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  • Hmmm... interesting that they would fear a camera as a detonating device...
    Primal since March 5, 2012
    SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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    • It's an all or nothing thing I think. Same goes for an ebook reader like a Nook or Kindle. They don't have the time to deal with people sneaking in exceptions, so a blanket "anything with an off swtich" applies. I understand it, but fundamentally a lot of it is silly.

      Kale anyone??



      This was taken on the way to Hahn Winery, it's in the Salinas Valley, America's Salad Bowl.
      5' 9" 47 YO F
      PB start June 2, 2012
      Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
      Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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      • actually now that I look at it, I think those are collards up there.

        One thing I think we're going to think about more is doing our own cooking while on vacation. We've NEVER done it before because most of the time we don't have a kitchen, but on our very last night we did and decided to brave the hideous San Jose traffic to find a grocery store. The one we found was a huge Asian market and lo and behold we found some good things to work with -



        No oven, so we had sauteed pork belly, chicken legs, zucchini and tomatoes. We had a lot left over and didn't eat all of them. I feel bad that they probably got thrown away, but what the heck. The funniest part was using only tiny packets of salt and pepper for seasoning. If we decide to stay in a hotel like this in future, we'll probably bring a few little baggies of other spices. And some olive oil. But that's later.

        I brought home our side of pork yesterday and we're having the chops tonight...might have to break out an extra special bottle of wine since it's our anniversary. Maybe a Domain Serene Evenstad or an Argyle sparkling. I was just rooting around in the wine fridge (what a big mess, I really gotta do an inventory) rearranging stuff that we should drink soon. We're so unorganized. I can only imagine what the freezer is going to look like when we get our side of beef. Oy!

        I noticed, but didn't participate in, a thread about low carb on a totally unrelated board. Amazing how much confusing and erroneous info is out there. Granted, I fell for it, too and spent many years doing the totally wrong things believing I wasn't, but boy does it seem pitiful from this side. Not that I think I'm perfect, but I'm doing the basics and I feel awesome so I don't want to tweak or change. I was tempted by some Milano cookies on vacation, but it wasn't hard to resist. I just didn't want to run the risk of feeling shitty. Not at this stage of the game.

        Oh and this is funny - last night I dreamt I had a beer and that it tasted awfully sweet and I didn't like it. In the dream it felt forbidden and strange, but I was laughing so I guess it was good. I forgot about it until later, but my husband will get a laugh out of it.

        Been doing a lot of walking and now that autumn is upon us, I expect it to continue...fall in New England is heaven. Still swinging the bell and doing a little lifting. Nothing intense. I'm still strong enough to lift and carry the big box of pork which had to be 60-70lbs and awkward with it, so I think my level of fitness is pretty good. Hopefully will do some higher altitude, more intense hiking next week in the White Mountains. Come on weather...give me some color, baby!

        5' 9" 47 YO F
        PB start June 2, 2012
        Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
        Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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        • Beautiful picture! Brad and I are making a day trip to Wisconsin tomorrow. The leaves always change a bit faster north of us, so I'm taking the camera with me. I can't wait to see the reds!!

          I remember taking a family trip back in the day (I think I was 10) and we stayed in a suite. The suite had a kitchen, but we ate out for every meal. That wouldn't happen now. When my husband and I went on our honeymoon, we stayed in a cabin on Table Rock Lake (it's near the Ozarks in Missouri, but closer to Branson, if you need a landmark). We got food for the week and cooked at the cabin every night. It was nice. We ate some lunches out, but most nights we utilized the grill. That was our first experience with a Tri-Tip sirloin and since then haven't been able to find one locally, but Wellness Meats carries them. Plan to get a few in the future. We loved it.

          Half a beef... that'd be so nice to have. I have the number for a local grass fed farmer. Gotta check her price against a not-so-local-but-local-still farmer that sells over the interwebz... whichever one is cheaper will win my biz... We have the opportunity to buy a pig - a whole pig - from a local farmer for $125 plus processing, but I don't think his practices are up to Paleo standards. I'm sure he feeds grain and soy to the pigs... maybe not soy. Have to ask him. But they are pastured, so at least they're happy pigs. If only that was enough...
          Primal since March 5, 2012
          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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          • Thanks Jenn. I hope your trip went well. From your journal I know you got dropped in the shit, but you're sorting it. I read it, but as I'm not a mom and have had exactly 2 fights with my husband in 18 years, I have no advice to give. I couldn't do what you do on the best day, so...I hope you and Brad make things better for all of you.

            Anyway, I've been keeping on. I need to put my nose to the grindstone about an idea that got some validation the other day by someone in the industry I'm thinking of serving. Fall keeps getting in my way although the weather has been shitty for the most part. I do like being able to go out and do some fairly long or strenuous hiking and feel totally energized and not have to eat. Saves time for more photography -





            Alcohol continues to be my sticking point. Some of the wine we ordered while in Paso Robles last month is coming in and I have to do quality control, don't you know. Oy, sometimes I wish I'd never discovered wine beyond the supermarket basics. Now drinking water with meals seems childish and the food seems incomplete.

            I also wish my husband would come home. I'm sick of cold steak which is all we have for leftovers. Cooking just freaks me out and I don't dare do much beyond bacon and eggs. Ruined failures of the past haunt me. He thinks I should try slow cooker stuff, but even that spooks me so I didn't thaw anything since he's been gone (Sunday). I've watched him cook for almost 2 decades and you'd think enough would have sunk in to make me brave, but not really. I should have him actually teach me. Eating primally is a LOT more work than SAD, that's for sure. Maybe I should be come a raw vegan.

            Well, I can feel this lovely coffee percolating through my veins so I think it's time to swing the bell!
            5' 9" 47 YO F
            PB start June 2, 2012
            Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
            Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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            • Beautiful pictures!!

              Cooking really isn't that difficult, really. It's just heating food. With practice comes more confidence. I hope hubby returns quickly and is willing to teach you - or maybe you can look into culinary classes at a local community college to help teach you the basics??
              Primal since March 5, 2012
              SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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              • Oh he can teach me...stuff like time, temperature ... it baffles. I need concrete parameters and I know a lot of cooking falls outside that so...it freaks me out. But he knows this about me (at least he should by now) and can cope. Eeek. The funny thing is, I make killer risotto.

                Anyway, I forgot a couple of things in my last post.

                I've noticed that while I'm still waking multiple times a night, I stay awake for less time and I now sleep until about 7 again. Right in line with sunrise. This leads me to conclude my sleep is getting better and that it's definitely tied to the diurnal cycle. Things will probably get weird when we move the clocks again, but at least now I understand why I was waking up so early in summer; because I get up with the sun and it gets up earlier then. Interesting. I'd never really noticed before.

                Second, intense exercise does make me ravenous. I did 20 minutes of kb swings, plus 5 mins TGUs w/the 25lb db as a warm up and then 5 sets of 'pick up the baby' with the bell. Wanted to do more swings, but my wrist said no. It's pretty exhausting and even though I just ate quite a bit, I still feel as though I could eat more. I won't. Not until actual hunger pangs ensue, but it's funny how my brain thinks I should eat more. I definitely feel the difference between this workout and walking or hiking. Maybe it's because usually when I'm hiking, I'm distracted by photography, but walking doesn't produce this level of psychic-hunger. No wonder people go nuts when they exercise a lot. Being mindful of this will help me not eat since I know that I don't need it either calorically or nutritionally.
                5' 9" 47 YO F
                PB start June 2, 2012
                Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                • Your brain is telling you to eat b/c your leptin is telling your brain you just worked out and that burned fat and now your fat stores are low... leptin, based on what I've read, is the start of EVERYTHING in our bodies. Luckily, your mind knows that leptin is being dumb.
                  Primal since March 5, 2012
                  SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                  • I think you're right, Jenn. I know some don't have the ability to rule their own bodies, but I do. When I know I've eaten enough, I just ignore my desire to eat more. The feeling nags for a bit, then fades.

                    Even though I'm not active here, I'm still Primal and haven't left the path. Sometimes this new way of fueling myself surprises me. I went hiking yesterday. No big deal. I wanted a sunrise from the top of a mountain, so headlamped myself up Mt. Major. Steep, rocky, running with mud and water. Yay. Basically did it on very little sleep and a breakfast of a couple macadamia nuts, yogurt and coffee. No problem and felt energetic and good all morning. Freezing at the top and wicked windy so my panorama shots are soft and I'm not sure I actually even like them. I struck gold on the way down though -



                    I put a fair bit of work into that shot, all while racing the sun so it wouldn't get high enough to blow the highlights in the water. Just made it.

                    Anyway...sleep continues to be my big problem. I NEVER sleep through a night no matter what. Neither does my husband. It's insane. We do our best to manage blue v. yellow light, limit late computer time etc, but we still don't sleep all night. I've mixed in melatonin, magnesium etc, and zero effect. Sometimes supplemental melatonin makes it worse. I try to get outside regularly so that my own levels regulate, but it seems I sleep worse now than ever. Maddening.

                    In a few minutes I'm leaving to see my GP. I wonder if anyone will ask about my weight loss, which as far as I know, is still at 15 pounds. Substantial enough to call attention to it I think and I'm sort of excited to hear feedback.
                    5' 9" 47 YO F
                    PB start June 2, 2012
                    Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                    Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                    • Official doctor's office scale weight loss is 17 pounds!

                      New # is 162!
                      5' 9" 47 YO F
                      PB start June 2, 2012
                      Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                      Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                      • Congratulations!!! Awesome progress! And beautiful shot!!

                        I find that 500 mg of magnesium at night is enough to knock me out each night, provided my kids don't wake me up a couple hundred times a night.
                        Primal since March 5, 2012
                        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                        • I'm still around and if anyone's interested I've gone off my asthma meds.

                          I still have 2 inhalers in case symptoms return, but after the insurance company pissed me off about a co-pay, I decided to see if I could manage without meds. It's been since November 6. Not a big deal, right? Well for me it is. I've been a SEVERE and chronic asthma sufferer since I was 4. They even had to take away MY PONY!!

                          That's right.

                          Asthma cost me Golden Boy, my palomino pony. In what universe should a little girl lose her pony?? It's a wonder I'm not a raging psychotic.

                          Anyway...after years of everyone telling me I'd grow out of it, living in a house that very nearly killed me (pets, wool rugs, wood stove heating) and attacks that lasted 12-36 hours and would leave me rigid with exhaustion, it only got worse. Hospitalizations were frequent. Every cold I ever had turned into bronchitis. I went on antibiotics at least once a year if not more. Prednisone became a constant companion; oh those cute little stair-like dosepaks. Every new drug that came out for asthma I tried. Lots of things with the word 'cort' in them. Oy.

                          Once when I was 26, I went to the emergency room TWICE on Christmas Eve.

                          Yep. Twice. So many nebulizer treatments. Chest x-rays. Lots of epinephrine (the ONLY fun part - wheee!). Oy. Fake Christmas trees in my future after that.

                          So around 10 years ago I went on Advair and have been virtually symptom-free ever since. From using my "emergency" inhaler 10 times a day (really, I did) to maybe twice a year was a life-changing thing. I wasn't chained anymore. I wasn't scared. My twice-annual visits to the ER ceased. Wow. I even lived through a bout of pneumonia, something previous doctors said I couldn't do.

                          Now having this same result without the drugs is doing my head in. The things that scored high on the allergy panel are still in my environment. Pollen, dander, cats, dogs, mold, dust mites...all that stuff is still around me, but hasn't caused me symptoms in the last 10 days without meds. I guess altering gene expression is something within reach. Something I always thought was a bit of a stretch if you know what I mean. Like, oh sure, I can suddenly talk my body out of reacting in a way I don't even control. Like autonomic nerve function.

                          But it seems I have. Putting it together I suppose it goes like this - overall inflammation and immune response is down. My system is no longer so intensely stimulated, meaning the overall level of irritation and need for immune response is less - I'm not in a constant state of high alert. Now when an irritant enters my system it can be dealt with effectively, suppressing symptoms that would normally punch through the very minimal response my body was able to mount in the past, with all the resources already working so hard. And possibly my gut is no longer riddled with holes that allow foreign bodies to get through and screw with me.

                          So, there is hope. I'd love to be one of those rare individuals NOT ON MEDS in middle age. It would be amazing to go back to my doctor in the spring and tell her I haven't been using any prescriptions since November. I think she'd be stunned. And I'd love to be the cause.
                          5' 9" 47 YO F
                          PB start June 2, 2012
                          Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                          Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                          • That is amazing news! I'm so excited for you! I hope it continues to improve like this. No one should have to deal with something as debilitating as not being able to breathe!


                            P.S. Glad you're back.
                            Primal since March 5, 2012
                            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                            • Hey thanks.
                              What a coincidence that today's email has a question about asthma. Funny. But I feel great and still no meds. It's stunning.

                              And I had a terrific conversation today with a CEO about a job, so things are looking up. There's a way to go with it, but at least I feel like I can return to working and be a productive person again.
                              5' 9" 47 YO F
                              PB start June 2, 2012
                              Pre PB SW = 180 (no scale at home, Mom's scale January - 153lbs!)
                              Current deadlift 245 lbs, squat 165 lbs, bench press 135 lbs


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                              • Even more great news!! Keep it coming!
                                Primal since March 5, 2012
                                SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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