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  • It's better today. I feel much better. Peed a LOT last night. Like 3 times between 10 and 12. It was nuts. But, I feel so much better today!
    Primal since March 5, 2012
    SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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    • Not hungry this morning. Which is a bummer b/c I have bacon and watermelon to enjoy (boiled eggs are less than enjoyable anymore - guess I'm bored with them).

      Planning to run today. I learned that when I do my run, I burn approximately 372 calories. That's 93 gm carbs if each carb is 4 calories. I wanted to know this so I know what to do for carbs on run days. Currently, I'm at about 60 or so carbs a day, which means that some of those calories have to come from fat conversion. Good to know. Not sure what I'll do with that information, but it's good to know.

      This morning was really rough. We were running late b/c I had class last night and didn't want to get up (I did, but didn't want to) and my kids were being difficult this morning. Brady didn't want to get dressed and stalled for way too long. Makenna kept taking her shoes off after I put them on. And a sippy cup spilled about 1/4 cup of milk on the floor that I had to wipe up before we could leave. I got frustrated and said "I quit." Brady says "Quit what, Mom?" I said "Being a mom. Being me." I was frustrated and always seem to say things I shouldn't say when I'm frustrated. I then said "Brady, go to the car so we can leave." He says "You're not going to be my mom anymore?" I told him I will if he helps to make being a mom easier because they make it too difficult in the mornings. He said he was sorry for being difficult and would listen better in the mornings. I swear I told him 8 times to get dressed. And what did he do? He put his underwear on his head instead of on his butt... in any other situation, that would be funny, but not when we're late and I've already asked him too many times to get ready. Then Makenna kept taking her shoes off and having little tandrums all morning long. I finally got fed up after the 3rd time putting her shoes back on that I gave her butt a little swat - probably felt like nothing through the diaper. Of course, she cried, but straightened up immediately following that. Seriously, I don't know why getting dressed and walking out the door is so difficult each morning. There's no need for it. We get up plenty early to get out the door on time if everyone cooperates, and most days we're fine. But there are just those days where I want to say to hell with it all and go away for a while... like to Aruba or something... for just a few hours.

      Clean eats on tap for today. Sitting at 188. Run planned for today. And training at work. I have to get a class done that I signed up for a few weeks ago. I've put it off too long and have to finish in the next week. I can do it, just have to actually do it...
      Primal since March 5, 2012
      SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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      • It's only up from where you started! Happy thoughts!
        1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
        2. Eat to heal
        3. Move to live
        4. Embrace today
        5. Live with intention
        6. Respect my body
        7. Cultivate joy
        8. Find my passion
        9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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        • hello all... Just checking in. I really don't have anything to talk about... well, actually I do, but I don't know that you'd all be interested. It's job stuff. I'm considering changing my project for school b/c the professor says the project assigned was not a "graduate level" difficulty, wasn't challenging enough or complex enough to accomplish the objectives of the class as it didn't require a team to be formed, budgets to be determined, etc. So, I'm looking at something else, but I don't even know if this something else is going to happen, so I have to talk to my supervisor about it. The overall project (a remodel) has an estimated cost of $700,000, but the biggest obstacle will be relocating 90 people who literally work in a vault into another secured area where they can work for a year while the renovation is underway. I have some ideas, but it'll require moving more than 90 people - upwards of 150-200 people to make it all work and it'll cost a lot of money. Because of the $700,000 renovation price tag the whole thing may not happen, so I have to talk to my supervisor first...

          I'm also considering going back to school for a second masters once I complete my current masters degree. It'll probably be some time before I pursue the second. I'm looking at adding HR education because it seems like everyone wants MBA grads. My degree is Organizational Leadership (creating and effecting change in the workplace) and it's not a very well known master's program so it's not listed on many websites as a sought after asset for workers.

          I did however put in for a job at John Deere (Forestry division). It's a Commodities Specialist position. We'll see how it goes. I feel like I'm qualified based on my experience. Of course, it required me to rearrange my resume to list my most relavent work experience first, rather than listing it chronologically. Hopefully I get a hit on it. And hopefully it'll pay the same (if not better) than my current job!

          Anyhow... I've got work to do, so I'll talk to you all later.
          Primal since March 5, 2012
          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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          • Hey Jenn - sounds like a lot happening there! I hope you can get the project nailed down........ and a second masters? thats ambitious! I don't know how you're doing all that you do now! Family and home, work, masters and running! Reading your journal makes me tired! I'm at the other end of life I guess. Time to start planning for retirement! I was going to get my masters in counseling - but life got in the way. Now at 52, I really don't want to go $40K in debt for a career that may not even last long enough to pay off those student loans! But - I'll happily watch you on your journey!
            1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
            2. Eat to heal
            3. Move to live
            4. Embrace today
            5. Live with intention
            6. Respect my body
            7. Cultivate joy
            8. Find my passion
            9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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            • If my employer didn't pay for advanced education, I wouldn't have started the first, much less considered a second.
              Primal since March 5, 2012
              SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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              • I admire your ambition, too. I can't think of anything that sounds more difficult than going back to school! I would have to be studying something I was REALLY interested in. Good job! Hopefully you can relax and think it over a bit this weekend.

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                • Still thinking about the additional classes... not really thinking hard about it at this point. But the thought is there.

                  Tried running again today. My piriformis muscle is really kicking my ass (not literally, but it does reside in the butt). it's pinching the sciatic nerve, which is making the area to the outside of my achille's hurt. It feels bruised. And it hurts to run, which throws off my gait. I used a volleyball to roll out my piriformis muscle instead (Foam Rolling for the Piriformis | Exercises For Injuries) because I didn't have a foam roll available. It works about the same. Anyway, my right piriformis is worse than my left, which is unusual b/c the left is usually where I feel the sciatic pain. Rolling gave me some relief, but not enough lasting relief that I'd be able to go running again. I was able to run 3 intervals before I called it quits. I'll roll again tonight and the rest of this week, and if it doesn't improve, I'll go see Dr. Lake again to have her do her digging to work it out. She worked on my left in April/May-ish timeframe and it has been good since.

                  I gave up my Whole30. As much as I was trying to convince myself, I just couldn't get myself to believe that I was actually trying to be Whole30. I was giving in to the cravings for sugar left and right. I finally pulled the plug this weekend. They had ice cream at the race track this weekend as part of the Little Racer Car Club, which is a club for kids to get them involved with racing. The club was given 39 gallons of ice cream from local drivers, fans, and businesses to promote the club. I had vanilla and poured some dew over it. I love me a dew float! Anyhow, at that moment, I decided my Whole30 is over. No sense in lying to myself about what I was doing.

                  And surprisingly, I haven't felt too terrible. I don't know... maybe I've just gotten used to the bloat already. Nah, just kidding. My jeans are still fitting nicely, if not a bit more loosely, so I know I'm not overly bloated. But if I'm not careful, it won't take long to get back there.

                  Tomorrow is a LHT day. I'm going to work on biceps, triceps, chest (maybe) and back (maybe). My primary focus will be on tris and bis. I want GUNS! Sexy, sleek, toned guns! And since my left arm is weaker than my right (it must be b/c I carry Makenna on the right arm), I'll be sure to focus on completing all the repetitions on the left side. Hopefully I don't make it hurt like it did last time! That was scary b/c I thought I had injured it. Even moving my arm while walking hurt. I'll reduce the weight a bit and do the BFL pyramids again. Those babies always produce results.

                  A couple that works here just brought in their new baby. She's just into the 8 lbs range. She is so stinking adorable and makes me wish my baby girl was still so little. I don't miss the frequent feedings and early morning wake ups, but I do miss having an infant for the blessed moments like first smiles, cuddles, etc. I pretty much decided that for the time being I am done having kids, but would not be opposed to having another baby a few years down the road. Of course, I'm 32 now so the likelihood that my body will allow for a safe pregnancy will be slimmer down the road, but I have an aunt who's nearing 40 and she just had a baby, so why not me?? (her oldest just graduated high school and her youngest hasn't even turned 1 yet) I would prefer my kids to be older so that I don't feel like I'm neglecting them by having another baby. So, not now, but maybe in 5 years or so. Kenna will be 7 by then, and Brady 9. Believe it or not, I know quite a few people who have done this very thing. Had two, then waited a few years and had two more. If it's in the cards, it'll happen when it's supposed to.

                  Anyhow, I suppose that's enough rambling for now... I hope everyone's having a good day.
                  Primal since March 5, 2012
                  SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                  • Oh, and I took "before" pics of my keratinosis. I've read that reducing sugar and moisturizing will reduce the occurance... of course, sugar has been making frequent appearances in my diet, but the moisturizing should become a key factor as well. I picked up a jar of refined coconut oil to use. I've read coconut oil is good for hydrating skin, and I got the refined so I don't constantly want to gnaw on my coconutty scented arms. We'll see how it all works out. So far, since Friday, I have only "moisturized" once... lol
                    Primal since March 5, 2012
                    SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                    • I believe that (especially with such a healthy diet as primal/paleo can be) you could safely have a child up to or even after the age of 40, so no worries there. Take care of yourself now, and your debts and maybe it'll happen!

                      I remembered this recently when I was having baby dreams again. If Boyfriend and I get married and travel after he graduates, I'd be fine with waiting to have kids till my early or mid 30s. After that, though, even with a healthy diet, I worry about the risk of Down syndrome. My mom was 43 when she had my brother, which is rather a significant difference to 35, though.
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                      • I also worry about Down's, which is a significant implication with having children later in life. That may keep me from having any more kids all together... we'll see how things shake out as we go on.

                        As for debts, if we stay the course we're on now, we should start to work on our very last debt (not including our mortgage or student loans) in December 2015. Our daughter will be in Kindergarten then... *sad face* But, it's only 2 1/2 years from now which is a pretty significant pace considering the size of our debts. Not to mention, this plan does not account for overtime, bonuses, or pay raises. Any of those will simply make the time spent snowballing shorter. Our very last debt will be a loan for a car that we intend to buy in the next year or so for me to drive. We wish to wait until we get some stuff paid off before we take on another debt - namely the personal loan and the trailer loan. But there is thinking in the works that we'll pay off our credit cards first instead of paying off tangible items. I considered paying off tangible items first b/c then we'd have more "equity" and net worth, but he says we'll compound more interest on our credit cards doing it that way and it's more beneficial for us to eliminate that debt first. I intend to recreate my debt snowball to pay off credit first, then tangible items to see which is more beneficial to us financially. Everything out there says to pay off high interest stuff first, but Dave Ramsey, the financial genius of the world, says to pay off debts in order of smallest to largest principle to gain momentum and be motivated by paying things off quickly, rather than saving money in the long run.

                        To illustrate, our one credit card has a balance of $10,000 at an interest rate of 20.99% or something really crappy like that. It'll take us longer to pay that off if we don't have smaller paid off debt payments to add to it. Say we have a small $3,000 loan (which we do) that we pay $100 a month on (which we do). If we pay that off first, we'll be able to add $100 to our credit card payment each month, wheres if we simply concentrate on the high interest card and don't have any extra money to pay toward it, we'll literally never get anywhere until we pay off our small debts first and use those payments.

                        Anyhow, I'll have to figure it out. I'll probably look at credit first, but take them smallest balance to largest balance. Pay off the little credit card debts, then use that money to chisel away more at the bigger ones. I'll see how it shakes out... but honestly, I don't think that 20.99% card will be my priority right now. I think I'll focus on the two cards with 0% introductory offers and get them gone first, then snowball the piss out of the 20.99% card... I just won't tell him that is the order I'm taking them b/c he'll argue that big interest needs to go first...

                        Ya know?
                        Primal since March 5, 2012
                        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                        • I will respectfully disagree with Dave Ramsay. There is a psychological advantage to his method, but there's also a psychological advantage to what your hubby wants to do AND a monetary one. Not all experts agree with him on that point. Why don't you roll your higher-interest debt into the 0% account? That's what we did when we were in a squeeze and it helped a lot. We got it all paid off too.

                          Re sugar, would it work for you to allow yourself a once-weekly, moderate splurge, say a single scoop of ice cream with some Mountain Dew on it? Would that help you resist the sugar cravings the rest of the week?
                          5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                          Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                          Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                          More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                          - Lewis Mumford

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                          • Can't. My 0% account is only for $7k and is full. Not gonna get $10k to fit on that... And until we get some stuff paid off, we're at the top of our debt ratio, so no getting another loan. Already checked with the credit union for a line of credit to pay it off.

                            I'll crunch the numbers and see what I can do. Sadly, home financial management with a stupendous turn around won't get me anywhere in the business world... Surely home management and planning should be good for something in the workforce, but no... >.<
                            Primal since March 5, 2012
                            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                            • Ok, refigured it with the credit cards first, in order of smallest to largest balance. We will be paying off all of our debts a whole 2 weeks earlier. The difference in interest paid is astounding though. $2073.43 is the interest savings. I guess I would expect to pay things off a bit faster with so much uncharged interest... let me re-add that... Ok, now I get 1436.28 in savings... We'll try this a third time... Ok, got 2073.43 again... guess that's the final answer... however, I'm not seeing that savings in our budget given the fact that we're paying things off 2 weeks earlier as opposed to like say a month earlier. I would expect our final debt payment to be a month sooner given this savings...

                              Anyhow, the numbers say there's a savings and the payments end sooner, so I'll go the credit cards first route. I may do a bit more tinkering though b/c I still have a small loan in front of the credit cards. It's a loan for 3k. I'd really like to see that one go b/c it's a business loan for turn 3 graphics and we sold everything. I'd really rather not have a loan for something we no longer possess hanging over our heads. But... it is only $100 a month, so maybe it won't make a huge difference (or maybe it will) by moving it back in the cue. I'll do some more playing.

                              Ok, even better. Total interest savings is 2385.16 and we pay everything off one month sooner than the original tangible goods before credit cards approach. Guess we'll be doing the credit cards first. Our first credit card will be paid off in October (refrigerator and toolbox from Lowe's). The next credit card paid off will be my credit card at 0% interest in May 2013. We'll actually go one month beyond the interest free period, but the interest accrued will only be $16.97.

                              Ok... that's the plan. lol Our last debt payment, excluding student loans and mortgage will be made on October 24, 2015.
                              Primal since March 5, 2012
                              SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                              • I really need to learn time management skills... For tonight I have to write a 3 page paper on material I haven't finished reading. By Thursday I have 7 chapters to read, but I don't think there is anything I have to do with them - just read them. By Friday, I have to complete an online training at work, which will take some time. *sigh*

                                Luckily, I'm only 14 pages away from having the material for tonight read... the paper is 3 pages, single spaced over material that I don't really feel like I absorbed, but will find a way to write about. But, from 12:30 to 2 pm, I have a meeting I have to sit in.

                                So I'm skipping the gym. Hoping I can get this reading done before the meeting and then write my paper after the meeting. Then tomorrow, since I don't have to do anything with the material I'm supposed to read for my other class, I'll instead work on my training at work and hopefully finish, but it's boring material... blah!
                                Primal since March 5, 2012
                                SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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