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  • Love the picture!

    But Latte misses Zeus.
    Female 55
    Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
    Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

    With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

    My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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    • Maybe I better take a picture of myself WITH Zeus........... but then you have to do the same!
      1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
      2. Eat to heal
      3. Move to live
      4. Embrace today
      5. Live with intention
      6. Respect my body
      7. Cultivate joy
      8. Find my passion
      9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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      • I still have the fat girl picture aversion! Trying to get over it, maybe the next time I dress nicely - I've been living in yoga pants and oversized t-shirts or scrubs for weeks now!

        When I'm off I twist my hair up and clip and no makeup. For clinic it's a pony tail (always, think clingy hands and creepy crawlys) and minimal eye makeup so I won't scare the kiddos.
        Female 55
        Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
        Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

        With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

        My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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        • Originally posted by tomi View Post
          Good idea!! I'll drop that one and see what he says

          New picture....... I sorta like my hair this way - I never see it from this view!
          You have such lovely hair! Reminds me of DD, beautiful shiny golden blond hair. And she dyed it black (and green and blue and pink) for years! Foolish girl. But now she's back to her natural colour, and has grown it out about as long as yours too. So lovely.

          Have you tried asking your hubby for his help? Tell him your dilemma, how these things hurt you but how hard it is to resist. If he gets into protect-my-wife mode, who knows what good things could come of it? Knowing that he could get fringe benefits probably wouldn't hurt either.
          5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
          Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
          Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

          More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
          - Lewis Mumford

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          • Originally posted by Judg View Post
            Have you tried asking your hubby for his help? Tell him your dilemma, how these things hurt you but how hard it is to resist. If he gets into protect-my-wife mode, who knows what good things could come of it? Knowing that he could get fringe benefits probably wouldn't hurt either.
            I like this idea. Protect-my-wife mode is awesome!
            Primal since March 5, 2012
            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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            • I talked to him last night - as he was having his first rum and diet coke (2 over 2 hours time). I hope it doesn't sound like we're lushes or anything......... It just helps him relax after a tough day at the boatshop - gives him a good solid nights rest. Me - sometimes I just like the tastes, other times its nice to just "lift the stress level" - not that I have that much, my life is pretty much gravy! But I tend to be a little worry wart at times. And lets just be honest --- sometimes we just have fun getting a buzz together. Normally its only on the weekends, but occasionally on a week night. And we NEVER leave the house.

              Anyway - as for the talk. I had put the rum out in the garage - you know, so its not easily available - and he was concerned that I thought I might have a "problem" with it. Yes, I said, my problem is that when I drink it I bloat up 3-4 pounds and the scales won't budge even though I'm eating right and walking daily. I told him I NEED to not have it while I'm working on losing weight. He understood...... now lets see how he handles that information. I noticed that the bottle is back in the kitchen cupboard. So, I don't know. I didn't go into the need to not have the sweets cuz I didn't want to overload him. Honestly I can easily say NO to the sweets if I'm not TIPSY headed from rum!

              I'm trying to not be critical of myself............ hubby was fussing all over me last night about how much he loves me and how he thinks I have the most beautiful face! If he thinks so, then why am I so hard on myself about every little perceived flaw? I guess it comes from having a low self-esteem all my life. I've been trying to work on that over the years. I'm struggling with the signs of aging ........... the fine lines, the sagging ........ well EVERYTHING! Can't do anything about it - I should just embrace it. It certainly isn't going to be getting any better! I might look younger than my age........ but I don't look as young as I used to! DUH! Whatever ------ I don't mean to sound vain or self-absorbed. I'm just in a weird place of looking at myself as a mature, aging woman. My child is an adult man........... that feels very strange to me. Maybe I'm having a bit of a mid-life crisis!

              Okay - on to more practical things. Yesterday was a stellar day for the diet! and today is shaping up to be the same! I've had 3 eggs and large mug of broth. How do you calculate the calories and macros in broth? I sorta just guess. I think I might need to nibble on some almond butter - I've also gone for a 30 minute bike ride, covering 3 miles.

              and then its out to the 5th wheel to take down all the valances and side curtains, and remove the dining chairs........ all to be recovered. I'll take before and after pics! and then if energy and time permits I will mow the grass and pick up some more fall clean up debris in the yard.

              but first - just a little more catch up on the journals
              1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
              2. Eat to heal
              3. Move to live
              4. Embrace today
              5. Live with intention
              6. Respect my body
              7. Cultivate joy
              8. Find my passion
              9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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              • Way to go Tomi! I know it was hard to discuss the rum, but you did it. I think there are quite a few of us going thru the same aging, lines, shifting gravity, self esteem issue. You, unlike me, at least have the courage to post your picture. Looking forward to the pics.
                Female 55
                Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
                Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

                With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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                • Can anyone teach me how to do the "reply with multiple quotes" trick? I just don't get it..........
                  1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                  2. Eat to heal
                  3. Move to live
                  4. Embrace today
                  5. Live with intention
                  6. Respect my body
                  7. Cultivate joy
                  8. Find my passion
                  9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                  • Sorry, I can't figure it out either......
                    Female 55
                    Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
                    Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

                    With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

                    My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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                    • Listen to your hubby. He has a better perspective than you do on this. And don't go so easy on him. Let him know that eating certain things causes you literal physical pain, and you need him to steer you away from temptation. He's a big boy, he can handle it. It's not like you're asking him to do an extra three hours of work when he gets home, or anything. Do you really think that munching on Oreos right in front of you is so important to him that he's willing to put you through pain to do it? He might be less concerned about weight loss, because he probably thinks you're fine the way you are (you could point out the health benefits you need to get in that department), but pain is something else altogether. Don't underestimate your husband. His urge to protect is as strong as your maternal instinct. It's essentially the same thing, when you come down to it, just flavoured slightly differently. Appeal to it.

                      Yeah, I'm being bossy again. But of course, you are always free to ignore me.

                      Originally posted by tomi View Post
                      Can anyone teach me how to do the "reply with multiple quotes" trick? I just don't get it..........
                      First you click on the little icon in the lower right corner. Then you do it again for the next person you want to quote. Repeat as often as you wish.

                      Originally posted by Pedidoc View Post
                      Sorry, I can't figure it out either......
                      Then you click on +Reply to Thread right above the Quick Reply box. And there are your quotes. Just type in between them. You can edit the quotes to leave in only the parts you are actually answering. You might want to click on Go Advanced the first few times to check that you're not typing inside the quote box by mistake.
                      5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                      Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                      Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                      More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                      - Lewis Mumford

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                      • Yep... what she said.

                        Glad you were able to have the talk with Hubby and I'm glad he understood.
                        Primal since March 5, 2012
                        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                        • I just came off a 20 hour fast. Ate dinner at 8 pm last night (normal for summer dinners with hubby's late nights at the boatshop), dinner was only a chopped salad and some chicken, a little too heavy on the dressing though. This morning I was out the door by 8:15 am to take MIL to the doctor. She's a 25 minute drive away. I was thinking it would be a fairly short excursion. However - the doctors visit took 45 minutes after exam, counsel, flu and pneumonia shots, and a blood draw. Then she wanted a breakfast sandwich from micky-D's (yuck, by you know what - she's turning 89 in a couple weeks - at this point she can eat whatever she wants if it makes her happy ) - then when I got her home I found out she was out of a very important eye drop so I had to call the pharmacy and go get that for her. Then, there was a stop at BIL's shop, and another at my mom's to drop off her laundry that I did yesterday. UGH........... then I stopped at a fabric store after fighting through construction traffic and I spent WAY too long there! (but I did find fabric for the valance re-do in the 5th wheel) - and I didn't get home until 2:30........... then I de-spiderized the yard so I could mow without being eaten by a thousand nasty spiders.......... UGH! then I finally cooked up 3 eggs! I was starting to feel a bit fuzzed brained from going so long without food. Actually without water also cuz I forgot to grab a bottle before I left this morning. So now its nearly 5 pm --- and I'm exhausted! I'm going to suggest hubby pick up something on his way home and I'm having left over salad with salmon - unless he wants that too - but I doubt it since we just had salad and chicken last night. He gets bored with too much salad. but I'll send him a text and see what he wants. Hopefully he won't say salad - cuz then I will have to run to the store for more salad fixin's.

                          MIL is getting so forgetful! She can remember the year, the president, her birthday, stuff like that. But she can't remember that last night she was told numerous times by several people that she was going to her PCP today. She thought I was taking her to the eye doctor. Thats NEXT month. Today was a BP check, but she was totally taken by surprise when we pulled up at her doctors office. I wondered why she had all her eye drops in a little bag with her. ?? She kept asking me if I knew about the change - yes, I made the appts. No change - just an unexpected doctor visit to get BP meds re-upped at the pharmacy. She's such a sweet lady........ so gracious and kind. It breaks my heart to see her failing. In all honesty none of the family expected her to live long after Dad passed away. But he's been gone for nearly 7 years now. They were married for 65 years! Served as missionairies to India for 37 years! They are the most wonderful I've even known in my life. I love MIL WAY more than I love my own mother --- if can find a way to "measure" love that is. She is nearly blind now. Glaucoma, Macular Degeneration and now muscle atrophy behind her eyes. She doesn't understand why she can't see and keeps wanting to go to the eye doctor for them to fix it. There's nothing they can do. I'm going to talk to the family and see if I can get the ok to have the eye doctor fully explain to her what is wrong with her eyes so she knows there is nothing they can do at this point. I can't make that decision, it needs to be made by her 4 sons.

                          You can see that my heart is heavy for her today. I love her so and hate to see her in this stage of life. I feel honored to be able to serve her by taking her to her doctors appt and doing little for her. She always thanks me and say she's sorry that I have to do things --- I tell her I do them because I love her and she is never to be sorry! I feel that God has blessed me with a "mother" in my MIL --- since my own mother never was much more than a figure to fear and provide a meager home for me. MIL is my "mom". I hope she knows how much I love her.
                          Last edited by tomi; 09-28-2012, 05:09 PM.
                          1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                          2. Eat to heal
                          3. Move to live
                          4. Embrace today
                          5. Live with intention
                          6. Respect my body
                          7. Cultivate joy
                          8. Find my passion
                          9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                          • Aging parents can be as difficult as adult kids!
                            Female 55
                            Starting wt: 198, Goal: 135, Current with PB: 165
                            Started at a size 16 down to loose 10

                            With PB my asthma has improved, low back pain is gone, & I've got more energy

                            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread60175.html

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                            • Yes, I am going to emphasize to hubby that certain things need to remain on the extremely rare list! Sugar definitely - and rum definitely! I have told him that having them is not good for my health or my weight loss efforts - but I haven't told him how difficult it is for me to NOT indulge with him. So I will have to make that known. I think I haven't emphasized that because admitting makes me feel "weak" --- and I don't like to think I'm weak ----- truth be told -- when it comes to cookies, m&m's or lorna dunes -- or rum........... I'm very weak! (oh, that makes me cringe!)

                              This weekend's plans have changed a bit........ we were going to spend another weekend on the boat with another couple, but the other couple isn't able to go with us. That means, no help getting the boat out of the water. I can pull a trailer - and I can back it down a boat ramp if I have LOTS of room and don't feel rushed by other people waiting to get their own boats out of the water - but this boat and trailer are 6 feet longer and WAY bigger! Hubby says he totally trusts me to either back the trailer down the ramp - or drive the boat onto the trailer........... I said - "thanks for the confidence in me, but I'm not comfortable doing either one!" Lets call BIL and ask for his help............ SOOOO all that to say --- hubby, son, BIL and me are doing a day trip to Olympia to load up the boat and bring her home for the winter (*tears*) .......... which also means no junk food or rum to have to deal with over the weekend. yeah!

                              I'm on day 3 of my starting fresh on the 21 day challenge - which sorta just translates into strict paleo since I'm not planning on stopping, even if I mess up - I plan to get back on the horse and keep going. This way of eating seems to work for me to up my energy - decrease my pain - and cause the number on the scale to drop! WIN - WIN - WIN!!!

                              I haven't walked or biked today - but I did mow the grass (activity AND sun) and spent 2 hours walking round and round the fabric store - so I'm counting that as my hour of activity. yesterday I went on a 30 minute bike ride - covered about 3 miles, maybe 4. felt good. I'm on a roll.......... now just have to keep it rolling!

                              Hubby says YES to the salmon and steamed veggies - so no trip to the grocery story today. But, will have to go soon cuz the veggie drawer is nearly empty. Wish I had a good farmers market to go to the pick up local fresh veggies......... Marcadav --- if you're reading - do you know of any? Saturdays farmers market - but I rarely am able to get down there and Wednesday Farmers Market I'm working.......... do you know of any in the Keizer area????

                              The moon is huge and beautiful tonight! should see if hubby wants to walk with me...........

                              My son is turning into a true primal dude. He's always asking me about stuff - and learning to cook his own food! He's trying really hard to add more fruit and veggies to his diet too. Gotta love that! He makes his own dinner and usually makes a chicken thing - cuts up chicken breast and fries them with NO added fat (not good), seasoned with cayenne, cinnamon, garlic and salt -- then puts over a bed of chopped spinach, onions and carrots. He came up with his on own. Good thing we have a WELL stocked spice cabinet!

                              Now --- to just get him to move out and cook in his own kitchen. ....................
                              1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                              2. Eat to heal
                              3. Move to live
                              4. Embrace today
                              5. Live with intention
                              6. Respect my body
                              7. Cultivate joy
                              8. Find my passion
                              9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                              • Originally posted by tomi View Post
                                Marcadav --- if you're reading - do you know of any? Saturdays farmers market - but I rarely am able to get down there and Wednesday Farmers Market I'm working.......... do you know of any in the Keizer area????
                                When I first moved here there was one at Keizer Station but it didn't do very well so they stopped having it. I did read, somewhere, that they were going to start up again but haven't checked to see if they did.

                                I did find this:
                                https://sites.google.com/site/keizer...farmersmarket/

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