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    Here I am primal world... and I am ready. I have many reasons for wanting to try this way of life... not even try it, to live it and be it and engross myself in it. The first reason is it isn't far off of what I was doing this summer, which I will get back to in a minute. Second is, what have I got to lose? Had I stumbled upon this on my own I might be more timid, but I didn't. Someone I trust and love told me about this site and way of living, and she has some major results to show for it. Lastly, I need it. I am 22 years old and 230 lbs... that is after I lost 30 lbs in a month and a half on a body cleanse. A very healthy one I might add, very similar to this. No grains was the primary ingredient to that and I am sure it is what helped. I have kept it off even with completely horrific eating habits over the last few months due to living arrangements.


    Where it all started was... well when I was a kid I suppose. I was picked on for being "fat" when really I just had really cute chubby kid cheeks. I wasn't overweight at all until the stress of being picked on drove me to eating. I ate and ate and ate, and I still eat when I am upset. Then when my folks got divorced I started doing better, dropped some weight and was exercising regularly... loving it. Then my dad came back and I gained 32 lbs in 3 months... it was bad. Moving forward I got married at the age of 21 and my husband supported my bad eating habits, between our wedding and the day I left him (nine months) I gained another 35 lbs. When I left I stopped drinking soda, and started a mostly vegetarian with some lean proteins cleanse. It was great! The first 3 days I felt like I was coming down from meth, I am not kidding. I was working at McDonalds and eating as many fruits and vegetables I could distract myself with. It worked... i dropped 30 lbs and here I am today 230 lbs. My goal is not a weight... it is a size. My original size was 18 pant. I want to be a 12/10 by graduation in May so when I return from internship people don't recognize me. Also, so I can dedicate myself fully to my career as an interpreter I need to be healthy REALLY healthy, not kind of. My ultimate goal is to be where my body tells me to be... to be comfortable and confident in my own skin. To be happy for real. I want to listen to everything my body has to say: sleep, eat, drink, walk, run, etc.


    Holy crap I have written a lot. I am just really really excited!


    Starting this minute I am beautiful, single, and primal.


    Thanks guys!

    Manda

    Live Like No One Else

    http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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    I am just starting as well. Go us!


    I share your excitement. Who ever thought a diet would be this much fun?

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      SO... today I woke up STARVING so I cooked up some onions in olive oil and caramelized them then threw in some cubed sweet potatoes, chopped fresh rosemary, and garlic. over the top of it all I had 2 over medium eggs fried in olive oil. AMAZINGLY DELICIOUS! Completely satisfied, no longer hungry... and happy! Day 1 going good so far.


      Click for pics of my first breakfast:


      http://i751.photobucket.com/albums/xx152/mandabear2010/Food/breakfastday1.jpg


      http://i751.photobucket.com/albums/xx152/mandabear2010/Food/breakfastday1cook.jpg


      Click for pics of dinner last night:


      http://i751.photobucket.com/albums/xx152/mandabear2010/Food/spagsquash1.jpg


      http://i751.photobucket.com/albums/xx152/mandabear2010/Food/spagsquash2.jpg


      Thanks for your support!

      Manda

      Live Like No One Else

      http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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        Here is the link to my whole photo bucket... if anyone wants to keep an eye on all the delicious things I cook!


        http://s751.photobucket.com/home/mandabear2010/


        I think that will work.

        Live Like No One Else

        http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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          I have a feeling this is where I will be coming for meal ideas. Looks delicious.

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            Thanks... I appreciate it! I really have learned to love cooking since I left my husband, when I was with him it was a chore, now it is an art.

            Live Like No One Else

            http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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              So today I had my breakfast, previously mentioned, and then I thought I would get hungry fast. I went to curves like always and really didn't get hungry. When I got hungry it was like a subtle hunger easily subsided with a quick snack of nuts or leftover potatoes/onions. I also tried to tell my mom about this whole thing. She thinks she has been supportive of my weight loss and the struggles I have been through. I think at times she wanted it more than I did, she has invested thousands upon thousands of dollars into my personal weight loss and I invested nothing. Now that I found this she is kind of disappointed by it. Her first reaction was "Even Pasta isn't good for you!? How can that be?!" It made me feel like she was being dumb... everyone knows pasta isn't good for you... i always knew it I just like the flavor... what flavor? Idk. So she freaked at first... then I took a different approach. She mentioned her "things in moderation" tactics and that they have always worked great for her... and I told her MOM seriously I am an over-eater... it is what I do... I can't do moderation. I have to do all healthy or nothing at all. Finally she got it, she supports it, doesn't agree with it but won't argue either. Especially since I am cooking her dinner every night and she doesn't have to worry about a thing.


              Any who... day one=complete... and completely satisfied!


              Day 2... here we come


              Manda

              Live Like No One Else

              http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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                just not a good day all around. it was a toughy emotionally... it was horrific when it came to eating, partially because of emotions and mostly because WE HAVE NO FOOD LEFT and we are broke... so... tomorrow is shopping day since Friday is payday and I have some stashed cash for reasons like this. My mom, thus far, is supportive. But she apparently is going through a lot more than I give her credit for which really effs me up inside. anywho... tomorrow is a new day and the bed is calling my name. toodle loo.


                Manda

                Live Like No One Else

                http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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                  I have a somewhat similar problem with my mother. She lost about 40lbs on Weight Watchers and believes weight loss is about eating a low fat, grain based diet. She doesn't understand why when we go out to eat I cant just sip on some soda water and have one taco...then studiously log it in a book of eating disordered crazy she calls a "food journal."


                  Anyway, it's awesome that you are doing this despite doubts others may have. It takes balls. I hope things improve for you and that tomorrow is a better day.

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                    SO... today was better than yesterday. I didn't do a whole lot, actually I did, I just wasn't hungry until the end of my day.


                    I did, however, go shopping. AND BOY DID I SHOP!!! It was so expensive, but I feel great about it! I am grabbing this bull by the horns and not letting go until I am where I want to be. I certainly hope that comes quickly!


                    I had left over sweet pots with onions and eggs for brunch then I had a handfull of nuts before each store (To keep my tummy from making me buy crap items) I have to say I never realized how many aisles in the grocery store are utterly useless until today... I went to 3 stores in 3 hours and I only had 2 or 3 places to look for what I wanted/needed from those locations. It was really fun, I love to grocery shop now which is great because my ex made it hell on earth... nice to know things can change.


                    I was talking to my cousin who is a PT and a PE teacher and a Football coach about Primal and he was supportive, he said definitely make sure I get carbs in some way, which is obvious, the body does well with carbs like potatoes after resistance training. He also reminded me this is my lifestyle I have to embrace it as the only way to live or else it will kill me. So... that's what I am doing.


                    My name is Amanda and I eat primal. (That's what I did when I quit drinking pop... i would write it over and over... then it became true)


                    My name is Amanda and I live a primal life.

                    My name is Amanda and I live a primal life and I LOVE IT!


                    TTFN

                    Manda

                    Live Like No One Else

                    http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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                      BRAVO! I love the mantras.


                      Its funny we both unloaded our bank accounts for food today. Well not that funny, most people get paid around this time.


                      You are from Colorado? Where? So am I, I cant wait to get home to Denver...CANT WAIT!

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                        So today for breakfast I ate a bowl of blueberries and turned my fingers purple doing so... then I had an interpreting assignment with my purple fingers and tongue so it was quite funny.


                        Then for lunch I took the ingredients of my BAS and turned it into KAS...


                        What is KAS you ask... I will tell you... KICK ASS STIR FRY!!!


                        That is right folks just add some fat of your choice into a skillet, toss in your favorite vegetables and protein, stir around to desired softness/cookedness and VIOLA!!! KAS


                        Hope you enjoy as much as I did... I even left leftovers for my carb dependent mother!


                        Have a great rest-of-the-day... I have to babysit now! TTFN!

                        Live Like No One Else

                        http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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                          Hmmmm. A KAS sounds awesome. I am in need of a little cooking inspiration and that might be it!

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                            Not much else happened tonight. I did eat some popcorn but I can't imagine that is worse for me than grain, so I didn't really worry about it much. The people I babysat for had a HUGE box of hot chocolate mix and it sounded SO GOOD luckily I couldn't find a mug to make it in and took that as a sign that I was being bad and gave up. I did consume about 2 cups of home made salsa tho, my favorite all time condiment in the world. I can eat salsa anywhere, any time, with anything.... MMM i am just hungry thinking about it.


                            Other than that everything is going alright. For supper my mom ate the rest of my KAS and she was really pleased with it. I don't know how she will survive without her personal chef and maid here for her.


                            On an interesting side I set up a doctor's appointment and I am hoping to find out if this eating thing will change my body. In the right way? I have struggled a lot with female problems and it is questionable whether I can have kids or not, but I want them so it will be a HUGE relief if living primal will help with that too, and I kind of have a feeling it will.


                            What else what else. I love support. I wish I had more time to browse the site and find people I have stuff in common with, at this time... its just me trying what I think is right and enjoying it to the core.


                            Thanks for reading.

                            Manda

                            Live Like No One Else

                            http://primalterp.blogspot.com/

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                              Holy crap the similarities are starting to freak me out. I was told I would likely not be able to have children.


                              Anyway, congrats on the hot chocolate. I really believe this will change your body, the more I read the more I realize how healthy this can really be if done correctly. And hey, I am a nurse, so I know everything. :P


                              Well, at least when we both get home to Denver, we will be much smaller versions of ourselves. (plus Denver is full of hippy bounty like pastured meat and organic veggies, its Primal heaven)


                              You kick ass.

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