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  • When I think of all the years I tortured myself with chronic cardio, I feel a little ill. Today I had some serious fun running around in the woods, sprinting around the pond, heaving my hammer. My forearms are kinda sore -they are definitely getting more of a workout than they have ever had. Note to self: Must wear sports bra for sprinting. Don't forget next time. Also bring water.

    Had some cottage cheese with strawberries. Full fat cottage cheese is the bomb. I had to stop myself from eating the whole carton.
    My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

    "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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    • I can't even FIND full-fat cottage cheese anymore. Of course, I could add mashed avocado. Cottage cheese mixed with salsa is one of my favourite super-lazy meals. Not too often, so as not to overdo dairy, but it is so much fun.

      I need to work more on this whole play thing, which is an oxymoron if there ever was one.
      5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
      Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
      Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

      More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
      - Lewis Mumford

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      • Woke up sore as hell which was worrisome until I remembered that I was tearing around in the woods like a mad squirrel yesterday. Then I was happy. Also the soreness went away as soon as I got up and moved around.

        Scale at 138 this AM!

        Had choir practice again last night. Didn't go so well! Couldn't find the key, the pitch, anything. I couldn't hear myself or the woman next to me, only a tenor sitting behind me singing not only a different part but off key. Then I had an anxiety dream last night - the classic can't find the right room, can't find my robe, can't find my music. Woke up and laughed at myself for being anxious about this. Amazing how anything can be turned into a potential problem if we let it.
        My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

        "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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        • Siobhan,
          Last few days while I was waiting for my account to be activated, I read bits of your journal. I want to say that you are an inspiration for me. You started exactly where I am today, my goals are similar and I look forward to charging the world with my sledgehammer in hand in the future. Thank you for that!

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          • Thank you so much! These last few months have been quite a ride! From fat, sick, depressed, and discouraged to frolicking around swinging a sledgehammer like some kind of demented female Pan - yes, I think the whole world should be more like me!
            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

            "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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            • Siobhan, it is amazing how prone we are to anxiety isn't it? Something that should be fun and relaxing turns into bad dreams ... choirs can be hell if you are near someone with a strong and yet slightly off voice, add in the different voice part and that sounds like the practice from hell, lol! Been there done that, sneak in early looking around furtively for who is sitting where, and then make a dive for the seat as far away as possible from the person that throws you off, alternatively, next to the person who is blessed with a strong voice and a good ear!

              I envy you your running around in the woods - but one of these days I'll be doing my version here. I love that feeling of soreness that is so virtuous and then is nice enough to fade away as soon as you get moving - well done. That is a really nice place to be at! And yippee for your new reading on the scale!
              Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
              Primal low: 186 lbs
              Current weight: 221.4 lbs
              Goal weight: 140 lbs

              "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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              • Yes, I have to laugh at myself that I actually had an anxiety dream about choir. I mean, I don't earn my living by singing, no one is bleeding or unconscious, what's the problem? Sheesh. I guess it is just that new girl syndrome - feeling like the new girl starting school in the middle of seventh grade - everyone is all paired and friended up - everyone else knows where the caf is - you know -

                Had a lovely brekkie of wild Chanterelles, scrambled egg, baked haddock, lots of strong tea with raw goat milk. And an apple. I am reintroducing apples to my diet. After a lifetime of eating at least one a day I had stopped because they are quite high in carbs. But I think they help keep my teeth clean. And I love them. So I will cut carbs elsewhere and resume enjoyment of apples. Actually, small apples aren't so carb-heavy - the trouble is that supermarket apples tend to be enormous. With the beautiful local apples becoming available, I can get much smaller and more delicious ones.

                Realized I did a 16-hour fast. Love it when that happens.
                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                • I have been thinking a lot about sleep lately - mostly how well I am sleeping. I wonder if it has something to do with the moon and stars shining on me? Maybe we are meant to have starlight on us. I should construct a theory and send it to Mark. After all the time I spent making my room dark, hmmmm, maybe I should have been welcoming the celestial objects into my life. Sleeping during the day - whole different set of problems. But at night, in this very dark place - no street lights, no house lights, the Milky Way sweeping across the sky every night - maybe this is different.
                  My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                  "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                  • Hey, mad squirrel, I am amazed and thankful to you for clueing me in on shovelglove. I look at my hammer and say, are u reddy, helen? . Honestly, I never pick her up without giving some thought of gratitude to you.

                    I don't go anywhere, just the part of our yard I call the "football field" where I can sprint around without looking too goofy. I first made sure there were no " ankle breaker" holes I have experienced before. Who would have thought slinging around a dang sledgehammer would be fun?? And I love the difference it feels in going up and down Helen's handle. My dogs are watching mama with a keen eye and keeping their distance, thank goodness, but they are 5 now so not in that chasing me stage anymore.

                    What's it been, a month, and it's remarkable how much stronger I am. Earlier this year, I moved furniture all around and could hardly move the next day, now I shove it out of the way every time I vacuum and never know it. It's fabulous

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                    • I am so glad to hear that, Judy, I have been wondering how you were doing. It is amazing how fun it is, isn't it? Who would think? It sounds so crazy! I thought it was my imagination, but I started to see results right away - certainly I FELT results right away. Next year at PrimalCon they are having a shovelglove guy, would love to participate in that. Alas, it is but a dream.
                      My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                      "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                      • Had a great time at the pool. Worked out a routine where I ran through the shallow end, then swam when I got in over my head. At the end of the pool I switched to a different stroke, and ran again when I got to shallow water. Seriously fun. Which led to a resolution. I'm not doing any exercise or workout that isn't fun. Never again. When I think of all the chronic cardio I did and where did it lead?

                        Finished off my fun with a sauna session. The sauna, like the pool, is brand new and terrific. Gonna be stopping in there frequently!

                        When I was leaving, hair all slicked back and feeling pretty hot/cool, I ran into some kind of exercise class coming back from somewhere - the parking lot, maybe - all sweaty and tricked out in geekchic workout wear. One of them looked at me and said to her friend, "I wish I could swim. Maybe we should take lessons." Oh yeah.
                        My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                        "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                        • Also a seriously fine score at the thrift shop. A pair of Talbots corduroy jeans. A linen Jones New York Shirt. Both brand new with tags. $2 each! A summer person just dropped off her entire Maine wardrobe, not uncommon. Can you imagine?
                          My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                          "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                          • I think I'd really like Maine:-) Also reminds me I'm going to have to get clothes soon. I always wait until everything is in shreds. My stuff is usually not even good enough for the Goodwill. But one can only throw away so many pairs of underwear and socks that are all holey! Now, if I could only dress myself in books.

                            Down to one pair of jeans, a couple of shirts, and one pair of shoes. Hmm! Guess I'll have to go to our local used clothing place fairly soon!

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                            • I can't believe your thrift store prices! Ours are not that low, not even for cheap stuff.

                              My goodness, Pam, what do you wear when you do the laundry? I hereby order you to go out and buy something to make yourself feel good. I'm not into consumerism or materialism, but at the same time a certain minimum is needed to keep our morale up. You could use anything you can get to cheer yourself up right now, and happy clothes are great to have.

                              I will confess I have more than necessary, although pretty much my entire wardrobe fits on a one meter closet rod.
                              5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                              Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                              Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                              More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                              - Lewis Mumford

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                              • Pam, I agree with Judg! It is time to get your closet looking less lonely. Hit the thrift store and let us know what you find. I confess, I have been too big to enjoy going to any kind of store to buy clothes for a LOOOONNNGGG time. I am still digging out my 'less fat' clothes. Looking forward to one day being able to shop and enjoy it.

                                Siobhan, you have me mighty intrigued with the shovelglove. You sound like you are having fun with it - you too Judg, and that is infectious. Makes me want to try it ... wonder what DH will think of me going to buy myself a sledgehammer!! Tee hee! How heavy are the hammers you use?
                                Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                                Primal low: 186 lbs
                                Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                                Goal weight: 140 lbs

                                "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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