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  • #46
    16 hrs fast so far, 2 cups of broth. Now, entering the hard zone after 2 pm, need to hold on in the office for 1 hr 30 min. Went to the washroom, checked the belly bulge. Meditated on how I will look in the pool after work. Made green tea. With luck the thought of the pool should be enough to keep The Maw in check. As additional measure decided I would weigh in after the pool, and record the weight in the FD. Ouch.

    Scheduled the first PT Session on Thursday.
    My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
    When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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    • #47
      All right, did 20+ hour fast yesterday, the 18th hour was crappy. After all the psyching up to go swimming, the pool was closed due to contamination. But me being me, I had the dry-land rags with me, so I went on the cardio machines for 40 min, in a pretty lousy steady state. The cross-trainer was not available so I barely squeezed out 250 cals from a bike & a traditional elliptical.

      Waved good-bye to Quark yesterday. Oh, well. Somehow the restrictions just don't cause the same heart-broken feeling when you look like a whale.

      This morning though I had a good lifting deload session, did 5x5 of squats on the 95lbs, and normal support, then hit the X-trainer for 20 min. Sore and tired now, but I have a day full of meeting so hoping to stick to a good 16 hr fast and keep under 1300 today. The weight this morning was a freakish 127.4 lbs. I must have put on 3 or so lbs over the weekend for it to be this high today. I am falling back into the habit of tracking.

      Sept 10, 2012: 20+ hrs fast, 1035 cals, 29/9 carbs (10%), 60 g protein, 75 g fat (66%). Walking, cardio SS (40 min), stretch (10 min)
      My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
      When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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      • #48
        Disappointment of the day: Got e-mail from mom, it says, she is too hungry after gardening all day so she decided to keep eating bread. What a load of... But, that's her choice.
        My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
        When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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        • #49
          Not good at all. Today's weight is still up, in fact up from yesterday. 127.7 lbs. I must be grossly under-estimating the calories in the broth? Or is it salt in seaweed? Waiting on the major digestive event? Well, Tibetan tea today (3 tbsp of cultured butter) and maybe a few eggs after the trip. That's gotta give me an accurate count.

          Sept 10, 2012: 20+ hrs fast, 1035 cals, 29/9 carbs (10%), 60 g protein, 75 g fat (66%). Walking, cardio SS (40 min), stretch (10 min)
          Sept 11, 2012: 16+ hrs fast, 1370 cals, 27/9 carbs, 94 g protein, 97 g fat (64%); Lifting (deload) + 20 min X-trainer; 1 hr walk
          My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
          When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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          • #50
            Today's task for me is to concentrate and meditate on the process rather than progress, before I drive myself to break down. One, two, three... think process.... Tibetan tea awaits.
            My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
            When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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            • #51
              Ye gods, I was prepared to see like 129 lbs this morning but luckily, it was 126.3 lbs, so the goal today is to not overload and blow it.

              Recovery is abysmal. Because I was doing deloaded workout I was doing more sets, and put the heart into lunges. Stabilizers are not happy, quad and ham and calf... basically the whole LB is complaining. Feel a bit dazed after yesterdays low cal, BUT the day itself was pretty easy food wise. A few naps on the bus helped too, and the fact that I did not have to do really anything, just stand and stare and try to take in something of the info we were dished out.

              Sept 10, 2012: 20+ hrs fast, 1035 cals, 29/9 carbs (10%), 60 g protein, 75 g fat (66%). Walking, cardio SS (40 min), stretch (10 min)
              Sept 11, 2012: 16+ hrs fast, 1370 cals, 27/9 carbs, 94 g protein, 97 g fat (64%); Lifting (deload, SQT 5x5) + 20 min X-trainer; 1 hr walk
              Sept 12, 2012: 22 hrs fast, 980 cals, 16/6.5 carbs, 40 g protein; 86 g fat (78%); Recovery, some strolling during field trip.
              My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
              When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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              • #52
                125.7 lbs, on the right track. Felt the cal deficit yesterday, slight dizziness, lower endurance. But felt so good walking outside. A slightly higher calories day fixed that!

                First PT session was great; we went through my program with a fine tooth comb, and trained Push-Press, Squats form and straight Body rise for ~ 20 min. The trainer showed me which muscle groups need to be strengthened to keep me from wiggling on the squat and from bending over under the weight. Believe it or not, I will have to incorporate the silly thigh machine to work on my stabilizers (that's why I wiggle on the squats).

                I am really looking forward to the next session and reworking my schedule with his suggestions. Which were very logical. Alas, KB lunges gotta go.

                I have my first 'I can't believe that's me' experience with having to eat extra to add more calories to the day. Feel great now. Just need digestion to get the memo and adapt to keto.

                Sept 10, 2012: 20+ hrs fast, 1035 cals, 29/9 carbs (10%), 60 g protein, 75 g fat (66%). Walking, cardio SS (40 min), stretch (10 min)
                Sept 11, 2012: 16+ hrs fast, 1370 cals, 27/9 carbs, 94 g protein, 97 g fat (64%); Lifting (deload, SQT 5x5) + 20 min X-trainer; 1 hr walk
                Sept 12, 2012: 22 hrs fast, 980 cals, 16/6.5 carbs, 40 g protein; 86 g fat (78%); Recovery, some strolling during field trip.
                Sept 13, 2012: 15 hrs fast, 1310 cals, 29/8 g carbs, 101 g protein, 88 g fat (59%); 20 min x-trainer; 20 min light lifting; ~ 50 min walk
                My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                • #53
                  Forgot to add, my focus today is on feeling content. I think it will remain my focus for the entire weekend as I try to stay under 30 g crabs/25 g net carbs.

                  OMG, today's' story is plain awesome, that's exactly what I want, this kind of an after!

                  http://www.marksdailyapple.com/a-doc...#axzz26TNp9GXu
                  Last edited by Leida; 09-14-2012, 12:12 PM.
                  My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                  When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                  • #54
                    Today's focus is still on walking with both eyes on the road, not on the goal. I experienced a few episodes of contentment this weekend, like when walking barefoot on the rocks with my daughter or chasing her while she was riding her bike... The weather is wonderful and the life was perfect. I want to retain this emotion, remember and cherish it.

                    Gave in and made meatzza yesterday, my kiddo was so happy! Another moment of contentment. Making giant meatballs from the leftover 'dough' tonight with eggplant chips. Mmgh! Finger-licking good!

                    Weight today: 122.8 lbs. I stayed low carb over the weekend and the weight started dropping off. Fingers crossed.

                    Sept 10, 2012: 20+ hrs fast, 1035 cals, 29/9 carbs (10%), 60 g protein, 75 g fat (66%). Walking, cardio SS (40 min), stretch (10 min)
                    Sept 11, 2012: 16+ hrs fast, 1370 cals, 27/9 carbs, 94 g protein, 97 g fat (64%); Lifting (deload, SQT 5x5) + 20 min X-trainer; 1 hr walk
                    Sept 12, 2012: 22 hrs fast, 980 cals, 16/6.5 carbs, 40 g protein; 86 g fat (78%); Recovery, some strolling during field trip.
                    Sept 13, 2012: 15 hrs fast, 1310 cals, 29/8 g carbs, 101 g protein, 88 g fat (59%); 20 min x-trainer; 20 min light lifting; ~ 50 min walk
                    Sept 14, 2012: >1300 cals (but did not count add-on in time); Lifting + 20 min swim, ~ 1 hr walking
                    Sept 15, 2012: Not counted macros; Play day (pool, walking, garden)
                    Sept 16, 2012: Not counted macros; Lifting + 20 min x-trainer; walking, a little gardening
                    Last edited by Leida; 09-17-2012, 06:53 AM.
                    My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                    When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                    • #55
                      Did not do well on the contentment focus yesterday, and over-ate after supper. Not by much (though I might not be capturing it well in the counter?), but I munched instead of stopping. Read a chapter on keeping eyes on process, not progress first thing this morning, and hope to meditate on the next chapter: "I don't Care" thoughts in the afternoon.

                      Weight today: 124.1 lbs I knew that net loss over the weekend was too good to be true.

                      Sept 10, 2012: 20+ hrs fast, 1035 cals, 29/9 carbs (10%), 60 g protein, 75 g fat (66%). Walking, cardio SS (40 min), stretch (10 min)
                      Sept 11, 2012: 16+ hrs fast, 1370 cals, 27/9 carbs, 94 g protein, 97 g fat (64%); Lifting (deload, SQT 5x5) + 20 min X-trainer; 1 hr walk
                      Sept 12, 2012: 22 hrs fast, 980 cals, 16/6.5 carbs, 40 g protein; 86 g fat (78%); Recovery, some strolling during field trip.
                      Sept 13, 2012: 15 hrs fast, 1310 cals, 29/8 g carbs, 101 g protein, 88 g fat (59%); 20 min x-trainer; 20 min light lifting; ~ 50 min walk
                      Sept 14, 2012: >1300 cals (but did not count add-on in time); Lifting + 20 min swim, ~ 1 hr walking
                      Sept 15, 2012: Not counted macros; Play day (pool, walking, garden)
                      Sept 16, 2012: Not counted macros; Lifting + 20 min x-trainer; walking, a little gardening
                      Sept 17, 2012: ~ 1400 cals, 34 g/11 g carbs, 88 g protein, 104 g fat (65 %); ~2 hrs walking, light gardening
                      My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                      When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                      • #56
                        Oh, zut, I feel like I am falling sick. I am hot and my nose is starting to run & I am sleeeepy. Part of me wants to go home and lie down and sleep it off, and part of me wants to tough it out in the gym. If only steam room was opened, then there won't be a dilemma! I would just steam it out in the SR. Crap, crap, carp, crappity-crap.
                        My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                        When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                        • #57
                          Not too bad. I skipped cardio, but was able to do the weights. 75# PP still got stuck, but felt like it was on the verge of passing the sticking point.

                          And, OMG, hilarity! The PT advised me to try 'that thigh machine all the women use thinking it will make their thighs skinnier' to strengthen stabilizers, and fix the wiggle on the way up on the squat. So, like a good girl, I am going there and discovering THREE thigh machines. A weirdo rotating one, adductor and abductor. I went for abductor, thinking it compliments squatting motion better, but now I wonder, because on the way UP it will be adductor that is working. I guess I will ask him next time.

                          I was hungry yesterday, so calories sky-rocketed. But the weight today is 123.4 lbs, so I guess I needed it.

                          I had a very good mindful eating episode, when I was feeling sick and unhappy before going to the gym I went downstairs ready to scarf down all 4 nuts left in the box. But then I thought about it, took a deep breath and ate just one slowly and mindfully. I feel good about it. I also correctly identified my need for comfort and settling into the bed instead of my perceived need for another snack before bed, and stopped on one small dish of crumble of cheese instead of refilling the dish. I wish I was able to stop before the dish, though, and would not go to town eating salmon while putting it away. But, yeah, I LOVE salmon!

                          Sept 10, 2012: 20+ hrs fast, 1035 cals, 29/9 carbs (10%), 60 g protein, 75 g fat (66%). Walking, cardio SS (40 min), stretch (10 min)
                          Sept 11, 2012: 16+ hrs fast, 1370 cals, 27/9 carbs, 94 g protein, 97 g fat (64%); Lifting (deload, SQT 5x5) + 20 min X-trainer; 1 hr walk
                          Sept 12, 2012: 22 hrs fast, 980 cals, 16/6.5 carbs, 40 g protein; 86 g fat (78%); Recovery, some strolling during field trip.
                          Sept 13, 2012: 15 hrs fast, 1310 cals, 29/8 g carbs, 101 g protein, 88 g fat (59%); 20 min x-trainer; 20 min light lifting; ~ 50 min walk
                          Sept 14, 2012: >1300 cals (but did not count add-on in time); Lifting + 20 min swim, ~ 1 hr walking
                          Sept 15, 2012: Not counted macros; Play day (pool, walking, garden)
                          Sept 16, 2012: Not counted macros; Lifting + 20 min x-trainer; walking, a little gardening
                          Sept 17, 2012: ~ 1400 cals, 34 g/11 g carbs, 88 g protein, 104 g fat (65 %); ~2 hrs walking, light gardening
                          Sept 18, 2012: 1480 cals, 33/7 g carbs, 108 g protein, 105 g fat (61%); ~ 1.5 hrs walking, Lifting (OHP)
                          My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                          When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                          • #58
                            I am starting to get a bit hungrier, which is a concern since after tonight's Zumba, I am taking time off training till Tuesday.

                            Tomorrow night is a meeting at the b/a school care, on Friday we are driving to Edmonton, on Saturday I am entertaining my child in the WEM while my hubby is at the conference, and on Sunday we drive back home. The bulbs arrived, so I want to spend the rest of Sunday in the garden.

                            Basically, I will have 4 straight days of moving slowly & nothing else. I can try to run sprints on Friday and Monday, but even then, I know I cannot afford high calories for those days. I have to stick with 1,250-1,300.

                            Since we will be eating out on Saturday night and I want a good steak, ideally I should fast all day, to allow for the calories from the steak of a restaurant proportions, but I am not sure I can fast after 2 days on (hopefully) 1300 calories and still manage my child's day.

                            I am planning to take coconut oil along, so if I can obtain coffee that should help. I wish I could have broth with me, but I won't have the facilities to heat it up. I will see if I can take a hot pot & thermos. (Sigh). It's always an adjustment when you get out of the routine!

                            I just don't want to f'up now, when the weight is finally coming off. I can see myself starting to morph into my normal proportions, and the clothes fit better, the last thing I need is to balloon up again....

                            Oouf, now that I put it down in writing, I hope I can stop worrying about it.

                            My chapter today is "Yes, But... " thoughts. Gotta come in handy. Susan Albers is coming with me to Edmonton, for sure!
                            My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                            When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                            • #59
                              Forgot to read my chapter about the but clauses. From what I remember, the recommendation is to create an 'and' statement. I will try tomorrow to read it and meditate on it.

                              My mood is starting to become erratic. I felt aggressive when I was hungry. Then I started regretting all of a sudden being far to compliant and mild as a young woman, and not having relationships before my marriage and more wild stuff. Never touching alcohol or cigarettes. Doing all the right choices, never the wrong ones. I missed my 5HTPs, gonna get one now, or it will end in the fruit bowl. I am not at the stage yet when I am starting to pick the name for my second child, that is not to be, and that signals an overall distress.

                              I think it's the weekend in Edmonton that bugs me, because I will have to be in the single mom mode all day... I don't like the single mom mode. (Sigh).
                              Last edited by Leida; 09-19-2012, 04:15 PM.
                              My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                              When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                              • #60
                                124.4 lbs. It figures. Huge caloric overdraft and Zumba fell through. We did maybe 3 songs (I am counting it as a stretch), and my kiddo got a huge stomach upset. Had to go shop for rice and bananas with her, got home, even more depressed, hungry by whatever reason.

                                On the up side, hubby had a brain-wave that we should drive back home from Edmonton on Sat night, so we will have Sunday at home. Good. I will have an official weigh-in on Sunday then. Gonna buy macademia nuts for Saturday and do fat fast till at least supper in Edmonton. Hope to stay low on calories.

                                Started day today with butter tea, 5HTP and gonna read the chapter or two from the book, no matter what, RIGH F'ING now.

                                Sept 10, 2012: 20+ hrs fast, 1035 cals, 29/9 carbs (10%), 60 g protein, 75 g fat (66%). Walking, cardio SS (40 min), stretch (10 min)
                                Sept 11, 2012: 16+ hrs fast, 1370 cals, 27/9 carbs, 94 g protein, 97 g fat (64%); Lifting (deload, SQT 5x5) + 20 min X-trainer; 1 hr walk
                                Sept 12, 2012: 22 hrs fast, 980 cals, 16/6.5 carbs, 40 g protein; 86 g fat (78%); Recovery, some strolling during field trip.
                                Sept 13, 2012: 15 hrs fast, 1310 cals, 29/8 g carbs, 101 g protein, 88 g fat (59%); 20 min x-trainer; 20 min light lifting; ~ 50 min walk
                                Sept 14, 2012: >1300 cals (but did not count add-on in time); Lifting + 20 min swim, ~ 1 hr walking
                                Sept 15, 2012: Not counted macros; Play day (pool, walking, garden)
                                Sept 16, 2012: Not counted macros; Lifting + 20 min x-trainer; walking, a little gardening
                                Sept 17, 2012: ~ 1400 cals, 34 g/11 g carbs, 88 g protein, 104 g fat (65 %); ~2 hrs walking, light gardening
                                Sept 18, 2012: 1480 cals, 33/7 g carbs, 108 g protein, 105 g fat (61%); ~ 1.5 hrs walking, Lifting (OHP)
                                Sept 19, 2012: 1600 cals, 33/8 g carbs, 101 g protein, 119 g fat (66%) ~ 2 walking, Stretch
                                My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                                When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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