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  • ended up not going to the hospital. I sent my friend this text "should I come down or it too crowded down there?" Her response was....... "not needed. Thanx."

    What the hell does that mean? Maybe I have overstep the boundaries of our friendship? Maybe she isn't comfortable with me being so close to the family? Whatever.......... I'm not going to let it get it me down. But I will most likely pull back a bit from the friendship and see what happens. If I have crowded her a bit I need to respect her boundaries and give her some space. She's more of a sister than a friend............. we've been close since 1972 for heavens sake! And her family is like my family. Her parents are very special to me - I love them very much and if something where to happen to them it would hurt me very deeply. But........... they aren't MY family. I am a family friend and I must respect the limitations of that honor.

    Oh sometimes life is complicated.

    I want rum.............

    Food today: 4 eggs - a medium sized burger patty w/ketchup - a small handful of bittersweet dark chocolate chips. I think I will eat some pulled pork or chicken breast - both are left overs in the fridge. Will see what hubby wants and I will eat the other.

    Speaking of hubby........ he stayed late to help his best friend pull the engine out his newly purchased used boat. Its 8:25 pm and he just texted that he's on the way home. He's a good man. I'm a blessed woman.
    1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
    2. Eat to heal
    3. Move to live
    4. Embrace today
    5. Live with intention
    6. Respect my body
    7. Cultivate joy
    8. Find my passion
    9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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    • I ate well yesterday. Eggs, ground beef w/ketchup, a little dark chocolate, pulled pork and a small red potato with butter.

      Not whole30 cuz I had ketchup and butter and dark chocolate. But........... close. WHOLE-ISH is better than nothing.

      Today I am going back to basics but I don't think I'm going to try to do the strict whole30 thing. I'm pretty much in control of what I'm eating at the moment. I have 2 containers of ice cream in the freezer that I'm not even remotely interested in, and the m&m's bags are staying closed So I think I'm good to go and don't need to "cleanse" with a whole30. Sometimes I think I would like to live 100% paleo --- but with a spouse who is nowhere near even 50% primal it would be too difficult and I'm not going to add that kind of stress to my life. I'm not saying I won't attempt another whole30 in the future - but now is not the time. Anyway........... no dark chocolate cuz it messes with the bowels.

      Trying to figure out what to make for dinner. I think its time to search the primal/paleo blogs for some ideas. I think I'm going to make some primal hot wings. yummy!

      I didn't talk to my friend after the surgery. She texted that all went well but I didn't hear anything after her mom came out of recovery so I'm guessing all is fine. I sent her a text this morning asking if all went well. I talked to hubby about it last night but realized it wasn't really bothering me so I just let it go and I'm fine. I think I've reached that place in life when I can just things roll off my back instead of making a mountain out of a mole hill. If my friend has issues with me being too close to her family then I will simply respect that and pull back a little. I have no problem doing that - if it makes her more comfortable. She's more important to me than any of them anyway.

      Okay - for the past week I've been toying with the idea of doing a cosmetic procedure............... a laser lipo on my abdomen. Hubby is okay with me doing this and even the money isn't an issue. So I've been researching and contemplating. I decided not to do it. I may decide to do it if I can't get rid of the fat around my mid-section with diet and working on muscle and tone. But I'm going to lose the fat naturally - not have it surgically removed. Even if I spent the money and had it done - I still need to lose weight to get the rest of my body to look the way I want - so whats the point? Lose weight first......... then maybe, but I'm 95% sure I won't need it. Today I have no bloat in my mid-section and that feels really great!

      I've been a little lazy about my workouts so today I'm going to get focused again. Jump rope, Barre3 and maybe a walk.
      1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
      2. Eat to heal
      3. Move to live
      4. Embrace today
      5. Live with intention
      6. Respect my body
      7. Cultivate joy
      8. Find my passion
      9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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      • Jump rope - Barre3 - Weights

        Making 4 eggs and then I'll go shower and go to work.

        I think when I get home today I'll get out the bike and go for a nice ride. I sure wish I had easy access to a good bike path..... but I don't I'd rather ride a path than the streets. But, my neighborhood is pretty quiet so its not too bad.

        for giggles I calculated my calories for yesterday - they came out to just about 1400. Didn't bother with macros since I eat mostly fat/protein. I did have a small red potato yesterday so that's probably less than 50 carbs. The thing is --- yesterday I ate more than I normally do. So I am guessing my calories are down around 1200 or less when I'm eating twice a day with a small snack in the afternoon. It works for me ......... but I need to get the fat loss going again. I need to step up the movement!!! I've been sorta slug-like for the past 2 weeks. I don't do well in the heat and its been in the upper 80's - lower 90's for too long! My perfect performance temp is 75-80 That's my sweet spot! I should move to San Diego.

        Maybe I'll see if hubby wants to plan a trip sometime in the fall........ a long weekend to Southern Cal would be fun. See the zoo and the animal park! We have plenty of miles on our credit card so the flights would be free! We'd need a hotel, food and fun money. I'm going to see if I can put something together......... Maybe even plan a surprise weekend. Our anniversary is October 13. Maybe I will work it around that......... Yes, I'm going to do it! Our anniversary falls on a Sunday. We could leave Friday and come home Monday. Just need a dog/cat sitter. Maybe oldest step daughter would do it - that way I don't have to pay for it.

        off to do some planning.
        1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
        2. Eat to heal
        3. Move to live
        4. Embrace today
        5. Live with intention
        6. Respect my body
        7. Cultivate joy
        8. Find my passion
        9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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        • Your trip sounds fun. And Cali is very paleo friendly with numerous paleo/locally sourced restaurants. Have fun planning!
          Primal since March 5, 2012
          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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          • I'm heading to San Diego in September. My son is getting married.

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            • I think I'm going to try to find a little beach house to rent................

              A wedding in San Diego sounds wonderful!
              1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
              2. Eat to heal
              3. Move to live
              4. Embrace today
              5. Live with intention
              6. Respect my body
              7. Cultivate joy
              8. Find my passion
              9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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              • I'm in San Diego, well, northern San Diego county. Look at places on VRBO (vacation rental by owner) if you've never checked them out. When we would vacation here, before moving, we found some really good deals. I have a love-hate relationship with it here. I love the weather, hate the traffic, love the convenience and availability of good quality food, hate the traffic. Housing is quite expensive too. My husband always says sunshine is expensive! Sadly, I think we are moving back to PA later in the year. Family issues and responsibilities are hard to handle from the other side of the country. I will miss it.

                Anyway, sorry to hijack your journal. I still follow your progress and enjoy reading about your life. If you do make it down this way, let me know! Maybe we could meet up, if you'd want to take a little detour from your anniversary trip. Our anniversary is in October too!

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                • Well, plans changed a bit. I put a note on FB to get suggestions for a vacation destination. Hubby's cousin offered us the use of their house in Phoenix for FREE! Its a really nice house. They live in Oregon - but for some reason also have a house in Phoenix that they go to once a month. So............. we're going to Arizona. FREE air and FREE housing. What could be better?

                  KimT ............ I agree with you on the traffic. YUCK. I do my best to stay away from Portland for that very reason - and its not as bad as San Diego.

                  I thought I would be having the day off - but it seems I have work to do so will be going in this morning. This afternoon I am going to help my friend straighten up and organize her mom and dads house while her mom is still in the hospital.

                  So off I go...............
                  1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                  2. Eat to heal
                  3. Move to live
                  4. Embrace today
                  5. Live with intention
                  6. Respect my body
                  7. Cultivate joy
                  8. Find my passion
                  9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                  • I disagree-- Portland's traffic is worse than San Diego. San Diego has more freeways and they don't have ridiculously low speed zones when traveling through populated areas.

                    My kids will tell anyone that I never had "road rage" in all the years I lived in SD. Here, however, is a different story. People drive slow, don't know how to merge... And, the speed zones drive me crazy- one street will be 30mph, then you turn the corner and the next street will be 25mph with no rhyme or reason.

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                    • I'd take the offer a free place too! I've only been to AZ once, but really liked it! Hope you have a great time!

                      I've never driven in Portland, marcadav, so I'll take your word for it that it's worse than San Diego. I'm from south of Pittsburgh, PA, so very country feel. 2 lane highways each direction and speed limit 55. I used to hate going in to Pittsburgh, but after driving here and spending 5 months commuting to LA from SD, back home is like a walk in the park (very primal).

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                      • Well I guess I was referring to the numbers of cars on the road more than the way people drive. I agree that the traffic in Portland is screwy! We seem to have a bigger "comfort bubble" than drivers in California which definitely messes with how we merge or change lanes. I'm happy to not have to drive in Portland very often
                        1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                        2. Eat to heal
                        3. Move to live
                        4. Embrace today
                        5. Live with intention
                        6. Respect my body
                        7. Cultivate joy
                        8. Find my passion
                        9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                        • Well I didn't think I would need to go in to the office today but work seems to just materialize out of thin air sometimes. I had 3 new patient packets to abstract and then I did some work for the biller. Just some paper sorting and organizing. but I managed to log another 4 hours. I would be happier to get in a full 15 hours a week but it rarely happens.

                          Was supposed to be helping my bestie at her parents apartment today but its 2:15 and she hasn't called me yet. So I will find something else to do. I think I might run to Lowes and get some white paint for the exterior of the house. We have some trim that is in great need of painting!

                          Arizona plans are in the making. I told the manager what days I will be out of the office. I've confirmed dates with the home owners. I've talked to hubby to confirm he's comfortable being away from the shop for a few days in October. I'm looking for a dog/cat sitter. I've started to put together a list of fun things we can do while we're there. Most of which will be hiking related. I need to book our flights and reserve a rental - hubby wants to get a convertible since we aren't having to pay for the lodging! I think I will look into that. The house has a pool in the backyard and he is already exclaiming a NO SUIT policy! My husband........... oye!

                          I want to work on taking off some more weight before this trip as I will feel more comfortable in the heat if I'm not so "fluffy" I've got 12 weeks. If I could lose even 12 pounds that would help immensely!! I would probably be able to wear most of the capri's and all of the tops that I have tucked away in my closet. So....... clean eating and doing my jump rope, barre3 and weights is my priority. I had another talk with hubby last night about ditching the rum until I get my weight where I'm comfortable - he's always okay with it, but we don't seem to follow through with the plan. I think its my fault.

                          Hubby's best friend took our truck to Portland last night to do some boatshop deliveries/pick ups and to do some personal stuff. He stopped to get something to eat and while he was at the restaurant someone busted out the passenger window and stole his laptop. Damn little bastards!! Keep in mind this is a Ford F350. I can't even see in the windows without standing on my tip toes - so they weren't just passing by and happened to see a laptop laying on the seat - they were cruising the parking lot looking for things to steal. He has some sensitive info on his computer - all of which is accessible to someone who knows what they are doing. In particular, he has some client info stored in a file on DropBox. When he got back to our house he changed some passwords and added more security hoping that would be enough to keep the files safe. When he got home he was going to take the files out of dropbox, store them on his PC and delete the drop box files. Why do people have to do shit like that? I told hubby I REALLY wish I believed in and knew how to put a HEX on those little bastards! I think I would make a finger/toe/penis fall off for every bad deed they've done in their life......... starting with the penis! I hate people who intentionally cause grief for others.

                          One good thing that came out of it......... hubby finally see's why I am so careful about leaving things in plain sight in the vehicles. And he's going to stop using his briefcase as a traveling cash box.

                          Now we have to get the window in our truck replaced. Unfortunately it was the passenger side window - if they would have broken the drivers side it would have been better because that one doesn't work so good..... bummer.
                          1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                          2. Eat to heal
                          3. Move to live
                          4. Embrace today
                          5. Live with intention
                          6. Respect my body
                          7. Cultivate joy
                          8. Find my passion
                          9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                          • Hubby got the window of the truck fixed. cost us $185 and we're waiting to find out if insurance will pay for it. GRRRR.

                            I took mom shopping this morning and then we met my sister for lunch. It was nice - but I've learned that my lactose intolerance now encompassed cheese as well as milk and cream. So - no more dairy without a pill. I wonder if I should also include butter - or start making ghee. I ate had a bacon and cheese omelets (I never know how to spell that word), and hashed browns. It was good, but by the time I got home I was in NEED of the bathroom. I didn't have a severe reaction as I do when I have milk or cream without a pill, but it was bad enough to tell me I need to avoid dairy unless I have pills on hand.

                            I'm learning........ slowly............ what triggers my gut issues. The trouble is I'm finding more and more things that cause problems leaving me less and less things that I can eat without consequence. I'm trying to get back to a meat/eggs/fish only diet for a bit to calm things down and start again. But I'm struggling. Last night our neighbor brought us a nice full plate of Kokanee filets Hubby grilled those up on the charcoal grill and also grilled a couple small zucchini (from our garden) and it was really really yummy!!! I only ate a few bites of the zucchini. I don't think I'm doing well at all with my goal to get my weight loss moving again. Eating and drinking the wrong things. I'm not happy with myself right now.

                            Still struggling with the dang pond! We bought about 20 water hyacinths and then we had all the rain and the temps were low and most of them died.......... grrrr! Could also be the high pH of the water. Today I poured in 2 gallons of distilled white vinegar. HOPING to see a change in the water in the next few days. It doesn't have as strong of a smell as it did a month ago - and there is less floating algae clumps......... but still isn't clear like I want it. I'm so frustrated with it!

                            I worked in the yard for a bit this afternoon............ watered and fertilized all the pots and hanging baskets and pulled a LOT of spurge. That stuff grows like gang-busters here. And its really hard to kill with weed killers. So far I haven't got it in the lawn but its starting to appear at the edges of the lawn. Speaking of lawn............... UGH! ours in NEED of a good edging! I'm considering calling a lawn service to do it cuz its a HUGE job!! We have 1-3" rock around 75% of the yard and the grass is encroaching on the rock........... it needs to be pulled back out of the rock and its a bigger job than I want to tackle. I've started in a few places and its not easy. If I did just a little every day I think I could get it done by the end of the summer. Maybe I need to make that my goal. I also need to paint the outside trim and finish the staining of the new wood in the livingroom. I'm not doing very good at getting these projects done. Time to reassess my goals.............
                            1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                            2. Eat to heal
                            3. Move to live
                            4. Embrace today
                            5. Live with intention
                            6. Respect my body
                            7. Cultivate joy
                            8. Find my passion
                            9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                            • sick this morning. I woke up with pretty bad flank pain on the right side with pain radiating to just above the pubic bone. I'm thinking kidney stone. It went away after about an hour but I was starting to wonder if a trip to the ER was needed. Then my gut issues kicked in and I've been running to the bathroom all morning. We ate Mexican last night but I thought I was ordering a safe dish. It was a shrimp thing. There were onions in it. Probably shouldn't have done that. But now I know --- onions are out. And the don't eat list continues to grow!

                              my weight is going UP --- whats up with that?

                              Not sure whats on the agenda for the day. Hubby is at the boatshop for a bit, should be home before long. We might just hang at home.

                              Gonna go do some hard work................
                              1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                              2. Eat to heal
                              3. Move to live
                              4. Embrace today
                              5. Live with intention
                              6. Respect my body
                              7. Cultivate joy
                              8. Find my passion
                              9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                              • There are vegetables and fruit that are low in FODMAPs and maybe you could try those. Zucchini for sure are on my 'green' FODMAP list! Also bell peppers (capsicum), carrots, tomatoes, cucumber, eggplant, kale, green beans, lettuce, parsnips, spinach, swiss chards,...
                                Fruit: banana (ripe, not green!) , blueberries, grapefruit, honeydew melon, kiwifruit, lemon, lime, mandarin, oranges, papaya, passionfruit, pineapple, raspberry, rhubarb and strawberry shloud be fine. I eat most of these and don't react to them.

                                I noticed I can do little dairy (like a little hard cheese) but my bowels just go on strike when I eat a lot of it.

                                Are you taking a probiotic? And/or eating fermented foods?
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                                Goal for 2013: lose 10 kg and keep new weight (+/- 65 kg)

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