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  • i want to sleep, i want to shower, i want to take a muscle relaxer and bundle up and let out a sigh of relief. my shoulder is knotting and cramping, i'm sitting here exhausted and miserable, watching makeup tutorials.

    i've done a lot of push and pull and squat and stand and reach the last few days, helping get things in order for the christmas celebration. i feel a little guilty, not structured-ly working out to log. like i'm disappointing the website, like it's god of workouts, and he says to me 'son, i am disappoint'

    if i can just get up, i can get in the shower. if i get in the shower, i can soak in hot soapy water. if i soak in hot soapy water, i can bundle in covers and pillows. instead, i sit here trying to get my shoulder to relax but every movement ranges from dull to sharp pain

    aside from one small binge last night, food has been on track. i discussed with mother what the doc said, what the procedure meant. she was of the opinion of not calling back, surgery is not preferable. father cut in with but maybe it'll help, then she needs to. i admitted to being a baby, that i di not relish the thought of more removals of stitches and staples. waking up to a deformed, swollen face from being laid facedown an entire day. to grumpy, overworked nurses. to more pain, more wound checking, more wound tape when the wound wouldn't close, the tape feeling like sandpaper rubbing exposed nerves with every rip off

    but i digress

    perhaps it will be a simple in and out procedure, without the feeling that people should not be messing with my inside bits, and gaily out the door i will skip

    here, have a video


    here, have another
    Last edited by bloodorchid; 12-22-2011, 03:27 AM.
    beautiful
    yeah you are

    Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
    lol

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    • crikey, I can barely function with my wedding set on let alone all that flotsam she's got glued to her nails! You go, girl.
      Cooking Primal with Otter - Journal
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      "Not baked goods, Professor, baked bads!" ~ The Tick

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      • i am back on track. i've had 10 days of sleep. i feel almost humanish again.

        breakfast was going to be steak, 6 fried yolks and a small sweet potato topped with yogurt and grated ginger. but i got full before the steak so that's lunch. it's also still bleeding, and while i am less anal about the pinkness of my meat i still do not appreciate rampant blood letting all over my plate

        but that sweet potato was immaculate. i love fresh ginger

        also surgery people called trying to get me to schedule the cutting open of my body before i even talked to the dr about it. pushy bastards

        my guy said they wanted my body, i replied that they wanted to slice and dice my body

        one is far less sexy than the other
        beautiful
        yeah you are

        Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
        lol

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        • ok so i 'felt hungry' while reading the internet, so i ate the steak. then i felt hungry again after that and ate some turkey and orange salad. i feel disgusting. THIS IS SO AGGRAVATING. I ONLY HAD A FEW DAYS OF BREAD PRODUCTS. JESUS H. MENDOZA.

          and the turkey was not good. i think it was mutated.

          beautiful
          yeah you are

          Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
          lol

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          • there IS such a thing as too many boiled eggs

            and this is dedicated to you baby! yeah, you know how is it. ungh. yeeeah

            beautiful
            yeah you are

            Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
            lol

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            • so i went to see a specialist about my back today. there had been talks with the good dr the day before of getting vetebroplasty to fix it. specialist looks at my back, looks at me, says
              'you're fkt'
              'i'm fkt?'
              'you're fkt'
              'oh'

              at the beginning end of looking down the tube of an infinity of pain, i can't say i'm happy about it. i believe my initial reaction was to repeatedly request being shot in the face. i was turned down, repeatedly.

              my eyes, body and mind hurt and i'm tired. last night i made spaghetti squash with 'home made' marinara of canned diced tomatoes, italian seasoning, roasted garlic herb seasoning and fresh ginger. and oysters. somehow it turned out spicy

              today i had a biscuit and small slush from dairy queen for breakfast, then roast beef sandwiches for lunch and supper. it's been a long day on top of a long week and i do not want to travel for more appts for at least a year

              does primal 80/20 count if you eat well every other day?

              my butt hasn't burned since the first time i did squats right, maybe they're just small but mighty and need no burning to let me know i did it right again
              beautiful
              yeah you are

              Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
              lol

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              • fine, i'm depressed and pissy about my back. i eat yummy meals and hours later will have something grainy and gross. i want to buy houseplants of all the stupid things to make myself feel better. specifically, succulents.

                i'm not tho, yet, because new glasses are expensive

                haven't worked out, have kept moving tho. i'm not 'stay in bed and cry because life sucks' depressed, i'm 'get angry and want to beat up all the inept people i'm having to deal with' depressed. after the anger, i shut off and down and go on autopilot

                blah. hungry but don't want food.
                beautiful
                yeah you are

                Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                lol

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                • Your back is FIRED. FIRED!
                  JOIN THE PANDA SHOW!!! Primal With A Side Of FABULOUS and PANDALOONERY!

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                  • fired like fired 2 weeks before retirement so no benefits fired
                    beautiful
                    yeah you are

                    Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                    lol

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                    • Fired like dragged out kicking and screaming by security and replaced with a cactus garden!

                      good luck with your back, surgery sucks, but Primal helps you heal faster!
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                      "Not baked goods, Professor, baked bads!" ~ The Tick

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                      • i like the cactus garden, the back's workspace was replaced because 'these are more helpful than you, stupid!'

                        also, no can do on the surgery, specialist said the injury was old and healed so no vetebroplasty. which doesn't tell me why the pain has been getting ridiculous lately, but alas, c'est la vie, life's a bitch, etc
                        beautiful
                        yeah you are

                        Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                        lol

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                        • i suppose i'm out of my funk. i was upbeatish earlier, i'm mellow now, i crammed a bunch of raw veggies down my throat, i've had less than one diet dr pepper, i potted and repotted some plants and hopefully didn't kill my cacti and aloe, i didn't eat any potato pancakes when my grandma called to give them (and i like them, s'true), i worked out some and logged it and was baffled that shoulder presses are worth so many more points than the rest

                          and my back still burns, but i'm defunked. mostly. there is still a small urge to cry now.
                          Last edited by bloodorchid; 01-10-2012, 08:40 PM.
                          beautiful
                          yeah you are

                          Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                          lol

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                          • a stack of seed catalogs (with post-its and pen) and a cheeseball made for tv zombie movie will hopefully be a relaxing experience. of course, it doesn't help that my mindset is 'buy ALL THE THINGS!' when i haven't even set up a garden space. i guess i'm wishlisting.

                            i've puttered around, had 1 glass of watery juice, 1 glass of crystal light, 1 diet dr pepper and 8 scrambled eggs which equals 1 soup bowl. i kept telling myself 8 was too many but ocd needed an even number and an even row of empty spots in the carton

                            i'm slowly drag assing out of the Tunnel O' Funk. i didn't want to get out of bed, but i haven't wanted to cry yet. back is sore AND burning which means it doesn't like the weather and it doesn't like that i worked it out last night. but it's just going to have to deal with it, life isn't fair
                            beautiful
                            yeah you are

                            Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                            lol

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                            • Are you still exchanging hugs for ass grabs over here? If so, I'd like to send some hugs your way, I think you need one. That is terrible news about your back, and I agree with the others that it is fired. I become a slobbering ball of misery when mine even twinges, I can't imagine how tough you must be to be able to work out with real pain.
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                              • you get all the butt grabs you want. i'm not tough at all, i just fake it pretty well
                                beautiful
                                yeah you are

                                Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.
                                lol

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