i have reached rock-bottom. i was in a car accident about 6 weeks ago and since december have just been eating through every large latin emotion that i have. i went to the doctor for my annual girly check up and i now tip the scale at over 150 lbs. now I KNOW that that isn't very large, but i'm 5'3 and i am most comfortable between 120 and 125. i'm really not sure how it all happened (okay, okay...i'm actually positive how it all happened but it's easier sometimes to pretend all that weight was just waiting in the bushes one night and jumped onto my bones.).
the worst part for me, though, is that i had gone primal this past summer and was getting in phenomenal shape, my bouts of depression were fading away, and my energy level was through the roof (even wore a thong bikini to the beach!!!!) and now, this.
i could totally psychoanalyze myself, but we all know the story. it's been told a million times with slightly different details. of course, i was in total denial until the doctor incident and then i went to see a friend of mine who is a personal trainer. he is not very tall, granted, but i'm only 5'3 and somehow i felt like a large, formless giant. my amazing dancer legs were just flabby, nearly shapeless things holding up a dumpy body (the rack is still formidable, thank goddess!) and for the first time IN MY LIFE, my belly folds over itself instead of just looking a little poochy.
and then, there is the totally out-of-shapeness going on. i am breathless walking to the kitchen for more cupcakes.
SO...it is time....primal, let's hang out okay? i know that we had a great relationship and i went back to my old loves, but you know they never did treat me as well as you. so can we take it slow and get to know each other again?
as for the practical plan of it all:
1. i will eat purely primal 80-90% of the time.
2. i will drink my herbal infusions for maximum nourishment (www.susunweed.com)
3. i will go for walks, lift heavy things, sprint once in a while, and play a whole lot.
4. i will keep myself accountable with entries here of what i eat and what activities i do during the day.
5. i will celebrate the earth and her cycles.
6. i will keep it simple.