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  • Hi YB, thank you for dropping by and trying to help.

    I am actually actively trying to cut back on the exercise. I kind of think that I feel so envious of women who seem to do much less, and eat much more, and look great... well, maybe that's why they look great, you know. But, then again, that would be maybe the biggest difference between me back before the whole post-pg and now, and back before pg I tended to plumpness unless I ate sparely.

    I wish one could have a better feedback from one's body. Mine is probably saying to me to go easier (?) but on the other hand I think I face that whole mess of a woman in her forties with a plethora of potential problems which I really don't know how to address, save for eating clean and, well, moving.

    Nice aikido yesterday, though one of the techniques was insanely confusing, lol. Swim and KBs today.

    Mom's coming today, and the baking season begins, with all our birthdays and a couple of charity events in a space of a month. Heh.
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    When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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    • Originally posted by Leida View Post
      Hi YB, thank you for dropping by and trying to help.

      I am actually actively trying to cut back on the exercise. I kind of think that I feel so envious of women who seem to do much less, and eat much more, and look great... well, maybe that's why they look great, you know. But, then again, that would be maybe the biggest difference between me back before the whole post-pg and now, and back before pg I tended to plumpness unless I ate sparely.

      I wish one could have a better feedback from one's body. Mine is probably saying to me to go easier (?) but on the other hand I think I face that whole mess of a woman in her forties with a plethora of potential problems which I really don't know how to address, save for eating clean and, well, moving.
      Oh.. no worries - I wish I could help! I genuinely feel your pain, and I know what you're going through. I felt like I was fighting a losing battle every day, and I couldn't bring myself to love this body that wouldn't obey me!

      I don't know if you've noticed my sig, but this has been a huge revelation to me: eating for the hormones. My latest mistake was that I was listening to the bro-science that said that protein is stored as structural tissue so you could eat as much as you wanted and you'd lose weight. What they didn't say was that eating too much protein without carbs stimulates the production of cortisol, which breaks down muscle and causes you to store everything as fat. Same with excess exercise.

      I was afraid to cut back on exercise and eat more carbs, but actually as soon as I did that the scales started shifting down again. I really think that if you look after your stress hormones, weight becomes so much more manageable.

      Part of my anxiety about actually eating and not moving as much was because like you, I've had a tendency to gain weight since I was about 18, which is when I developed an ED. I was never thin enough unless I starved myself, but now I see how easily the weight seems to be coming off and I'm realising that I had it wrong all along. It's kind of huge to me. Who knows - maybe I'll plateau again in a week, but for now it seems amazing that eating the foods I've always wanted to eat, and moving in a concise way will actually get the results I've always wanted, but painlessly.

      Anyway, I see myself in you - experimenting with so many new things, and trying to beat your body into submission and I think that maybe the war needs to end. Sorry if that's too blunt... but what I'm finding is that love is the way.

      The Peat people label it as "avoid stress" but yeah. I'm a hippie
      "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

      In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

      - Ray Peat

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      • I totally got where you are coming from. I actually think I do less than you do right now judging from your last week's log, but for me, the scale movement is up, not down with decreased activity. So, yeah, dunno. Maybe once my hormonal state gets better...
        My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
        When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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        • Pool was unbelievably full yesterday, so I did slow and relaxed swimming first on the lane, but had to get out because two equally hard to bypass slow swimmers equally distributed themselves between the measly two lanes we have. So, went to the lazy river that was not running at the time, and swam slowly in figure 8's until someone asked for it to be turned on. Continued swilling with the current on (kindda fun), then it got too full, so I finished with doing circles around the deep end triangle... steamed for 20 min or so in the steam room, got unusually elevated HR, not sure why.

          Finally, while my kiddo was doing her class, I went to work with the KB. Not a strong workout, just learning moves from KB book I am reading. Windmill with 20 lbs on the floor and 15 on the top to press was pretty harsh, I could do 8 reps top. Shoulders probably was not yet recovered completely, I had to stick to 15 lbs all the time, apart from low windmill. Low wm with a bicep curl is surprisingly hard.

          Aikodo today, not adding a run, just walk at lunch.

          Mom's trip was fine, but with all the jazz got to bed late, by 9 pm, and then the wee one got out of bed and had to read to her.

          Weight this morning was 136.3, argh.
          My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
          When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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          • Weight this morning was 137.1 lbs. On Friday. Which means I will hit 140 by Monday. Did leg BB lifting workout, planted bulbs in the yard with mom and walked a little. Did not think I was bad, but weight keeps coming on like a tidal wave. This morning I woke up an hour later than usual (5:20 am) and still feel groggy. Still tired. I am wondering if eliminating caffeine and art sugar was a mistake. Maybe it was all that held my weight at least around 135.

            I will try to get in a swim today (with a late start pool could be too full to get a lane to swim) but I will at least take mom and kiddo in for playing. UB barbell and KBs tomorrow.

            Also go try a day on apples and yogurt/quark today.
            My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
            When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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            • Weight was down to 135 over the weekend. i did nothing but sit on my butt for Friday and Sat. Went to hapkido on Sunday and for a short walk with mom. I managed to hit my foot during the class, and it just felt a bit off during the day, but before going to bed it hurt like hell, I could barely walk on it. Iced it, took a couple of IBs and slept with it propped on a pillow. Then, this morning it is fine (a bit tender). Fingers crossed it doesn't get worse by the evening, as I do not want to skip aikido!

              Mom lost another 10 lbs during the summer. I am so ashamed of myself, 15 lbs heavier than my mom! Idiotically, the scale shows her at 20% BF, while I sit at 22%. So much for 'no chronic cardio'! model. Mom hates any weight training and dropped the be your own gym in a few days. But she bikes and walks endlessly. And she eats a lot of carbs.
              Last edited by Leida; 09-30-2013, 06:04 AM.
              My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
              When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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              • Hurray, foot was Okay yesterday, so I had mu aikido class. Too bad we are moving to really complicated techniques, it was real brain twister and I am not happy at all about my performance.

                Dentist today to find out what is gonna happen to my tooth and then either KBs or tub/steam room while my baby is swimming depending on how I feel. A walk as well, of course.
                My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                • Ended up doing 35 or so min of KB tossing yesterday. Felt soooo alive! Too bad no time for steam room, but that's life. Baking stretch starts tomorrow. Oh, well.

                  Cupcakes for the before and after school care and cake baking tomorrow after work (maybe I can fit in a swim before plunging in?), then decorating the cake on Friday (gotta collect the dahlias/gladioli bulbs as well & hopefully fit in a bit of lifting). Then, on Sunday gotta bake cookies for charity sale #1 and for mom to take back with her.
                  My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                  When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                  • Aikido yesterday. Was really tired and barely made myself go (the usual, I should do what do not suck at, or at least not in public). But the companionship of the class was very uplifting.

                    I still feel very tight and not limber, which makes my back pain worse. Today I will have to start a more invested stretching regimen. Mom wants me to show her the stretches I do for the back so that's a given.

                    I had an eye-roll this morning because I gained a pound overnight (up to 135.9). And here I was hoping I was losing (135 yesterday very early in the night). Oh, well. I seem to be hungrier yesterday so probably ate too much to lose.

                    Anyway, this morning caught myself being wrapped up in really feeling for Elizabeth Woodville. (Reading Blood Sisters) As much as Richard was sympathetic in some ways, I still feel for EW.

                    Baking starts in 10 or so hours. Bracing!
                    Last edited by Leida; 10-03-2013, 05:48 AM.
                    My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                    When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                    • Apparently it was a PMS pain. Friday, I baked all day on my feet and went for ~ 1 or so walking. Only walking and 30 min elliptical run (~ 400 cal intensity) on Sat and Sunday just walking, completely exhausted and fighting back pain. ~134 lbs over the weekend, not weighing till the period is done. Feeling much better though, hopefully can manage aikido after the dentist tonight!
                      Last edited by Leida; 10-07-2013, 09:49 AM.
                      My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                      When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                      • Craving coffee. Have to be strong. Good thing the coffee machine is broken again!
                        My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                        When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                        • I did not give into the coffee craving, but by the afternoon my 3 hours of sleep stated to show, and after dropping mom off, dentist and picking my kiddo up, I skipped aikido. So just ~ 90 min walking, is all. I am withdrawing from the Nov-Dec aikido class. I just can't manage the 7-9 pm slot on a weeknight. Was doing fine today, apart from back pain fit from 2 to 3 am, but now it's 1 pm, and I start getting huge pressure headache. I was planning KBs during my kid's class, but might have to just run on an elliptical. Sooo tired of feeling unwell.
                          My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                          When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                          • Hey Leida, how are you doing? Last week you posted that you felt you'd hit rock bottom... I hope you're feeling better!

                            Also, con grads on the period
                            "I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.

                            In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."

                            - Ray Peat

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                            • Heya, thank you for dropping by! I feel much better, but endless small aches are annoying!

                              My headache went away after the pressure in the atmosphere got relieved by a HUGE downpour (most of which soaked me en route!). So I did KBs. Kind of 30 min of swinging session. Did not get to lunges, but I think it is a good start.

                              Almost funny, but I managed to pull transverse when foam rolling afterwards. Makes it a bit difficult to breathe. Not too too bad. For me these small injuries indicate that i am still not recovered enough, but on another hand, if I do not exercise I get very stiff, and injure myself. Walking alone is not cutting it. I should try harder to stretch daily!!!

                              I dropped aikido for Nov-Dec, and now do not feel like going at all. Hopefully by the evening this feeling will change! I can benefit from a stretch at least.

                              Overall, I again contemplate living on a more normal human schedule with getting up at 5 am, not 4 am. Today I slept in till about this time, and made it to work by 6:45 am. Will see if working till almost 4 pm is Okay.
                              My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                              When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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                              • The muscule was still sore yesterday, so I skipped aikido. I think it was the right thing to do, as I felt a bit better this morning and the weightwas at 134, so no crazy ups and downs. So, just walking yesterday. Today is my first day of working from home. I really enjoyed sleeping in, feeding my folks a breakfast and walking my kiddo to school. That's life, lol! Anyway, gotta go to my doctor's appt, to hear that there is absolutely nothing wrong with me and all that.
                                My Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread57916.html
                                When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.

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