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  • Guess I should probably update. Scale dipped into the 184 category today... 184.8 to be exact, so I haven't changed anything (i.e. MFP weight, Body Media weight). And I didn't get off and on the scale this morning b/c I was fearful the 184 would go away. lol If it's still there tomorrow, I'll do a happy dance.

    Feeling like a woman today, but not in the good way. Crampy and yucky feeling. I posed a question on Facebook to the Badass Paleo Bitches group (b/c it's private and women only) about the Vitex and how it's affecting my cycle/feminine outputs. One gal thinks I need to stop taking it all together and another gal said simply that the dosage I'm taking might be too high. Basically, I can hear the Russian Circus, but I cannot yet see it and worry that I won't see it, like last month. Someone said the vitex might not be letting my progesterone drop enough to open the cervix, which would explain the hearing but no seeing.

    Should I stay at this dose and see what happens? Or should I reduce the dose, have the circus arrive and have no idea whether or not it's b/c it came on its own or b/c the dose was too high? Ah, science is fun.

    I talked to the student loan company today. I am all set to consolidate my loans and sign up for the income-driven payment plan. My payment will be roughly $180 a month for 25 years (or rather 10 b/c I'll sign up for the public sector employee loan forgiveness). I got a petition via email today that is asking to extend this forgiveness to the general public. I signed it b/c I might be general public someday as I really don't see a happy future for me in the government sector. I'm really hopeful for this program coordinator position b/c I think it'll be fun. Anyhow, I'll be filling out the consolidation paperwork today. Once everything is consolidated and payments reduced, I'll sign up for the forgiveness.

    It's tshirt time for the race team. This means we're ordering tshirts for people to buy. They look pretty cool and we have a HUGE order already. We ordered 135 tshirts! That's, eh hem, $1778... cost. Brad's dad was going to buy them and then people were going to pay him for them. But, the tshirt guy charges a 3% fee for using credit (which was FIL's plan), so to save the race team money and to keep the tshirt costs low, FIL decided to a 6 month note... yep, we're back to this again... except, he must have too many 6 month notes out right now b/c he told Brad that Kathy (at the bank) won't give him another loan right now (I think the max is 2 unsecured 6 month notes at a time, no matter how good your credit or how high your income). So, yep, you guess it... Brad asked if we could do it. *sigh* *hangingheadinshame* I agreed b/c I know there is NO OTHER WAY these shirts will get paid for/purchased. The people who wanted them are prepared to pay for them, so it's not like the money will come from our budget to pay it back, and there's a bit of profit built into each shirt ($2 I think) so that'll cover the interest (that was my first comment to Brad - make sure you find out what the interest is going to be). Turns out he wasn't going to be able to make it to the bank today, so I was asked to call. Kathy was out (jury duty) so I had to talk to Kyle. I gave him the spleal that Brad and FIL take turns getting 6 month notes from Kathy and that it's our turn again. Told him $1800 and he, without asking for account numbers, checking ID, etc, said "yep, that'll be no problem. When can Brad come in to sign?" Oy vey... are we THAT well known at the bank??? lol

    I'm choosing to look at the positive - this loan will give us a credit score boost without touching our own checking account. And we need that right now since I'm wanting a new(ish) car. It won't set our debt snowball off b/c the money is already coming in for the shirts (but Brad won't accept money unless he has a shirt to give, but the people who have asked for them are honest, dependable people - sponsors and what not, so I'm not worried about them bailing on us).

    Here's a pic of our shirts:

    tshirt2 (3).jpg

    The color options include this grey, or bright (but not hot) pink. I ordered a pink tshirt, pink long sleeve tshirt and a pink hoodie. Same for Makenna. And then all that in grey for both Brad and Brady... our personal tshirt bill is kinda high, but we're used to it every year. Next year, we probably won't order shirts again. We tend to do it every other year or so.

    anyhow... that's all I got... off to continue reading journals and get this consolidation stuff done.
    Primal since March 5, 2012
    SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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    • Originally posted by tomi View Post
      If he's extra bright then he could be frustrated mentally and its manifesting through his behavior. ???? Does he have lots of things at home to keep him mentally challenged?

      Do some research on gifted and talented kids and see what you can find.
      This is what I wonder too - it's like he does the things he does b/c he's not interested in class. They teach to the slowest and fastest students at once, and while I applaud this approach, I think it's hard for an energetic little guy like mine to sit still and pay attention when he's beyond what they're teaching. I'm not saying he's a super bright genius or anything... but seriously. He knows how to form the letter G already...

      They put him in the talented and gifted (TAG) program to study math and he loves it. The report last week was that he "listened well during TAG". Hopefully the comments like that continue and the trend is noticed by those that matter.


      Originally posted by tomi View Post
      You're a great mom, Jenn!
      Thanks, Tomi.
      Primal since March 5, 2012
      SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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      • Nice graphics! We're about to order t-shirts for the boatshop again. About every 5 years hubby will spend around $1800 on sweatshirts or t's ............ some he sells - but mostly he gives them away -- we chalk it up to advertising expenses.
        1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
        2. Eat to heal
        3. Move to live
        4. Embrace today
        5. Live with intention
        6. Respect my body
        7. Cultivate joy
        8. Find my passion
        9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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        • Re: Vitex, how much are you taking now? My impression is that it's a slow process. You have to wait a month to see how it works (for your period), then changing the dose might take that long again to see a difference. I'd suggest dropping the dose, but you'll need to stay at the dose for at least 30 days to see if that works, and then either stay on it, or drop it again, or stop taking it...or take more!

          Hormones are weird!
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          • So, I get to say goodbye to the 10 year loan forgiveness plan. Turns out the last two people I talked to on the phone didn't figure the payment properly (as in they were WAY off) for income-based payments. My income based payments (b/c they have to consider both mine and Brad's incomes since we file our taxes jointly) would be $530 a month. We can't swing that!!! So, now I'm pissed that I was misled. Leave it to the effing government to mislead someone. Not sure why I'm surprised.

            I had to go with the graduated payment plan, which is $230 a month with a repayment schedule of 300 effing months!! AND, that will tack on an additional $50k in interest... F*ck that bullshit! I am NOT giving the government that much effing money. I'll be snowballing the living SHIT out of those loans!

            Being mad won't fix it, but this does more than just screw up my student loan repayment plans... it screws up ALL of my debt repayments b/c now I have to put more money than planned toward the loans.

            So, now I'm mad and crampy... *sigh*

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            NW, if you don't think it'll take an immediate effect, I'll go ahead and drop to two and see what happens. I hope I don't lose the revenous libido, though...
            Primal since March 5, 2012
            SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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            • Oh, Jenn - that sucks. I'm really sorry.
              1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
              2. Eat to heal
              3. Move to live
              4. Embrace today
              5. Live with intention
              6. Respect my body
              7. Cultivate joy
              8. Find my passion
              9. Meditate on peace in my soul

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              • Originally posted by tomi View Post
                You're right Marcadav -- they didn't have it. I was so bummed.
                Trader Joe's has Kerrygold for the lowest price I've found. I stock up and freeze it as I'm not a fan of Trader Joe's or it's location.

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                • Originally posted by jenn26point2 View Post
                  This is what I wonder too - it's like he does the things he does b/c he's not interested in class. They teach to the slowest and fastest students at once, and while I applaud this approach, I think it's hard for an energetic little guy like mine to sit still and pay attention when he's beyond what they're teaching. I'm not saying he's a super bright genius or anything... but seriously. He knows how to form the letter G already...

                  They put him in the talented and gifted (TAG) program to study math and he loves it. The report last week was that he "listened well during TAG". Hopefully the comments like that continue and the trend is noticed by those that matter.




                  Thanks, Tomi.
                  If you think it's a "being bored" issue then ask the teacher if she has additional things he could have at the ready, to work on, when he finishes the assigned work. If she doesn't have anything then ask if he could bring things from home-- books to read, workbooks,etc.

                  Another thing is to see if he could be paired with a student that could use help. He would need to understand that being an "aide" would require extreme big boy behavior on all fronts.

                  I also wonder about her "tactics". If I had a student that ran to be the first in line, to his cubbie etc I would tell them, "We walk to get in line, please go back and try again. Having him return to his starting spot and walk, not race, will show him that having to do it over again puts him more "behind" than if he didn't race in the first place.

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                  • Sorry about the student loans. I just try not to let them stress me. And it is possible he is just bored. Does he like books? Allowing him to read while others are working could help. You are doing great! Just take deep breaths and try to remember this is just a moment and it will pass.
                    You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

                    Age 48
                    height 5'3
                    SW 215 lbs
                    CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
                    LW 172 lbs
                    GW 125ish lbs

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                    • I definitely related to Brady on the attention/memory issues. My whole time in public schools (K-12), people were constantly checking in with me for spacing out, getting bored, forgetting things to do. Even if it was just told to me and I responded to show that I understood and heard them, I could forget instantly. Frustrating for everyone involved! Now I know I have Executive Functioning Disorder. It's just the way my brain is wired, not chemicals or anything. Patience goes a long way, let me tell you!
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                      • His problem is not while he's doing his work - its during the group lecture time that he has his problems. They have "circle time" and this is when he will roll around on the floor, fiddle with stuff he's not supposed to fiddle with, tap his pencil on his table, etc.

                        I have address the whole "He's bored" thing and she 'assures' me that she provides challenging material for the brighter kids. He is in her top reading and top math group (level 4 I think she said) and is now involved in TAG (talented and gifted) to learn higher math skills.
                        Primal since March 5, 2012
                        SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                        • Originally posted by namelesswonder View Post
                          Now I know I have Executive Functioning Disorder. It's just the way my brain is wired, not chemicals or anything. Patience goes a long way, let me tell you!
                          OMG do you have any idea how much THIS sounds like me???? I've always called it being scatter brained.
                          Primal since March 5, 2012
                          SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                          • My mom has it too, it definitely has genetic roots. Primal helps a lot for my general spaciness and treating my anxiety helps too, but I'm still a total scatter brain and it's not something I can really train myself out of. Just have to learn how to work around it as much as possible. I haven't ever been able to identify situations where I get consistently distracted, but regular classroom environments, if I'm not loving whatever is being presented to me, I could NEVER pay attention.
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                            • I can't even READ without my mind wandering! I always thought it was ADD...
                              Primal since March 5, 2012
                              SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                              • hmmm...does it sound like your son Jenn?
                                You know all those things you wanted to do: You should go do them.

                                Age 48
                                height 5'3
                                SW 215 lbs
                                CW 180 lbs (whole foods/primal eating)
                                LW 172 lbs
                                GW 125ish lbs

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