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    • Glad to see you're still seeing progress! Congratulations on the red dress. Amazing stuff.
      Primal since March 5, 2012
      SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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      • thanks Jenn and Tee.

        I'm lounging in my size 10 pants and loving the hell out of life. I'm so happy my husband hit 201lbs because that was what put us onto this path. I never thought I'd see size 10 again. Never. Or eat bacon every day. Funny.

        Anyway...I am still around, but not sure for how much longer. The new job starts Monday and I think I'll be wicked busy. So much so that I sent my oddly-behaving camera in for service. Yeah, I have a backup body, but I don't know how much serious work I'll be able to do so it seems like a good time.

        Lately I've been working a 20kg kettlebell into my swings. I do 15-20 minutes with the 16kg and then another 5 with the bigger one. I feel the difference, but it's not too much and definitely helps with my grip strength. Hopefully it improves my overall strength so I can start doing Turkish Get-ups with the 16kg kettlebell. Right now I don't feel too safe with it so I'm sticking to the 25lb dumbbell. No sense starting off the new year with a crushed skull.
        5' 9" 47 YO F
        PB start June 2, 2012
        Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
        Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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        • I wish you luck with your new career. How exciting! And congratulations for moving up in weights. That's always exciting. I can't wait til my 12's fit me again! (I gained a little in the last few months by making poor choices). Eventually I'll be back in a 10.
          Primal since March 5, 2012
          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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          • I have confidence in you, Jenn. You're determined and so I'm sure you'll get there.

            Part of what I think makes this type of weight loss effective is that it does take time and I think that allows for the body to adjust to a new weight set-point. At least so far as I understand what a set-point is and why the body defends what it feels is an advantageous weight. By that I mean that if you're not forcing cellular starvation by eating nutrient-poor foods or constantly spiking insulin and fat-storage mode, sending further starvation messages to the system that regulates metabolism and weight, your body isn't so stressed and will use the food you give it rather than store it. Now that insulin has been reduced, it can. As the weight comes off, the body is still not stressed and doesn't fight the new set-point. It's getting nutrients, energy and isn't getting toxins so I think the underlying sense of health is improved. If that makes any sense. I don't think there's an intelligence or consciousness behind metabolism or the body's functionality, but I think there is an optimal target it looks for (in a sense). That's why Primal works; it optimizes everything as much as possible and so a lower natural set-point is attainable. At least that's how it seems for me and why I think keeping weight off is also attainable. My husband has lost what he needed to and is maintaining by adding sweet potatoes into his diet once a day or every other day. Eventually I hope that's me, too. Maybe by my 1 year mark.
            5' 9" 47 YO F
            PB start June 2, 2012
            Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
            Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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            • I think your understanding of how it works is accurate as that's also how I understand it. Our bodies won't hold onto what it doesn't need and as long as it's getting the nutrients it so desperately needs, it's less likely to hoard the excess, provided we work within the confines of biochemistry and keep our insulin down, we won't over-store fat. Idk, maybe I'm not correct there... all I know is it works.
              Primal since March 5, 2012
              SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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              • Well, I hope it is because it seems to work. It feels like my body isn't fighting for every scrap now and actually lets go.

                I decided that before I go out to meet everyone I will work with next week I should get some clothes that fit. My good pants seem to all be size 12 except for one pair of size 10. The 12s are too huge and so I got 2 new pairs today one size 8 one size 10, which just goes to show how all over the place women's sizes are; they both fit basically the same way. They sit just below the natural waist and don't bunch up with a belt. Phew. A few sweaters and one of my black jackets and I'm good. Got new bras, too, because I was swimming in my old ones. Cup size the same, but 2 inches smaller in the rib cage. Woo hoo!! I feel smashing, baby!

                It felt so good not to be digging through the size 12 and 14s. I can't even remember a time when I searched for a 8 and 10s...and I have a feeling those will be big by summer. OMG. It's crazy, but I love it.
                5' 9" 47 YO F
                PB start June 2, 2012
                Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                • Originally posted by June68 View Post
                  Well, I hope it is because it seems to work. It feels like my body isn't fighting for every scrap now and actually lets go.

                  I decided that before I go out to meet everyone I will work with next week I should get some clothes that fit. My good pants seem to all be size 12 except for one pair of size 10. The 12s are too huge and so I got 2 new pairs today one size 8 one size 10, which just goes to show how all over the place women's sizes are; they both fit basically the same way. They sit just below the natural waist and don't bunch up with a belt. Phew. A few sweaters and one of my black jackets and I'm good. Got new bras, too, because I was swimming in my old ones. Cup size the same, but 2 inches smaller in the rib cage. Woo hoo!! I feel smashing, baby!

                  It felt so good not to be digging through the size 12 and 14s. I can't even remember a time when I searched for a 8 and 10s...and I have a feeling those will be big by summer. OMG. It's crazy, but I love it.
                  +1,000,000

                  I can't wait til I can say the same! Starting in October, my eating got out of control and I stopped going to the gym. Now my size 14's fit and my 12's are snug (muffin top, anyone??). I'm holding off on buying new stuff because I am hopeful that my changes will be changing soon. I have heard of a couple of second hand stores near here that are great - one is great for name brand jeans that are next to nothing dirt cheap and one is great for name brand work clothes that are next to nothing dirt cheap... I just have to find the time (and the next to nothing dirt cheap budget) to get some new threads. It's hard to shop with kids in tow.
                  Primal since March 5, 2012
                  SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                  • Thanks Jenn. I can't wait for you to post the same thing. And I can imagine how hard it would be to shop with the two crumb catchers. ; )

                    I haven't gone so far as to buy jeans yet, but I'm sure I'll get there. My ass...well, it could look better so a few more months and that heavier 'bell ought to do it.
                    5' 9" 47 YO F
                    PB start June 2, 2012
                    Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                    Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                    • So my first week of work is over. On the whole the company employee profile seems to be young, fit and energetic. I was probably the 2nd oldest person in the office I visited, just behind the CEO who is in his late 50s/early 60s. It made me very conscious of my physical appearance and I'm doubly, triply happy that I've lost a lot of weight. My style is more conservative, but I look as good as any of them albeit with more gray hair. lol.

                      no scale at the hotel that I could find, but I find a bit more room in some of my casual pants. Things are getting looser and looser and I'm wondering where it will stop. I still have flab to shed so I'm happy that it continues, but need to formulate a plan for when I shouldn't lose more. Such problems to have, right? It still seems like a dream sometimes. I look down and my belly is almost gone. In clothes it looks pretty much flat. I haven't seen that in YEARS.

                      Eating-wise was manageable, but by no means optimal. I didn't have any grain-based food, but I did have some crappy oils and that I felt. Fuzzy head, headache and fatigue. Things I never normally experience. I didn't have time to exercise, but I walked 5 miles yesterday without a problem. Tomorrow I'll probably hit the bell before my meetings start.

                      Sigh.

                      Life is pretty good. I haven't felt happy in years and I'm still a bit overwhelmed by the feeling sometimes. It seems like the second half of my 40s is going to be a lot better than the first.
                      5' 9" 47 YO F
                      PB start June 2, 2012
                      Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                      Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                      • I'm glad to read such a happy update! I hope the second week goes well too!
                        Primal since March 5, 2012
                        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                        • Thanks Jenn.
                          The second week was good. I'm learning more and more about my company, my products and the people I work with. Now I have to turn that knowledge into a business plan for me and my team. I've never had to do that before and so it's going to be a nice challenge to my organizational and leadership skills. All good things. I also have learned that in this job I'm going to have to guard my calendar and my time jealously. Already I've discovered some 'time wasters' who will have to be reigned in so that they don't hog me unnecessarily. It's like that everywhere I suppose, but I'm very aware of it in this job.

                          On another note, I have almost no clothes that fit anymore. They're all size 12 and too big now.

                          I know, I know, what a problem to have.

                          But it is a problem. I have multiple appointments next week and if I wasn't with one person for all of them, I wouldn't sweat it so much, but I don't want to wear the same clothes in front of her. I have 4 pairs of pants and 1 skirt that fit properly, but all my jackets are too big. I have 2 pairs of pants that are borderline, but are too big and several that flat out just don't fit. All the rest of my winter skirts are too big. It's crazy. I think that I'm going to have a big buying splurge come spring when I have a few paychecks under my belt and the spring clothes are out. Hopefully by then my weight has come down to a range that I'll stabilize at. I don't want to say buy size 10 or 8 stuff and end up at a 6 permanently. I know, I know...you cry for me, but dammit I hate wasting money and looking bad and right now I have to do one of those things.

                          Unless I can find a decent consignment store or something that sells stuff I would actually want to be seen in.

                          Oy.

                          Anyway, the Primal life continues. Walked 5 miles yesterday during my usual Saturday fast and all was good. After that made a nice shake with strawberries, cream, a spoon of yogurt, a spoon of protein powder, 2 tbsp light olive oil and water. Those are tasty and a great meal replacement because of the protein and olive oil. I have a feeling they're going to be a staple for me going forward. After that we went to my SIL's house and stayed Primal despite teasing and the offer of cake. At this point they think the WOE is just a big joke, but we don't and it's a bit irritating. We put up with it though.

                          So that's how things are now. My mom had back surgery on Friday so I'll hopefully be seeing her at home later today. If she's still in a really bad way they will keep her another night. I hope this is the beginning of a healing process for her though.
                          5' 9" 47 YO F
                          PB start June 2, 2012
                          Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                          Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                          • So I went to see my mom. She's doing much better although she has a long recovery ahead. While I was there I got on her scale.



                            I weigh 153 pounds in all my clothes!!!!


                            OMFG!


                            I haven't weighed this little in over a decade. Seriously.

                            To celebrate I had 2 pieces of bacon.
                            5' 9" 47 YO F
                            PB start June 2, 2012
                            Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                            Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                            • Congratulations! That's so awesome! I can't wait to get to the 150's...

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                              • Thanks kcarol. I'm so stunned I can hardly believe this is happening to me. I really thought I'd be the fat girl for the rest of my life. So to be back at a weight that doesn't embarrass me is amazing. Another 10lbs lost will be perfect I think. I still have some flabbiness around the waist and thighs. Still, I'm so pleased that I lost so much and didn't have to kill myself to do it.
                                5' 9" 47 YO F
                                PB start June 2, 2012
                                Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                                Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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