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  • No more potatoes. Possibly ever. Feel gross and sick to my stomach. So, I'm a wuss, less than 48 hours and I know I will never attempt anything as mad ever again. Lesson learned. Husband is making a nice omelette and I just ate an apple. I'm really, really looking forward to eating a mixed meal.

    There's yoghurt - brewing, fermenting, lactosing? - in the oven and I'm very excited to be back on my usual plan. Perhaps the potatoes helped after all, broke me out of destructo-eating by the sheer lunacy?

    It's been a tough weekend all round with much tearing of hair and raging at my fate. I really pity the husband. I am not an easy woman to love.
    I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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    • More of the same today. Primal foods; but not weight loss quantities, particularly that 70% chocolate. Gradually returning to sanity, with intermittent raging. Took a mental health day and did some cooking and cleaning, both of which help me to feel more grounded. I now have a yummy frittata thing to take for lunch for the next few days and a vast quantity of work-friendly coleslaw (no onion, just cabbage, carrot and sour cream) to go with the vat of yoghurt that set overnight.
      Steak and salad for dinner.
      Banana and chocolate for lunch.
      Scramble eggs for breakfast.
      No exercise to speak of, unless I break out the weights tonight.

      It was 26 and sunny today, supposed to be 30 for the next two days, but I have friends in NYC as well as NY State and my thoughts are with them in the wind and rain. Not to mention my chronic homesickness for grey, damp, dark Blighty. Made husband swear that if in a year's time we're in the same position as we are now we'll go back to the UK. I'm really over being the sole breadwinner, particularly as my career continues to fester rather than thrive and the husband's appears to be completely dead. Time was he was winning Oscars and I was working for a global PR agency. Truly, this is a penal colony.
      I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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      • At least when all else is dull, you can be kind to yourself by eating well. Meal plan sounds great, wishing you a good sleep tonight and another primal day tomorrow.
        Annie Ups the Ante
        http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread117711.html

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        • food non-primal. another sanity day, by which I suppose I mean insanity day...
          But. But.

          Best friend asks why the hell we haven't written anything yet. She's by far the cleverer of us and the more gifted.

          I respond: lots of reasons. By which I mean fear, inadequacy, busy doing other things.

          But. She has a point. I can write erotica that will really get you off. Truly. Fuck fifty shades: I can make your hair curl and steam come out of every pore. Just with words without voice: letters on the cold, crisp page. Can you imagine what I can do with my tongue? With the touch of the tips of my hair as I lean over you to touch you with my tongue? The power of the absolutely right and totally fresh conceit; the image that strips away the distance between thought and action.

          Drip. Drip. Drip.

          I'm thinking.

          And my thoughts can wear away the hardest stone.
          I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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          • On hiatus

            backson. Or not. We'll see.
            I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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            • come undone

              Today was the first day in about six weeks that I followed this whole thing by by both the letter and the spirit of the laws. A lot can be undone in six weeks and I suspect that I won't be back to where I was six weeks ago - given we're fast approaching Christmas - until well into 2013.

              In other areas of life, I'm also faced with the unwelcome task of unpicking work I've laboured over, but to no good end. The hexagons of doom have not come together as anticipated and need to be reassembled in a more symmetrical pattern. Here are the before shots to record where I got up to before setting to work with the seam ripper (sob):

              and

              Fail again. Fail better.

              A huge part of my recent undoing has been the emotional turmoil and dismay. This feels like it's on the mend with the symbolic purchase of a green leather chesterfield sofa. To get all Feng Shui - ugh - this is a huge commitment to family togetherness as we will be able to sit together again in the living room for the first time since leaving Sydney three and a half years ago. I've been lusting after a leather Chesterfield, particularly a green one, for a number of years. In many ways, then, this feels like the first tiny step towards establishing a home here.

              And home is vitally important to me, so why I've been martyring myself for so long is a very good question, which I find hard to answer. Motherhood comes first, always, but home-making is a huge part of mothering and I've felt unable to do that here - for numerous practical and seemingly pressing reasons.

              So. The three-seater is very much a BIG deal. And while it was a huge expense, it was also a Gumtree bargain of some considerable magnitude. Where there's a will, clearly...



              Now I must get busy with the quick-unpick and then get back to work to finish this fucker because I also have plans gestating for my next patchwork project: a quilt of my own (to adorn the back of the chesterfield and be placed over knees when winter rolls round again).
              I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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              • Sad to have to undo work, you must be learning lots of patience
                Enjoy your family couch.
                Annie Ups the Ante
                http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread117711.html

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                • There was cheese at work today along with lots of other leftovers. I was very restrained in comparison to recent times, but still it was probably too much cheese. Breakfast was yoghurt, walnuts and coffee. Cheese and dried fruit, a few hazelnuts. Lunch was pate and celery. For dinner I had homemade baba ganoush and Greek salad followed by yoghurt. Tomorrow is the race that stops the nation - the Melbourne Cup - so I get the day off work. Hurrah.
                  I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                  • Your Chesterfield is frickin' AWESOME. If there were some kind of civil unrest in your corner of the world, and I happened to be there, you would SO catch me dragging that sucker down the street as looting booty...
                    I have a mantra that I have spouted for years... "If I eat right, I feel right. If I feel right, I exercise right. If I exercise right, I think right. If I think right, I eat right..." Phil-SC

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                    • I love the hexagon quilt top.... great colors, but I don't know how you deal with all of those "Y" seams.... they would drive me up the freakin wall! lol

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                      • sew long and thanks for all the fish

                        Hi Crabcakes, no dragging my Chesterfield anywhere, thank you very much. That image was taken from Anthropologie as the image of mine as per the Gumtree listing disappeared as soon as I agreed a price with the seller. The feet on mine are probably not as spiffy as the Anthro version, but thinking about it, it wouldn't be too hard to add spiffy feet if one was that way inclined. I'm very, very excited about getting it on Saturday although I shan't be on the pick up team I'll be at home herding small children so that husband and his friend can play at being removal/delivery men.
                        I patchworked like an absolute mofo today. I was the Samuel L Jackson of stitching. I have caught up with where I was before the great unpick plus an additional six hexagons have been added into the mix. I began the restoration job last night and am just finishing it up now, having started at 6.30am, with very few breaks through the day (my wrists are sorer than a teenage boy's).
                        B: yoghurt, walnuts, cashews, coffee
                        L: chicken, waldorf salad, tuna w/mayo, apple
                        D: small portion of lamb green curry, apple, walnuts
                        So, I still need to cut back on quantity, but quality is improving. No exercise except sewing. Also, important to note, day at home and no alcohol yesterday or today. A corner might just have been turned here and not a moment too soon as thighs and belly are noticeably larger than once they were. *Sigh* such is life.
                        I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                        • Originally posted by ssn679doc View Post
                          I love the hexagon quilt top.... great colors, but I don't know how you deal with all of those "Y" seams.... they would drive me up the freakin wall! lol
                          The first ever quilt I made was all triangles - I didn't realise it was supposed to be more difficult so I just did it. I hand piece and my stitches are tiny so it is fairly easy to make minute adjustments as I go.
                          I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                          • B: two eggs scrambled in butter, bowl of chicken broth (homemade), coffee
                            L: tuna mayo with celery and cucumber
                            D: pork chop, carrots, spinach, two pineapple rings, three apple slices, handful of nuts

                            Patchwork and mourning for the loss of faith in our marriage continues apace. Even when it's good it's fragile and on the verge of fracturing (the marriage, the patchwork is surprisingly robust). I did this thing. Or, rather, I pointed out the elephant in the room and now all we can do is stare at it.

                            In other news, yay, Obama!
                            Last edited by badgergirl; 11-07-2012, 01:00 AM. Reason: extra dinner
                            I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                            • Originally posted by badgergirl View Post
                              In other news, yay, Obama!
                              I still like reading you, even if I did vote Romney this time around... I'm decently miffed at the popular vote/electoral vote thing. According to the Wall Street Journal today, Romney actually won the popular vote.

                              I did vote Obama four years ago (can you tell I am Independent?), and don't hate the guy at all, but am in the dumps that my man didn't make it. This county voted Romney by a decent margin. But for good news - the county citizens voted to renew the operating levy for Third's special-needs school, so it stays open! BIGGEST YAY!

                              I got a charge out of listening to German radio stations cover the election last night - there is nothing like listening to a foreign news service describe the US to their respective listeners. Love doing that with BBC, too.
                              I have a mantra that I have spouted for years... "If I eat right, I feel right. If I feel right, I exercise right. If I exercise right, I think right. If I think right, I eat right..." Phil-SC

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                              • Originally posted by Crabbcakes View Post
                                I still like reading you, even if I did vote Romney this time around... I'm decently miffed at the popular vote/electoral vote thing. According to the Wall Street Journal today, Romney actually won the popular vote.

                                I did vote Obama four years ago (can you tell I am Independent?), and don't hate the guy at all, but am in the dumps that my man didn't make it. This county voted Romney by a decent margin. But for good news - the county citizens voted to renew the operating levy for Third's special-needs school, so it stays open! BIGGEST YAY!

                                I got a charge out of listening to German radio stations cover the election last night - there is nothing like listening to a foreign news service describe the US to their respective listeners. Love doing that with BBC, too.
                                Yes. Biggest yay for third's school. We can joint yay that one. Though I wonder why essential services need to be put to the vote...

                                My favourite news sources are The Guardian and the BBC World Service/Radio 4 (accessed via internet radio, here), though I also read The Telegraph (UK, rabid rightwing) the Daily Mail (ditto, but downmarket), The Age (Aussie rag) and The New Yorker. But even if my news sources weren't left-leaning (and The Guardian definitely is) instinctively, I'm somewhere to the left of Lenin. If I need to lodge a protest vote (as I did last time I voted - in Camden, a Labour stronghold) I'll vote lunatic fringe leftie rather than move to the centre/right. Call me an idealist, but healthcare should be free at the point of delivery, the state should protect and support those in need and taxes should work to redistribute wealth and, more importantly, access to opportunity so that society is fairer and more homogenous in terms of social mobility (which creates social cohesion). I love the US. Love it. Would dearly, dearly love to live in either the Pacific Northwest or New England. I adore America, but the disparity between the haves and have nots is horrific. To be white and educated is to be privileged and I can see that in just about every social interaction that I have at home and abroad. I would like to see that change in my lifetime. Also, Romney's attitudes to women and their medical needs? I cannot believe that we are still having these discussions.
                                Clearly, not my country, not my vote. However, I think for the world (and I say this as someone who finds the kill list morally repugnant) Obama was the better option.

                                Meanwhile, back in Blighty, one of my favourite columnists says it better than I ever could (my emphasis) - that's why she earns money for her writing and I don't:
                                Slavery presents an interesting contrast. As tortuous as the route was to ending it, once society had coalesced around this idea that nobody could belong to anybody else, the matter was settled. This doesn't mean it never happens – in fact cases come up surprisingly often – but at least we don't have to have the argument again about whether or not it's wrong. There was a single, simple moral precept at the core of it – that all people are born free – and once that was established, people stopped saying "what's this going to do for business?", and "but all the slave owners will just move to Switzerland!". They simply adjusted to a new reality.

                                The equivalent precept, just as simple, is that all people are born equal. Taken to any logical conclusion, this would make it impossible for one person's wages to be 185 times another's (this is the current, depressing ratio between a FTSE 100 chief executive and average earnings, according to the One Society's half-term report on inequality under the coalition: a precis if you're busy – it has increased). It would make it impossible for gross domestic product to grow while the poorest third of households saw their incomes stagnate (this has happened in the United States since the 1970s; in the UK, the "trickle-down" stopped working in 2003).

                                It's puzzling to me how often we end up arguing for equality on the basis of outcomes – because unequal societies inherently have more problems – rather than principle: that if we were born equal, one person fetching up in adulthood worth 185 times what everybody else is worth makes no sense.
                                Last edited by badgergirl; 11-08-2012, 01:46 AM.
                                I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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