the long idyllic days of summer are rapidly ending. I still have that childish feeling wondering did I really have enough fun this summer. I went to the beach a bunch of times and went swimming. There were years (decades) that I never went once, embarrassed as I was to be seen in shorts and no shirt... I've missed a lot of living. But things will be better in the future! A year from now, perhaps, I will be looking more like Mark S. and less like Fat B. (Dead-Sexy!).

      One thing that really is different, is that every day I wake up and see the now smaller me and think, I feel great and I know it is just a matter of time before I'm not fat anymore. Where in the old days I would look at myself wondering how much longer I can stay on the (insert wacky, low-fat, high-carb diet name here) diet. Before I quit it and gain all my weight back.

      So while I might not have had enough of the intermittent euphoria that Marks been writing about this summer, every moment I live I don't have that soul crushing despair of being out of control of my health, leading to the inevitable slide toward infirmity and early death either.

      So my level of happiness is higher than its been in a good long while. :-)
      Height: 5' 10"
      Starting Weight: 292
      Starting Primal Weight: 275
      Current weight: 224
      Goal weight: 172
      Body Fat 30.5

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      • Yay for happiness. I've never seen another way of eating that gave happiness as one of the side-effects. Any good health promised came with a side of grim satisfaction, not joy.

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        • David, you have a really good way of articulating what a lot of us are experiencing. For the first time in my life, at least in my adult life, I am letting go of the puritanical self-sacrifice that permeates so much of everything that should really be making us happy. The idea that anything that feels, tastes, or looks good has to be bad for you. In the past when I managed to be 'thin enough' I was always in a bit of a panic about how to maintain my weight, even when I was relatively trim. Maybe it is also because I am older, but I have let go of a lot of expectations and that has led to great happiness and satisfaction.
          My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

          "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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          • David, I am relating to your cornbread story - a couple weeks ago, my hubby's restaurant catered a luncheon at my office. I wanted to give him an opinion of his sandwiches that night so I had a whole one with the sourdough. I was just going to eat a bite of it with the bread, but it was so tasty, I thought... well, I've been doing 95%/5% so a bit of bread shouldn't hurt. Boy, was I wrong. The gut aching, intestine wrenching episodes of "IBS" I used to have came back. Maybe that's gluten intolerance, all I know is that now when I see a piece of anything made with grains I RUN the other way.

            And I am curious how your IE is going. I am a follower of Jesus and a daughter of the earth and I find small moments in my crazy life when I am overcome by the work of His hand. I find my greatest IE moments when I meditate on Him and His creation, and I seek to have more of those moments, but I am struggling with allowing myself to step away from the responsibilities of the day to do so. Okay, yes, I am hippyish... but anyway, please share when you do have IE moments... good vibes are catchy! =)
            SW 260 lbs
            CW 194 lbs as of February 13, 2013
            GW 150 lbs
            PB start date: June 16th, 2012

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            • It sounds like you got your point across in the nicest possible way. But I do think that all the people who experience actual physical discomfort as a result of eating grains should feel quite free to tell people that. Not many people would pressure you to eat something if it actually makes you sick.
              5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
              Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
              Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

              More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
              - Lewis Mumford

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              • I agree. If something caused me discomfort I'd be more adamant about it. But fortunately, for me, it isn't the case. I continually walk a fine line between trying to be vigilant about keeping my diet free of things that I know are not good for me on the one hand and wanting to be part of the group eating whatever is put in front of me, like my depression era Grandmother always told me, on the other. It does get easier as time goes on, I notice that some of my family asks me about my diet and if this food or that food is okay for me to eat. It is another way to show love and respect and healthier for me than baking me a cake.

                So it gets progressively better!
                Height: 5' 10"
                Starting Weight: 292
                Starting Primal Weight: 275
                Current weight: 224
                Goal weight: 172
                Body Fat 30.5

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                • Originally posted by Nycteris View Post
                  And I am curious how your IE is going...I seek to have more of those moments, but I am struggling with allowing myself to step away from the responsibilities of the day to do so. Okay, yes, I am hippyish... but anyway, please share when you do have IE moments... good vibes are catchy! =)
                  (Sorry for the edits to your quote). It is interesting what you say, because it's how I feel too. I usually have to "step away from the responsibilities of the day" to notice nature or the beauty of the world. If I am wrapped up in getting somewhere or my mind is consumed by some problem, I just don't really see. It wasn't always like this. As a young man and an Art major in school, I saw beauty and majesty in everything around me, nearly all the time. I constantly looked at things, people, or vistas and was moved by them. To draw or paint them was difficult, trying to capture the infinite using line and color, but I loved it.

                  When I turned away from Art the sense of awe about the world didn't leave me, but I didn't quite look at it in the same way either, I guess I didn't feel a part of it anymore, I was just a spectator, Art had made me feel part of creation. As I busied myself with making a living, being a husband and later a father, those tasks required (for me at least) a focus that too often precluded seeing the beauty around me.

                  And yet, there were (and are still) moments when I am awestruck with the beauty of nature, people, objects, ideas, music, theatre...it can be anything really. Certainly my children connect me to the infinite as I see the world fresh through their experience.

                  My favorite euphoric experiences (these days) are when in the midst of a hectic day, something beautiful intrudes, cutting through my focus and stirs me in some way or other. Once I had to go to work very early to get a phone call from Japan. I wasn't too happy about it. But on my way into the office, the Sunrise burst through the grey clouds and the empty highway sparkled for a moment, and I felt connected.
                  Last edited by DCarr10760; 09-04-2012, 04:18 AM.
                  Height: 5' 10"
                  Starting Weight: 292
                  Starting Primal Weight: 275
                  Current weight: 224
                  Goal weight: 172
                  Body Fat 30.5

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                  • Whew, what a day! Planned to fast through breakfast because there was a business lunch planned. That didn't happen and I only managed a fancy omelet thingy at a nice pub with sausage and some fruit on the side.

                    Dinner will be some sardines over a BAS

                    In the meantime I snacked on some nuts.

                    Hectic day, not so good food wise, but could've been so much worse!
                    Height: 5' 10"
                    Starting Weight: 292
                    Starting Primal Weight: 275
                    Current weight: 224
                    Goal weight: 172
                    Body Fat 30.5

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                    • Doesn't sound bad at all really! Outside of the vegtable oils likely used to cook the omelet at the pub I'd say you had a pretty solid day! Keep at it buddy
                      SW (Nov 22nd 2011): 333
                      Current Weight as of Nov 25 2015: 248
                      Short Term Goal: Fit into the shirts I got on my honeymoon at disney and universal in august next year when I go back to for my 1 year anniversary
                      Met Goal: Be a 2x Shirt, Fit in a standard airplane seat belt without the use of a seat belt extension
                      Long Term Goal: 166lbs (One day!), Buy whatever cloths I want to wear.
                      Pain is temporary, quitting is forever- Lance Armstrong #NoExcuses

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                      • Thanks ecks! It was a decent day all around (if a bit hectic).

                        So... I weighed in today and am down to 250.2! Last week I was 251.1 so that is a .9 loss for the week. Small yes, but it the right direction.

                        We move on...
                        Height: 5' 10"
                        Starting Weight: 292
                        Starting Primal Weight: 275
                        Current weight: 224
                        Goal weight: 172
                        Body Fat 30.5

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                        • A pound a week is not small. It is a very reasonable loss. That's about 50 pounds after a year, which is a heck of a lot when you think of it.
                          5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                          Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                          Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                          More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                          - Lewis Mumford

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                          • A pound a week is great! Remember you are losing real weight, not just fluctuations.
                            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                            "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                            • Thanks Judg and Siobahn! I'm still impatient I guess. Though when I think about it, I don't really have any timetable, nor do I expect to eat remarkably differently when I reach my goal weight.

                              I've lost enough weight now that most everybody who knows me has made mention of it. I'm certainly feeling better about my long term weight and health goals. All of this is to say that I'm really very pleased at my progress and if a pound a week is what I lose, then that's fine with me.

                              Thanks again for the encouraging words!

                              DC
                              Height: 5' 10"
                              Starting Weight: 292
                              Starting Primal Weight: 275
                              Current weight: 224
                              Goal weight: 172
                              Body Fat 30.5

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                              • Ugh... Busy, busy, busy. Work gets like this every once in awhile. But its not bad, just leaves me with little free time.

                                I've been eating well, except for one notable fail at a Mexican Restaurant. Side note: Mexican food (at least the Tex-Mexy version that abounds in the Northeast) is about the least Paleo-Friendly Cuisine out there. Got Carnitas and was doing alright until the fresh, just made, corn tortillas came out.

                                Last night I had a little rumbly-tumbly as my body spent time looking up what it used to do with so. much. corn.

                                Today is better. Much better!
                                Height: 5' 10"
                                Starting Weight: 292
                                Starting Primal Weight: 275
                                Current weight: 224
                                Goal weight: 172
                                Body Fat 30.5

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