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  • That is such a tough problem, Coll. I hope it works out and secretly they want to go back or something like that. I guess they are not eligible for Medicare? Perhaps they aren't old enough. This healthcare thing....grrrrrr....
    My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

    "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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    • Thanks all for the support! Siobhan, they applied, but they are on green cards and were turned down, I don't remember the exact reasons. Sometimes I wonder why we even bothered doing the whole immigration thing legally - it seems to work better if you come in illegally and then get granted amnesty, and of course they all get free medical care!!! It is still at least 18 months before my Mom would be eligible to apply for citizenship. In the meantime her diabetic meds are a few hundred dollars a month when the doc doesn't have samples. And that is only one of the meds they need. My Dad has an auto-immune disease that attacks the muscles esp of the legs, he is also very overweight and has had a lot of falls the last year or so. It freaks me out to think of a broken hip etc ....

      I am really hoping that they will secretly be thrilled to hear that they are going back to SA. I know they miss it terribly (as do I) and the thing is they have so much more going for them there than here. They have so many contacts and resources there for everything. And two of my brothers live there and could at least contribute a bit to their care even if it is just with practical things. The other plus is that there are 3 grandchildren in SA that they haven't seen for ages and my other brother is far more likely to visit SA with his family than come here. Of course they will be far from us then ... but there is no way we can save to make a trip there while trying to support them here .... over 10 years since I was last home! I am just praying that God will prepare their hearts and that He will give us wisdom in how to approach the subject with them and when. Such a big deal for us all ....

      The carnitas are smelling pretty good - still trying to cook off the extra liquid. Takes longer at a higher altitude and I forgot to adjust for that. I think it will still be ready in good time for dinner. I was thinking of serving the carnitas with sour cream, salsa, olives and then served in romaine lettuce leaves... I doubt whether DS will eat it. Guess he'll be eating more grass fed hotdogs and a chunk of raw cauliflower and sliced raw mushroom instead... maybe he will try it.

      Kids are stressed at the moment - I think our stress is infectious and it is running rampant through the house. Got them watching a wildlife movie to redirect their little minds. We are supposed to be getting a little snow tomorrow - really praying that it doesn't fizzle out again. The snowpack is at least 8 feet behind what it should be. Water restrictions already in place. After the huge fire last year the rivers water quality has been greatly affected. The irrigation ditch behind our house has a layer inches deep of ash and of course all the houses that got burned up are sending their bits and pieces down river. The lake was used as a water source for fighting the fire - I can't remember how many millions of gallons they scooped out of there to drop on the fire... between that and the drought the lake is a lot lower, and this year it is the main source of water for the city. The fire we just had ended up only being about 1300 acres ... 100% contained now, but that was right next to Horsetooth lake as well. They think the volume of water will dilute the effects of the fire - glad to hear it. Guess I will need to do BIG time mulching this year on my gardens.

      Until we have the folks organised we are just going to blow off trying to buy a house - too much otherwise. And of course we will need to look for something totally different once we are not trying to buy a place to accomodate us all! This area is really expensive, especially when you move from SC where properties are really cheap now! It is a relief to think that we will be able to look for something slightly more affordable once everything else is sorted out.
      Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
      Primal low: 186 lbs
      Current weight: 221.4 lbs
      Goal weight: 140 lbs

      "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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      • AT LAST! The computer is up and running properly now!

        Had a lovely visit with friends yesterday evening. Everything was primal as we had told them about our issue with grains. Very nice time - first visit as a family with friend type people since we moved here almost exactly two years ago. Can you say we are slow to make friends?! Been talking to my mom and just wilting at the thought of telling them they need to leave. But at the same time - it has reinforced the fact that we can't keep going like this. They need help with paying their taxes and a couple of bills and they are eating totally crappy food because they can't afford decent food. Just one big downward spiral...

        Have been feeling much better the last couple of days ... the cravings are settling down at last and I am not constantly on the prowl for food. I am still not quite on top of the whole chocolate thing - Easter is so hard for a chocoholic! Looks like we may take a few days off over Easter weekend and go away as a family. I am so tired of the phone ringing and never being off. Even on days off DH is having to answer the phone and pick up radon testers etc. I HATE it even while I am very grateful for the income ... Just feels as though he isn't truly here a lot of the time even though his body is here. We are still figuring out how to take time for us - not used to being his own boss. Lots of learning happening.

        DS is fighting off another cold - seems to be holding his own which I am glad about!

        Lost a wee bit more weight yesterday, despite the icecream last night at the dinner it wasn't much at all though, the rest was berries and a touch of cream (for the dessert) The main course was roast beef and veg.
        Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
        Primal low: 186 lbs
        Current weight: 221.4 lbs
        Goal weight: 140 lbs

        "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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        • Life is serving up heaping helpings of stress right now ... still having computer issues. Whichever way I turn at the moment it is all just kind of imploding ... stress by the ton. Not doing school today - I can hardly write legibly today because my hands are shaking. Took about half an hour to lie in the sun on the trampoline - felt wonderful. The sound of icicles falling off the edge of the roof, snow melting all around and the sun was so warm on my back. Lovely. Back to the chaos now - trying to call my siblings in their respective countries to try and get help with caring for my folks ... nothing straight forward in that process let me tell you!! I can feel the chocolate calling me - that siren song is winning at the moment. Don't even know why I am on here anymore - every way I turn I am failing dismally. I might just have to take a break and start over some other time when life settles down a bit.
          Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
          Primal low: 186 lbs
          Current weight: 221.4 lbs
          Goal weight: 140 lbs

          "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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          • Maybe you are here for the fellowship? I hope so! We love you!
            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

            "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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            • You are right Siobhan, I need a place like this while I am freaking out - I don't have friends in my area so I 'make do' with my cyber friends. So tired tonight - too much crying today. Will try again tomorrow... sleep well all!
              Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
              Primal low: 186 lbs
              Current weight: 221.4 lbs
              Goal weight: 140 lbs

              "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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              • Just got back from a weekend about an hours drive up the canyon. Stayed in a little cabin on the Poudre River ... no phone, no internet, and I cooked everything ahead of time so we ate beef stew, carnitas and veg and fruit and dairy. We spent a fair amount of time down at the river, taking pictures, whittling sticks we found, tossing stones and just relaxing. DH and I had plenty time (uninterrupted!!) to talk over all the stuff that is going on with my folks ... feel like we are starting to find a way through this mess. Much to work through still but at least there seems to be light at the end of the tunnel. Of course just to make the weekend more interesting the transmission started to go out on our vehicle!! I think it was the steep climb in elevation that pushed it over the edge. It wouldn't change out of 2nd gear after a while - screaming along!!! Kind of freaky - back to the old days of travelling without cell phone service to help out. No cell coverage all the way up the canyon. We were about 5 miles from the place we were headed for when we had to pull over and let her sit for about half an hour ... we took a walk as we just happened to pull over right at the entrance to a SWA, kids were thrilled and it was really pretty. Got back to the vehicle and managed to limp our way to the campground. Decided to just enjoy the weekend and figure it out on our way back ... of course the ride home is almost all downhill with a little bit of flat so the vehicle did make it with some careful jockeying of the gas pedal etc by DH! So, another lovely big expense to follow the big tax bill, the money to the folks to keep them going, and a number of other things that just came up - so true that it never rains but pours.

                I arrived home after fetching the dog and a quick grocery run in DH's work car to find our landlord complaining about our daughter and the way she dealt with his brat 4 year old (who never ever hears no and never has to feel the consequences of her unsocial behavior) She had told the brat that she needed to go home if she couldn't play nicely (I say good for her - I have told her to do that!) Daddy came trotting over saying it wasn't fair that their older child got to play and not the little brat - so our daughter told him that actually it isn't fair that they have to play with a kid that isn't nice and that the older kid is nice to play with. I have told our kids no more playing with the landlords kids if one of us adults isn't around to supervise - it isn't fair for her to take the brunt of the parents inability to discipline their offspring. So, if the youngest comes over they will only be allowed to play if we can watch - not going to be much of that because I am not exactly without stuff to do. The older kid is really sweet and our kids really enjoy playing with her - the younger is really horrid and the parents say that 'being firm with her really doesn't work!" I guess I know who is running that household!

                Stunning spring days at the moment - clear skies, windy, lovely warm sun if you can get out the wind. We have at last gotten all the paper work ready to take to the mortgage lender - so this week may see us preapproved for buying a house at last. We'll see if we can even get a loan for anything here - last wait now...

                I have gained a lot of weight lately. Thank GOD for a husband who loves me no less when I am fat and stressed! What a huge blessing he is to me - unconditional love is an amazing thing!
                Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                Primal low: 186 lbs
                Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                Goal weight: 140 lbs

                "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                • Good on your daughter to stand up for what is right! It must make you feel so good to see your children developing such fine character. I am hoping for all the best for you into the future. How great it will be to have your own home! Every family needs a place of their own.
                  My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                  "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                  • Especially since it is one thing to tell a child they are not behaving nicely, it is a whole other experience telling the parent. Your daughter has some chops!

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                    • Thanks folks, DD is VERY strong willed and will call a spade a spade - many times it is really tough to deal with but yesterday was one of those times that DH and I looked at each other and said that, aha, here is a time for her strong personality to shine through!

                      I can't wait to start looking for our own little spot Siobhan, we are all going stir crazy after renting for 2 years! We want to plant and buy chickens and paint and .... and .... and
                      Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                      Primal low: 186 lbs
                      Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                      Goal weight: 140 lbs

                      "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                      • Well, I spent about 3 hours this morning with the kids pruning the landlords apple trees. Just two of them but they have been neglected for years by the previous owners and were a horrible mess!! My arms and hands are sore now - they look a lot better now but are going to need ongoing care. I couldn't take anymore off them without causing harm so had to stop. Hopefully the landlord doesn't faint when he sees them - though I am not sure if he would notice a difference either... He did say for me to go ahead and prune them and we can share the harvest, even if we have moved (which I pray is the case!)

                        Spent half the afternoon whittling a short walking stick - one that I could use to whack a marauding dog or coyote if necessary! Or the kids could use it as a walking stick. I am whittling a hand hold that is much smaller so that they can get their hands around it. Other benefits from pruning the apple trees is lots of fresh wood for whittling, and lovely wood for smoking steaks etc on a fire!! It does impart a really lovely flavor and we are headed for barbeque / braai weather! Can't wait to get cooking outside again - and especially cooking potjiekos (a big 3 legged cast iron pot) that is cooked for hours over a bed of coals, usually a divine mix of meat and veggies that cook to fall apart tenderness. A South African delicacy and very primal. You spend all day nursing the fire and the pot, and in between you play games and talk and laugh and swim and eat other bits and pieces while you wait for the main event! Of course the weather has been so dry here we may not be able to have an open fire - just wait and see I guess.

                        I think I have found someone to assess DD and write up her assessment to say that she is doing fine and can continue homeschooling - it has been quite a process to find someone. All these things you have to find out when you are new in an area and especially when moving to another state where the laws are different...

                        We are taking the Suburban in to get the transmission fixed tomorrow morning .... so glad we have been saving up an emergency fund! So grateful for lots of work for DH or we would not be very happy at all! Last year this time we were still wondering if the business was going to work out or if we were going to crash and burn ... and we have just come through the slow period with an emergency fund intact - verging on miraculous, especially if you knew how we had been living hand to mouth for years before that in the Carolina's!!

                        I made a bunch of carnitas the other day - DH is happy as can be It is so nice to have a tub of carnitas in the fridge just waiting to be warmed up and added to all kinds of things. I love loading a romaine lettuce leaf with carnitas, sour cream, and salsa. Just delicious. Or warmed up with eggs of all kinds ... so versatile.

                        The kids and I have been listening to the Narnia books and they have been really enjoying them, esp DD. I think they are a bit advanced for DS though he does enjoy listening. I am missing one of the series and DD is not impressed that we are going to have to wait to order it Audiobooks are such a wonderful invention - especially for long road trips. They pass the time far better than movies for the kids.

                        Since it is the 1st of April I guess it is a good day to get going on losing fat again. I did have some leftover chocolate this morning but otherwise have been very primal. So tomorrow I will weigh in for the first time in a while and then we'll see about getting moving in more ways than one!
                        Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                        Primal low: 186 lbs
                        Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                        Goal weight: 140 lbs

                        "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                        • I am glad to see you are feeling a little better and things are well. My own emergency fund is severely depleted - most of it went to the new car purchase, registration, etc., and then with winter fuel costs I have not been able to replenish. Very upsetting! Hopefully I will get a little break now that the weather is better.
                          My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                          "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                          • Narnia is my favorite country to visit.

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                            • I have just started supplementing regularly with magnesium after reading a bunch about it. I have so many of the symptoms of low magnesium levels. I was certain I was going to be really sore today after my herculean efforts with the pruning yesterday - but as a result of the magnesium gel I am hardly even sore!! WOW! I had forgotten that it helps move lactic acid as well! I am also hoping that it might boost my libido some... along with getting rid of occasional arrhythmias, cramps, depression, fatigue, food cravings, the late night pounding heart and disturbed sleep, and maybe some detox from all my amalgam fillings, maybe some help for my heel that has been hurting quite a lot again lately, and of course just to counterbalance the very high stress at the moment! I have ordered some of the angstrom magnesium for DH and I to take - I will be interested to see if this helps him with his chronic sleep issues too...

                              Doing much back and forth with my brothers to figure out if we can organize some stuff to help the folks out ... maybe they'll go to one of my siblings in Taiwan while we save up enough to get them moved all the way back to South Africa! Still haven't broached the subject with my folks ... keep waiting for the 'right' time. I want to have some options ready and mostly researched before we bring it all up. I don't want to tell them they can't stay here and then leave them hanging with no options. Trying to do lots of deep breathing and praying and taking things in small bite sized chunks. My weight is up to 202.2 lbs as of this morning - the only mitigating factor is that Aunt Flo arrived yesterday so I am also bloated. I also ate two bars of chocolate today - not exactly a success!! Deep breaths and keep trying...
                              Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                              Primal low: 186 lbs
                              Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                              Goal weight: 140 lbs

                              "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                              • I know it is hard when these things are imploding, but they shall pass. You will get through it and all will be well. You are a really good person, a fine person. Not everyone would care for their parents as you do. You have the really important things you need, a loving family and a good character.
                                My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                                "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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