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  • Thank you, tomi! I will admit I get scared sometimes, that the weight will come back, that I will get depressed or sick or something. It is almost too good to be true. No, it IS too good to be true. Yet true it is. I hope I can be of help to others. I would have been lost doing this on my own, starting this journal and meeting people here is key to my success.

    Had bacon-wrapped scallops and a good hunk of cod for an early dinner. Tonight I have Bible study and then choir practice, so I wanted to eat early. I broke out the new bottle of coconut aminos to put on the scallops. Is that stuff ever good! I might as well throw away the soy sauce, which I rarely use because...it...is...soy. Now I am very happily drinking a large mug of turmeric tea with a good dollop of heavy cream in it.
    My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

    "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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    • We're making cream cheese and shrimp stuffed halibut for dinner With roasted veggies.

      I agree with you that finding this group on MDA is KEY to making this work!
      1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
      2. Eat to heal
      3. Move to live
      4. Embrace today
      5. Live with intention
      6. Respect my body
      7. Cultivate joy
      8. Find my passion
      9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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      • Originally posted by Siobhan View Post
        I am happy to report that I am not smelly any more. The nasty smell that was plaguing me has disappeared. Awfully glad about that.
        Kind of an oniony smell? That always corresponded to hot flashes for me.
        Of all the paths you take in life, make sure a few of them are dirt.

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        • It was kind of oniony. I was very self-conscious about it. It did not appear to have anything to do with my hygiene, I was showering and using smell well and whatnot. Oddly, this morning I thought I smelled like sugar cookies when I woke up. What was that about?

          Hot flashed my way through choir practice. Sigh.
          My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

          "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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          • Anyone reading this, go watch this video. It is about 15 minutes long.

            The Fantastic Flying Books of Mr Morris Lessmore Complete Movie - YouTube
            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

            "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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            • Anyone reading this, go watch this video. It is about 15 minutes long.

              The Fantastic Flying Books of Mr Morris Lessmore Complete Movie - YouTube
              My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

              "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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              • Just made up a YouTube playlist of REM songs. Why REM? Because I cannot dance, have never danced, very self-conscious about it. I figure if Michael Stipe can not only get up and dance in front of everyone, AND make a lot of money doing it, I can at least do it in my living room. (For those who may not know, Michael Stipe, the lead vocalist of REM and considerably gifted musician and songwriter, cannot dance. He waves his arms around in a kind of lame white boy way.) I swing the hammer around, but I needed something else. So I hammer around for awhile, then throw on the REM, pick up my 2-lb. weights and make like Michael Stipe. It's pretty fun. It freaks out the cats.

                Trying to decide what to do about NewMan. He is still in the picture although I haven't said much about him lately. To be honest I'm not that interested, although I can't put my finger on why. There is the obvious - he doesn't really have any disposable income, he can't go out and do anything like plays or concerts or movies. I'm not interested in meeting up in bars and drinking as a regular thing. (Beer is cheap. Of course I don't drink beer.) I need to fish or cut bait, but I can't bring myself to do either. It doesn't help...TMI here...I have no libido and don't have any interest in pursuing that aspect of a relationship with him.

                These bloody hot flashes don't help. As I was lying awake the other night, it occurred to me that there is no way I can actually sleep in the same bed with someone at this point. I'm talking about sleeping, not anything else. If you've ever had a bad hot flash you know what I'm talking about. If one has a long time partner, that would be one thing - someone at whom you could yell, "Don't touch me!" and they would get it. Someone who knows why you are throwing all the covers wildly about and thrashing around.

                On the positive side, after experiencing a few private summers during choir practice, I did not have any last night. Not that I remember, or at least not severe enough to totally wake me. I slept quite well. Went to sleep very late, no idea what time, and woke up in the light, maybe 6:30 AM. I'll take it.
                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                • Had a really great swim today, just felt like a fish. Water was perfect. Have not had a hot flash yet.

                  Brought home a spaghetti squash today. I don't know why I haven't had one in so long. I am going to indulge myself in SS dressed with gorgonzola, pancetta, olive oil, butter, parsley, and walnuts.

                  I'm doing okay with not dying my hair. The last time was before Thanksgiving. I am adjusting to a new mental image of myself as a gray/silver-haired woman. It's not such a shock when I look in the mirror.
                  My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                  "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                  • Originally posted by Siobhan View Post
                    I'm doing okay with not dying my hair. The last time was before Thanksgiving. I am adjusting to a new mental image of myself as a gray/silver-haired woman. It's not such a shock when I look in the mirror.
                    I bet you're still beautiful even with the greys. Good on you for accepting the change
                    SW (Nov 22nd 2011): 333
                    Current Weight as of Nov 25 2015: 248
                    Short Term Goal: Fit into the shirts I got on my honeymoon at disney and universal in august next year when I go back to for my 1 year anniversary
                    Met Goal: Be a 2x Shirt, Fit in a standard airplane seat belt without the use of a seat belt extension
                    Long Term Goal: 166lbs (One day!), Buy whatever cloths I want to wear.
                    Pain is temporary, quitting is forever- Lance Armstrong #NoExcuses

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                    • I am! I am freakin' gorgeous!
                      My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                      "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                      • Yay for silver haired gorgeous Siobhan!! We had carnitas last night for the first time ever (as a result of hearing you rave about them!) and DH was in heaven. We all enjoyed, but DH just loves Mexican food and he chowed down on multiple helpings mixed with lettuce, sour cream, grated cheese and salsa! I baked the big pices of fat until I was left with lard and the crispy bits. YUMMY! Thanks!

                        Just take your time with Newman! No rush, let it develop however it does ... maybe you'll just move in different directions, or maybe you'll decide you really do enjoy time together ... keep it low key. Good luck on figuring it all out!
                        Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                        Primal low: 186 lbs
                        Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                        Goal weight: 140 lbs

                        "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                        • I have been dealing with peri-menopausal symptoms for over 13 years. I have only had a handful of daytime hot flashes. My main and troublesome symptoms have been insomnia-- to the point of not sleeping for several nights in a row--, night sweats, and joint/muscle pain.

                          Around 2001-2 my symptoms were so bad that I had my endo test my estradiol level. It was undetectable. Weird because I was still having regular periods. I was sent to my gyno and was put on HRT-- estradiol and prometrium. I have also used testosterone cream.

                          HRT, for me, is a lifesaver. It has helped me get off Rx pain and sleep meds.

                          Since the beginning of this year night sweats and sleep issues have increased again. I think it's related to not having a period since December-- I hope saying that doesn't jinx things as I am 56 and have had periods since I was 11. I am beyond ready to be done.

                          A book that helped me:
                          Women, Weight and Hormones: A Weight-Loss Plan for Women Over 35: Elizabeth Lee, M.D. Vliet: 9780871319326: Amazon.com: Books

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                          • I am glad you all liked it. I am the Queen of Carnitas! The dish that will drive a vegan mad!

                            I had my spaghetti squash concoction. SS, onions, garlic, parsley, walnuts, pancetta, butter, salt, pepper. Sadly, it wasn't that good. Very filling, I couldn't finish it. Just okay, and considering how much it cost, not worth it. Why wasn't it good? I don't really know. Just okay. Had half a spiced burger patty to console myself. Couldn't manage more, too full!
                            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                            "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                            • Thank you so much for that, marcadav! I had my last period in January, so I don't know for certain I am done - have thought I was done before and found out differently! I will be 54 this year, and yeah, I'm with you - DONE. Got my period when I was 13 and enough is enough. Luckily that book is available at the library, hopefully it will be here next Tuesday. On the whole, I shouldn't complain. I never had any real problems with my period other than it being the most inconvenient thing ever. I've had some minor symptoms through the years but never anything bothersome. When I was in my mid-40's I went through a time where I was simply warm all of the time - no matter the temperature I didn't need a coat or a blanket at night. But it was nothing like these hot flashes. It was actually kind of cool to not ever have to worry about being cold. Luckily, I think most doctors, mine included (although CW) are very sympathetic to the not-sleeping-because-of-hot-flashes. I'm not ruling anything out - I HAVE to sleep.
                              My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                              "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                              • Well, I had a hot flash free night, although not a particularly restful one. Just not sleeping that well, which I am blaming on menopause, hot flashes or not. But it was okay. I did get some good sleep. This morning I have a three hour rehearsal for the Brahms Requiem, then have to rest this afternoon for work tonight.
                                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                                "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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