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  • Have you tried acacia powder for the runs? It's helped me. I found it on amazon.com. I take 1 tablespoon. Initially it was daily, now it's every now and then.

    I'm so sorry for the troubles you are encountering. I pray that God gives you wisdom as you continue this journey. Big hugs.
    Favorite Mark Quote: "I train to play."

    June 2010: 168.6 -size 16
    Current: 155 - size 10/12
    Goal:135 - size 8

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    • Haven't tried it; might some day!

      Day 11: 146.75 (phew). No gurgles. Some cramps post-lunch. Ran out of turkey & lamb, so it's pork day. CO, MCT, blueberries (whole).

      My skin is getting smoother again. I had a fierce headache last night, though.
      5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
      Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
      Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
      Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
      ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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      • Day 12: 145.5. No gurgles so far today; just a couple yesterday. Feel sluggish & sleepy post-lunch. (Pastured) Pork, CO, MCT, blueberries, GlucoBalance vitamins (2 per meal).

        I would think that yesterday's results mean that pork is safe for me, at least as far as bloat & weight show?

        The measuring tape shows the weight is coming off of trunk, hip, forearm/wrist, calf, upper thigh, hip pockets. Oddly, not waist.
        5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
        Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
        Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
        Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
        ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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        • What happens when I go away for two days, spend tons of time in the sun, breathe lots of fresh air, swim, and eat nothing but pastured pork, coconut oil, blueberries, cantaloupe, 2 strawberries, & at the very end, grassfed beef with natural spices?

          I gain 4.5lb. :P

          Bloat bloat bloat. The beef definitely seemed to contribute, but I have to wonder if the pork over time did, too.

          Woke up at "only" 148 this morning. Felt very disturbed & tired this evening. I've been having very vivid & bothersome dreams lately, and inefficient sleep, and wonder if getting back on l-tryp will help.

          Just ran out of GABA & l-tyro. I don't think I need them as much.

          I dreamed about ice cream & tater tots two nights ago and, sure enough, had cravings last night. That's why I ate the beef .. I had already had a ton of pork & fat, and needed desperately to eat something delicious, adn the only thing that wasn't horribly off-elimination-diet-plan was the already-cooked beef.

          Nothing but pork & blueberries & the same beef today (ran out of pork temporarily).
          5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
          Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
          Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
          Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
          ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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          • Alright, after three weeks on the elimination diet, I learned that I think my problem really may be eating too much protein/fat at once. I think my digestion just may not be able to handle the BAB, but of course, I desperately needed the BAB to save me from BED.

            Notice I said "needed" - the amino acids seemed to kick in finally. I'm not sure if it just took a month or two, or if it was finally increasing the DPA + DLPA (2 of each 3x/day), or if it was adding the Essential Aminos (3 3x/day) (I'm pretty sure this did something big), but I am on the border of not caring what I eat anymore. I keep accidentally upping the fruit (whole fruit), and definitely still overeat if I get my hands on dried pineapple or other (mostly tart) fruit (but oddly, not raisins), but I don't even like the TJ's peppermint patties that are just choc, pepp oil, & honey!

            I think I *need* something in the GABA/l-tryp combo for solid sleep, and I think I figured out why. Check this out, from a description of sleep problems in some with hypermobility syndrome:

            "If they are able to fall asleep, they may continue to make too much adrenaline overnight, giving them a shallow, dream-filled sleep, so that they wake feeling unrefreshed."

            That describes my sleep issues to a T. Haven't I been saying this all along, that I feel I spend too much time in the dream state and don't get enough of the deep sleep? It says that the adrenaline comes from the body trying to compensate for (daytime?) fatigue (caused by other things?). Certainly that would make sense in my case.

            With the GABA/l-tryp combo, I was sleeping solidly every night, and waking after 8hrs sometimes (instead of 9-10, unrested). I ran out of l-tryp, my sleep went downhill after a week or so, got more. Ran out of GABA, got more, tried one, got a big headache, decided to hold off. I've been out about two weeks now and just last night I woke at 5am after 6hrs of sleep and couldn't get back to sleep (in the middle of a cycle of wake/dream/wake/dream/wake/dream where I couldn't tell which part I was in but for the fact that I knew I wasn't naked in a field). The solution to adrenaline is to mop it up with beta blockers(?) I guess Valium stuff, and I think GABA should fit the bill nicely. So I'll try it again soon.

            I'm very surprised I haven't collapsed yet after getting only 6hrs last night. I got sleepy late morning, but didn't succumb. Better than last week (when dried fruit gave me 5lb of bloat/water) when I got wiped out by sleepiness mid-day twice, giving me an unwanted hour and a half nap.

            Got a new doc last week and thin khe might be a keeper. Nice medium between allopathic and voodoo doctor. Neither/nor. He Rx'd more Naturethroid, down to 1.5/day (not sure he's right about this) and DSF Herbal, which is an adrenal support combo that appears to have ... amino acids in it! in addition to herbs. Tastes awful! It says to take 1/day and he has me on 2 on rising and 2 at noon! After two days, I made it through today without yelling or headaches. I kept almost flinching, expecting a headache when my boys would cross me, and ... it didn't come. I didn't get worked up. I didn't just *want* to stay calm; I *did* stay calm. (90% of the time, much better than the last few years.) Could it be ...?

            Was 145.25 last week, but now 150 again. Thanks, bloat. :P Size 8s still fit, though, so not sure what's up with that.
            5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
            Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
            Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
            Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
            ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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            • Alright, still doing pretty well. I think the AA's are doing some major work here, and the DSF, too.

              I was pondering today why so many timelessly famous composers were depressed, and the fact that I noticed a few months ago that singing (and listening to fabulous music of all types) is a major lift for me, and the fact that I read something about a connection between opera singing and poor health (but it seemed like a negative connection?) ... I wonder if music really does boost endorphins significantly enough to help, as I posited a few months ago? Do I sing b/c I desperately need the lift, just like I binge b/c (unbeknownst to me) my brain desperately needs the hit? Do they do the same thing? Can I assume that music does it in a safer, healthier way?

              Popped another music video on youtube tonight. Take 4 minutes to watch it and leave me a comment to let me know what you think! I had fun doing it. Someone Like You Cover Adele - YouTube Especially when my 11yo stomped in b/c he was made about his math.
              5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
              Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
              Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
              Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
              ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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              • I had a bit of a binge-y period yesterday with GF cake (just a 1/3 of a slice), & some totally paleo trail mix. I really didn't have too much, but felt like I could have just kept eating and eating if I wasn't already full from dinner. I'm out of DLPA, but taking DPA still, not sure what's triggering that.

                Had sushi last night and then detox overnight (waking up sweating 2hrs too early and unable to get back to sleep). Must have been soy sauce (wheat) in the sauce, although the waitress claimed none. I hate getting poisoned.

                Energy & mood are staying fairly strong, although one week ago, I had a total breakdown - massive migraine (never had one in my life) + emotional chaos. Dunno why, other than stress from an abusive HOA. I ate maple-pecan clusters (soaked, organic, etc.) that day (a whole tiny bag), but it was only less than 20g carbs ... can't see how that could have caused the headache, but when I ate the same later in the week again, I did get a small headache ... Odd.

                I think hypermobility is an accurate Dx for me; I never realized that not everyone can touch thumbs to forearms or bend pinky beyond 90 degrees or put palms on the floor if they stretch enough. Might explain my hobby of cracking every joint I have and harmlessly dislocating and relocating my shoulders and hips on command.

                I would like to work really hard this week on bloating. It was going down, but got much worse last night. I am down to 5oz protein every morning and trying hard not to have too much to eat for lunch & dinner, especially meat & fruit, whcih I can easily eat to oblivion. I seem to be doing okay with whole fruit most of the time (for once), although cherries seem to give me a bit of stomach discomfort sometimes, maybe when I've just had too much of a meal?

                I'm still at 145.5-148 and can't lose anything, despite daily DIM and Calc d-gluc and saw palmetto. I don't have any idea what to do to get rid of this weight. It's not coming off like it easily did before the DHEA 20lb-in-two-months weight gain fiasco.

                So anyway, I want to keep track of my meals and how I feel this week and see if I can pin down anything with the bloating.
                5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
                Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
                Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
                Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
                ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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                • Oh, and what the frak, I broke out in hives two weeks ago! Never in my life have I had hives! Still can't figure out why; I ate nothing unusual that day and did nothing unusual!
                  5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
                  Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
                  Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
                  Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
                  ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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                  • You probably have already considered this, but estrogen crashes can cause nasty migraines, night sweats and weight gain/ no loss issues. Just a thought. Peri-menopause symptoms usually start in your later 30s, early 40s. Wonky hormones are very frustrating as they fluctuate.

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                    • Bkfst: beef tongue, beef broth, pork sausage
                      Lunch: bit of ground beef, pork sausage, bratwurst. Don't have much of an appetite. ~2oz mixed cherry-cranberry juice.
                      Dinner: andouille + bell peppers + salad. 2oz cran-cherry

                      Yes, estrogen is definitely behind the weight gain. My DHEA supp seems to have converted to estrogen and given me 24/7 PMS, including bloating, weight gain, mood swings, headaches, fatigue, the works. Got off the DHEA and onto some estrogen-sponges and lost some, but still battling the rest.

                      I do not believe that it is natural to have a decade of misery preceding menopause, so if I am having peri-menopausal "symptoms," something is still wrong. I've asked my doc to help me decide whether BHRT might be a part of my healing regimen, and we'll be looking at that at my next visit.

                      The night sweats, for me, are always due to being poisoned by something, usually bad oils. They're rare and always always come the night after eating something I shouldn't have.
                      Last edited by MamaGrok; 08-19-2013, 05:30 PM.
                      5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
                      Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
                      Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
                      Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
                      ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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                      • I had tons of gas last night, like the kind I haven't had in many, many years. Was it the dried fruit and nuts I ate? Didn't feel like *that* much of it, and it's never had that effect on me before...?

                        147 yesterday, 146 today. Up and down and up and down. No rhyme or reason.j

                        POISON IVY!!! Itchitchitchitchitchitch

                        I nearly had a nervous breakdown confronting my abusive HOA last week. Not good. I have never yelled at a stranger in my life, but when someone stood in my very nicely maintained yard, told me it was "rough," and then accused me of lying about putting down 100 bags of mulch last spring ... I lost it.
                        5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
                        Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
                        Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
                        Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
                        ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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                        • My sympathies....I swore off HOA neighborhoods 20 years ago. Way too stressful!

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                          • Insomnia strikes again. Is it the DSF Herbal or maybe the GABA? I cannot afford to be up for 2hrs in the middle of the night when I cannot function without 9-9.5hrs sleep. Getting up at 10:30am cannot keep happening!
                            5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
                            Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
                            Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
                            Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
                            ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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                            • Hi hi, MamaGrok.

                              I've just taken a few days to read your journal. I have to tell you that you are my very definition of a success, or more specifically have all the qualities of someone who succeeds. A lot of people believe that getting from point A to point B in a straight line as quickly as possible is the only definition. But to me, the person who keeps getting back to the task, no matter how many setbacks is also successful - and has learned a lot of valuable lessons in the process. Tenacity rules.

                              While I don't have many issues, energy being my primary problem, I've been reading at Dr. K's website, and a lot of what he says about circadian rhythms really resonates with me.

                              Hope you're feeling healthy and light and energetic soon! And thank you for the inspirational and informative read.
                              "Right is right, even if no one is doing it; wrong is wrong, even if everyone is doing it." - St. Augustine

                              B*tch-lite

                              Who says back fat is a bad thing? Maybe on a hairy guy at the beach, but not on a crab.

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                              • Thanks, Joanie. The only thing I know is that, with the grace of God, I will never, ever, ever give up.

                                I've been bingeing hard for the last month, probably gained at least 10lb more, but I refuse to weigh.. I have only a handful of clothes I can still wear and am very physically uncomfortable.

                                I ran out of amino acids while hitting the national pparks in WY, SD, & MT, despite my best efforts to best sure I had enough, and I couldn't find them anywhere. After a week off them, I was about to gnaw my arm off for want of sugar. I am grateful that I never succumbed to wheat, but I can still feel my teeth getting sore again, which means that something (grains? dairy? sugar?) has re-started the malabsorption. Once again, vit A/D/K2 aren't getting to my teeth. My diet is still almost 100% primal.

                                After three weeks back on the AA's, I can tell a slight difference, but not much. Very discouraging that suddenly they don't work anymore.

                                Sooooooo I joined OA. And got a sponsor and all that. Not that the 12 steps are any different from what I've been doing for the last 5 years, but I can already see that the mere act of getting out and going to that meeting at least twice a week is helping me reconcile the incoherence of despising bingeing, yet doing it daily anyway. So off I go.

                                I've come to the realization that ... God forbid ...I may be so damaged that I may never again have a prolonged period where cravings are naturally gone because I am at a full nutrient status. And if that's the case, I need to make sure I have a plan in place. I need to keep fighting with all I"ve got to re-establish the neurotransmitters I need, but also make sure there is a backup plan.
                                5'4" 39yo mother to five sweeties & married to their AMAZING DaddyGrok
                                Current Weight: 175lb__________________________________Goal: 135lb
                                Deadlift: 240lb________________________________________Back Squat: 165lb
                                Bench: 130lb__________________________________________Pre ss: 85lb
                                ***Winning a 20-year war against binge eating disorder***

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