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  • Have you tried avocado with butter? I was craving for shortbread biscuits, knew it was the butter I really wanted, so I went feral and started scraping butter from the stick with a spoon and then scooping up avo with the same spoon. Straight into mouth. Highly recommended.

    I also read somewhere on MDA that this guy scoops butter with walnuts and chomps it down - sounds like heaven but I'm cutting out nuts for a bit. Addictive little buggers -_-

    Anyway this rambling was to say enjoy your alone time! Rest well

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    • Since I began eating more primal, my skin looks so much better. I can definitely tell when I have some sugar though. This may sound crazy, but I also switched my usual face lotion to coconut oil. My skin is so soft and glowing! I would recommend giving it a try. It did not clog my pores like I thought it would. In fact, I usually have very rough pores around my nose and chin and they are so much better now. I also put a drop of melaleuca essential oil and mix it with the coconut oil, it is supposed to help with acne and other skin problems. If you are interested, check out doTerra, it is absolutely the best.

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      • Blerg. Just had a super sugary lunch. Didn't have time to make so downed a banana with some almond butter, a handfull of cranberries, and a bowl of coleslaw. On some level I know this is not going to keep me going for the day, but I am in super need of electrolytes and for some reason I thought cranberries would be good for that? FAulty thinking? I think so. I also made some really disgusting rehydration lemonade (my nalgene filled with water, juice of one lemon, about a teaspoon of salt (gag) and a tablespoon of sugar. I know, I know, bad sugar, but how else do you make salt water drinkable).

        ALSO I have been really smelly lately. Like, REALLY SMELLY. I used to have gas problems in high school that have essentially ended since cutting out grains (woot!) but for some reason they've come back the past few days with force. Nuts? Too much sugar from fruit? Is it a sign of something wonderful happening that I just can't pinpoint? That, I doubt, but here's hoping someone else has the answer.

        Jacq - My new thing is dousing sweet potatoes with tons of butter. I also started just licking spoonfuls, something I NEVER imagined myself doing, but avocado too? Sounds yum. I wish they grew closer to me...they taste like water imported <lesigh>

        Montana - I've heard tale of the wonders of coconut oil on skin but always felt it would clog pores too. Do you know if you can just use your standard cooking oil or does it need to be a little higher quality? Never had too many issues with my skin although every once in a while zits pop up. They're usually when I've had too much sugar (utoh...worried what happens after today!!)

        Having 2 dark chocolate squares to wash this all down. Need to buy better quality chocolate.

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        • OMG get off the pill. Honestly it is not doing anything for you. It actually disrupts your gut and can cause dysbiosis, and then you end up with a leaky gut and advantageous bad bacteria populating your small intestine. Be forewarned that the pill may also be masking any hormonal balances you have. Additionally it takes a full year for your body to recover and hormones to normalize. I totally recommended reading Taking Charge of Your Fertility it will blow your mind, and make you pissed that no one ever taught you about your cycles. Your ladyparts will thank you.

          Sugars and starches (sweet potato) feed the yeast in your gut and cause you to toot toot more than a train. Here's what Dr. Natasha Campbell-Mcbride says, "Yes, gas is produced largely by fungi in the gut. Some amount of gas is normal, but not too much. You do not have to go back to the Intro [GAPS] diet, but just remove foods for a while which may be feeding fungi."

          Virgin coconut oil is super awesome for your skin due to all the medium chain fatty acids, which are exactly what inhabits skin. Refined coconut oil is comedogenic, so only use that as an April fool's joke on your enemy.

          OMG I'm a nutrition nerd!

          I also love the vino, what's your fave?
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          • I use nutriva exta vergin coconut oil for cooking and my skin, it's totally awesome!

            I notice I have more gas when I eat a lot of protein, like 140+ grams of it. I never really noticed with sugar. Increasing my dietary fat in the beginning had the same effect, but that has since gone away. Anytime I cut something out for a while and then re-introduce it, my digestive tract is not impressed. Is there something you have not had for awhile that was re-introduced?

            I can definitely vouge for the pill masking hormonal imbalances. I started taking it in high school b/c my periods were so irregular. I did not know that it was b/c of hormonal imbalances. 6 mo. After I quit taking it, I got pregnant, it was still regulating my hormones. Now, as you know, I can't conceive. It's kinda scary what BC does to your body. It also made me moody and irritable.

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            • Originally posted by me2 View Post
              OMG get off the pill. Honestly it is not doing anything for you. It actually disrupts your gut and can cause dysbiosis, and then you end up with a leaky gut and advantageous bad bacteria populating your small intestine. Be forewarned that the pill may also be masking any hormonal balances you have. Additionally it takes a full year for your body to recover and hormones to normalize. I totally recommended reading Taking Charge of Your Fertility it will blow your mind, and make you pissed that no one ever taught you about your cycles. Your ladyparts will thank you.

              Sugars and starches (sweet potato) feed the yeast in your gut and cause you to toot toot more than a train. Here's what Dr. Natasha Campbell-Mcbride says, "Yes, gas is produced largely by fungi in the gut. Some amount of gas is normal, but not too much. You do not have to go back to the Intro [GAPS] diet, but just remove foods for a while which may be feeding fungi."

              Virgin coconut oil is super awesome for your skin due to all the medium chain fatty acids, which are exactly what inhabits skin. Refined coconut oil is comedogenic, so only use that as an April fool's joke on your enemy.

              OMG I'm a nutrition nerd!

              I also love the vino, what's your fave?


              GAAAAAAAH! OKAY!!!!! TERRIFIED TO VERY CORE!!!! I Have been contemplating quitting the pill for a while. Started the idea thought process in Guatemala when my sitemate started getting really into women's health, read a bunch of stuff, and started getting to know her body. The idea was weird to me (society puts such a taboo on talking about lady parts or knowing anything about WHAT THE FUCK is going on down there) but I have been toying wiht the idea a lot lately. My original plan was to finish the packets that I had (got stocked up on stuff before I left guatemala) and then quit at the end of the summer, but maybe I'll just stop now. Just finished a packet, what better time to start? I also forget to take it ALL THE TIME and that can't be good for me. Hm....almost convinced.

              and it is DEFINITELY the sugar that's making me toot. I have been eating way more fruit lately than I've been used to, and can't even describe the craziness that went in to my body yesterday (don't remember it all). I will stick to eating sweet potatoes because I love them and they are yummy and perfect, but starting tomorrow will try to really limit sugars for the week and try to recognize impact on gassyness.

              p.s. I love your nerdiness. I am an aspiring nutrition nerd, so I have much to learn.

              As for vino, I try not to discriminate. Don't want to leave the kiddos feeling badly when they're not my favorite. Although, I will say that a good earthy Malbec, preferably washing down a hunk of grilled lamb, generally makes me sing hymns of joy and praise. Have also lately been into Syrah.

              Would love to know the explanation behind your editing reasoning

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              • Originally posted by primalmontana View Post
                I use nutriva exta vergin coconut oil for cooking and my skin, it's totally awesome!

                I notice I have more gas when I eat a lot of protein, like 140+ grams of it. I never really noticed with sugar. Increasing my dietary fat in the beginning had the same effect, but that has since gone away. Anytime I cut something out for a while and then re-introduce it, my digestive tract is not impressed. Is there something you have not had for awhile that was re-introduced?

                I can definitely vouge for the pill masking hormonal imbalances. I started taking it in high school b/c my periods were so irregular. I did not know that it was b/c of hormonal imbalances. 6 mo. After I quit taking it, I got pregnant, it was still regulating my hormones. Now, as you know, I can't conceive. It's kinda scary what BC does to your body. It also made me moody and irritable.
                I (in part) am on the pill for period regularity as well, although I'd be intrigued to see how my recent dietary changes (primal) impact that. I do notice I'm a lot happier when I'm not on it too. Hmm...you ladies may be on to something...

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                • Okay, yesterday's update. GAH!

                  Food
                  I will not bother recounting my meals as they were heinous. Cheat cheat cheat cheat cheat. Here are the cheats:

                  too much fruit
                  goat cheese on fruit
                  lots of chocolate
                  lots more fruit
                  GORGE almond butter
                  so many cranberries
                  sugar in homemade lemonade for rehydration - huge fail, still tasted like salt water
                  um......some more fruit
                  too much alcohol (6 mixed drinks...mostly tequila...lots of tequila)
                  onion rings
                  bite of mac and cheese
                  french fries
                  PIZZA!

                  Clearly, drinking leads to bad decisions. I drank way too much, but once it starts, it is hard to stop. Yikes.

                  Exercise
                  Farm labor. Walking downtown. More farm labor.

                  Mood
                  Wonky, very up and down, blaming it on sugar and birth control fail

                  Energy
                  after my sugar binge at "lunch" I had a burst of BUZZZZZZING where I was super unfocused but bouncing around, then I crashed. Should've expected that.

                  Acne
                  No change.

                  Whoops! To start again.

                  Unfortunately today has not been much better. Exhaustion does that to me. I woke up still drunk and skipped breakfast. BAD MOVE! I Don't understand all these people who don't eat breakfast, who like to workout early without eating first. FAIL. I felt nauseous and light headed all morning. Then came home, supposedly to a family lunch of salmon and greens but couldn't hold out so ate a bunch. apple, goat cheese, just needed food. Reminder to self - ALWAYS EAT BREAKFAST

                  Food
                  12:00 - 4 eggs, sweet potato hash browns (maybe half a large sweet potato), small green apple with goat cheese, 2 dark chocolate squares, some cherries in there, spoonful of almond butter I think? (can't remember....bad sign)
                  6:00 - a lot of cheese to stave off starvation pre-dinner. grilled chicken (it really wasn't good...tasted like water) with a bunch of kale with butter and parmesan cheese, a few slices of potato with sour cream. 3 chocolate squares. a few cherries

                  Heavy dairy day. Interesting. I definitely notice sugar cravings kicking in. Damnit.

                  Exercise
                  Killed myself on the farm. Squatting and standing all day. Hoeing at the end. Lots of bending over. Back pains. Need to bend better.

                  Mood
                  Fine? Nothing noticeable in either direction.

                  Energy
                  Sleepy. Clearly too much alcohol plus too little sleep equals sleepiness. I'm not going to say no breakfast helped that.

                  Acne
                  No change.

                  Need to kick this sugar crap. Tomorrow I have some quality ice cream planned with family (avoiding boxed brownies and crap ice cream) and then might try and do a long yin yoga session to rekick myself into gear. I finally feel like I'm in a place where I have a handle on my life again. Relieving.

                  Also, I think I decided that after this month I'm going off of birth control. I guess next week then because just finished taking the hormone pills. It seems very contradictory that I am putting so much emphasis on repairing my body and then still pumping it with false hormones. Any guidance is appreciated. The idea of getting pregnant right now is terrifying.

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                  • Also going out for a friend's birthday tonight and am going to try not to drink. Drank enough last night for the week (and spent enough money as well...soooo)

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                    • "Clearly, drinking leads to bad decisions. I drank way too much, but once it starts, it is hard to stop. Yikes."

                      Drinking ALWAYS leads to me making the worst food choices! Last time it was about 3 prices of Bday cake and licking frosting as I threw the rest away! I find that wine does not quite make me binge. But, who drinks wine when there out on the town!!?? I'm a vodka girl myself...

                      Wipe your conscious clean of the poor food choices, tomorrow is another day.

                      "Also, I think I decided that after this month I'm going off of birth control. I guess next week then because just finished taking the hormone pills. It seems very contradictory that I am putting so much emphasis on repairing my body and then still pumping it with false hormones. Any guidance is appreciated. The idea of getting pregnant right now is terrifying."

                      Make sure you are tracking your cycle. There are plenty of apps to help you do this- quick and easy. The run- down of it though is that there is a VERY small window in your cycle in which you can conceive, about 3 days. Typically, it is around day 15 of your cycle. You would want to abstain or protect the day prior and after ovulation (or 2 days on each side to be safe.) If your hormones are functioning properly, your body will go through some obvious changes at ovulation. Increased temp., increased sex drive, creamy/egg-white type discharge (I could find a better way to say this!). So you can track these things carefully the first couple months until you are familiar w/your cycle. It will probably be spot on day 15 b/c you have been on birth control for so long. You could also do an ovulation test the first couple months. Get a 5-day one and start it on day 12 of your cycle. Wow, I should be an OB!

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                      • Originally posted by primalmontana View Post
                        But, who drinks wine when there out on the town!!?? I'm a vodka girl myself...
                        I've always been a tequila fan. Funny, I know this is the opposite of true for everyone, but it's the only thing that doesn't send me into lala land (As long as I stick to just tequila and don't mix...mixing is downhill). I'm usually pretty good at controlling but not when other people are buying me drinks and constantly replenishing. And then...onion rings...yum

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                        • In a very bad place

                          Feeling poopy. Had an incredible yoga class today - really needed it - fell asleep in almost EVERY pose (it was yin so I deem it acceptable) and then ate brownie batter at a friends house...after a pound of snap peas and an apple that was really too large to enjoy.

                          Anyways, today has not been a good day. Not just from a primal perspective (honestly, I ate some ice cream and brownie batter...and a few crackers with cheese early on, I don't think that's all that bad) but just from an emotional perspective. The same thing is happening to me that happened the last time I tried to be strictly primal, which is that I am developing a very unhealthy relationship with food. I know this is the opposite of what happens for most people with primal - I've read so many success stories of conquering binging or anorexia or stress eating - but I sometimes feel that primal has created an eating disorder in me. I no longer enjoy food, it's just a constant struggle of eating things I have on my "no" list and then feeling guilty - of panicking in social situations that were once enjoyable because, oh no, lentils are present. It seems like every time I go longer being 100/5 primal it just leads to bigger binges at the end. Sometimes I think I'm purposely thwarting myself. I have a history of generally thinking I'm not good enough, and so maybe somewhere deep down I'm intentionally setting myself up for failure - sort of a self fulfilling prophecy or something.

                          Anyways, what really got me going today was my brother's visit. My brother is at law school out on the west coast so I really don't see him that much, and even this weekend he was only in town for a wedding so I had a total of 4 hours to spend with him today. I love him, we're very close, but he is super hard on me (we're all hard on each other in my family) and made me feel really shitty about myself today. I know he doesn't mean to, I KNOW he thinks the world of me, but sometimes when he talks about his expectations for me it is extremely overwhelming because I just don't believe them to be feasible. I tend to always look at what I've accomplished by measuring my weaknesses and not my successes. Like, "Yea, I did Peace Corps, but I really didn't make everything I could've out of it and I didn't connect with as many people and I didn't ...etc etc." rather than looking at the fact that fuck - I completed peace corps and that's not something everyone does.

                          Anyways, I brought up the Whole 30 to him, and how it was something I really had wanted to do for a long time but couldn't, and then he got all tough love on me and told me that yes I could, it wasn't that hard, and the reason I really wasn't doing it was because I didn't want to do it, and why do I set myself up for failure, and blah blah blah I'm better than that. I don't know, it really upset me, and then he started giving me lectures on what I'm doing with my future and trying to look up grad school programs for me and talking about PhD stuff and it all just got overwhelming and I spent the rest of the day in a fog just...DEPRESSED because everyone seems to have such high expectations of me and I just don't think I can ever reach them. Now this could also be because:
                          a) messed up birth control
                          b) just starting my period
                          c) too much sugar
                          d) exhaustion
                          e) clearly it's all of the above

                          I know that days like these happen and that in a few days all will perk up and I will be back to thinking I can conquer the primal world, but right now it just seems so pointless to me. HOW do I continue avoiding sugar and cookies and ice cream my entire life. I really don't ever foresee a world in where pizza is unappealing to me. Or cookies, cake, cupcakes, crackers, etc for that matter. I guess now that I think about it a lot of those things have lost some tastiness (the thought of eating a commercially produced cupcake right now actually makes me want to vomit) but it just seems like an endless struggle.

                          This is extremely infuriating for me. I am generally one of the happiest people I know. I'm constantly enthusiastic in every activity and always find the best, but maybe about twice a month I go through these depressive states where everything looks bleak, where the world is too big, where I'm overwhelmed by everything I won't be and everything I can't do and sink into these funks. This ridiculous strictness with food is not helping. Yes, I feel better when I eat primal, but the negative mental effects it's having on me by being so obsessive about every morsel that I put into my mouth is not healthy. Primal is about so much more than food, and I think I need to refocus my efforts to get my mental health in order. Hopefully this will have an impact on my food choices as well. I'm sick of being miserable and overwhelmed. (you know, now looking back on this I can completely see what led to it - exhaustion).

                          Anyways, blah blah blah, you all care, and the only reason this book ended up here is because my paper journal is constantly an enigma to me and always under something that I never remember to overturn.

                          I don't want to stop this journey because I want to be healthy and beautiful and radiant inside and out, but I think I need to change my approach because mine is clearly not working. i need to shift to keeping myself mentally healthy and then hopefully good food choices will be a consequence. I'm failing to recognize how much progress has been made - my previous diet of cereal/oatmeal for breakfast, sandwich/some rice dish/some bean dish for lunch, and pasta and veggies for dinner has been kicked in the ass by eggs and butter, and in general making solid meal choices is not difficult. It's that flipping sugar monster that kills me.

                          So I'm going to focus on keeping myself mentally healthy for a while. Yoga does it for me, so I'm starting a monthly subscription at my friends yoga studio starting tomorrow and need to get back into meditation. I also need to get more sleep and make better decisions about social activities and who I hang out with. Certain people are not beneficial to me being a functioning, healthy, happy human and maybe it's time to realize that you don't have to be friends with everyone. I'm hoping starting here will make healthy food decisions come naturally. On the days when I'm feeling great about life it's not really even a challenge to live primally.

                          So now I should start this and go to bed before the possibility of 8 hours of sleep tonight slowly slips out of my grasp...

                          I've learned that you really need to love yourself in order to consciously do good things for yourself, so I'm going to try, for maybe the first time in my life, to truly love myself. Time to stop being so hard on myself and give me some credit.
                          Last edited by AbigailLyn; 06-10-2012, 07:38 PM.

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                          • Nothing like trolls to make you feel like no one's listening

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                            • I'm listening! aNd I'm agreeing with every single syllable. I find it increasingly difficult to live up to the expectations I place on myself. Fortunately I don't have many others putting pressure on me but I find sometimes I feel so innately guilty in myself that it's almost as bad.
                              Mastering the sugar monster is another one that I have struggled with. I've come to find my sugar triggers come from almost everywhere but that they are strongest when I put limits to things. Eg, my MIL always has chocolate around and it isn't until I have had 1 piece that I give in and have so much more. I've had to just walk out of the room at times to avoid my self control giving in. Another example is morning teas at work where 3 out of 5 days has a smorgasbord of cake, chocolate and slice options.

                              Emotionally I totally agree with how you're feeling. I too find myself completely happy 98% of the time and then I'll go into a really down and frustrated patch where nothing really helps. I used to turn to food, which I think is where my emotional eating is rooted and I give into the cravings. The last week for me has been really good but I can almost see round the corner that give it another week or two and ill be in the same place.

                              If you might get anything out of my words, may it be that you're definitely NOT on your own and that at least I can relate to where you're struggling. Keep your head up, tomorrow is a new day.
                              Went Primal on 1st April 2012

                              Since beginning Primal:
                              - The stomach cramps I'd been having have vanished.
                              - People comment that my skin is glowing.
                              - I enjoy getting out of bed (most of the time)
                              - I'm so excited by food.

                              http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread52255.html

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                              • Girl, I totally hear ya. This is my life at the moment too. I feel awesome when I'm eating primally 5-6 days a week. Then I slip and eat too much or non-primally and feel like complete shiy about myself for a few days. It passes, and I feel better, but then it happens again. Why the roller coaster!? Why do we put ourselves through this. Maybe we are too strict on our "rules" or "goals" for ourselves so when we stray we beat ourselves up to no avenge. Moderation doesn't work, cutting things out entirely doesn't work...so what does work!? Why is this working for everyone else! I actually am unhappy most of the time, so at least it's the other way around for you

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