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  • Okay - this is a pre-sin confession..........

    At this very moment my hubby is on his way home with cheese cake! and I'm going to eat some. Food today -- about cup of the evil beef hash that made my stomach go into a gymnastic floor routine! some almond butter (didn't measure), and a small sweet potato with butter and a little brown sugar. Very little food. I think I can handle a peice of cheese cake yum.

    I'm making hubby and son homemade icecream............. its killer!
    1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
    2. Eat to heal
    3. Move to live
    4. Embrace today
    5. Live with intention
    6. Respect my body
    7. Cultivate joy
    8. Find my passion
    9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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    • having a good weekend. didn't get any exercise on Saturday cuz were busy all day - and it was raining all day. I was going to do some yoga - but passed. Calories were good though so I'm not concerned.

      Yesterday hubby told me my pants were looking aweful nice on me! Love those little comments. When I told him I still had 50 pounds to lose - he said he didn't know where it was all going to come from cuz I didn't look that over weight Nice guy..........

      This morning we went for a nice walk in the rain with umbrellas. Soggy - but it was nice. I love it when he wants to walk with me. About 45 minutes of actual walking with a few stops to visit with neighbors out doing the same. I love our neighborhood! Great people live around us.

      Today will be football. I'd like to get out and do some more yard work - but will have to get wet to do it. I don't see the rain letting up at all today.

      Thoughts and prayers are going out to all you folks on the East 1/2 of the country............. Hurricane Sandy is going to be a nasty one. We will be keeping watch on the news and praying it won't be as bad as they are predicting. I'm thankful we live on the temperate side of the continent.

      Food today.......... so far nothing. Its 10:45, and although I feel a bit hungry - I don't have an appetite so I'm holding off on the food. I'll eat when I feel more desire for food. Hubby is putting a pork shoulder into the smoker. At the moment he is concocting some "magic" rub to put on it. I prefer a nice dry rub - but he's got to do something different every time we smoke something! He loves it, and he's having fun so I'm not going to say anything.

      Not sure what will go with the pork............ we have some spighetti squash and some other veggies. Maybe I wil roast some veggies tonight. Last night I took chicken breast, cubed it, and stir fried it with red onions, red potato, broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, spinach and Thai Yellow Curry Sauce............. it was YUMMY. We decided we will be doing a lot more of those types of dinners. Hubby loves it when everything is all mixed up together -- its close to the India food that he grew up on.

      I'm getting so all I'm interested in eating is dinner. I will eat earlier in the day only because I'm physically hungry and need to eat - but I never really have an appetite until its time for dinner. Course - I don't mind eating bacon at any time of the day!

      Hope you all are enjoying your Sunday!
      Last edited by tomi; 10-28-2012, 11:48 AM.
      1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
      2. Eat to heal
      3. Move to live
      4. Embrace today
      5. Live with intention
      6. Respect my body
      7. Cultivate joy
      8. Find my passion
      9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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      • Originally posted by tomi View Post
        I'm still 185 - but I know I'm still carrying extra water cuz when I get up in the morning I have these ugly bags under my eyes! Looks like I'm an old alcoholic or something! I finally went to the bathroom this morning - so I'm sure that is going to relieve some of it - I read yesterday that being constipated can contribute to excess water weight. So hopefully when pipes get cleaned out the water weight will follow and the puffiness will go away.

        I forgot to report on the steaks cooked in the crockpot! They turned out really good! Very tender and juicy and full of flavor! The bones fell right off when I lifted the meat out. I saved all the juice for Zeus. Last night we cut up a couple of the steaks into cubes, cubed up a couple small red potatoes, quartered 6 brussel sprouts, threw in some carrots, 1/2 red onion, and some cauliflower and made a really yummy hash. We added some Tai Yellow Curry Paste to give it some ZING! It was wonderful! We'll do something similar tonight. Not sure what exactly......... hubby wants to do something with the Guy Fieri sauce --- but it has sugar in it. I will try to talk him into something else. There is only 9 grams of sugars in 2 TB though - so thats not really that much. I will do a little research and see if 9 grams of sugar will hurt anything. ............. ok - 9 grams of sugar is 35 calories or about 2 tsp. Thats a lot huh? Maybe I will convince him we need to just add spices instead of that sauce.

        ...

        So I'm obsessing over the scale again. I hate it when it moves down in leaps and bounds... and then rebounds and just hangs there! What a cruel thing to do! For 2 days it was telling me 181.6 -- I was thrilled and so anxious to see it drop down under 180! Then it jumped 4 freakin' pounds over night! and I'm still hanging at 185. I know I just need to keep doing what is right - the high fat - mod. protein - and VLC is what I need to stick with. My nemisis is that dang RUM. Thats the problem! I had rum over one weekend and the scales shot back up to 185 even though my overall calories didn't reflect that type of an increase. At best I should have gained 1/2 pound. So obviously alcohol calories aren't the same as food calories. Thats a good thing to keep in mind next time I feel the desire for a drink.
        One of the best ways to get rid of water weight is to drink a lot of water. It flushes out all the extra salts that make our body hang on to the water. Cheap and easy too...

        Originally posted by tomi View Post
        I stepped on the scale just a minute ago - after a long visit in the bathroom, in the sitting position...... 182.2 So - I guess there is something good to come from my misery! thats only .8 pounds from my all time primal low of 181.6 from a few weeks ago. I mist be doing something right.

        I've made beef curry for dinner - but I'm not touching it! Hubby and son can feast on all of it. Just need to make some rice. Not sure what I'll eat for the rest of the day - but I can promise you it will be something very mild and easy on the digestive system.

        send healing thoughts and prayers my way please.
        Yes ma'am! Hope you're feeling better now. And glad to see you're inching down again. I've got to do much the same thing. Been stalling the last couple of weeks.
        5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
        Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
        Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

        More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
        - Lewis Mumford

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        • JUDG! So good to see you back............ I missed you
          1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
          2. Eat to heal
          3. Move to live
          4. Embrace today
          5. Live with intention
          6. Respect my body
          7. Cultivate joy
          8. Find my passion
          9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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          • Awwww... *blush*
            5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
            Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
            Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

            More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
            - Lewis Mumford

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            • so, its raining buckets here in the Pac. West. but I'm sure its nothing compared to what is to come for the East once Sandy hits ground. My heart goes out to the people who will be dealing with the lack of services and having to evacuate their homes and close down businesses until this terrible storm is over and life returns to normal again.

              We had a really good day. Started with a walk in the rain - then a trip to Costco in the rain - then some yardwork in the rain - then another trip to Fred Meyers in the rain! Notice a pattern here? And now I'm sitting in the dining room alone - listening to the rain beating on the roof. Lots of rain! Our fish pond is over flowing! I pray for no mudslides - but expect to hear of some.

              I ate too many peanut m&ms today and now my tummy hurts. dumb thing to do. wish hubby hadn't bought them at costco. but I did skip the cheese cake while hubby was having a peice. SCORE 1 for me on the that round.

              Dinner was so dang good! Pork shoulder prepared in the smoker with roasted veggies. It was delish!

              I have been good at keeping my calories down - but I feel a bit bloated so don't expect to see the scales down where I would like in the morning. We'll see.

              Its late........ nearly midnight. I was in bed....... but forgot something and needed to get up - then I decided to do a bit of journaling - and here I sit.

              Night all.
              1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
              2. Eat to heal
              3. Move to live
              4. Embrace today
              5. Live with intention
              6. Respect my body
              7. Cultivate joy
              8. Find my passion
              9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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              • Okay............. back to the basics. My weight has been stagnant for 3 weeks. Looking back over my logs the one thing I see that I've been slipping up on is allowing little bits of sugar in my diet. Brown sugar on my sweet potato and acorn squash --- a little cheese cake here and there ---- and honey in my tea. And thats all bringing my carbs up into the 20% range as well. I was doing good keeping it down between 10 and 15% - the weight was coming off pretty nicely week to week.

                So.......... I'm cutting out all sugar for the next 3 weeks. I can eat the sweet potatos in hash, or roasted and then I won't care if they have sugar on them. I won't buy any acorn squash (too many carbs anyway) and I will forego the tea - or learn to drink it unsweetened. Maybe I'll buy some Stevia for the tea - cuz I like a nice cup of tea in the morning. And yesterday hubby bought peanut M&Ms at Costco....... I ate some and now my tummy is giving me fits. I just can't do chocolate. Period. I need to eliminate that from my diet completely.

                So........ time to buckle down again. Seems I have this pattern of losing a few pounds then easing up on my boundaries - then I stay flat-line for a couple weeks again until my act together. I think I will give myself a challenge............ see how long I can go with keeping a clean diet! Starting today. Lets count the days I go with no sugar, no grains, no alcohol and keep the macros in check with high fat - mod. protein - and VLC. (although I do sleep better with the carbs up around 20% - maybe if I just focus all my carbs on the last meal of the day?? ) And I'm not doing anymore IFing. I've done that for the past 3 weeks and it isn't helping with the weight loss. So, back to having breakfast before work

                I'm going to try to walk before it starts to rain again.
                1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                2. Eat to heal
                3. Move to live
                4. Embrace today
                5. Live with intention
                6. Respect my body
                7. Cultivate joy
                8. Find my passion
                9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                • Go for it Tomi. I've been stagnate weight wise as well - figured mine was wine and not exercising. I travel next week, so will join you after that (I never exercise at the hotel! ). My tummy is off today - must have been why the last two days were blah feeling. Sorry to hijack your journal, you just hit the nail on the head with your post!
                  Female 55
                  Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
                  Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

                  With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

                  My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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                  • Originally posted by Pedidoc View Post
                    Go for it Tomi. I've been stagnate weight wise as well - figured mine was wine and not exercising. I travel next week, so will join you after that (I never exercise at the hotel! ). My tummy is off today - must have been why the last two days were blah feeling. Sorry to hijack your journal, you just hit the nail on the head with your post!
                    happy to hit that nail for you You should hit the gym at the hotel -- just to walk on the treadmill or sit on the stationary bike and peddle a bit. take a book with you and just go easy.

                    Just got home from a brisk walk! I think thats the fastest I've walked 3 miles. Made it in just 50 minutes. I think I kept a pretty steady pace the entire time. I even passed up a chance to visit with some neighbors -- luckily they were talking with someone I didn't know so I just said hi and kept on going! Its a beautiful day! a nice 61 degrees and no rain while I was out - but its coming. Accuweather said I had a break until 11 am --- so I made a run for it! I actually worked up a sweat.

                    Bacon is cooking (yum) --- I'm taking my supplements - that I've failed to take since Thursday. Thats what happens when I don't eat breakfast --- I have to take the mega-B vitamins with food or they make me upchuck! And if I wait to take them too late in the day they mess up my sleep.

                    hubby is missed speghetti. I have a sp. squash that was given to us --- I need to make it and see how he likes it. But, tomato based foods don't set with me - so I will have to eat something else. Right now he still have curry that I made on friday - and we have the pork that he smoked yesterday. I have it in the crockpot today - hoping to tenderize more so we can eat it as pulled pork. I also have a couple other meat defrosting in the fridge --- so pretty much dinner for this week is taken care of. Gotta love that!

                    My son is considering making an offer on a house that we looked at over the weekend. Really nice place - it was build in the 40's but has been well taken care of and last owner was a painter so its nicely decorated. they did some nice remodeling as well. Its pretty much move in ready - and there are 3 bedrooms that he can rent out. The rent would nearly cover his mortgage. I'm pretty proud of him for his financial good sense! And anxious to have him out on his own!!! We're only 6 months away from his 27th birthday and its most definitely time for him to be moving out. Yes, he's a "late bloomer" due to his severe social anxiety issues - but I think he's finally grabbing that monster by the ears and throwing it in the corner! He wants a life........... he wants to find love and get married............ he wants to have a future. I'm pretty proud of him.

                    I feel good about the goals I have set --- no sugar, no alcohol, no grains -- eat breakfast and take my pills -- walk/yoga/pilates daily (thats an either or not and ALL) And get back to the high fat, mod protein and VLC. I think I will see a few pounds gone by next week.

                    Tomorrow is my well woman exam. Yuck. I supposed she'll order a mammogram too. UGH - I so hate those! It hurts! And I just love having some random radiology tech manipulating my boobs to get them all positioned for the stupid machine to smash me flat! I just know a man invented that damn thing! The gyn exam I can handle -- its awkward - but at least it isn't painful.

                    well............ best catch up on journals and then hit the shower to get ready for work. Good Monday all!
                    1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                    2. Eat to heal
                    3. Move to live
                    4. Embrace today
                    5. Live with intention
                    6. Respect my body
                    7. Cultivate joy
                    8. Find my passion
                    9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                    • I especially like spaghetti squash with cream sauces. Really nice with shellfish. I would really hate having to live without tomatoes though. Oy.
                      5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                      Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                      Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                      More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                      - Lewis Mumford

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                      • My cervix does not like the little plastic bristle brushes the doctor uses to collect the cells. It spasms and then I cramp for at least an hour after. Never experienced a mammogram yet... Too young and doctors haven't found anything to be concerned about yet. Both my moms mom and her mom (my grandma and great grandma) had cysts in their breasts. Nothing more serious than that. I imagine it's got to be scary finding any kind of lump. I remember finding a lump in my arm pit at basic training. Turns out it was an inflammed lymph node, but it scared the living hell out of me. I cried continuously until the doctor told me I would be ok. I guess when you go from being a "getting fat" lazy slob to busting your ass constantly at basic training, these things crop up??? It went away and hasn't come back, so I got over it. But it was scary! Good luck to you.

                        I don't think I'll be tracking my macros. Not sure yet. I didn't measure any of my food for lunch today so I would have no idea where I'm at for today at any rate. Planning a high carb dinner for tonight (chicken scampy with basmati rice) for two reason - to work our way through the copious amounts of rice we have, and to use up the cream I bought yesterday before deciding I would also go dairy free, with the exception of butter. I will probably start dairy free on the 1st as I'll have cream for dinner tonight and for lunch tomorrow.

                        Anyhow. I'm rambling on your journal. *blush* I hope you're having a great DRY day!
                        Primal since March 5, 2012
                        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                        • Jenn........ sorry about the spasms - ouch! My first mammogram was at the age of 18. My boyfriend (now my husband) found a small lump. It was deemed to be a fatty tissue and nothing to be concerned about. Since I'm now 51 I've had one every year since I turned 35 - and then sometimes double because something "doesn't look quite right". So far no worries. My dad's sister had breast cancer so that ups my chances by a little. I did have a scare with cervical cancer. Thanks to the ex husband I developed cervical dysplasia (due to the HPV virus that is sexually transmitted - and with my sexual history he was the only possible source). I was fine one year - the next WHAM - severe dysplasia. Doc said she'd never seen anything grow that fast. The really scarey part is that I was going to skip that year - if I had I would have ended up with full blown cervical cancer - and likely would not be here today typing this message to you! I had a cone biopsy to remove the offending cells and I've been fine since. Last test showed that I no longer have the virus - yeah for my bodies ability to fight it off! So, that means I should not have to worry about cervical cancer again.

                          Women issues........ eeesh.

                          I have to track or I'm WAY off the grid! I could easily eat 2000 calories a day without batting an eye......... I do love to eat. Tracking helps keep my appetite reeled in and my calories under control. For example -- I came home from work and was feeling hungry-ish. I decided to snack on some almond butter. Normally I will be able to judge about when I have had a serving (32 grams) -- but I wasn't paying attention - and I was really enjoying it. Good thing I weighed the container before I started munching - cuz it turned out I had swallowed 94 grams!!!!! If I hadn't been weighing and measuring I would not have known that I just ate 540 calories --- 18 carbs, 51 fats, and 21 proteins. Its just too easy to go overboard. So, I watch everything that goes in my mouth. Dinner will be nothing but pork tonight.
                          1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                          2. Eat to heal
                          3. Move to live
                          4. Embrace today
                          5. Live with intention
                          6. Respect my body
                          7. Cultivate joy
                          8. Find my passion
                          9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                          • Thanksgiving is at our house this year....... ugh. So many people. If it were just adult I wouldn't mind too much -- but its also children - misbehaving children. Not terribly awrnry - but the don't listen. "don't run in the house" gets met with a timid look and 30 seconds later they are flying by again! They are adorable children - I just don't want them in my house. They drop food and spill their drinks on the carpet - and the parents are oblivious! And this year - that same family has her sister and 4 children living with them - and I fear they will ALL be coming! Thats 11 people just from that household. UGH! I was going to clean the carpets before the gathering - but I've changed my mind. AFTER the big dinner and gathering I will have a professional carpet cleaning company come and do my entire house. It is in desperate need. I have a Bissle machine that I use - but it isn't the same as the ones that the pro's use. I will call ServPro. It will likely cost $500 to have the whole house done - but it will be worth it. I wish there was some way of getting out of having all those people here though. Okay - just that one family. I love them all enormously --- but the kids are out of control. They constantly ask for food or drink - and then don't finish it - or drop it and leave it where it falls. I'm having so much stress over this! I asked hubby if we could plan the gathering for the same day that they will be going to his mom's for their dinner. He laughed at me - like I was joking. No.......... I'm totally serious about this! I've considered trying to find a room to rent this year. I know another family who has grown to large to have their gatherings at anyones home so they rent a room at a local church. I think I will send out an email and ask for head counts on who is coming this year - at least that way I will know how many I need to plan for. Last year we had 25. if the "extra" people come we will be at 30 this year. My house is NOT THAT BIG! help.............
                            1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                            2. Eat to heal
                            3. Move to live
                            4. Embrace today
                            5. Live with intention
                            6. Respect my body
                            7. Cultivate joy
                            8. Find my passion
                            9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                            • Perhaps you should try talking to the parents. This isn't the first time this has stressed you out.
                              5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                              Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                              Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                              More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                              - Lewis Mumford

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                              • We are all getting spammed.
                                Last edited by Pedidoc; 10-29-2012, 08:23 PM.
                                Female 55
                                Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
                                Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

                                With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

                                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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