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  • Originally posted by excursivey View Post
    I'm embarrassed to say that the movie Drive is one of my recent faves...
    i haven't watched it yet but it's on my to watch list because bryan cranston and cars

    and bryan cranston

    Originally posted by vh67 View Post
    I hope you are sleeping! I could tell you a story. I have been told my stories could put anyone to sleep! Better than an Ambien.
    haha i love boring stories! i slept a whole bunch one day and not at all today. at this point i don't know if i need to regularly take my muscle relaxers for the added benefit of sleep or visit doc and pretty please my way into some actual sleeping pills. i don't know man. i don't know.

    i do know that early morning dog cling bugs me. window'sopenand bear hears stuff he wants to bark at so he keepsboppingoff my leg and going back and forth and i know as soon as i let him outand don't follow he'll yip til i let him back in and damn this stiff space bar is gonna make me throw something

    i need a dedicated throwing box full of squishy balls to wham against the wall

    each meal is either primal or dirty, last night was sandwiches,this morning is boiled eggs bacon and milk. tonight will be steak, sweet potato fries and sauteed broccoli. lunch could wind up being 50 donuts.

    i've been thinking i should do more with my life. something exciting and amazing. but those things drain me. so this emotion is confusing me, i don't know what to do with it. i feel stuck in too many ways. too tied down by my own neuroses.

    i've been vaping the last 2 nights. stress 'smoking'. when i'm not doing that i want to eat and eat, so i vape and keep my hands busy.

    i do like the scented clouds

    and i bought this dumb thing for my mom but she never used it so i got it back

    the only thing primal approved in my life right now is having my furry companions

    i've been so conditioned by back pain that i haven't done a proper workout in i don't remember how long

    and i don't know

    i don't know anything

    beautiful
    yeah you are

    Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
    lol

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    • **kiss kiss kiss**

      I suck at processing death. My anger phase lasts too long. (like forever)

      The back thing is a pain.

      Glad that you have the dogs and glad that you have Bay to give you happy and silly moments.

      You're always on my mind,
      J
      "Right is right, even if no one is doing it; wrong is wrong, even if everyone is doing it." - St. Augustine

      B*tch-lite

      Who says back fat is a bad thing? Maybe on a hairy guy at the beach, but not on a crab.

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      • Originally posted by excursivey View Post
        I'm embarrassed to say that the movie Drive is one of my recent faves...
        Embarrassed? People love that movie. It has a 7.8 on IMDB. It's a good movie. Mmm, that elevator scene

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        • Originally posted by JoanieL View Post
          **kiss kiss kiss**

          I suck at processing death. My anger phase lasts too long. (like forever)

          The back thing is a pain.

          Glad that you have the dogs and glad that you have Bay to give you happy and silly moments.

          You're always on my mind,
          J
          all the hugs and kisses back, i was glad to see you're feeling better

          i'm still processing, or failing at processing

          Originally posted by WaylandC View Post
          Embarrassed? People love that movie. It has a 7.8 on IMDB. It's a good movie. Mmm, that elevator scene
          what did i tell you about watching porn!

          no i'm kidding

          what did i tell you about watching porn without me!

          i'd like to get out of the house a while but i'd have to put gas in the car and i don't want to go to that much effort right now

          my ecig has been my grown up version of a pacifier today. like i told bay, using it frequently doesn't make me feel sick to my stomach like smoking did. but really at this point i'm vaping at the same rate i was smoking at the most stressed with my ex

          he said 'as long as you know how not to make things worse' because i saidi didn't know how to make things feel better

          but vaping vanilla in a smallish room eventually makes it smell faintly of cigars. it's kind of pleasant but i'd prefer vanilla.

          i don't really want to do anything but sit in the dark. nothing else seems worth the effort.

          maybe alcohol, vanilla clouds and movies in the dark
          beautiful
          yeah you are

          Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
          lol

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          • baby ticks.

            baby effing ticks.

            my feet touched the ground once each and they swarmed my legs. converged on my thighs. sent scouts to my arms. oh my god i hate ticks, they're assholes.

            i'm going to flamethrow the entire effing yard. then i'm going to buy 100 full grown chickens and let them scratch the yard to bare earth. then i'm going to layer a foot of DE everywhere.

            MY INNER THIGH ITCHES. IT'S VERY UNCOMFORTABLE.

            i'm still taking bad/good food by meal. breakfast was pizza rolls, lunch was chicken and veg.
            hopefully supper will be me sleeping.

            i don't really know what to do with myself as far as chores and such go. i'll get started on something then take a break and not go back to cleaning. did that with clothes, the bathroom, the floor.

            i just suck on my vape stick and read a few pages, or watch a little tv, or reddit. and just reddit because i can't think of anything else to look up, started some movies but turned them off after a few minutes. window shop on amazon. all of my focus and creative centers in my brain are on vacation.

            maybe i should use it and meditate, see what happens

            the ecig is always near by though. i feel a little anxious when the battery dies and it needs to recharge,having it in hand or mouth makes me feel a bit more secure. something something freud something penis.

            and my brain shut down again and i don't know what else i wanted to write so i'll leave all of this oh so interesting mind vomit for the world

            beautiful
            yeah you are

            Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
            lol

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            • Ticks? TICKS? Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! (I don't like ticks.)

              Pizza rolls for breakfast - sounds okay to me. Cold pizza is more my style, but those sound fine. Always rely on the 80/20 rule.

              "Mind vomit" blew my mind. I have to remember that.
              "Right is right, even if no one is doing it; wrong is wrong, even if everyone is doing it." - St. Augustine

              B*tch-lite

              Who says back fat is a bad thing? Maybe on a hairy guy at the beach, but not on a crab.

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              • Originally posted by WaylandC View Post
                Embarrassed? People love that movie. It has a 7.8 on IMDB. It's a good movie. Mmm, that elevator scene
                Yeah. So hot, and yet so bloody. Plus that whole operatic part just gives me goosebumps.

                Wish I could think of something useful to tell you girl. I haven't lost a parent yet but I did lose one husband. It never really goes away but it does get better. Just remember whoever you've lost wants to you live.
                Last edited by excursivey; 08-31-2015, 02:26 PM.
                Breathe. Move forward.

                I just eat what I want...

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                • So just wandered over to the odds and ends to find you calling people whores. I almost snorted food out of my nose.
                  Breathe. Move forward.

                  I just eat what I want...

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                  • Originally posted by JoanieL View Post
                    Ticks? TICKS? Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! (I don't like ticks.)

                    Pizza rolls for breakfast - sounds okay to me. Cold pizza is more my style, but those sound fine. Always rely on the 80/20 rule.

                    "Mind vomit" blew my mind. I have to remember that.
                    that's what i do, inspire people with my words and phrases

                    Originally posted by excursivey View Post
                    Yeah. So hot, and yet so bloody. Plus that whole operatic part just gives me goosebumps.

                    Wish I could think of something useful to tell you girl. I haven't lost a parent yet but I did lose one husband. It never really goes away but it does get better. Just remember whoever you've lost wants to you live.
                    yeah.. he was an opinionated turd sometimes but he wouldn't want me to be doing what i'm doing. gotta work on that some.

                    Originally posted by excursivey View Post
                    So just wandered over to the odds and ends to find you calling people whores. I almost snorted food out of my nose.
                    rich can take it

                    i'm still sucking on e-juice. i still don't know what the hell model of ecig i have. in my quest for more clouds i burned out the spare coil in a day, which is annoying. seriously, why do you give me the option of turning up the voltage if it's just going to scorch the wick. come on. i'm like a toddler, you know i'm not gonna leave that shit alone.

                    juice flavors are all over the place. the ones i've tried were too candy-sweet so i've been sticking with vanilla ice cream, which, strangely, is not. but online tho, ohh they sound delicious. but they are pricey, and you can never return them so if you get a mouthful of chemical berry flavored sugar you're out of luck and money which is offensive to my religion.

                    so i've kept my ecig close, because when i don't keep it close i eat too many of my emotions. how else could i cope? i ask myself. written journal? working out? in-depth cleaning? cutting down trees with an ax? i don't know. because all i want to do is sit somewhere dim and alone. so i don't know.

                    what i do know is that dessert flavored nicotine juice satisfies a sweet tooth, and that i rarely cough unlike with cigarettes so i have no problem doing this for however long it takes to want to stop instead of forcing myself to.

                    which is why you don't start smoking to begin with kids. one day you're fine quitting, the next you're letting some guy snort coke off your butt for a cigarette and praying he runs out of cocaine in time to catch Swamp Murders on ID while alternately hoping a thong will protect against rectum high.

                    because that is the last thing anyone needs.

                    seriously, why does this person want 12$ for a bottle of juice when for the same size other people charge 5$? do these people not understand that i like my money and want to spend as little as possible? they're probably sitting in the back office with devil horns on.

                    also i see a recipe called 'big jack's tongue tattoo' which made me snort til my imagination decided to help by making visuals of a crusty tongue then i wanted to gag.

                    i still tell bay a lot to come hug me, quit work, hug me, be my pillow. i don't know how serious he thinks i'm being. sometimes very.

                    i guess yard work and tans are primal.

                    i'm still going meal by meal.

                    sleep happens sporadically.

                    i really need to stop eating flour because i'm noticing pcos hair thinnage. i looked in the mirror and said 'ah damn'. cause.. ah damn.

                    beautiful
                    yeah you are

                    Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                    lol

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                    • car washing is primal. watching dogs run like their asses were on fire around the yard is primal. sleeping about 14 hours might be primal. being awake forever was not. when i am, my back dies extra hard. i guess being tense from tiredness makes physical things have a bigger impact. but having slept for as long as i did relaxed everything.

                      food choices are still made meal by meal. i'm still fluctuating around the same number of pounds. last weeks tick attack no longer itches.

                      i dreamed all night but my eyes are still tired and scratchy.

                      i finally found out what model ecig i have. you wouldn't think it would be that difficult. i went through mountains of webpages of information when i couldn't sleep.

                      there are the name brands. then there are the mods. then there are people throwing around words that don't look like english. then all that gets thrown in a giant cup and shaken around and tossed like a butt load of yahtzee dice. but i made my brain work through the pages of words and figured out some of it.

                      so. yay me.

                      i turned the voltage up again, made sure the wick was soaked, and took a few experimental puffs again. it tasted like glycerin soap smells when you melt it too hot so that was kinda gross and i wondered if this is what people were tasting when they use the bigger powered mods.

                      that can't be right, but maybe i'll get google to explain that to me later.

                      but my eyes are just really tired, and i just want to get back in bed. maybe i'll just sleep in the yard and hope the dogs won't run away to join the circus. they do go back to the door when they're tired.



                      i hate how these big gifs take so long to load but i don't know how to link them with the 'v' at the end

                      beautiful
                      yeah you are

                      Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                      lol

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                      • OMG those boxers are too funny!

                        My corgi gets that wild look when he goes for a swim, only maybe even a little wilder looking because he usually has his undercarriage covered in mud.
                        Life is death. We all take turns. It's sacred to eat during our turn and be eaten when our turn is over. RichMahogany.

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                        • Hi you. Hope you are well.

                          A friend recently told my use of endearments (kid, girl, etc) was dismissive. So if you've ever felt that way I apologize.
                          Breathe. Move forward.

                          I just eat what I want...

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                          • i think people are overly sensitive and you can call me whatever you want

                            i'm doing, i haven't had much to say so i'll glance over the new posts and, realizing i have nothing to contribute, close it out. i've been perfecting my boys' front yard trigger and they know the phrase already, having treats they go insane over insures they come running when i call them back. i'm not above bribery. so we do more outside the pen play.

                            and that's pretty much all the pasttime stuff i've been doing aside from random yard work and trying new ecig flavors.

                            i don't know. i'm just doing. i hope all your goings on continue being good things
                            beautiful
                            yeah you are

                            Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                            lol

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                            • Lurk.
                              Breathe. Move forward.

                              I just eat what I want...

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                              • Hope you are doing ok. Was thinking about you because of make up of all things.
                                Breathe. Move forward.

                                I just eat what I want...

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