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  • I generally visit your tumblr blerg to track your progress which has been great to see and read about. Some of the recent face pictures reminded me of Amy Lee. I searched for pictures of her and came to the conclusion that she doesn't have dem cheekbones

    Regarding the lifting and people: Do you think you need a deload week to recover mentally and physically?

    I generally accept that everyone in the gym might look at me (at some point) and I'm projecting because I generally look at everyone when I'm there.

    Anytime I see a girl doing real lifts (almost never) I'm always impressed no matter what condition her physique is currently in or how much she's lifting. I've definitely never seen a girl testing her 1RM.

    I'm saddened by those who spend their entire time in the gym on a treadmill or other piece of cardio equipment. Relating directly to what you talked about, one day a girl said she was too intimidated by guys to lift in the same area so she spends her time on the cardio machines or somewhere on the opposite side of the gym. I told her she should just lift like the "bros" and grunt and stuff. It lightened the mood and those of us talking about it all got a good laugh. I haven't seen her since.

    So yeah, I hope everything gets better.

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    • Oh man I didn't realise anyone from this forum actually looked at my blog. The link in my signature was broken for so long and no one even noticed so I figured no one was clicking it anyway hahahaha.

      I suppose Amy Lee has the dark hair and light eyes. And I can kind of see similarities in general face structure. One person someone told me I look like (who I'd never seen before) and actually find really weird is Ana Barros, because she looks like my Nana would have when she was young, which is where I got the cheeks!

      I don't know if I can do a deload week, honestly. I've been going to the gym for 18months consistently and it's like, more than the gym to me now. I always say I'm going to and then don't do it. The best I can manage is deloading one lift at a time. So like recently I took a 10 day break between bench sessions. I've also been having longer breaks than normal between deadlift sessions. I feel like my life is empty without the gym now lol. All I do is gym, uni, work, sleep, eat.

      Yes and see I look at everyone in the gym too, and just have little thoughts and ideas about them. Because that's what people do. So I don't think it's unreasonable to assume people do the same to me, which is why when I try to tell myself that no one cares and no one is looking... I can't make myself believe it.

      I dunno I tend to probably blow my issues up out of proportion with the gym. I've been lifting for over a year, so it's not like I haven't had to "get over it" hundreds of times. I think women rarely do feel like they belong in that area though. Even with me being the only person in the gym who actually uses the squat rack for squats.... and I still don't feel like I have any sort of ties to being accepted. Especially if there's a guy in the gym who I've never seen before, he won't know that I use that stuff too. So he's super inconsiderate thinking he's the only one on the gym who would use that stuff but really I'm waiting to use it too, and normally use it every day.... And the guys who are regulars all know eachother but then I'm still there as an outsider. I don't go to the gym to make friends but you know, all of those things play a role in shaping the experience.

      I wonder if as well, it's because when I was bigger, I just wrote everything off like "no one cares, I'm fat". I know that sounds harsh but it was my security blanket, in a way. You get use to being invisible. So I would do my thing in the gym knowing that no one was checking me out, no one was looking at my butt, no one cared what I was doing.

      I honestly suspect I've maybe clocked up more time in that gym than any other member this year. I'd be in the top 5, that's for sure. It's frustrating that I still have these thoughts, it all seems so petty to me really.

      But as I said in the original post, I think it's all tied up with issues to do with being a big person becoming a not-so-big person in general. I think there's lots of complicated psychology there because suddenly everyone elses view of you changes and you're not really prepared for it.

      I'm the same me, to me. But to others I'm not. And it's a bit hard to swallow. Like suddenly I'm a more valuable or worthwhile person because my encasement has changed. But I've always liked me.
      Current weight lost: 82.9lb (37.6kg)

      Current PRs:
      Bench: 45kg/99lb
      Squat: 100kg/220lb
      Deadlift: 120kg/265lb

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      • Amazing progress! Just what I needed to see today...I've had a harried week and have eaten poorly. Can't seem to find any motivation to eat better and ta-dah! Proof that transformations are possible! Thank you for sharing this.

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        • Awesome! The difference between that 1st pic and the most recent is incredible.
          If you're interested in my (very) occasional updates on how I'm working out and what I'm eating click here.

          Originally posted by tfarny
          If you are new to the PB - please ignore ALL of this stuff, until you've read the book, or at least http://www.marksdailyapple.com/primal-blueprint-101/

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          • Wow, congrats! I'd say success is already yours!

            I know what you mean about being treated differently, people make more and longer eye contact, are more prone to forgiving mistakes, it's almost like a magic. Eerie to have been the "ignored" and suddenly be more "in". Sometimes I still forget I'm not fat and zitty, lol.
            Crohn's, doing SCD

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            • Originally posted by Knifegill View Post
              Wow, congrats! I'd say success is already yours!

              I know what you mean about being treated differently, people make more and longer eye contact, are more prone to forgiving mistakes, it's almost like a magic. Eerie to have been the "ignored" and suddenly be more "in". Sometimes I still forget I'm not fat and zitty, lol.
              Still so much work to be done! Haha I don't think there is an "endpoint" to any of this though is there. Luckily I love it.

              Yes it's weird. Men hold doors for me all the time now. And the eye contact thing still freaks me out - I always wonder if there's food on my face or something people are looking at

              Originally posted by Misabi View Post
              Awesome! The difference between that 1st pic and the most recent is incredible.
              Hahahah to be fair that first pic is very unpleasant. I don't have many pics from that time though, that was 2011. Needless to say I wasn't really seeking out cameras.

              Originally posted by Clabbergirl View Post
              Amazing progress! Just what I needed to see today...I've had a harried week and have eaten poorly. Can't seem to find any motivation to eat better and ta-dah! Proof that transformations are possible! Thank you for sharing this.
              Aw you are welcome. If it helps anyone then I'm pleased!
              Current weight lost: 82.9lb (37.6kg)

              Current PRs:
              Bench: 45kg/99lb
              Squat: 100kg/220lb
              Deadlift: 120kg/265lb

              My blog
              My journal

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              • Wow, Nixxy - just WOW! And the selfies on your blog are gorgeous too.
                I have the simplest tastes. I am always satisfied with the best.

                Oscar Wilde

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                • Originally posted by Sigi View Post
                  Wow, Nixxy - just WOW! And the selfies on your blog are gorgeous too.
                  Arggggh THE PRIMAL COMMUNITY IS STALKING MY BLOG!

                  Hahahaha no but thank you
                  Current weight lost: 82.9lb (37.6kg)

                  Current PRs:
                  Bench: 45kg/99lb
                  Squat: 100kg/220lb
                  Deadlift: 120kg/265lb

                  My blog
                  My journal

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                  • Guess who is in onederland

                    omg i never thought id see the day

                    199.5
                    Current weight lost: 82.9lb (37.6kg)

                    Current PRs:
                    Bench: 45kg/99lb
                    Squat: 100kg/220lb
                    Deadlift: 120kg/265lb

                    My blog
                    My journal

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                    • That is so Onderful!!

                      You have done an amazing job.

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                      • Originally posted by vh67 View Post
                        That is so Onderful!!

                        You have done an amazing job.
                        Thank you!! I am like squealing with excitement
                        Current weight lost: 82.9lb (37.6kg)

                        Current PRs:
                        Bench: 45kg/99lb
                        Squat: 100kg/220lb
                        Deadlift: 120kg/265lb

                        My blog
                        My journal

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                        • Originally posted by nixxy View Post
                          Guess who is in onederland

                          omg i never thought id see the day

                          199.5
                          W00t!!
                          I have the simplest tastes. I am always satisfied with the best.

                          Oscar Wilde

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                          • Originally posted by nixxy
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                            And I didnt lose my butt!

                            Evidenced by the fact I can still hit my 100kg squat PR which just makes me so so so happy
                            Happy for you too nixxy, well done!
                            If you're interested in my (very) occasional updates on how I'm working out and what I'm eating click here.

                            Originally posted by tfarny
                            If you are new to the PB - please ignore ALL of this stuff, until you've read the book, or at least http://www.marksdailyapple.com/primal-blueprint-101/

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                            • Originally posted by nixxy
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                              And I didnt lose my butt!

                              Evidenced by the fact I can still hit my 100kg squat PR which just makes me so so so happy
                              You most certainly did not lose it! You have a very nice posterior chain :-)

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                              • Hehe thanks guys!!
                                Current weight lost: 82.9lb (37.6kg)

                                Current PRs:
                                Bench: 45kg/99lb
                                Squat: 100kg/220lb
                                Deadlift: 120kg/265lb

                                My blog
                                My journal

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