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    I can NOT read accounts of other people's binges.

    Agave syrup is the DEVIL.

    Back tomorrow.

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    • LOL!

      I am happy all winter with coffee and various teas and a single big cup of water a day. Come summer it's a different story! I guzzle ice water all day. But I am glad I developed a taste for mineral water years ago. When I"m tired of plain water, it's nice to drink something with a taste. Straight club soda will do in a pinch.
      5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
      Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
      Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

      More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
      - Lewis Mumford

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      • Yes, I'm skipping a day

        I don't even want to write down what I did on Monday. Except that there was 55 minutes of walking. That was good.

        Why did the bad stuff happen? I'm not sure. The inciting incident, I'm sure, was sampling the gluten free chocolate crisp bar I bought over the weekend. 1/2 of the bar, 12grams of carbs, with a meal, but boy howdy, what ever was in it made me crazy. (I blame the agave - that's the only 'new' thing. No more of that for me, no, sir.) An hour and a half later I was trolling for food, anything to stuff in my face, feeling very antsy.

        Why didn't I say to myself, 'hey, that bar set off some cravings. Let's deal with it?' Instead, I started shoveling food in. Started primal, because we don't have a lot of non-primal in the house, but there are stashes. And I escalated into them. And went out of the house for some secret eating. Ugh.

        Can't point to any emotional state that made it easy to give into that sugar rush after the bar. I guess I just didn't take the time to deal with it. Turned off my mind and let old habits take over.

        So, I did not avoid stupid mistakes or use my brain on Monday.

        I did better on Tuesday:

        Up at 5:45
        Vitamins

        8:30 5 pork sausages
        2 eggs scrambled in
        butter
        2T salsa
        1/2 avocado

        2:30 lamb chop
        1T A-1 sauce
        2C sauteed spinach
        1/2 banana
        3 oz blue cheese

        7:45 2C ground beef with homemade marinara
        tomato, onion, bell peppers, garlic
        cheddar
        2C strawberries
        1/2C cream with
        1 packet stevia

        Water: 8 glasses
        Walking: 95 minutes!

        Bed at 9:00

        Goal for today: keep brain turned on!

        Also, I have no plans to take up Mark's new challenge. Still working on the old one.

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        • I have read agave syrup often is as processed as HFCS! And gluten-free chocolate? That's like saying glutenfree cheese, or fat-free apples. Why should anyone ever put gluten in chocolate?
          Anyhow, new day, new start . Lesson learned (next time leave the samples and just go for good quality dark chocolate ).
          My Journal: Candy in Primal Wonderland
          My Blog: Candy in Wonderland
          Goal for 2012: keep weight steady (+/- 74 kg): check
          Goal for 2013: lose 10 kg and keep new weight (+/- 65 kg)

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          • Good thing that every day is a new day, right? It's not like you get voted off the island or that you drove your car over a cliff. Thank God, there are some bad decisions that just slow us down. Mine was a panful of primal brownies a while back. I ate almost the whole batch in one sitting. I was in a snarky mood. For me, upset and angry are dangerous places to be food-wise. That's when I find myself in front of the fridge, determined to stuff my face.

            What's helping me avoid excess sweets is a profound desire to stay off the blood sugar roller-coaster. It's so nice to miss the crashes. I'm sure I will still blow it occasionally, and hopefully the experience will be bad enough to make it easier to say no the next time.

            Here's to a new day.
            5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
            Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
            Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

            More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
            - Lewis Mumford

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            • One thing I am pleased about, is how quickly I felt good again, after a morning of eating as I should. Back in the day, a day like Monday would have been the start of WEEKS of poor eating. If I have gained the ability to stop after one episode, and keep it from turning into a habit, that's HUGE.

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              • That is huge Sabine. I think you're well on your way.
                Primal since March 5, 2012
                SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                • Glad you're feeling good and are back in the saddle!

                  I am lucky, I live in an extremely beautiful place - a coastal Maine fishing village. Yes, it looks like a postcard. Towering pine trees, huge rocks, islands, sparkling water, fishing boats. We have a footbridge over the narrowest part of the harbor, which makes for a handy walking circuit. And I have a nature preserve almost next door to my home.
                  My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                  "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                  • Originally posted by Sabine View Post
                    One thing I am pleased about, is how quickly I felt good again, after a morning of eating as I should. Back in the day, a day like Monday would have been the start of WEEKS of poor eating. If I have gained the ability to stop after one episode, and keep it from turning into a habit, that's HUGE.
                    Excellent!!
                    "Be careful what you pretend to be because you are what you pretend to be." Kurt Vonnegut
                    "I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by." Douglas Adams
                    "Moderation sucks." Suse
                    "Wine is a vegetable." Meaty
                    "Every decision you make, from what you eat to what you do with your time tonight, turns you into who you are tomorrow and the day after that." Cmdr Chris Hadfield


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                    • sabine...congrats on jumping right back on the bandwagon!!! that is huge to not give in to weeks of bad choices!!
                      Goal: Don't worry be happy!

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                      • I am so pleased to hear that you are doing well after a hiccup! Show that old habit who is boss huh?!
                        Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
                        Primal low: 186 lbs
                        Current weight: 221.4 lbs
                        Goal weight: 140 lbs

                        "You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."

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                        • Something old, something new, something borrowed, not at all blue!

                          Thanks for your encouragement, all.

                          It is a strange feeling to be doing this 'with' others. Dieting has always been a solitary endeavor for me, even when I did Weight Watchers. I'm shy, so I never made friends there. And any talk to my friends about weight has always had a large bit of fantasy in it. I never wanted to say how much I really weighed, and wouldn't dream of confessing my binges. I have usually been the fattest person in my circle, and you fall into habits of seeing yourself a certain way. I'm the fat girl, who doesn't complain. Also, you get tired of trying something, being enthusiastic, and then failing.

                          Over and over.

                          I have been that girl for a long time, too. I think that is why I am keeping mum about this. My friends know I am 'low-carb' but I have fallen off that wagon enough times in the past that I don't think they really believe it. I wonder if any of them notice that it has been different these past few months. Probably not. To their eyes, it may very well NOT be different. I still have not exceeded my longest 'run' of success: five months. And I don't know that I will. But I am getting more confident about stringing 'runs' together.

                          A few days ago a piece of paper fell out of my (paper) journal. It was my list of sequential goals (a la deMuralist). The first one is to be squarely in the 180s - 185. I just jotted it down without much thought, but looking at it, I know what I meant. We all have the times where we are bobbling around a number. Up a little, down a little, not moving much. Not so much a plateau, but our body feeling its way. My bobbles have been around 200, and now 190. I want to be solidly in those 180s, so that if I bounce up a bit, there is still no 190 to be seen. I've entered the 180s, but I am still at the high end, flirting with 190 now and then.

                          I feel ready for a concerted little push, an actual 'watching my weight' kind of move. And I am feeling brave enough to announce it publicly to my primal friends. No keeping mum. I was planning another fast for after Eldest leaves. After that, I want to track my food- as in amounts, values for a week to see what exactly I am doing, and where I am straying from what I THINK I should be doing.

                          I hope I am not setting myself up for failure: announcing a plan and having people watch me. That's what I've always done before. But I am tired of that pattern. I'm ready to be successful, for real. So, I am daring to begin. Again.

                          Oh, and here's what I did yesterday:

                          Up at 6:10
                          Vitamins

                          12:00 2 plates sashimi
                          1/2C rice
                          1/2C creme brulee

                          8:30 1C ground beef marinara
                          1/2C cashews (Mark's fault, with that post of his!)
                          1/2 banana

                          Walking: 95 minutes!
                          Heavy things were lifted
                          Water: 10 glasses

                          Bed at 10:00

                          I did some errand walking, and more walking at the gym. Did that reverse crunch machine at the gym again. My honey told me he likes to watch my shirt ride up while I do it. It made me suck in my stomach, that's for sure! I am wanting to get some barefoot-style shoes: my athletic shoes are becoming actively uncomfortable after my life in Birkenstocks, and I'm just not willing to put up with it much longer. NO sprinting was done! If I ever get my walking into a habit, I might consider it. Until then: In your dreams, Mark!

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                          • I desperately want some barefoot shoes also, but the budget won't handle it right now. I just sent my extra dollars to the wildlife center, but I don't regret that. Shoes will wait.

                            I read an interesting article about how to approach new projects. I can't remember exactly how it went, but something like this:

                            Expect to succeed.
                            Know and expect that there will be setbacks.

                            Those things seem contradictory, but they go hand in hand. I'll have to dig around and find that article - it really helped me when I was changing careers and everything was so overwhelmingly difficult.
                            My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html

                            "Freedom from fear" could be said to sum up the whole philosophy of human rights. - Dag Hammarskjold

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                            • I want some barefoot shoes too. I've even been looking at barefoot work shoes (Merrill makes a nice minimalist "work shoe" for a dressier office, but they want $100 for them... I don't even spend $100 on my running shoes if I don't have to). Trying to find a less expensive option at say Walmart or Payless. Sadly, Walmart no longer carries any of those ballet slipper style "shoes" they had last summer.
                              Primal since March 5, 2012
                              SW: 221 | CW: 204 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)



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                              • Originally posted by Sabine View Post
                                One thing I am pleased about, is how quickly I felt good again, after a morning of eating as I should. Back in the day, a day like Monday would have been the start of WEEKS of poor eating. If I have gained the ability to stop after one episode, and keep it from turning into a habit, that's HUGE.
                                That is indeed huge. Imagine if babies quit trying to walk every time they fell down... Learning something new involves not getting it right sometimes. But we get up and try again, and eventually we get there.

                                And congrats on announcing your intention to push hard for a while. That's what I used to lose weight pre-Primal, I would cut back hard for 3 weeks (never longer) and then spend the next three weeks forcing my body to accept the new status quo. I think that is how I managed to beat the ghrelin demons, by never pushing myself into full famine mode. Now, I don't think it works quite the same with Primal, but making a determined push to get past a stubborn number still seems to me to be a good way of going about things. We will be here cheering for you. I've had a few of those stubborn numbers myself, where I would just bounce up off of them, over and over. In the end, I was more stubborn. And I think you are too.
                                5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
                                Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
                                Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

                                More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
                                - Lewis Mumford

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