Well hi there! I have been frequenting the forums lately as a means of motivation for my new primal lifestyle. I have seen several people with journals and thought this may be a great way to keep myself motivated. So here goes!
A little about myself...
I am a 25 year old female, originally from Savannah GA, but have lived in NC for the last decade. I am a daughter, sister, girlfriend, friend and nurse. I consider myself a lucky girl. Assisting new lives into the world is a beautiful experience that I get paid to do. Labor and Delivery is my passion. I have a wonderful, supportive boyfriend who introduced me to the PB way of life and has patiently waited for me to get on board. I have a huge, amazing, loud, Irish-Catholic family. Together we laugh, love, drink and eat. This is where the problems began. Most every happy memory I have as a child was surrounded by food, and family shoveling said food onto my plate. That is one of the main ways that my family shows love, through food and drink (I am in no way blaming my current condition on my family, just giving a little insight into my life). Likewise, every sad event was mended with food and drink. This led me to be the emotional eater that I am. Now that I have come to the realization that I am an emotional eater, I can recognize and correct my actions most of the time.
I am obese. It really takes a lot for my to type that out for the public to see. In the past I preferred to ignore it, sort of an ignorance is bliss situation. I knew it but I didn't want to talk about it, or much less confess to it. I was fine the way I was... happy with being me. (right) I don't really know my exact weight, just an estimate, and I don't want to know right now. I know that sounds somewhat ignorant, but alas, I know myself better than you! I get overwhelmed when I think about number... the actual amount of weight I have to lose is daunting to ponder, so for now I choose not to. For now I choose to do something about it. I choose to change my life.
This is where I need help. My family doesn't understand this lifestyle change. They are skeptical and for this reason I don't feel like I will get the support I need. My boyfriend is amazing, and is really doing a lot to support me. He lost a significant amount of weight (50 #s) two years ago following CW, has fluctuated a little, but has really buckled down with me again. He found PB last summer and introduced me then. I wasn't in the right place mentally. Now though, now I am ready.
I feel like this journal will keep me accountable. Keep me honest. I have been roughly 80% primal. I had some reservations about easing in vs. jumping in. I did a modified ease/jump! I just finished my last gallon of whole milk from the local dairy. From now on I am going to limit my dairy to small amounts of cream in my coffee and minimal cheese. Lucky for us we can afford to buy organic/local/grass fed, with a dual income and no children. We do out best to be 100% clean and whole.
As far as exercise is concerned for my birthday a few weeks ago I bought myself a very nice bicycle. I ride it a few mile every other day. I am very busy at work with constant walking/running/standing at work. Heavy lifting patients with epidurals and what not! The other day in the garage I did modified box jumps (on my steps), BW squats, and a few sprints. I just worry about the amount of rest I get. I was just switched to night shift and my sleep schedule is a mess! I am sure it will works itself out in time.
Sorry this got so lengthy. I feel like I am being very honest with myself by just "letting it all hang out" here. Any and all support is much appreciated. Thanks for reading!