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  • So, I walked down to the market this morning, and noticed a difference to my movement. I'm not 'trudging' any more, lifting my knees. I am 'loping', with my legs swinging from my hips. Towards the end of the walk (90"!) it was actually getting easier. I think it must conserve movement, or something, but it felt great. Also, much easier to enjoy your mental soundtrack when you are loping as opposed to trudging. I even felt kind of sexy. Sabine the predator, stalking home after her successful hunt(chicken and beef bones).

    Pebbles- No binging is a good thing. Do you think your being so busy this summer has helped?

    Kerry-the recipe is an adaptation of Mollie Katzen's from 'The Moosewood Cookbook'. I like to respect copyright, but I think I could in good conscience say it is:
    Boiled potatoes(I used sweet potato) mashed into a doubled amount of cottage cheese, yogurt, and sour cream.
    Saute onions and cabbage(twice as much volume as your potatoes) with caraway, dill, and salt.
    Mix everything together, and add a splash of vinegar.
    Bake until heated through.

    It is a good cookbook, and well worth taking a look through. Next I am going to try and primalize her cauliflower-cheese pie in a grated potato crust.

    I guess I did catch myself pretty quickly. Three days is nothing like the weeks and months it used to be. Thanks for pointing that out, Kerry. It is important to remind ourselves of the things we are doing well at.

    Just finished lunch. My honey tried out a way of grilling chicken thighs, to test before we have guests over tomorrow. The girls and I volunteered to be guinea pigs. Yum, yum. I also had a massive amount of cauliflower salad, so what did I do as soon as I was done eating? Start prowling for a dessert. Aaarrrgh!!!

    So, after I finish this post, I'm going to go paint my nails. Then I have to drive Littlest to her weekend activities, so that should distract me for a bit.

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    • Bingeing - No, I'm busy most of the time. The Truth is that what is working is a combo of Therapy with an eating disorders specialist and Prozac. My food issues are such that I had to go to those extremes to stop, but my health issues just can't be ignored so I can have an eating "free for all" every couple of days.
      Primal since 9/24/2010
      "Our greatest foes, and whom we must chiefly combat, are within." Miguel de Cervantes

      Created by MyFitnessPal.com - Free Weight Loss Tools
      MFP username: MDAPebbles67

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      • Just popping in to say hi & catch up with you! Sounds kinda like we've been doing the same thing. The last couple of weeks I've been eating some things I shouldn't! Why is it we know we shouldn't be putting xyz in our mouth but yet continue to munch away?? So I'm up a little but I realize its temporary & just need to dust myself off & get back to the plan.

        Good to hear you're doing well!! keep up the good work!
        {{{hugs}}}
        Goal: Don't worry be happy!

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        • ((( Sabine)))I am sending you warm and positive thoughts! There will come a time when tis is manageable and maybe even a thing of the past! You are strong and never give up and that matters!!

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          • Slouching toward normality

            Trying a new recipe is NOT a good idea when you are trying to get back to normal. But I pulled out a save, just barely.

            Yesterday:
            Up at 8:00
            Vitamins

            12:15 barbeque chicken thigh
            2C cauliflower salad

            2:15 1oz chicken with
            guacamole!

            4:45 3 jencakes (3gC) (eggs, cream cheese, vanilla, coconut flour)
            1T jam (5gC)
            1 jencake with almond butter and jam (4gC?)
            1 bratwurst with
            mustard
            1oz chicken with
            guacamole

            7:00 cheese
            raisins
            1/2C sunflower seeds

            Water: 10 glasses
            Walking: 90"

            Bed at 9:30

            Ever since I read Jenn's recipe for pancakes, I've wanted to try it. Whipped some up in the afternoon, and everyone liked them. Plus, I wanted to see how they would taste, cold, as a base for an ABJ. Fantastic! This could be dangerous. They set me off into munching mode, which I finally stopped with some protein and fat, but I think I would have been wiser to try them AFTER a huge honk of meat.

            The evening eating was also from the little sugar spike I think, and that one I solved by a massive quantity of sunflower seeds. I needed to feel stuffed to stop wandering, and half a cup of sunflower seeds will definitely do that.

            So, more carbs than I like, and more sugar, but nothing BAD.

            The guests will be here in four hours, so I'm off to do the last kitchen and bathroom cleaning. Much protein and vegetables will be consumed, as well as a little rice and fruit.

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            • The jenn cakes are really close to the recipe for oopsie rolls. sounds good either way though!
              SW (Nov 22nd 2011): 333
              Current Weight as of Nov 25 2015: 248
              Short Term Goal: Fit into the shirts I got on my honeymoon at disney and universal in august next year when I go back to for my 1 year anniversary
              Met Goal: Be a 2x Shirt, Fit in a standard airplane seat belt without the use of a seat belt extension
              Long Term Goal: 166lbs (One day!), Buy whatever cloths I want to wear.
              Pain is temporary, quitting is forever- Lance Armstrong #NoExcuses

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              • A day of fun and frivolity

                Much primal food was eaten yesterday: chicken, vegetables, more vegetables, raisins and sunflower seeds, more chicken, strawberries. A small quantity of corn chips, but eaten from a individual bowl, not mindlessly from the bag. And one glass of soda (WHAT!?!- I know, I know).

                None of this was written down in a timely fashion, due to GUESTS, but I did pretty well, except for not drinking enough water. Too much time spent being a HOSTESS, and not enough thinking about what my body needs, but that happens sometimes.

                The house was clean (enough) and though I heard one 'oh, my' when my honey took them into the front room to choose the games, I will cling to the belief that that could have been from the amount of books and games, and not from all the other stuff crammed into that room. I am a good clinger.

                Anyways, it looked like they had fun, and my honey and I certainly did.

                They only thing I can post for certain from yesterday, though:

                Up at 7:15
                Vitamins

                Walking:50"
                Bed at 10:00

                Now I am off to do The Thing. I am supposed to be doing it every day for the rest of the bunch, with a group. It will either get me over my emotions, or kill me.

                I have placed my bet on survival.

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                • Action is the antidote to despair.

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                  • A brief pause

                    I am going to take a break from food journalling.

                    I am going through a rough patch, with my eating as a response to both The Thing, and job/money worries. I avoid writing things down when they are bad, bad, BAD! Then I feel bad for not keeping track, on top of feeling bad physically, and what do I do when I am feeling bad?

                    You guessed it.

                    I want my primal lifestyle to be a refuge for me, not something I feel bad about when I slip. So, I'm going to NOT post my food for a while, see if it helps with these FEELINGS.

                    That's all.

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                    • Good for you. Giving yourself what you need should be the first priority. I've completely stopped talking about food and Primal eating in my journal too.
                      Primal since 9/24/2010
                      "Our greatest foes, and whom we must chiefly combat, are within." Miguel de Cervantes

                      Created by MyFitnessPal.com - Free Weight Loss Tools
                      MFP username: MDAPebbles67

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                      • It is good to be flexible with methods. I stopped posting everything when it was starting to weigh on me. And sometimes I read journals and skip over the food reports, because if I spend too much time thinking about food, I spend too much time eating it. Weighing too. I do it often enough to keep myself accountable, but I don't feel obliged to do it daily if it's going to discourage me. Which is a long-winded way of saying I understand, and I support you on this. Do what works.
                        5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                        Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                        Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                        More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                        - Lewis Mumford

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                        • Warning, this post has sex in it.

                          Thanks, Pebbles and Judg. It is a strange thing about writing a 'public' journal. You're trying to be open and truthful, as if it was just yourself, but you also want that connection that gives you support, accountability, a release, whatever we each get from an online journal. And sometimes there's that sense that you are letting other people down, if you don't continue with whatever you have been doing. Health is too important to be catering to others, but I think there's an element of that. Particularly, as I know I have stopped reading some journals if they weren't offering what I want from the journal reading experience. What if someone starts thinking, 'This Sabine, she's changed so much. What a downer.'

                          Of course, I could just be incredibly conceited, thinking anyone gives a flip what I put in my journal! But if you can't be conceited in your own journal, well, where can you?

                          So, the sex.

                          My honey and I have a good sex life. It has gone through its various permutations over the past twenty-nine years (oh, my goodness, I have been having sex for 29 years!), and I have to say, it has only gotten better as i have gotten over various body hang-ups and confidence issues.

                          But this morning, during some particularly vigorous sex, my fat started wiggling. Really wiggling. So much that it hurts, like when you are running really fast, and your breasts are being yanked around by physics.

                          So, it hurt, plus it made me aware of the incredible amounts of fat on my belly and thighs, even my back. It was ridiculous. And definitely spoiled the mood for me. Hard to be in the moment when you are thinking about how wiggly you are.

                          I don't know if it has been my past days of poor eating, leading to extra water retention. Or my fat getting 'softer' as I am losing. Or honey just being particularly athletic (he did skip his workout today, as it is a holiday. Maybe he was compensating?). Or something else entirely.

                          I do not like it.

                          Sex should be fun. I should not be worrying about wiggling bits. I tried to simulate the motion in front of the mirror later, to see what it looked like from another angle. One, it is hard to get going in the same way, two, I couldn't get the angle that my honey had, three, I'm sure he wasn't thinking about any wiggling in a critical way, but still, I did it.

                          Will this motivate me to eat right? Or send me into a further spiral?

                          Or just make me wait until dark next time?

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                          • When you lose weight your body goes after the saturated fat first... you probably noticed your body being firmer when you started paleo vs now. It's because sat fat on your body is much harder (and a much more nutrient dense form of fuel). Once that starts depleting you're left with the gelatinous fat... gross sounding... but the wigglyness is an indication that you're burning your sat fat. Be proud of that. I know it feels gross but consider it progress. You should feel good about it! Next time you're at it and feeling wiggley just remember it's because you are losing weight and reaching for your new sexier body.
                            SW (Nov 22nd 2011): 333
                            Current Weight as of Nov 25 2015: 248
                            Short Term Goal: Fit into the shirts I got on my honeymoon at disney and universal in august next year when I go back to for my 1 year anniversary
                            Met Goal: Be a 2x Shirt, Fit in a standard airplane seat belt without the use of a seat belt extension
                            Long Term Goal: 166lbs (One day!), Buy whatever cloths I want to wear.
                            Pain is temporary, quitting is forever- Lance Armstrong #NoExcuses

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                            • So when do we firm up again? It seems the only fat I have left is flab. Fortunately much less of it, but if I'm going to have fat, I'd rather it be the dense stuff...
                              5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                              Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                              Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                              More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                              - Lewis Mumford

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                              • This is where exercise comes in. You don't exercise to lose fat- you exercise to tighten up. When your muscles grow and tighten they pull your skin/gross fat in and gives you shape.
                                SW (Nov 22nd 2011): 333
                                Current Weight as of Nov 25 2015: 248
                                Short Term Goal: Fit into the shirts I got on my honeymoon at disney and universal in august next year when I go back to for my 1 year anniversary
                                Met Goal: Be a 2x Shirt, Fit in a standard airplane seat belt without the use of a seat belt extension
                                Long Term Goal: 166lbs (One day!), Buy whatever cloths I want to wear.
                                Pain is temporary, quitting is forever- Lance Armstrong #NoExcuses

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