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  • I think you're right PC, it really doesn't take much to upset my system. That's why we almost never eat out at restaurants - I never know what sneaks in to my meal in the sauces and seasonings. It just isn't worth the repercussions - plus I can eat a REALLY nice meal at home for the price of an average meal at a restaurant. Not that I don't wish I could have the convenience and treat of a meal that I didn't prepare sometimes .... but there are worse things in life to worry about.

    I have spread grass seed over a large bare patch in our back yard ... the problem is the darn wind keeps on blowing the straw away and I have my doubts how much of this is going to actually stick around long enough to grow. I have a hard time getting too excited about it though as the landlord does not expect it (he was happy with a completely trashed backyard with very little ground cover when we moved in) - it is more that I feel I should make a little bit of an effort as it is so much nicer for the kids to play on ... of course hopefully we won't be here much longer. BUT, we thought that last year and look where we still are ... better to go for it and at least I know we are leaving this d$@*&n place better than we found it. It is not exactly my emotional preference - that would probably be ugly. But I am choosing to overcome my nasty side and pretend that I am the landlord and I will appreciate the improvement. As it is the yard is probably 80% under grass compared to when we moved in - it is also semi smooth (no holes to break your ankle in anymore). I have started cleaning curtains and blinds in preparation for moving - keeping my hope alive.

    DH very kindly made me two lovely spice racks yesterday, so now I have about 18" more counter space - nice! He also put up a shelf in the laundry which is going to be most helpful when I get to tidying the laundry again. The kids and I piled into the suburban this afternoon to go to the bank and foraging, the battery was totally dead The hatch back doesn't always latch properly and this was one of those times - sigh. I have to say that I wasn't totally devastated as I was feeling rather tired and unmotivated anyway. We all came back inside and I spent the time painting some rocks instead. I am making just enough through my Etsy shop to cover my costs which is pretty nice. And the more I practice the better I get and eventually the more I can charge for my rocks. It is a slow process and lots of learning along the way - but it is also a lot of fun. I have just completed a crocheted blanket - what fun. And DH thinks I should try to sell some of those on Etsy too ... we'll see how that goes. I first want to do one for DS and get some more experience crocheting.
    Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
    Primal low: 186 lbs
    Current weight: 221.4 lbs
    Goal weight: 140 lbs

    "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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    • That same thing happened with my old car - the trunk didn't latch one night and I came out to a dead battery. What a pain that was. Glad you were going somewhere you didn't really want to go!

      Great the Etsy shop is working out and it sounds really fun. Yes, you should sell crocheted blankets! I'm sure your learning curve is jet-propelled. Me, I can knit just fine but crochet had me flummoxed. Of course I could learn if I put my mind to it but I am not so motivated.
      My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

      "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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      • I can knit Siobhan, but not particularly well - I never learned the right way to hold the needles and yarn so it is a laborious process. The crochet is just so fast and seems simpler (with the simple stitches that is!!)I am happy to have this blanket as I have wanted one like this for the longest time and now at last I have one to snuggle under for naps or movies with hubby (there is room to share too)

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        Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
        Primal low: 186 lbs
        Current weight: 221.4 lbs
        Goal weight: 140 lbs

        "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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        • That is so pretty! I think crocheting is faster. It is so rewarding when things come together really quickly.
          My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

          "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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          • That's right Siobhan, it makes you want to work on something when it grows fast
            Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
            Primal low: 186 lbs
            Current weight: 221.4 lbs
            Goal weight: 140 lbs

            "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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            • It's not even in the same league, but that is why I love this rubber band jewelry making - it comes together so fast and watching it take shape is so much fun. I've had to stop because I had about ten bracelets and necklaces!
              My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

              "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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              • Those rubber band goodies sound fun ... share a pic when you can! Make for friends or nieces and nephews etc. They're all the rage at the moment! I made my first international sale this weekend which was rather exciting - nothing to rave about really since it is just a tiny little cheap rock that I painted. But I was pumped that someone in the UK liked it enough to pay the shipping too!

                Rant warning: -Looking at another place tomorrow ... feeling very stressed. Trying not to succumb to the stress, but it is just a lot of years of stress, all compounding every day. It just gets to the point where it doesn't shed very well. DH has been busy with work so looks like the bills will be taken care of this month - phew. We were hoping that my folks taxes would be lower since they were only here for a small part of last year, but they are still a pretty good chunk. Another thing that will be the last time we have to pay it ... can't wait to be done with all these large expenses for them. If we can buy this place we're looking at, we would be able to take all the folks stuff out of the storage unit and store it in our own place until we've saved enough to send it over to them. It seems there is always another step, and another, before we can be done with forking out extra money. It just feels overwhelming all the time with no end in sight. I mean, I am so glad that we are able to help them ... but I confess that I do feel some resentment at the same time. Our needs have been sacrificed on so many levels to take care of them - it feels as though we are so far behind on basics that I wonder how on earth we will catch up. Like retirement savings, health insurance etc. etc. And yet we have so much to be thankful for and I don't want to lose sight of those precious things ... just sometimes the other stuff gets overwhelming. It feels as though we will spend all our money and effort taking care of my folks, just to be in the same boat as them, once they are gone. We just have to figure out a way to get on top of all this stuff... rant done.

                I am dealing with a really late visit from Aunt Flo. The progesterone needs some tweaking to get it all working in sync - Aunt Flo is only 10 days late! So I have dealt with some serious bloating - and I have gained more weight back. I am now only a few pounds off my heaviest ever weight. This is not good - I feel simply horrid. Everything is tight (including my skin it seems) and I am uncomfortable. I am hoping (it may be simplistic thinking) that once we are settled and the living situation is no longer so very stressful that I can get into a routine and hopefully have the energy to address the weight and health issues again. Right now I am in survival mode - doesn't make for very good meals at all as I am so tired and worn out that thinking what to eat is almost too much. A lot of stews lately - at least that way we get meat, veg and fat all in one easy package. Lots of eggs, fruit and unfortunately my staple in times of stress, milk chocolate. ('only' a couple of bars a week!) If I can just make it through this next while I might actually start to see some positive changes. Prayers would be appreciated for a home ... we are all struggling with this situation and we have hunted for anything that we can afford and that is livable, even for another rental ... nothing that wouldn't be worse than where we are. We have found these two possibilities that we are going to see tomorrow. They are about 50 minutes drive for DH to the main town where he works - but there just aren't any options closer in. At least we are allowed to have chickens up there, no gardening though - the growing season is too short. Last frost date is about 21 June and the first frost date is late September. Lots of beautiful lakes though and lots of areas for primal exercise like hiking and fishing and snow shoeing etc. I could live there for a couple or three years until we can get on top of all the debt and get to a point where we can move to an area that we really like for a little farm... we want animals and land and water. Maybe one day ... just got to deal with the present for now.
                Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                Primal low: 186 lbs
                Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                Goal weight: 140 lbs

                "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                • Sorry to hear of the troubles and hoping for some joy for you in finding a new place. Just think, you would never have to see your landlord again! Something nice will turn up for you, I know it will.
                  My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                  "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                  • I have come to the conclusion that this part of the country is just not for us. Surely if you drive almost an hour into the country you should be allowed to have a few chickens? Honestly, I am just royally p$%&d off. We have found an awesome house, about 55 minutes drive from town, at about 8400 ft, on 3/4 acre. Right on the road which makes it nice for DH to get to work even in the winter as the road is plowed all the time. It is the first place we have found that really is a good deal - and now we hear that you are not allowed to have chickens or a garden. I think we are just going to have to suck it up for a few more years and then get the h@*k out of Dodge. We'll have fun up there and at least it isn't in town, the scenery is gorgeous, but we CANNOT find a place that we can afford that we can also have a garden and chickens. I am so sick and tired of being told what we can or can't do on land that we buy!!! I think we'll just try to fly under the radar with the chickens - just keep a few for some eggs and if there is trouble we'll sell them or something.
                    Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                    Primal low: 186 lbs
                    Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                    Goal weight: 140 lbs

                    "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                    • Can't have a garden? What kind of weird rule is that?
                      My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                      "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                      • Yeah Siobhan, this is the West with all the associated water issues. Unless you own 35 acres with your house you may not use your water from your well to water anything outside the house. No garden, no livestock etc. Unfortunately, a few generations ago the water was sold to Kansas etc. so now Colorado, a very arid state, is extremely limited in how much of the water that falls in this state can be used here. (long, garbled sentence - sorry!) You can't collect rainwater, you may not use grey water, you can't build a pond without jumping through a million hoops first and then you still may not get permission. If you get permission you have the 'water police' keeping tabs on how much you use to make sure you don't take more than your quota. If you live in town of course, it doesn't matter how tiny your plot of land is you can water it according to the water regulations even if you are only growing a lawn. But heck, if you live in the country and want to grow your own food - are you kidding?! Of course you can't do that!! And we can't afford to buy a place in town - way out of our price range even if we wanted to live there.

                        It's okay though, we are just realizing more and more that we just don't belong here. Apparently Colorado has the highest rate of HOA's in any state in the USA. I heard this from a realtor friend - hearsay, but it sure feels like it. This house that we like is really a good deal though - one of those kinds of deals that you wish you could find. As you all know we've been looking for a long time and this is the best place we've seen (including the farm - that house was pretty rough and there were a number of issues ....) So we are going to take the plunge tomorrow (barring any unforeseen mishaps) and put an offer in on the house. We will have fun up there - 8400 ft, lakes and mountains all around. We can bide our time there until we have gotten things together enough to move somewhere else. We all need a chance to breathe and get over years of stress - I plan on taking a lot of walks and doing a lot of fishing. Nature study here we come for school! I'll keep you all posted on the process - I am hopeful that this is going to work out well despite the limitations on what we can do. It looks as though there might be a really neat little community up there - 75% of the population come in during the summer and the rest of the year it is about 25% of the population. There is a library and a tiny village complete with trading store and post office all on dirt roads ... There are 3 churches to pick from so we might actually be able to get connected at last with some others who have similar interests.
                        Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                        Primal low: 186 lbs
                        Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                        Goal weight: 140 lbs

                        "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                        • Coll I wish you all the best with your offer, though those water rules sound completely nonsensical to me. Surely there is some way that you can capture the rainfall in a water garden or something so that it will be available to your plants later in the season....And as for no chickens, that is just as bizarre. The spot does sound lovely though, so good luck
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                          • They are crazy Annie! Thanks for the good wishes ... going to sign documents this morning.

                            I am going to start the ADF again now that my gut seems happy again and see how it goes. I need to make an effort again and I am going to be doing loads of moving slowly what with getting ready to move. I foresee some tired, stiff muscles in the very near future!
                            Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                            Primal low: 186 lbs
                            Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                            Goal weight: 140 lbs

                            "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                            • Wow, I had no idea about all those rules! And I am from California! (Talk about HOAs...) But the place sounds great otherwise, just like where I live except a lot higher (and with less water.) Hoping for all good things to happen! With the gut and the home.
                              My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                              "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                              • I have good news - our offer was accepted on the house!!! We are delighted - just got to go through all the stages of checking it out and making sure there are no nasty surprises. Very handy having DH able to do the home inspection himself We're going on Thursday to do the inspection and take a bunch of pics and measurements etc. Can't believe it is happening at last after 3 years of waiting! Phew!

                                Starting tomorrow I am starting the ADF - just didn't get around to it this last week with everything else that has been going on. Monday is always a good day to start in my mind I am thinking of doing set down days and up days as in Monday, Wednesday and Friday are down days and the others up days. We'll see how that goes and then I can always tweak it if I want. The gut is working much better - 2 prescript assist am and pm along with about a tablespoon of potato starch morning and evening. Sleeping better than ever and dreaming like I haven't in many years. I can tell that everything isn't totally normal in the gut arena yet, but without going into much nasty detail, it is MUCH better and I am not having to run to the bathroom at odd times. I am still taking digestive enzymes, but I change how many I have depending on what kind of meal I am eating. If it is a light meal I usually don't take any, if there is a lot of fat or protein I take two ... seems to be working.
                                Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                                Primal low: 186 lbs
                                Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                                Goal weight: 140 lbs

                                "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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