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  • I am very busy but it is all fun, all just a game right now as it is all so new. So I'm going with it and working really hard before it becomes ho-hum and more like chores. This is the first time in quite a few years that I have viewed my home as something relatively permanent and I am really motivated to make it as nice as possible, customizing it for my own self, and I have the additional motivation now of wanting to unclutter and divest myself of possessions. I keep remembering what a friend said to me not long ago - I think I already mentioned it here - "Siobhan, you have lots of really nice things, but they are covered up by all the junk. Just get rid of the junk." At the time I was drinking wine out of an old chipped airline glass. He opened my cabinet, took out a gold-rimmed crystal flute and poured my wine into that. He was absolutely spot on - why not use my nice things? What am I waiting for? Why shouldn't I eat my breakfast off my colorful handmade pottery? Why is it hanging on the wall getting dusty?

    Something very strange just happened. I was preparing a BAS for lunch and Slim jumped up on the table and started to eat my turkey. He has NEVER, EVER showed any interest in people food. He ate and ate and ate. I am talking maybe 4 oz. of turkey. I hope he doesn't get sick! Do you think the whole food I am trying to feed him triggered something?

    Must go, lots of errands to run before the post office and library close.
    My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

    “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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    • Just got back from the lecture, it was excellent. Excellent speaker! You can hear him on Radiolab - http://www.radiolab.org/blogs/radiol...5/war-we-need/

      Also got an invite for Saturday night at the Playhouse. Should be fun. Before you think I have a romance going, it's a girlfriend. Luckily there are lots of single women here. This friend is quite a bit older than I am, she's been widowed for a couple of years.
      Last edited by Siobhan; 07-17-2012, 04:55 PM.
      My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

      “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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      • This evening I was looking through my clothes and realized that virtually all of my slacks are too big. The only thing that remotely fits my bottom half is the white jeans I bought at the thrift shop a few weeks ago. They are quite loose now but still fit. I have a pair of khakis and a pair of black cargos that still fit but just barely. All my other pants are too big to wear - they will fall down. When did this happen? Am I a size 8 now? Must go to thrift shop tomorrow and try on some stuff. Is it too soon to get rid of all my fat clothes? Seriously time to start working out - I feel I can really improve my body and my health now, really change the way I look. To be honest, this is kind of scary. Actually really scary. The old fat me was safe and familiar and frumpy dumpy. This new me with lots of energy and stamina who looks good in clothes is a stranger.

        I'm glad I have this journal to record these thoughts because I don't have anyone in my real life to talk about this with. Not only that, it's kind of an unmentionable subject. Telling someone you have turned into Groka is sort of like admitting you are an illegal immigrant or something.

        Also bought some pate - looks great, no grains, no sugar, no corn, all ingredients I can pronounce. Maybe for breakfast. What should I eat with it? I have some strawberries. Cheese?
        My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

        “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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        • The hackers love me!

          Made an interesting discovery. Yesterday I ate no fruit, not intentionally, but I just didn't. I was not hungry and didn't eat dinner despite having a glass of wine at the lecture (a criminally small glass - honestly about 3 oz. for $6. It's a good cause, but sheesh.) Less than 1000 calories for the day, but rather higher in protein - 84g protein, 40g fat, 54g carb. In fact in the evening I had a borderline kinda-sorta upset tummy but I chalked that up to a little anxiety over a minor thing that happened. Anyway, this morning, no hunger. Down another half pound. So the unintentional n=1 experiment here - does fruit make me hungrier? Am I eating too much of it? I know the answer - probably. Should be eating more veg over fruit.

          Interesting situation with the cats also. Got the FF that is less water, less carb. I am feeding it side by side with the whole food stuff. They both go right for the whole food and eat all of it, then some of the FF. But they won't eat the whole food when I serve it solo.

          They were playing and running all over this morning about 3 AM! Is the new feeding regimen responsible for that activity? Must admit I am not too pleased about this! Sometimes I am not here at 3 AM, but sometimes I am, and generally prefer to be sleeping.

          This time of year here in Maine, the period of true darkness is very short - as little as 2 hours. Of course that changes rapidly. Even when the sun sets, if there are any clouds there is a reflection that really lights up the sky, and also a couple of hours before dawn the same effect occurs. Last night, a cloudy one, the sky was not really dark until almost midnight and then started to lighten again at 2:30 AM. It was hard to go to sleep because the wind was howling, howling ferociously, and then I woke up a few times and got a bit disoriented because it appeared to be getting light and I thought it was much later than it actually was. This is new for me because my other homes here in Maine were much darker, surrounded by towering pines with tiny windows that were easy to block up. Mind you, I am not complaining about the 8 wondrous skylights and seven large windows in my rather small cozy studio home. But it is quite an adjustment.
          My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

          “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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          • Had a little bit of liver pate, a little cream cheese with smoked salmon, 4 olives, cucumber, tea with goat milk. Really not hungry. The pate is good, but I probably won't buy it again because I can't imagine that I will be able to eat it before it goes bad. Just not the kind of thing you eat a lot of. But I thought it was a good way to eat some liver as it is very tasty and I don't have to cook it. It was a good experiment, though. Also, I started out hungry but when I started to eat I just lost motivation to do so. Maybe the heat? Although the heat is lessened. Or possibly because earlier this week I ate a lot - I had a couple of days back there over 2000 cals.

            Little bit of soreness in the legs from the squats and lunges. Really wish I had a pull-up bar.

            Finally sending pic of myself to my mom for her birthday, almost a month late! Had a pic taken for the church directory, they took forever to send it, then sent me the wrong pic, then forgot the frame...very poor performance by Lifetouch. Big rip-off IMHO. I expect to pay for services, I don't expect things for free, but it was not a good value. But I am glad I have a decent pic of myself. My hair is so curly! I don't know where that came from. As my hair gets grayer, it gets curlier. Can't decide if it look good or looks like a bad perm.

            Work tonight so had better get going on errands. No boxes today!

            Right before I started this new lifestyle, I gave away some scrubs that were too small for me - sure wish I had kept them...
            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

            “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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            • I bet we'd all love to see a picture of you. I always thought it would be fun to have curly hair.

              It's hysterical thinking of your pants falling down. Pretty exciting (not the pants falling down, the losing of so much weight).

              Yes, my cats love making mad dashes across my bed in the middle of the night, jumping on or over me when I'm on the toilet, NEEDING me when I'm just getting out of the shower, etc. That's cats! I love them.

              Maine sounds so pretty. Reminds me of my sister-in-law telling me about her home, Norway.

              Hope your day has the right amount of sleep, light, good primal food, and a productive work day, and everything else you desire.

              Your food sounds yummy! Fruit is weird!

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              • Pam! Thanks for coming by! Yep, I'm a laugh a minute in my clown pants. I just got back from the thrift shop, where I got a pair of French Dressing black and gray pinstripe jeans for $1. But there was nothing else. They are made of very stretchy heavy denim in size 10 and fit nicely, not too tight, not too loose. I think they are in fact designed to be quite tight i.e. sexy although for me tight clothes just look like you need to go put on something that fits. Anyway, I also tried on a pair of brown French Dressing jeans in a different material in size 8 and they were way too big, fabric flapping all around my hips and thighs. Go figure. Just the style/cut I guess. I need a straight cut rather than curvy, probably because being over 50 I don't put on weight in my hips, butt, and thighs anymore. That hormone thing, you know. I'm getting a bit long-winded here, but the fact is that I don't want to buy many clothes - summer will be over in a few weeks and if I'm going to get new summer clothes I would rather do that next spring when I will be at my goal weight and more toned. Also I am only going to buy things that I really, really like, quality over quantity, simplify, simplify. Okay, enough about clothes. On to food - had some turkey soup. I love my own turkey soup, just broth, carrots, celery, turkey, butter. I don't put in onions because they make it too sweet (can't believe I am saying that). I think I would like to throw in some scallions when it all ready to eat, though, give it a little zing.

                Cats are sprawled under the bed - coolest place in the house. I got a new mat to put under their litter box, actually found one with a little style. Threw out the old manky one. Yes, that's right. Just tossed it in the garbage. Realized it's not a priceless oriental and can just go to the dump. (Sorry, can't recycle that.)

                Well, I must go rest now, work tonight.
                Last edited by Siobhan; 07-18-2012, 07:56 PM.
                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                • Yeah, I agree. Why waste money on summer clothes. My goal is always to make it through summer in long sleeves. I refuse to address hot weather except for turning the air conditioner on. Luckily, in the Northwest, we get plenty of overcast days and not too many hot ones. Well, one is too many, but....

                  In fact, you triggered me. I think I'm going to get a chicken this Friday and make soup with Walla Walla sweet onion, garlic, cilantro, and who knows what else!

                  I keep getting little balls for the cats because they disappear so fast. Then, I do a big cleaning and throw them in the middle of one of the rooms and, lo and behold, they just disappear again.

                  Hope you're having a nice rest. Do you ever sleep outside during the day? Thinking with a nightish job that might be an option.

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                  • I've often thought of that but have never done it. Would have to rig up some type of shelter or purchase a sunshade thing. Definite possibility.

                    My new favorite comfort food - zucchini/blue cheese/garlic/walnut thing. Get the youngest zucchini you can find - not hard these days, and peel it. Continue peeling with a vegetable peeler until you have long thin strips. When you get to where there are too many seeds, stop, but with a really young veg there won't be many. Heat a mixture of olive oil and butter (highly recommend both) and saute some minced garlic for a minute or so. Don't burn it. Add zucchini and cook quickly, turning, turning, turning, until it gets limp. Add fresh-ground black pepper, blue cheese, and walnuts. Maybe some salt but use a light hand because the cheese is pretty salty. Cook for only a few seconds, tossing - don't cook the blue cheese too much, you will ruin the flavor. Just until it starts to melt. Put on a plate and eat right away. Try not to make yummy noises. Would be improved with fresh parsley, but I don't have any. Who needs pasta?

                    Warning - almost no carbs - this is mostly fat - mmmmmmm.....fat.
                    Last edited by Siobhan; 07-18-2012, 01:46 PM.
                    My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                    “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                    • Hi Siobhan ! I am going to try out your zucchini recipe tomorrow I have one left that came with my veg box this week which I am wondering what to do with - i just love cheese so think its going to be a hit !! sounds like the cats are doing great ! but maybe without rocketing round at 3am I do have one who wakes me at 5am but thats not so uncivilised !! I haven't found that the food has made them more nocturnal but one does really like to be out all night in the summertime ..

                      and fantastic about your pants ! wow how exciting and what great progress its so wonderful, congratulations, and just says so much about what we are being told about our diets ...
                      My Primal Journal :http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60751.html

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                      • My hair is silver prematurely and it has much more body than it used to (fine and straight before).

                        Exciting and intriguing about the cat's eating habits changing!

                        I wish you could scan that pic and upload it onto MDA.

                        Oh, and I *think* you can freeze pâté... worth a try. And that is why you are a potential size 8 and I a size 18 ... It's hard to imagine there being too much good pâté even without the crackers or toast!
                        SW: 243
                        CW: 177
                        Goal: Health

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                        • I think the heat is killing my appetite, and probably the cat's too. Although I have never experienced this phenomenon before. Heard about it, but never got it!
                          My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                          “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                          • Here I am at work, been quite busy. Job security! One of my co-workers cleaned up the office, talk about energy. I definitely don't have the motivation for that, primal or not. Had a salad. Not enough protein today but don't feel like tracking any down. I have some for later, but that will go on tomorrow's tally.

                            You're right, Kerry, I'm sure I can freeze pate, usually anything with a lot of fat freezes well. I had better do that. Maybe I should cut it into little cubes first. Most practical. I would probably eat more if I had something more appetizing to eat it on - the cucumber slices didn't do it for me. Maybe I should have sliced up the sweet onion?

                            We are having our yearly health screenings here at work. We get some money off our health insurance if we meet certain parameters. They are quite generous as far as weight and pretty much all of the numbers. They have just changed the cholesterol to be more advantageous. I never had any problems before primal and I don't anticipate any now, but I am very curious to see where I am.

                            I wish I had some of my zucchini thing. It's the only thing that sounds good now. For anyone interested in making it, you can of course use any kind of cheese and any kind of nut.

                            I've just noticed that I am smelly. I showered this afternoon, used Ban Roll-On, powder, clean clothes, etc. but I am definitely smelly. What's up with that? Garlic? I don't think I really smell like garlic, but I did eat some today.
                            Last edited by Siobhan; 07-18-2012, 08:52 PM.
                            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                            “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                            • Just had some flatiron steak, leafy greens, baby turnips, raspberries. Not a whole lot of appetite but I ate anyway. Yesterday was a pretty low calorie day, just under 1000 and while I know I can live off my fat for 8 months I'm not really interested in doing that. Eating around 2 AM works pretty well when I'm working - then I'm not hungry when I get home but don't have food sloshing around in the tum and can sleep well.

                              Very busy in the first part of the night, then it mellowed out.
                              My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                              “"Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                              • Good morning, Siobhan --

                                I was wondering if being smelly once in a while is when we are releasing toxins -- like when we IF or eat less calories than normal and our bodies use our stored fat and release some of the toxins in that fat through the skin! Just a thought. Always love your food!
                                Last edited by lopisheep; 07-19-2012, 07:44 PM.

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