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  • In most cases, I think it's to feel like I've helped in some way.

    In most cases, I stumble upon a link on Facebook that someone else posted, so I'll pass it along and say "Hey, I saw this. Thought you might find it interesting". In MOST cases, the person will message back and say "hey thanks! That is very interesting", or "Thanks for thinking of me! I'll take a look at it". She does not.

    Maybe it's stuff she's already seen, in which was a "yeah, I've read that too" would suffice. End of conversation.

    With the exception of something posted on ValMason's journal that I hadn't seen before regarding fibro, I haven't shared anything with her lately. Someone posted something about lifting heavy on Val's journal as a treatment course for fibro and I found it to be intriguing so I sent it to MIL in a private message on FB. She flat out ignored me - so. annoying. Any of the above responses would have been appropriate. And I know she's seen it b/c FB tells me so.

    I admit that when I hear of someone developing an illness, I do a bit of research myself to understand what they're dealing with. So maybe I stepped out of my bounds by doing that - I knew nothing about fibro and wanted to understand so I researched and shared stuff I found interesting. Her response was, EVERY SINGLE TIME, too many people have said that didn't work for them. SO FREAKING WHAT?! YOU are not those people. YOU could be different. YOU could benefit. What's the harm in TRYING?

    But, you're right... it boils down to WANTING to change, WANTING to feel better. She's obviously not there yet since she continues to duct tape over the crack.

    Anyhow... I try not to care. I try not to "borrow trouble" by worrying about other people, but it's hard. Do you think it'll work if I just pretend the illness isn't there? I think that's going to have to be my next approach.
    Primal since March 5, 2012
    SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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    • Originally posted by jenn26point2 View Post
      I admit that when I hear of someone developing an illness, I do a bit of research myself to understand what they're dealing with. So maybe I stepped out of my bounds by doing that - I knew nothing about fibro and wanted to understand so I researched and shared stuff I found interesting. Her response was, EVERY SINGLE TIME, too many people have said that didn't work for them. SO FREAKING WHAT?! YOU are not those people. YOU could be different. YOU could benefit. What's the harm in TRYING?

      But, you're right... it boils down to WANTING to change, WANTING to feel better. She's obviously not there yet since she continues to duct tape over the crack.

      Anyhow... I try not to care. I try not to "borrow trouble" by worrying about other people, but it's hard. Do you think it'll work if I just pretend the illness isn't there? I think that's going to have to be my next approach.
      I'm like you. When someone tells me they have XYZ, I will research it try to get a better understanding of the condition. I think this is why people thought I would make a good doctor.

      I think there are some people who are open to try different things to fix what ails them. Then there are others who are like, "hey, I saw this pill on tv that could help me with what I have. Let's call the doctor and see if that would help." With all the talk of this food makes you fat, this food makes you thin, people don't look at food as medicine. If they were to look back even as early as the late 1800's to early 20th century, they would see that food was medicine. People nowadays don't look at food as medicine, they only look at a little pill as medicine. It's sad but true.
      Georgette

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      • I just saw this on Facebook:

        Lighthouses don't go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.

        I'm going to find a pic of a lighthouse and make a meme out of it and then post it as my computer desktop - to remind me to stop trying.
        Primal since March 5, 2012
        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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        • Originally posted by jenn26point2 View Post
          I just saw this on Facebook:

          Lighthouses don't go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.

          I'm going to find a pic of a lighthouse and make a meme out of it and then post it as my computer desktop - to remind me to stop trying.
          Then you'll be a human lighthouse. That'll be pretty sweet!
          Georgette

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          • Lighthouses don't go running all over an island.jpg
            Primal since March 5, 2012
            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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            • I assume your MIL is not symptom free or quiet about her issues. If that's correct, I think it's better to work on realizing that you can care about the person, dislike their choices, but are only responsible for and have control over the choices you make..

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              • Originally posted by jenn26point2 View Post
                I just saw this on Facebook:

                Lighthouses don't go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.

                I'm going to find a pic of a lighthouse and make a meme out of it and then post it as my computer desktop - to remind me to stop trying.
                I love this!
                1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                2. Eat to heal
                3. Move to live
                4. Embrace today
                5. Live with intention
                6. Respect my body
                7. Cultivate joy
                8. Find my passion
                9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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                • I assume your MIL is not symptom free or quiet about her issues. If that's correct, I think it's better to work on realizing that you can care about the person, dislike their choices, but are only responsible for and have control over the choices you make..

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                  • She is not symptom free, but she does not vocalize her bad days anymore either - except to tell everyone to stay away b/c she doesn't feel good.

                    I will just work harder at being a stationary lighthouse and less like the one seeking out the boats.
                    Primal since March 5, 2012
                    SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                    • Originally posted by jenn26point2 View Post
                      I will just work harder at being a stationary lighthouse and less like the one seeking out the boats.
                      I like this!! The boats know where to get help when they want/need it.

                      Just be aware- even when the boats seek help from the lighthouse, it doesn't guarantee they'll do what they know they should to have a safe journey.

                      My family is like that. I've been asked over and over to lend books, send recipes, give portable meal suggestions,look over test results, etc. It hasn't become their lifestyle as of yet.

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                      • I will keep this in mind, marcadav. I know what you guys are telling me is wise.

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                        Russian Circus came on with NO warning. And it's heavy. I went from 2 months with no period taking 3 capsules of vitex a day to crazy heavy flow on 2 capsules. Makes me think that somewhere right in between will be right for me. Might experiment with taking 2 capsules one day and 3 the next and alternating and seeing what happens, but I will wait one more cycle. This circus started without warning about 2 weeks early, so I will wait til after the next one before increasing the vitex.

                        That's all I've got... can you believe it?? lol
                        Primal since March 5, 2012
                        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                        • UGH... My boss just asked me why I never reminded her to do my performance appraisal. I so don't want anything to do with it... She told me to write it up (standard practice - the employee writes up what they have done over the last year). *sigh* I'm dreading this.
                          Primal since March 5, 2012
                          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                          • how the heck do I make this quantitative??? This is my official list of duties.


                            Performs full range of administrative functions for the HQ, DMC Office. Duties include, but are not limited to screening/receiving visitors, answering phones/recording messages as needed, maintaining calendars, document preparation/review, mail routing /distribution and recordkeeping. Updates/maintains DMC CDR's & Deputy's weekly slide books. Assists with slide preperation and tracking of documents. Serves as timekeeper, using ATAAPS. Prepares authorizations/vouchers in DTS. Assists with special projects as assigned.
                            Primal since March 5, 2012
                            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                            • Ugh.. anxiety is high...

                              I don't think that I'm a horrible employee, but I don't think I'm stellar either - at least not in this position. Obviously I'm not doing anything REALLY wrong or I would have been written up or reprimanded. I have received a few repeat reminders about little tasks I tend to forget - like checking the COL's outbox every day for packets to be routed back to offices (I rarely enter his office, so it's easy to forget - out of site out of mind kind of thing). The calendars in this office are a constant struggle for both me and the XO to keep up with. The are ALWAYS changing. Quite honestly, making sure the calendar is right could be a full time job.

                              But I hate having to write things up that indicate why I deserve my salary and even more how I excelled at my position and deserve a raise/bonus. B/c I don't think I have/do.

                              My last job it was sooo much easier to write up my "contributions" b/c I had more work to do... Yuck. I hate these. And because I hate them, you get to hear me whine about it.
                              Primal since March 5, 2012
                              SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                              • UGH....... you have my sympathy! Mine would say - I come to work, I do my job as required, I go home.
                                1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
                                2. Eat to heal
                                3. Move to live
                                4. Embrace today
                                5. Live with intention
                                6. Respect my body
                                7. Cultivate joy
                                8. Find my passion
                                9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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