i walked up slopes and down slopes again today. i've also needed a pain pill twice. earlier i felt a bit drunk, now i feel half sober but drunk tired. i still stubbornly hate needing them but today i remind myself that this is why i have them.
i don't know why i demand stupid levels of toughness with myself but try to make life easier for others. if i babied myself half as much as i baby my dogs i'd probably freak out
i really do feel half drunk. there was about 7 hours spaced between pills. i don't even know.
i think bed. my mind is chanting it.