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  • Yup, my pulse rate is the same as always, pretty low. No other symptoms that I have noticed ... we did eat at The Egg and I yesterday for lunch. I wonder if it is somehow tied in with something in the meal. I had a meal that did not have any flour in it, but there is no knowing what else goes in as far as fats and salts and seasonings. But I didn't have any gastric or intestinal repercussions so I had assumed that all was ok with the meal. The first time I have eaten out in months ...

    I have to say that my legs are tired this afternoon. I had to run to the bank and do errands this afternoon - so happy to be home. The kids and I are going to watch a movie and I'm going to continue the crochet project I have going (a blanket for DS).
    Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
    Primal low: 186 lbs
    Current weight: 221.4 lbs
    Goal weight: 140 lbs

    "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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    • DH got home and wanted to bike to the lake/river too so we all went again. I did a little adjusting on my seat height and now I am really happy. I was very quick to tire yesterday and yet today I did double the distance and feel fine. Not that my legs don't feel like they had a workout - they do. What a lovely feeling though! My butt is going to require a while to adjust to sitting on a bike seat though The bike I got is really big - I feel like I am back in my childhood borrowing another kids big bike! Once I am up and going it is soooo comfortable, but when I am stopped the handlebars are up at about chest height. I am sure it looks funny but I am having a lot of fun with this. DH and I were saying that you just can't help smiling on a bike like that. The wheels are 29" with fat tires so it makes for a pretty comfy ride. I feel so free with the wind blowing through my hair and smelling all the divine scents of spring. There are blossoms everywhere and a lot of the trees are covered with a soft veil of new green. I felt so liberated cycling next to the river - patches of cool air and then warm, every few yards there is another scent that rushes by and fills you with joy and delight. All of a sudden I am not tied down to walking everywhere - the kids can ride and now a whole new season opens up. Lovely! I can see I am going to get a lot fitter - the kids can't wait to go for a ride and there is a nice long bike trail right outside our door ... one direction goes to the river/lake and the other way takes you to other parts of the river. I have never seen where the trail ends so we are going to find out as time goes by.
      Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
      Primal low: 186 lbs
      Current weight: 221.4 lbs
      Goal weight: 140 lbs

      "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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      • The kids are begging to do their math at the lake again I think we will go ahead and do it .... strike while the iron is hot. I still have some pitting oedema today I am feeling the same as ever with nothing unusual, just if I press into my lower shins/ ankle area the dent remains for a while. Definitely retaining water ... what the h$%@?! For today I am going to make an effort to drink a whole bunch more water than I have been - I know that I am way behind on that. Maybe it will help to flush a bit. We'll see if that helps at all. I had a cup of honeybush tea with some honey in, but aside from that I am going to go without any honey or snack bar or anything else high carb. I am also going to up my veggie intake today ... I have lost about 3 lbs in the last few days. Lets see if I can unload this extra fluid now.
        Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
        Primal low: 186 lbs
        Current weight: 221.4 lbs
        Goal weight: 140 lbs

        "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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        • We have been so enjoying our bikes. The weather has not been working with us the last couple of days so no school at the lake. I have been full steam ahead helping DD get a book that she wrote, edited, in time for the end of year oral presentations tomorrow afternoon. It has been fun working with DD and brainstorming on sections that weren't working quite as well as they could. I am really proud of her - 11 years old and she has written a book and illustrated it!! I know for a fact that I never dreamed of doing such a thing at her age. I didn't believe I could... I find it inspiring seeing her enjoy it so much. It has been a long project and she has stuck to it. DS thoroughly enjoys the story (he's 8) and laughs at the funny spots. He's heard it lots of times and still enjoys it. Very cute.

          I have been realizing lately that I have become a real whiner. I think all the stress over a long period of time and my incorrect way of dealing with it have been unsettlingly good at dragging me into the victim mentality that my parents live in. I REALLLY don't want to go down that road. It is hard to find the balance. We have a lot of friends who 'never' have a bad day and will never admit to struggling. It makes it impossible to really get to know each other. But, while I want to be real and honest, I want to still be grateful for the multiple blessings that I enjoy every day. I am going to make an effort to be thankful for a handful of things every day. So, today, I am grateful for:- my precious family - my veggie garden - my dry house that has heat and air conditioning -the beautiful birds that have obligingly built their nests where I can enjoy watching them raise their chicks - a bicycle that I can ride on a very nicely maintained bike path to a beautiful lake and river that is free to any and all!

          Despite M's fussiness on Wednesday I am looking forward to watching him again tomorrow morning. He'll be arriving just before 8 am He is so precious and it is so much fun watching my kids enjoying him. They are fascinated with his little hands and feet and love to make him smile. It is good for them to be around him - they haven't had access to a little one and they are learning how to hold him. DS was telling DH how it is hard to know how tight to hold him. "I know he's really fragile, but he is also so strong and can wriggle free and then he could do a face plant!!" I have very sweet kids I must say.

          I just baked a primal chocolate cake for the end of year homeschool thing tomorrow. I'll have to do the frosting tomorrow morning - hopefully M is in a good mood and will be content while I complete the cake I really wanted to take something that the kids can enjoy, without worrying about how they will feel after eating it. Everything there has to be nut free, since some of the kids have nut allergies. This cake is a coconut flour cake which will work for those kids too.
          Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
          Primal low: 186 lbs
          Current weight: 221.4 lbs
          Goal weight: 140 lbs

          "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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          • I am wondering if I am having a problem with the potato starch. I can't think what else might be an issue. I don't usually eat much potato but have been having 2 tablespoons morning and evening every day for quite a while now. Lately I am noticing that I have a LOT of bloating (look 9 months pregnant!) with a lot of gas (never been an issue for me previously) and the constant pitting oedema in my lower legs. I think I am going to try a different resistant starch and see if that makes any difference at all. My skin has flared up for a while now too and my hair is miserably dry and breaking still. It just seems that there is something going on that we haven't touched on yet. I think I am going to try just eating green bananas with my probiotic for a while and see what happens.
            Last edited by Coll; 05-09-2014, 07:17 PM.
            Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
            Primal low: 186 lbs
            Current weight: 221.4 lbs
            Goal weight: 140 lbs

            "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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            • Well, I have been off the potato starch for a few days now and no more pregnancy look alike and I am no longer farting enough to destroy the ozone layer single handedly!! My sleep is worse however. I have been eating the greenest bananas I can find while I am waiting for the banana starch to arrive in the mail.

              I just listened to a lot of talks on a two day thing about thyroid health. Despite the great blood test results I had I wonder if I have a subclinical case of hypothyroidism. The doc thinks I am free and clear on that side of things so I can't really continue bugging him about it. But there was a very interesting home test explained by Dr Kalish that I am going to try. He said it is really accurate. It involves me taking my temps for 5 days at the beginning of my menses and then supplementing for 21 days after that with some thyroid supplements and seeing what the temps do. Since I normally do my BB temp anyway I have a pretty good feel for where my temps usually are (low) so I suspect there really is some stuff going on with my thyroid. I also think there may well be some adrenal issues - years of ongoing stress that I am not particularly good at dealing with. So I am hopeful that this might give me some help and direction. It has been very frustrating not knowing which way to go and how to move forward. I am 100% primal and have been for a couple of years - I am healthier than I was before and yet I am still very unhealthy in the hormone arena. I think the boatload of mercury fillings don't help either - waiting for the dentist to get back to me on that. I am going to just continue with the progesterone cream at the same dose right now. I don't want to change two things that affect temp at the same time. Once I see if the thyroid stuff is helping then I may tweak the progesterone dose down a bit. I just don't think that I had a super low progesterone as I was still ovulating before the doc put me on the cream. I may have had slightly low levels so I will eventually put myself on the lower dose and see if there is any marked difference. I have been charting my temps for a few months now (since I started with the progesterone) so I have a reference point. I know that the thyroid and the female hormones are all inter related. I have been kind of worried about what on earth is going on with me. My skin is not good, I have almost nonexistent eyebrows, my hair is the worst it has ever been - the ends are so dry and just splitting all the time. I was getting chilblains for the first time in my life this winter and my weight is the highest it has ever been. I wrestle with carb cravings and am constantly tired. Without the RS my sleep is back to where it was; I can't get to sleep for a while, I sleep super lightly, I am waking up early even when feeling like I need more sleep.

              I need to order the thyroid supplements so as to have them ready for the home test. If you are still menstruating you have to start at the beginning of your cycle to do the test and that is coming up pretty soon.
              Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
              Primal low: 186 lbs
              Current weight: 221.4 lbs
              Goal weight: 140 lbs

              "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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              • I have started the thyroid test as Aunt Flo arrived a couple of days ago. My temps are low and I am just waiting for the last supplement to arrive in the mail. I am looking forward to seeing whether the supplements make a difference. Of course I know that it takes time for that all to kick in ... but I am hopeful. When I start the progesterone cream again I am going to do 1/8 tsp doses instead of 1/4 tsp.

                Today our family went for a long bike ride. Probably about 6 or 7 miles. The kids did really well and we all enjoyed it very much. We were out for about an hour and a half and I can feel that I had some exercise. We took it really easy and I was glad that the kids are still small or they would have ridden the legs off me! I still really like my bike Hubby took the stickers all off for me and I am thinking of painting little owls onto it for fun. We have steaks on the grill and parsnip, sweet potato, and potato fries in the oven. The smells are heavenly I am not going to have any plain potato fries even though I dearly love them. I am hoping the parsnip turns out well.

                I have been having lots of fun with the hummingbirds and the orioles. They are all very busy at the feeders and in fact the orioles have taken over the hummingbird feeders. I splurged and bought an oriole feeder and they really like it. I have seen a number of finches and buntings at the nectar feeders too. I had no idea they liked nectar ... fun.

                I am tired this evening, but feeling pretty good. I am really needing to see a change in my weight as I am on the verge of outgrowing my fat pants. Hoping the bike rides will help as well as the gardening and of course the thyroid supplementation.

                We just cannot find a house to buy. I was looking at rentals again lately and can see that we have a pretty good deal considering the market here. At least we are in a pretty area and are right near the river and bike path. We can have our dog here and are allowed a few chickens and I can have a veggie garden. We are thinking about sticking around for another year and then sell the business and move on. We just can't do the things we love here without a boat load more money than we have. We are also having a really hard time finding people to connect with. We find people we really like and they like us, but there is no time in their schedules for us. Our 'best' friends here are only available to visit about once every three months ... just not enough to get by on. We have some surface acquaintances ... everyone is very pleasant and friendly, but no-one has time for us. I guess it is just the way it is. Even harder is DH's family who are the same - no time for us unless it is an hour that is scheduled a month ahead of time and then everyone is looking at their watches so they can get to their next appointment. Time to move on .... Looking into places to go and how to get there. DH has had a bazillion people, these last couple of weeks, either from Maine or moving to Maine. We've thought about Maine for a while ... I wonder if this is a sign. I guess we'll just keep looking and digging up as much info as we can and see where things lead us. We have tried so hard to fit in here and to find a place - it just seems that this is not where we are meant to be.

                I am really concerned about one of my brothers. He has had an abscess on a tooth for weeks now. He's been on 4 different antibiotics and they don't seem to be helping. It is now to the point that his eyesight is affected and the infection has moved into his sinuses and really close to his brain. His sight has been affected - he sees 3 of everything!? Apparently the nerves behind his eyes have been damaged and he is seeing a specialist tomorrow. Please pray for him! He is in dire financial straits due to his ex's debts and all the rest of that mess which is part of the reason he is where he is. He eats mostly bread and rice and beans, smokes and is pre-diabetic and obese ... what a wreck. And there is absolutely nothing I can do which is hard from this end of the world.
                Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                Primal low: 186 lbs
                Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                Goal weight: 140 lbs

                "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                • Sorry about your brother, I will pray for him. That is serious indeed. Hopefully it has reached its peak and will start to subside.

                  Well, of course I love Maine but there is the problem of finding employment here. And it seems the busyness has infected everyone. I am tired of meeting friends for a film or a concert and they run off like crazy people to their next social event. Even when we plan for a little free time for a coffee someone joins us at the last minute and wouldn't you know, they have to get back, and they can't drive, so...anyway, it seems people's social lives revolve around their immediate family and driving their kids around. Not saying this is bad, just saying that is the way it is.

                  One of my good friends is having a large party on Memorial Day and I was helping her sort through the RSVPs - half the people wrote "Love to come but if my kids/grandkids visit then no." I want to call them up and tell them to either 1) firm up the plans with the offspring or 2) bring them to the party. (Yes, all are welcome.) Very hard to know how many sausages to buy, ice to lay in, etc.

                  Okay enough of this extemporaneous stuff on your journal!
                  My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                  "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                  • Thanks Siobhan! Yes, the employment would definitely be a challenge. Ultimately we would want to be farming, but we would need at least some income for the transition time. We'll see what happens.

                    My brother saw the specialist and it turns out the eye issue is totally unrelated to the abscess - that has settled down and the infection is finished. He has a rare genetic condition where he has very early cataracts that have shattered, as if they were ice hit by an ice pick. He is seeing through all the shards and is slowly going blind. Needs a whole bunch of money for surgery and is in dire financial straits anyway. Can't work and can't afford to get his eyes fixed - he needs new lenses My heart breaks for him - he has been through hell these last few years with his ex wife and all that mess and now this. Dang - this is when I wish I had loads of money and could help him. Guess I'll be spending a lot of time on my knees praying instead.
                    Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                    Primal low: 186 lbs
                    Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                    Goal weight: 140 lbs

                    "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                    • Wow, that is some condition! I have not heard of that before. Did he have symptoms previously? Are you going to get checked? All the good wishes I have going his way -
                      My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                      "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                      • Thanks Siobhan, I have never heard of something like this either - though I never worked in eye surgery etc. He had what seemed like astigmatism from quite early on and has worn glasses for years. No clue that this was lurking there at all. I am not sure if it is something for the rest of us siblings to check for - he is so overwhelmed at the moment and I don't want to add to that (aside from the fact that he has a hard time reading anything I send him!) I want to find out what the condition is called so I can do some more research - wasn't able to figure anything out by googling what I know.

                        This has been an extremely emotional day - feels like I had a truck or two run over me. I am really tired this evening and am very happy to have leftovers in the fridge for dinner!
                        Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                        Primal low: 186 lbs
                        Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                        Goal weight: 140 lbs

                        "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                        • Praying for your brother, Coll. Losing ones eyesight seems to me to be one of the hardest things to face.

                          For you: there is a really neat article in this month's Mother Earth News, which I think you would like. It is called something like 'Homesteading Hamlets'(Can't look at it to check the exact title, as I have lent it to a friend, but I think you will see which one I mean.) It is about some people who have created the life they want, where they are, with what and who is at hand. May not change your situation, but I bet it will make you smile.

                          Owls on the bike sounds great. Do it!

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                          • Thanks for the prayers folks ... Sabine, I will have to check the article. I usually read Mother Earth News, but haven't lately. It sounds as though it is right up my alley

                            I am struggling to get going again with the weight loss side of things. I have been doing more bike riding and I mowed the lawn a couple of days ago. It is hard to do anything when I feel so tired all the time though. I'll be watching M as usual tomorrow morning and then for a change we have a play date tomorrow afternoon with our long lost friends. The kids are so excited! There are new baby goats to play with too which is always fun. Adult conversation is always nice for me too!

                            I am sitting at 229 lbs right now - miserable indeed! I think DH and I are going to do a cleanse of sorts soon just to get us on track (kind of like a Whole 30) Saturday is my birthday so we'll start after that.

                            Feeling pleased as I have made 2 sales in 24 hours on my shop - a nice change. Things are pretty slow on that side of things, but I make enough to pay for the paints and brushes and a wee bit left over. I figure that eventually things will pick up. In the meantime it is fun and pays for itself.

                            TMI warning - probably really boring so skip it if you want. Hunting for a home is very time consuming! It would be interesting to log how many hours I have spent in front of the computer trying to find something that might work. Today I spent the morning searching through all the houses in our price range, that we could qualify for, in Cheyenne Wyoming. About 45 minutes - 1 hour commute. It seems that we are going to have to drive about that distance whichever direction we look. Anything closer is too much for us. And closer still we don't qualify ... it is pretty interesting believe me. It seems at the moment that we need to buy as our landlord is on a roll with his plans to continue the work here. This would mean that at some point this trailer is going to be moved out of here and we will need to find a new home anyway. The rental market is even crazier than the housing market here so that I don't think we could afford to rent after this place. We also can't afford to move away from here yet. SO, we need to find something that we can buy and live in for a couple of years.
                            Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                            Primal low: 186 lbs
                            Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                            Goal weight: 140 lbs

                            "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                            • Apparently the Doc said that a severe illness when my brother was young could have pushed his lenses into developing these cataracts so early. My mom said that he was really sick with mumps and tonsillitis at the same time when he was pretty little and had a raging fever. He got glasses for astigmatism when he was in 2nd grade ... I think this may have been the trigger. I guess we'll never know.
                              Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                              Primal low: 186 lbs
                              Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                              Goal weight: 140 lbs

                              "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                              • Our poor dog is ensconced in her crate as there has been thunder all evening and she doesn't do storms. If I leave her loose during a storm she will do her utmost to wedge herself in behind the toilet and I am afraid that she might get stuck. She has adrenalin helping her get in and once the storm is gone she can't get out. I have visions of us having to pull up a toilet to get the dog out of the Ubend area! Even in my imagination this is not a good scenario - hence the crate. She is calmer and can't get herself into trouble.

                                My friend gave me some ribeye steaks from their homegrown hay fed highland cattle for my birthday tomorrow! And a dozen turkey eggs - what a blessing! We had a lovely afternoon and the kids got totally filthy playing in a giant mudpuddle/pond. DS had mud all over his face and we had to borrow clothes for the kids to drive home in A very primal afternoon for them. Playing with the goats, turkeys, chickens etc. Some brand new calves to see too - very sweet and tiny still. No playing with the calves though - those mama's are very protective and they have some decent horns on them! I pity any coyote or dog that thinks they might have some tasty calf!!!

                                My Achilles is playing up a lot the last few days. I can't seem to get on top of the tightness in my calf muscles ... I am hobbling around like a cripple at the moment and it is very frustrating. I had been getting really used to it feeling so much better. The back of my heel is really puffy and swollen at the moment. Darn!

                                Another three sales on my Etsy shop Happy dance!

                                Tomorrow is my birthday and we are planning a braai (BBQ) with ribeye steaks cooked over applewood coals - yum! Hubby is off for the whole day and most of the next - very nice treat indeed.

                                My legs are still edematous. My thyroid supplement is still somewhere in the mail so I am just waiting for it to arrive and then will start supplementing and see if that changes anything. Hoping that there is a positive reaction as that gives me a direction to move in. Otherwise I am not sure what to do. One step at a time though.
                                Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                                Primal low: 186 lbs
                                Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                                Goal weight: 140 lbs

                                "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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