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  • I guess it's kind of weird and shallow, but the new car has seriously boosted my self esteem. I knew that driving an old junker was bringing me down, but kept telling myself stuff like that doesn't matter...yeah it does. Driving a car with a dent in the side and pieces falling off and making scary noises was just not good for how I feel about myself. And the extent to which it was affecting my behavior was unacceptable, i.e. stress about doing errands, questioning whether I would get to or from work, being unable to plan even short road trips...wow. I really let that get out of hand. Glad that's over!
    My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

    "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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    • Very interesting notion about how our transport (or anything else, really) can affect our image of ourselves, causing us stress, and keeping us from doing things.

      One of the things we want to do when we get back on top of our bills, is trade in our vehicle (a big luxury van that my father-in-law gave us) for something smaller, more fuel-efficient, and in good repair. I'm wondering about the many ways this will impact our practical lives, but also how we might think differently about ourselves.

      One of the fun things about the van, is that all of our kids' friends call it 'the party bus'. We like being the kind of people who drive a party bus. One of the not so fun is that it is an obviously expensive(though now old) vehicle, and I always feel like I need to apologize for it, and make sure to mention that my father-in-law GAVE it to us (see above!) because I would feel guilty about ever spending so much on a vehicle.

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      • Originally posted by Siobhan View Post
        You might think about walking in the pool. That mixes things up a little. I often do that; I like to look around at all the activity. I've seen people wearing thin mitten-like things while swimming, is that for arthritis?
        I have no idea.

        Sabine, there are enough things in life we ought to feel guilty about, and often don't, to start adding unnecessary things that shouldn't be incurring guilt. Chances are half the people you are apologizing to would prefer to think you bought it yourself anyway. And FWIW the new base models are pretty much what luxury ones were a few years ago anyway. Do what is good and right the best you know how and don't worry about what anybody thinks. You don't answer to them. And no matter what you do, somebody disapproves anyway. Ignore everybody but the wise and the loving.
        5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
        Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
        Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

        More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
        - Lewis Mumford

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        • Having just got the new car, I can honestly say I was astounded at features that come standard and are taken for granted. When I bought my Nissan Maxima 15 years ago, it was (and is) the top-of-the-line Nissan and was quite a step up for me. I had never had a 'luxury sedan.' Today every single feature is dramatically better. The paint is much more durable, does not scratch easily, and doesn't really need to be washed - pretty much just rinsed off. (I will, however, wash it. It's in my DNA.) The radio, the seats, the tires, the brakes - all are 4 generations nicer than what I had. This car cost the same amount that the Maxima did 15 years ago, almost to the dollar. The engine is so much more sophisticated that I can't even start to compare it. This sporty, cheap little car is quieter and smoother than the 'luxury sedan' of 15 years ago. And while I don't like having to have car payments, the financing offered is so reasonable that it seems foolish not to use it. I financed it for 6 years, and the amount I will pay in interest is just over $1000 - that is spread over 6 years! Approximately $170 per year. I make more than that in my 401(k).

          Okay, I know I'm being boring. But I felt much the same about my old car - I defined myself by it without realizing it. And it was not a positive thing. I didn't realize that either.

          It was fun showing it to my co-workers this morning. Two women came in that I hadn't seen yet and they went into shrieks of delight the way women do (usually reserved for pregnancy announcements and engagements) and wanted to see it. The car was all alone, parked in the back by the lagoon. As we walked towards it, I hit the remote start and it went, "beep beep VROOOM!' That was cool. That was really cool. One of the ladies actually jumped up and down. Her son covets this particular car, he is 17 and wants one as only a 17-year-old boy can want a car. They are going to come over later and drive it a little bit. The road I live on goes in a circle, it is twisty and winding and has fantastic views of the ocean, so they are going to take it around.

          Okay, okay, okay. I'm really going on too much here, but hey, this is a really exciting time for me.
          My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

          "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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          • I LOVE hearing your excitement over this new car! It shows how badly you really needed to make this change! Have fun with it! and NEVER EVER feel guilty!
            1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
            2. Eat to heal
            3. Move to live
            4. Embrace today
            5. Live with intention
            6. Respect my body
            7. Cultivate joy
            8. Find my passion
            9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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            • It is nice to hear you so excited! I know exactly the feeling. It's what I was talking about, that feeling of happiness that comes with getting into a nice reliable car that you enjoy driving. A tiny slice of joy that you'll feel every day for years. Contrast that to the feeling of ugh...is my car going to make it one more day? Or hyperfocusing on avery little noise wondering which one is going to cost $600.00 to fix.

              That alone is worth it to me.

              Congratulations!!
              Height: 5' 10"
              Starting Weight: 292
              Starting Primal Weight: 275
              Current weight: 224
              Goal weight: 172
              Body Fat 30.5

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              • Well, you can't accuse me of being jaded!

                I got quite a surprise in the mail this afternoon. I have a P.O. box and so I only pick it up a couple of times a week. There was a package from my sister with a beautiful silver bracelet with an inscription about sisters. She has given one to my other two sisters also. In the past three years two of my siblings have died, one brother and one sister, both quite young. We are not a close family, but these losses do make one reflect on the Meaning of Things. She wrote me a lovely short note that I will keep private. (Off to find kleenex now)
                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                • What have I been eating lately? Primal stuff. No non-primal stuff. Other than that, I don't really know. When I'm hungry, I find something and eat it. Too busy and distracted to figure out anything else. The beauty of having a primal kitchen. I can tell you one thing - I have no willpower. In reading my journal you might have the idea that all this is easy for me, effortless weight loss, etc. The only reason it is relatively easy is because I have total control over my food. If I were in a household of baked goods and sweets I would never have succeeded. If I get hungry, all bets are off. I mean really hungry, not just pleasant primal twinges. I have to remember this. Even after months, a cupcake can bring me to my knees. Must make sure to have emergency jerky or can of sardines at all times!
                  My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                  "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                  • I almost caved in to a poptart yesterday. I was starving when I got home from work.. I need to plan my meals a little more. Poptarts are like crack to me! So dangerous. Especially if Im stressing. Im a little envious of you and your control of food. I have a hubby thats not eating primal and the twins dont either so they bring in all kinds of treats into the house.

                    I want to try Annies truffle balls and now that you mentioned beef jerky I'll buy some of that today too at the store.

                    Hows the cats and goats?

                    ps. i sent you an email a couple of days ago. Not sure if I did it right. Im still learning the website
                    ✼ Mamaoftwins ✼
                    Discover Wildlife ~ Raise Twins!
                    I live in the land of the giants! Hubby 6'6" Twins 6'5" me 5'4"


                    Sw ~ 153
                    Cw ~ 153
                    Gw ~ 130

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                    • I just sent you a PM, sorry it took me so long! I'm horrible at checking my notifications.

                      Been working like a possessed fiend around here. How nice to have lots of energy. I was asleep by 10 PM last night, slept straight through until 6 AM. Can you believe it? Got up and hit the ground running. I had tons of junk to sort through, you wouldn't believe how much stuff fits in the trunk of a car...went through it all and put only the essentials into my new car. Threw away loads. Tackled the very last box I had sitting here. Now I'm down to a towering stack of paperwork, but you know what? I'm going to the pool!
                      My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                      "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                      • I can't believe the progress I've made around here - it has gone from looking like the back room at the Goodwill to looking like a place where a person actually lives. No boxes anywhere. Music playing. Comfortable seating areas. Sunny windows with plants in them. I've still got a ways to go - does anyone ever really finish their home? - but I am very pleased.

                        Why do I want to go sit in my car?

                        I have two pasture-raised pork chops ready to be cooked!
                        My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                        "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                        • Staying true to primal eating would certainly be simpler if you are living alone and can truly purge all the off plan foods from your house. I'm good about most of it, but there are some days that the potato chips and nutella that the teenagers insist on keeping around, though I'm certainly not immune to picking up some dangerous items myself from time to time.

                          You've made quick work at getting through the moving boxes. Yet with the new wheels, I don't blame you for wanting to sit in the car! I'd probably be doing a lot of cruising around .
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                          • It's fun to see you all excited about the car. You know what? Go for it. Bad things happen, and they drag us down when they do, so why not let the good things buoy us up?

                            And yeah, cars have come a long way.
                            5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                            Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                            Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                            More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                            - Lewis Mumford

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                            • Originally posted by Siobhan View Post
                              No boxes anywhere. Music playing. Comfortable seating areas. Sunny windows with plants in them.

                              Why do I want to go sit in my car?
                              Because your car has the exact same things!

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                              • The car comes with a one-year free subscription to satellite radio, which I of course scoffed at - "I don't need that!" Then I hit the button, started scrolling through the channels and got hooked. Hmmm. I love radio, have always loved radio, and am loyal to my local stations (or what passes for local in these days of Clear Channel) but that Classical Symphony station, and the Met Opera station, and the...you get the idea. And listening to the traffic reports in Los Angeles, Chicago, and Miami while I was driving along the rugged and isolated Maine coastline was quite an experience. (I LIVE HERE! YAHOO!)

                                Oh well, it's free for a year.

                                Once again I slept like a log. Since I moved here, I don't sleep so well during the day but I sleep wonderfully during the night. So it's all good four nights a week when I'm not working and difficult the three days of work sleep. I must figure this out. It's not noisy during the day now that the brush clearing and firewood chopping is over.

                                So nice to not have boxes everywhere! And to know where everything is!

                                Must go, stuff to do -
                                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                                "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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