Announcement

Collapse
No announcement yet.

My Journey from Sugar Burner to Fat Burner - jenn26point2's Primal Journal

Collapse
X
  • Filter
  • Time
  • Show
Clear All
new posts

  • I had forgotten about that saying "Long walk off a short cliff"... love it. Sometimes it just feels like I've always got something to complain about... My journal is so little about my Primal Journey and more like a public diary of my private life... but I am not a very private person so I tend to talk a lot... It's more like a "My life for your viewing" kind of journal.
    Primal since March 5, 2012
    SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



    Comment


    • After some considerable thinking recently, I think... no, I KNOW, I need to work on my leptin output. I am at a point now where I don't eat just to eat, for the most part unless there is some tantilizing (sp??) little food number beckoning to me and the occasional handful of almonds. After reading the chapter on Leptin in Primal Body Primal Mind, I am convinced that leptin is the start of the whole hormone response mechanism within our bodies and all things that are right or wrong can be linked back to either a right or wrong leptin output. And, having a wonky leptin response can cause depression and anxiety, both of which I still suffer from, but not to the point of needing medication anymore. I need to keep reading in PBPM to see what her solution is to the leptin issue, but I think it's pretty much eating a diet that elicits very little insulin response. I'll check out Dr. Kruse's site again and see what he says even though I find his site to be VERY difficult to navigate...

      But, basically, I'll keep doing what I've been doing - low carb, high fat, moderate protein per the reading I've done so far... only thing I'm concerned about is the running. Right now it qualifies as sprinting, but once I venture up past 20 minutes 3x per week, it'll border on what PBPM classifies as too much cardio. A 30 minute 5k might be ok, but eventually I am going to want to do another half marathon and possibly even a marathon. I guess I'll have to make the decision based on how my body feels. And hopefully some more weight loss will occur. I'm back up to 189 after my sinful weekend!

      Off to do some reading while I sit around and wait for the new General to come to our office for a "tour" and staff visit. It's only oh so fitting that I'm wearing freaking runners today for shoes. Too danged cold to slip into my fast flats. Maybe if I can stay behind my desk he'll not notice??? lol
      Primal since March 5, 2012
      SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



      Comment


      • Just learned there are 14 weeks left til the end of the year. That means I can use the next 12 weeks to go into ketosis, which would help fix my leptin and help me lose weight, allowing for some freedom over the last two weeks. I could theoretically lose 12 lbs in that time... starting the new year at 172 would be awesome.

        Of course, I'd have to work hard to keep my brain fixated on the whole ketosis thing. I just learned that ketosis depends on a steady carb consumption, not overall daily consumption. For instance, you can't not eat carbs all day, then slam your body with carbs at dinner time and expect to stay in ketosis. Waiting to learn what the magic meal number for total carbs is. Dr. Kruse says to keep carb counts below 50gm per meal or no grams at all. I can do no grams at all for breakfast and I can skip lunch... but, dinner there are usually some carbs. How much is too much to remain in ketosis is my question.

        Anyhow, all that to say that I'm working on a plan for the next 12 weeks. Probably pretty close to Whole30 the whole time. It'll end just in time to have coconut cream pie (sans crust) at Christmas!
        Primal since March 5, 2012
        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



        Comment


        • I'll be watching. I could learn something good.
          5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
          Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
          Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

          More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
          - Lewis Mumford

          Comment


          • Since Primal already calls for no bad oils and no wheat, pulling all sugar and dairy pretty much puts me into a Whole30 status. The no starches to stay low carb and live in ketosis is going to be the toughest, but this last week I learned that white potatoes just opens the doors to too many non-primal goodies. I am getting better about skipping the sugary treats. I no longer have that nagging longing and guilt when I pass up a cookie and THAT.IS.SO.LIBERATING!! I used to be a slave to the cookies. If I saw one or smelled one, I HAD to have one or it would continue to nag at my brain. I think I'm finally at a point now where that's not happening anymore so I can probably easily move forward with my no sugar thing.

            Again, the hardest will be remaining low carb, but as long as I stay away from white potatoes, I should be ok. Theoretically... Good thing I love eggs!!

            I think I'll even order Mark's new 90 day journal. idk on that yet. Not sure it's necessary. My primary concern is getting my leptin in check and having cortisol take its rightful place once that happens. Dr. Kruse says it could take 6-8 weeks for a person to notice a change in cravings and hunger. I think I'm already on the path to that b/c my cravings have diminished significantly and my hunger seems to come at two times in the day, and goes away if I ignore it. He says to stick with 3 meals per day until hunger starts to fade, but I can already go until 4 before getting hungry again after breakfast (longer if I don't work out).

            I think maybe my biggest obstacle will be the sleep portion. Making sure I'm in bed at a decent time, and making sure there's a long enough gap between my last meal and bed. Kalli from her Leptin Reset Journal suggested I not eat after 4 pm, but that I don't see as overly doable considering I have kids to feed who tend not to eat if they see I'm not eating. We'll see if I can make that one work. I'm hesitant though b/c I want to start incorporating dinner at the dining room table as a family. Of course, certain things take priority and family time is one of them. I believe Kalli also goes to bed at 8 or 8:30 pm, so 4 would be a logical time for her to stop eating. 9:00 is likely the earliest I could be in bed each non-school night. 9:30 is probably more likely.

            Definitely have some things to work out, but getting started today.

            B: 3 eggs cooked in bacon grease, 3 strips bacon
            L: nada
            D: leftover ribeye steak, broccoli, cauliflower, carrot medley thing with 1 tbsp kerrygold

            Short class meeting tonight so I can get away with eating dinner at 4 and not messing with the kids as their dad will be home eating with them. I believe they're having tacos or homemade pizza (pizza only if DS got the appropriate behavior color at school). Tacos would be ok for my plans, though.

            Oh shoot... how can I go dairy free if I'm eating Kerrygold??? hmmmm... I don't want to give up the most delicious butter I have ever tasted, so that might have to be my one dairy thing.
            Primal since March 5, 2012
            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



            Comment


            • And this weekend when I go shopping, I am going to pick up some really heavy sweaters for me. I am so tired of being cold already. Jacket isn't cutting it. Need gloves and a blanket at my desk. Brrrrr
              Primal since March 5, 2012
              SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



              Comment


              • Looks like you're working out a good strategy and putting your plan to action! I'm looking forward to watching your progress. I've done a little reading on the leptin theory......... just can't get a good enough grasp on it to see if its something I should be looking at. So, I'll watch and see what you do first
                1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                2. Eat to heal
                3. Move to live
                4. Embrace today
                5. Live with intention
                6. Respect my body
                7. Cultivate joy
                8. Find my passion
                9. Meditate on peace in my soul

                Comment


                • Big Sister is watching you, LOL! Two of them...
                  5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                  Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                  Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                  More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                  - Lewis Mumford

                  Comment


                  • hahaha

                    Basically, what I read in PBPM and in It Starts with Food is that everything starts with Leptin. If your leptin is wrong, then everything else will be wrong. According to Dr. Kruse, it is pretty easy to see if you're leptin resistant. Here is a blurb from his site:

                    1. First make sure you really are Leptin resistant (LR) to begin with.
                    The easiest way to do this if you are heavy is to look in the mirror. If you’re overweight you definitely are Leptin resistant. If you still have a large appetite and crave carbohydrates, especially at night, these are also signs that you are likely Leptin resistant. If you are fit or in decent shape and not sure based upon the above symptoms, I would tell you to go get a blood test and check your reverse T3. It will be elevated. I also recommend simultaneously checking a salivary cortisol level. With LR, you will always see higher cortisol levels later in the day.

                    MY LEPTIN PRESCRIPTION | Jack Kruse

                    Not to change the subject, but... I brought PBPM to work with me today. Here is what it says about insulin and testosterone and all that.

                    The excesses of fat being generated by insulin and cortisol also more readily secrete enzymes (such as aromatase) that stimulate the excessive conversion of testosterone to estrogen in men (the number one cause of so-called testosterone deficiency in men) and the conversion of estrogen to toxic DHT testosterone in women, making weight loss extremely difficult in both men and women and mimicking in women many symptoms commonly associated with low thyroid function.

                    This can make one appear testosterone or estrogen deficient in blood or saliva tests. Lower testosterone levels also make men more prone to dopamine neurotransmitter deficiencies, as depressed testosterone activity also depresses dopamine receptor activity. Excessively lower estrogen levels in women suppress serotonin receptor activity and increases the proneness to depression and other issues. Good times.

                    The answer here is almost never hormone replacement, even with bioidentical hormones, which only temporarily alleviate the symptoms and can eventually greatly exacerbate the problem. You may feel temporarily better with supplemental estrogren, or even feel like Superman, at least for a while, on supplemental testosterone, but in the end, you are only making the problem worse. The underlying answer is in controlling this whole cascade of events by basically doing what is necessary to manage your levels of leptin, insulin, and adrenals (which usually means starting with addressing your blood sugar issues). The excessive conversion of hormones is an extremely viscious cycle and is at the heart of syndrome X, or metabolic syndrome.

                    Metabolic syndrome and its other related negative hormonal influences cannot ever be effectively micromanaged in the long term by hormone replacement. Bioidentical hormones have their rightful place in medicine, but their overuse often causes many more problems than they ultimately solve. The practices of functional medicine should have its foundation in respect for the complexity of the human organism and the intricate, interrelated web of endocrine function. One must peel back the layers of the onion to find the source of the problem and not simply persist in treating the symptoms.
                    Basically, what that says is that high sugar levels and high insulin throws leptin and cortisol out of balance. This loss of balance prevents testosterone and estrogen from being used properly and causes a slowdown in dopamine receptor activity, which causes depression. Bingo. There is the source of Brad's and my depression. And Mr. Blouse, the PA who read Brad's blood draw is doing it wrong by giving him testosterone shots.

                    I plan to send this blurb to my husband and ask him to reconsider his testosterone shots. It's amazing to me that simply eating low carb and keeping blood sugar in check is enough to fix all these things. It really does start with food. I hope he'll listen and consider. I know he feels all powerful right now. He feels stronger and says his arms feel bigger, and that might be so, but according to this, he needs to fix his insulin output to control his leptin and cortisol instead of taking testosterone shots.

                    *shrug* If nothing else, at least the bug will be planted and he can make up his own mind.

                    And speaking of hormone therapy, the effectiveness of my shot is no more. I was supposed to get my next depo shot yesterday and Brad and I agreed not to. Hopefully it wears off quickly so those hormones can start to regulate. In the meantime, I'm going to stay the course and work on fixing my leptin and cortisol.

                    Which reminds me. I don't think it's so much a problem of not being able to get out of bed when the alarm goes off, but more a case of not wanting to. I set my alarm to go off at 18 minutes to 6 so I could snooze twice and get up, get dressed and make Brady breakfast. I got up at 6:30 instead... I still made him breakfast (sausage and eggs) but I didn't get up when I wanted to. Shame on me. I guess I just enjoy sleeping too much. Maybe once my cortisol starts peaking in the AM I won't be able to go back to sleep and will have to get up.
                    Primal since March 5, 2012
                    SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



                    Comment


                    • It will get easier. In high school, I could wake up at the time my alarm went off, but sometimes I would just lie in bed and stare at the ceiling for half an hour, and then not have time for breakfast. I forgot how little I used to eat back then. A bowl of cereal?! Granted, sometimes they were large bowls, but really. Not enough food. Anyway, when I really started to try and adjust my sleep schedule this year (starting in January), it took about a month for me to get on track with it. First I got myself to get up at 7AM consistently, now I get up at 6:30 consistently. If I started going to be reliably by 10PM, I could probably push it back to 6AM, but with the changing sunlight, I don't think I want to. I'm pretty much settled on the fact that I won't be biking to work this Fall. It would be way too cold. Early on, with my waking challenges, waking up was never the issue, and getting out of bed always was. It will come, just give yourself time to adjust. Eventually, you will get bored with waking up and just get out of bed instead of snoozing. At some point, you realize it isn't worth it.
                      Depression Lies

                      Comment


                      • Sent it to Brad. I told him I read it in PBPM and thought it might be of interest to him and placed special emphasis on the parts where it says low T causes depression and taking supplemental hormones is not the answer. He'll probably get defensive and ask what the answer is, which will annoy him more b/c he's one who would probably rather take a pill to fix the problem than to work on it with diet. He has come a long way with the whole switch to Paleo, but he's not 100% there yet, so there's still some resistance. He still snacks on high sugar foods, still consumes a ton of carbs and likely eats entirely too much, but he's coming around. Hopefully this will change his mind about the hormone therapies.

                        Now, if he had lost a testical to a freak accident and was no longer producing his own testosterone, I'd be all for it. But given that he's overweight, most definitely insulin and leptin resistant, and depressed, I don't think tesosterone is the answer and instead he needs to focus on his diet.
                        Primal since March 5, 2012
                        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



                        Comment


                        • Tash, I think the changing sunlight is playing a huge role in it too. It's still dark when I get up whereas it was sunny a few weeks ago. Hopefully the upcoming time change will assist with that. I have considered one of those natural light alarms too that mimic sunrise by slowly getting brighter and brighter. But they're like $200 and I can't justify that.
                          Primal since March 5, 2012
                          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



                          Comment


                          • Interesting... all he said in response to my email was "thanks". hmmm...
                            Primal since March 5, 2012
                            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



                            Comment


                            • Remember that if he gets defensive, and you feel like you need to retaliate, it's probably better to walk away. I hope he is receptive to the article and sees your sharing it with him as you taking interest & caring, rather than being critical.
                              Depression Lies

                              Comment


                              • I hope he sees it that way too.
                                Primal since March 5, 2012
                                SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



                                Comment

                                Working...
                                X