Excuse me if my journal's headtitle deviates from the rest, it's just that I found it so mundane...
A second 'excuse me' is in order because this intro is gonna be a long one!
Hi, I've been reading (and giggling at) Mark's Daily Apple for at least a year now but while I've implemented some changes to my diet I haven't frequented the forums or started a hardcore regimen and I think Monday is the day! (Isn't it appropriate that it would be the first day of the month as well? Totally coincidental!)
I am 21, 5'2 and 150LB (yikes, I don't usually tell that to people!). I'm either blessed or cursed with an hourglass figure and because my stomach has always been flat and my physique has always been muscular it took me a long time to realize I no longer weighed my usual 118LB.
Don't get me wrong, like most women in our dysfunctional society I've hated my body because I wasn't 100LBs, airbrushed and sported 36Cs since I was old enough to care, but my whining was usually to fish for compliments rather than real concerns.
I don't remember what happened (end of high school? death of my grandfather?) but I think I fell into severe depression and started gaining weight rather rapidly.
I have never been active or even social so getting back into shape with exercise seemed impossible. I had also discovered that I have PCOS; my periods were never regular, my skin highly sensitive and prone to breakouts, my mood swings were out of control. I haven't gotten my period in over a year now and due to a near-death experience with a gynaecologist avoid drugs and doctors like the plague.
I didn't care for a long time until I saw an especially bad picture of myself and wondered "do I really look like that?".
It happened, most likely, two years ago that I decided to take matters into my own hands and found a free diet book online that promised 'no acne, cellulite, overweight'. The premise was to eat nothing but fruits, raw fish/ eggs and raw nuts. And while it did wonders for my skin and weight I couldn't stick with it for more than a week.
The hardest thing for me was to give up meat...
I went from one radical diet to the next and did zero carbing (eating nothing but meat) and my skin cleared but was looking dull and my energy was in the gutter. I tried others after that, low-fat diets, extensive cardio... and none of them made sense. I lost all hope until I stumbled on Kat James' book- 'The Truth About Beauty'.
I still revere Kat and her wonderful book because it finally chased away my fear. I was so nervous about getting my calorie count wrong, about not-weighing myself, about eating the wrong thing at the wrong time - it was driving me crazy.
The Truth About Beauty just reassured me about what I already knew: it felt good to eat meat, vegetables, fruits and healthy, high-fat foods and it did not feel good to eat processed carbs, dairy and sugar laden fake foods!
Though the book had solid advice in it, it was still a little vague and I went on to search for something more concrete.
I found Jimmy Moore's Blog and found the forum there very supportive. I loved it how he made sure to interview (on his epods) a variaty of people and hear their experience. It was there that I saw Marks' site being advertised and after reading the first few funny post I bought his book on a whim.
- I'm not even sure why I did, because I never buy things without thinking them over weeks before, but I bought The Primal Blueprint the first time I ever laid eyes on the ad.
And I'm glad I did.
I just moved to Montreal and have a lot of time on my hands (which is why this intro is so flipping long), I went back to that all fruit-nothing-cooked-diet because I wanted to cleanse my body and knew it worked extremely well for my skin. But to my utter disappointment the diet (which usually worked wonders on my skin after day three) did absolutely nothing even after a week. I couldn't, for the life of me, figure it out as I followed it more strictly than I did before...
Now I'm moving to my next and final step, which is primal living.
I pray to Grok's Gods that my skin will finally look like that of a healhty 21yo, and that I will be able to sleep, get trhough the day without feeling depressed/self-loathing and will no longer be overweight and God, finally get my period back (I never thought I'd ask for that!).
I know it wont take 30 days to achieve all this, and that annoying voice in the back of my mind keeps telling me 'it's too good to be true', but I've tried everything else and this is the last resort.
I'll end on that very optimistic note, wish me luck, fellow Grok Stars :]