So I've been lurking around, asking questions all the while sounding paranoid about my weight and what I'm putting in my mouth I'm sure. So maybe a journal would be a good place to track my mania?
I started this back just around Thanksgiving. Up until then I'd been playing with the Zone, but b/c I like to cook I found Zone really difficult to figure out. I dabbled in it for about a month but was never terribly strict.
I lost my job & had to leave my apartment to move back in w/ my family (hurray :S) But I'm thankful I at least had that option. Anyway, it's HARD as hell to do the Zone when you're living with 3 other people that do NOT adhere to it. All the measuring & deconstructing was a huge pain for me.
Then I found MDA & PB. And I signed up for a fitness challenge in January. Looking over the rules for the challenge I noticed that I was at the low end of the women's middle weight division, NOT where I wantd to be at all! The weights THEY were going to lift were a little TOO heavy for me! Quick, gotta lose a few pounds! I have to get below 131 day-of to be in the lower weight class!
So thanksgiving stats: 5'6", 29yo, female, 137lbs.
I started following PB and with the wonderful help of folks on this forum & Marks book, I got down to 131 just before christmas. I did have a couple weeks of feeling generally weak, like I had crap for endurance but eventually that passed, whew!
I was doing CrossFit 3 times a week, maybe 4 and biking upwards of 20 miles on other days prePB. Now I'm doing CF typically 3 times a week, sometimes sandwiching a couple days (2 workouts on one day) to try to train for this challenge. But my off days are easy days, like going for an easy happy 3 mile walk or so...or napping. Whatever I feel like that's not strenuous.
Then Christmas came and my weight popped up to 133, then 134, then 134.8 and sat there for about 5 days as I was panicking
Then I decided to take my measurements to see if that would give me any insight. Even at this greater weight I had lost a whole inch off my waist but had added 1/2" to each thigh and a 1/4" to each bicep. lol, unfortunately I also lost 1/2" off my bust...booooo.
Then I went to the gym yesterday and tried to find my Single-rep max Back Squat. I had done 155lb max about 2 weeks previous (during the weak weeks of eating primally)and the girl that I usually partner up with at the bar and I were loookin to get 160. So yesterday I just kept moving up the ladder until I passed her at 160 and hit a max back squat of 175lb!! HELL YEAH!!
The other benefit I've noticed is that I haven't been sore since startin PB. I mentioned this in another thread on this forum. I've been a little stiff at times, but never SORE.
Then someone refreshed an old thread by PrimalChild and it brought it to my attention. The thread made me realize that I was seeming VERY driven by the numbers on the scale. Yes, I was and I thought, "Yes, but i have a DEADLINE!" and then it hit me...
My body is morhphing in a fantastic way! I've been feeding it correctly and resting appropriately and its going through a change the summation of which cannot be displayed on the scale's screen. There are phases, or stages, some of which I may not recognize until AFTER they've passed. Hindsight is always 20/20 right? So I have to just keep moving. Comp day is NOT the culmination of my life, nor of my PB journey. It is merely a stepping stone. So if I end up being 131 on competition day and I come in last b/c I'm the lightest woman on the totem pole then so be it. I'll just make last place look DAMN good
I just need to relax a little and let it all just happen. So I looked at the scale this morning and finally saw 133.6, aaaaaaaaahh!