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  • ugh..........seriously? Obama for 4 more years............... God help this nation. I cried myself to sleep and now I have HUGE bags under my eyes! I had such high hopes of seeing a new face in the White House for the next 4 years. But Obama it is. And now we'll get his lovely Obama-care shoved up our.......... ahem - noses. It is what it is -- and God is still on the throne! And this place is not my true or permanent home. We will survive as a country, although we may not be in such great shape in 4 more years. Maybe Romney wouldn't have been any better - but with Obama's record I was really hoping to give someone a shot at it.

    Yesterday was a bad day - and the scales reflect it! Up again. 183.2. I'm going in the wrong direction. I have 48 pounds to lose and 37 weeks to do it. I can't have anymore of these "bad days". I had my little stress-feast and now its time to get back to the task at hand. My health is more important than worrying about whats going to happen on ONE night for a few hours. Honestly - how bad can it be with only maybe 3 or 4 hours with a jam packed house? I will survive. Hubby promised to help me clean and prepare the house both before and after the gathering. He always help me clean up after, but usually he's working and I have to do all the set up myself. I think we can manage to seat everyone if we move some furniture and things. We have 4 6' tables that will seat 8 at each table and a couple card tables too. I'm asking people to bring folding chairs. It will be crowded but we'll make it work. The stuff in the family room can be adjusted to fit 2 tables. The bowflex folds up and my son can put all the junk he's wanting to sell back into his bedroom. That will open a lot of space. We can move some peices of the sectional sofa out into the garage and set up tables in the livingroom. The diningroom table and all the kitchen counter space will be used for food. We always do "buffet" style serving so I don't have to worry about fitting all the food on the tables. I can do this...........

    I need to walk today. I didn't yesterday. Its a nice morning so I think I'll head out.
    1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
    2. Eat to heal
    3. Move to live
    4. Embrace today
    5. Live with intention
    6. Respect my body
    7. Cultivate joy
    8. Find my passion
    9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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    • I think I need a life.............. I come to the forum and see that no one has posted in the journals I follow and I'm actually sad!

      So I walked my route to Cummings Elementary and its 2.25 miles according to mapquest. I still want to get a good pedometer so I know for sure how far I'm walking. Took me 40 minutes so I guess I'm increasing my speed a bit. I want to get some new sweats for walking - the couple pairs that I have are getting too big! Oh what a problem to have, right? I'm thinking I will get some black fitted ones so I can also wear them to ride my bike without having to worry about the bottom getting tangled in my gears/chain thing.

      Today after work I'll strap on the backpack leaf blower and do some yard clean up. The leaves are getting THICK! Just talked to a guy from the parks department - my request to have a couple trees trimmed worked - cuz he was just getting an estimate to have them both removed! These tree's are leaning over our shop and where we park the 5th wheel - and they are starting to drop very large branches! I'm so happy they are going to take them out! We won't have any leaves and branches falling on that part of the property anymore! YEAH! It pays to ask for things!
      1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
      2. Eat to heal
      3. Move to live
      4. Embrace today
      5. Live with intention
      6. Respect my body
      7. Cultivate joy
      8. Find my passion
      9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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      • Seems like folks have been busy lately. I got tired of talking to myself in my journal haha.
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        • Originally posted by tomi View Post
          ugh..........seriously? Obama for 4 more years............... God help this nation. I cried myself to sleep and now I have HUGE bags under my eyes! I had such high hopes of seeing a new face in the White House for the next 4 years. But Obama it is. And now we'll get his lovely Obama-care shoved up our.......... ahem - noses. It is what it is -- and God is still on the throne! And this place is not my true or permanent home. We will survive as a country, although we may not be in such great shape in 4 more years. Maybe Romney wouldn't have been any better - but with Obama's record I was really hoping to give someone a shot at it.
          Regarding The Affordable Care Act... even if Romney had won, the act is already passed through Congress (which is mostly Republican, mind you) and will go into effect in 2014, no matter what person had won the Presidency. If Romney had won, he'd have to repeal it... a repeal would have to have Congressional backing... remember, Congress, mostly Republican, approved the ACA bill... it would look poorly on them politically to allow a repeal after signing it into law, so the likelihood that they would repeal it is slim...

          Additionally, even if it WAS repealed, the repeal process would take so long that it wouldn't be accomplished before 2014, which would further screw things up b/c things would be changed to obey the law, and then have to change back b/c the law is no longer in place. Any employer who eliminated health insurance at that point b/c it was no longer legally required would pay hell (both from an employee/employer standpoint as all their people would be pissed, but also from a social standpoint b/c customers would be pissed that they're screwing their employees b/c it's no longer legally required to take care of them, etc). Society would be pissed off at the government for implementing a law, repealing the same law and jacking things up.

          All the ACA does is mandate to insurance companies that they cannot turn a new patient away simply b/c they have a pre-existing condition. It requires that they allow children to remain insured under their parents until they turn 26 and can provide their own insurance through their employment. It requires that women well checks be free with no copay, to include mammograms. A lot of insurance companies already provide this, but it makes it mandatory for ALL now. It also eliminates lifetime insurance benefit caps - which is great for people with terminal illnesses. I had a policy that maxed out at 2 million dollars. 1 year with cancer would have wiped out all of my benefits and I would have been screwed... This ACA isn't a strike against the American public... it's a strike against the corporate insurance companies that screw people with high premiums and then dump them like a bad habit when their healthcare gets too expensive. It is meant to provide a means for American people to receive the care they need when they need it instead of putting off their healthcare because they can't afford a doctor.

          I personally think it is a win/win... and regardless of who won the Presidency last night, it would still go into effect. Romney had a similar plan for the state of Mass when he was governor, so for him to say he'd repeal the federal plan that was based off of his state plan makes him look like a baffoon and a liar!

          That being said... I voted for Obama so that my gay friends could openly serve in the military and marry whomever they love and care for. Who are we to say who can and can't get married?? So, I voted for civil rights... not b/c I think Obama does a great job b/c I think he could certainly do better... but I'm just as well off now as I was when Bush was in office, except now we're not at war with Iraq, Osama bin Laden is dead, Chevy and Chrysler are still operational so thousands of people were spared unemployment and banks are in check... no more bad mortgages leaving thousands upon thousands of people homeless. Any financial trouble I have now is of my own poor choices.

          Sorry... I didn't mean to go on a political rant... I usually try not to talk politics b/c talking about politics turns people into asses (like talking about food with people who don't agree ). But I wanted to point out that the ACA isn't a bad deal... Insurance will still be privatized but it will be kept in check so that it is affordable and provides the right kind of care for its customers.
          Primal since March 5, 2012
          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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          • Want to add that I am also eating like crap... stress is taking me hostage as well and I am allowing it to dictate my choices. See my thread about the christmas party... stress city going on there b/c it seems there is a fight brewing... I know our office would win the fight and that will only make things worse... the "parent" if you will, holds a grudge...
            Primal since March 5, 2012
            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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            • Originally posted by namelesswonder View Post
              Seems like folks have been busy lately. I got tired of talking to myself in my journal haha.
              I feel that way sometimes too! I read yours but only comment if I have something worth adding to the conversation
              1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
              2. Eat to heal
              3. Move to live
              4. Embrace today
              5. Live with intention
              6. Respect my body
              7. Cultivate joy
              8. Find my passion
              9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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              • Originally posted by tomi View Post
                I think I need a life.............. I come to the forum and see that no one has posted in the journals I follow and I'm actually sad!
                Sorry Tomi - I've been running by tushy off! Unfortunately not literally.........
                Female 55
                Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
                Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

                With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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                • I've probably heard things about this new health care act that are not true. I haven't read the thing myself - and probably wouldn't understand it if I did! Either way - its hear and happening. So, I'm not going to belly ache over it.

                  I got the leaves blown off the driveway and off the front grass - but the back is a mess -- I've blown the leaves from the flower beds onto the grass - and now need to pick them up and throw them over the back fence into the forest. They came from the parks trees - so I'm giving them back to the park!

                  Tomorrow I need to hem my moms pants so I can take them to her on Friday. I hate hemming.

                  I'm getting my semi-annual hair cut on Friday too Its in pretty good shape, but I just want to have the ends trimmed up. They are getting a little dry.

                  Today I've had bacon for breakfast and then snacked on almond butter. Dinner is chicken and roasted veggies.

                  Thats all I've got.......... have a good night all.
                  1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                  2. Eat to heal
                  3. Move to live
                  4. Embrace today
                  5. Live with intention
                  6. Respect my body
                  7. Cultivate joy
                  8. Find my passion
                  9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                  • I'm sure you'll find a way to make it all work, Tomi. Maybe God is trying to stretch you. You know the verse about entertaining angels unawares, right?

                    My inlaws just lined up various tables in the basement for a very long time. Nobody cared if the decor was grey cement, LOL! We strung up a few decorations and enjoyed ourselves. Marrying into an Italian family taught me a lot about hospitality and generosity. My own family gatherings had been more like a dozen at most too, so it was quite an adaptation.

                    Go with the flow, you might even enjoy yourself.
                    5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                    Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                    Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                    More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                    - Lewis Mumford

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                    • I'm with ya... I have pretty much given up on the American voter......

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                      • Hey, with not having to pay your mortgage for two months, wouldn't that be more than enough to rent a space for Thanksgiving?

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                        • Originally posted by Judg View Post
                          My inlaws just lined up various tables in the basement for a very long time. Nobody cared if the decor was grey cement, LOL! We strung up a few decorations and enjoyed ourselves.
                          This is what I would do... but I also have the luxury of renting out a couple of bays at a local fire department for free since my dad is the chief. I would probably go with the fire department first, and basement second. If your basement is relatively decent (like not finished, but not totally gross and just needs a good sweeping) this might be a good option... It would work great for us b/c our basement is a 28x56 rectangle!

                          Originally posted by Sabine View Post
                          Hey, with not having to pay your mortgage for two months, wouldn't that be more than enough to rent a space for Thanksgiving?
                          Good call, Sabine!! But I think she made plans for that money already.
                          Primal since March 5, 2012
                          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                          • Well - entertaining Angels unawares is a good way to look at it I'm settling in with the idea of being over crowded and having uninvited guests. We'll make it work. I talked to my neices MIL and they are struggling with the same issue. The sister and her 4 kids are coming to their gatherings also - not family, and not invited. She says they are wondering if they are expected to buy the 4 non-family children gifts for Christmas too. Just to make this clear........... the neice who has her sister and 4 kids living with them is my husbands nephews wife -- so the sister is in NO way related to our family - or her MIL's family. Her MIL is the ex-wife of my husbands brother, and she now has a new husband and family. How's that for "clear" ????? anyway......... I am told that the sister and 4 kids are going to be finding their own place to live by next summer - so the MIL says they are just trying to ride it out until then. Everyone is making "room" because they have no other option and just waiting for the living arrangement to change.

                            I should be hospitible about it all.......... and I would be had I INVITED them!!!! but it DIDN'T! Okay - I still have a little bit of anger to deal with...........

                            Weight is still 183.2 GRRRRR!!!!! Last night I cooked a HUGE platter of roasted veggies. My plate was 2/3s veggies. I ate maybe 1 ounce of chicken cuz I filled up on the veggies. they were very good! But we both decided that we've given brussel sprouts a good try and both don't like them so much. So, I won't be buying them again.

                            We are wrestling with what to do with the mortgage money......... to be responsible adults we feel we should put it into our IRAs. But I really want to save it for remodeling the bathroom or kitchen. I hate money issues. Its that time of year again when I have to start preparing for tax time - gathering papers - making phone calls. I also have to assess where we are with end of year finances for the business. We are an S-corp so any morey that is in the account on Dec. 31 is considered profit and we have to pay taxes on it. So we try to drain to account as much as possible by putting money into our IRAs, paying our workers Christmas bonuses, paying off any outstanding business loans, etc. Its a guessing game of sorts........... how much needs to remain in the account to cover payroll and bills come January? It makes my head spin and causes all kinds of stress! Maybe thats part of my stagnant weight problem.............. STRESS!!

                            I also need to start making plans for our Feb. 5th wheel trip to the southern Oregon coast. UGH........... Better tell my boss I'm going to be gone that week. I also found out the last week of Dec I will have VERY FEW hours - since the bookkeeper is going to be gone my boss says I don't need to do any deposits - so I just need to sort the mail, and distribute important stuff - like lab results and other test results to the docs. I guess that leaves cashbox tallying to me so will have to do that daily. I will just prepare everything as I normally do - but not total all the money and prepare the deposit. No bank runs for that week!

                            blah blah blah........... I'm rambling. I should go walk - but now its raining........ ARG!
                            1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                            2. Eat to heal
                            3. Move to live
                            4. Embrace today
                            5. Live with intention
                            6. Respect my body
                            7. Cultivate joy
                            8. Find my passion
                            9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                            • I have been following Paleobirds journal and read today that her father has passed on. I feel so aweful for her.
                              1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                              2. Eat to heal
                              3. Move to live
                              4. Embrace today
                              5. Live with intention
                              6. Respect my body
                              7. Cultivate joy
                              8. Find my passion
                              9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                              • Tomi -
                                Taking a break from my paper to say hang in there. You are doing so well! Stress does raise cortisol levels which makes us hold onto weight, so you are probably right that the Thanksgiving event isn't helping. I know it's easier said then done, but try and let it go. Okay, back to my last two pages.......
                                Female 55
                                Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
                                Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

                                With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

                                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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