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    Decided to make a journal for various reasons. My main goals right now are to lose body fat,recover and get my period back, and have a more consistent eating plan

    So about me... I'm only 15, I suffer(ed) from an array of EDs, anorexia,bulimia,orthorexia etc. I'm doing this journal to keep myself in check in my nutrition, and hold myself accountable for my ED (i'm recovering). To anyone reading this, i appreciate advice. I'm kind of new to the world of actually eating healthy foods; i used to stuff my face with Fiber One bars and such to lose weight, and it didn't work. And reading all about PB ive realized why. Now, i've decided to change my negative view of food, my obsession with food, and to get lean. So far, i've been eating primal since beginning of April and i haven't seen any weight come off which is kind of depressing, just trying to cut out fruits,nuts,dairy etc. but not completely.

    I'm 5'2 and , weigh around 111-113, depending on the day. I have an incredibly small frame and am not to curvy, they probably affect my low weight. But do not be fooled, my BF is higher than need be (not exactly sure how much) and i am a complete noodle, no muscle whatsoever. I also get all my fat in my mid-section, which i read is unhealthy . I also suffer from acne which has cleared up quite a bit since i started eating more primal.

    I want to ratio to 60-30-10 fat-protein-carb but i know thats going to be hard to achieve, both willpower wise and the fact that i can only eat what my parents supply me with. Luckily, they are very supportive of my endeavors to eat better and do buy me some special food

    And i think i'm going to start my Journal tomorrow ( Sunday April 24th 2011, EASTER). So to everyone reading, please please please give me advice on how to be healthy and primal(: thanks so much!

    I have two goals:

    1. Lower BF %

    2. Go from 32.5inches to 28inches
    (I measure right below my belly button because that's where all my fat is;])

    Structure:

    1: Meal Number 1

    2: Meal Number 2

    Workout: (workout..duh)

    ED: (how i did today with my recovery)
    Last edited by g3tL@uren; 05-08-2011, 07:21 PM.
    "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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    Happy Easter! Today could be bad, giant easter dinner coming up +CANDY

    B: 5 turkey sausages, and a spoonful of cream cheese frosting, haha and some berries

    L: Egg Salad, a protein shake

    S: 1 square of dark chocolate, a few 'Robins eggs' malt balls, 3 reeses peanut butter cups(minis).

    D: Is going to be some filet steak, and hopefully a few veggies

    Workout: ran 1 Miles, Did some lunges, sprints and stretches

    ED: Yay no purging, or binging. But food was,as always, on my mind, How much?How Many? Calories… Blehhh

    Xtra: TOday is full of candy and carbs, oh dear, i ate a TON of candy but hopefully no more, its only 3pm. I think im going to IF from dinner tonight until 12pm tomorrow...
    "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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    • #3
      Hi. Welcome. Holidays are hard. Just get back on the wagon and don't beat yourself up. It's great you are getting started on primal early.
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      • #4
        Oops, forgot about this. Well i think now is a good time to get back on track..Starting a 30day challenge tomorrow Wish me luck!! I've decided to cut out dairy, nuts(except one spoonful of my homemade almond/macadamia nut butter 3x a week), and chocolate. I also want to go on a walk everyday and do low intensity cardio at least 3x a week at the gym. Sprints on Sundays, and weightlifting on Wednesdays. Plus a weekly IF from Sunday at 4pm to Monday at 4pm. I can do this, and hopefully this journal keeps me on track

        B: A kale salad w/ dried cranberries,pepitas,crystallized ginger slivered almonds,doused in some really tasty orange vinagerette and two egg whites(hardboiled)

        L:didn't eat

        D: Pork tenderloin covered in a Steak seasoning w/asparagus,onions,carrots,

        S: (Around 8pmish) Beef jerky,guacamole,dark chocolate,raspberries,salsa,some milk chocolate, a lemon bar(the top part thats only lemon stuff)-yikes- and tea…dangg that was a ton, but i only had bites of most of the stuff except the jerky and guac

        W: 30min low intensity elliptical, walked for 10min, walked around volunteering with horses for an hour or two

        ED: No purging, sort of mini-binge around nighttime. As always, all i thought about all day was when i got to eat,what i was going to eat and how much

        Xtra:Kind of a good day, i think i might just start skipping lunch because im not usually hungry and i need to lose weight.. And my sister is on a crash diet(i told her it was a bad idea) and it makes me feel like i should not eat because she watches me everytime i put something in my mouth
        Last edited by g3tL@uren; 04-30-2011, 07:23 PM.
        "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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        • #5
          Ahhh horrible day, been in a bad mood etc, probably why i overate. My sister has been triggering my ED from her diet, she watches me and trys to feed me to make herself feel better and i feel like i cant eat because she isn't. At least it's the last day of the week.. But i totally failed my first day of the challenge, i suck. I'll do better tomorrow i promise. i have lots of stuff to get done thought today so i should probably get started.

          B: n/a

          L: (oh god..) 3 egg whites, ton of pork tenderloin seasoned w/ butter,thyme & grilled steak seasoning, 3 slices bacon, ⅓ avacado, 1strip pork jerky, 2tbs cream cheese w/ vanilla extract & cinnamon(actually good..) , 1 spoonful almond/macadamia nut butter, 2 chocolate chips, probably 1,000+ calories lol.

          D: Undetermined so far

          Workout: i'm really exhausted today but i will go on a walk (2miles ish) tonight after i finish my hw

          ED: BADBADBADBAD no binging etc. but i feel like the anorexia is coming back as much as i'm trying to fight it. My sister is definitely triggering it and i've asked her to stop but that just makes me a 'bitch'?
          Last edited by g3tL@uren; 05-01-2011, 12:25 PM.
          "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

          My Primal Journal

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          • #6
            Felt awesome today despite my less than 5 hours of sleep(thunderstorms). Don't need to eat breakfast so i think ill start IFing thru breakfast and lunch if i can manage..

            B: Korean ribeye (4 strips), pulled pork tenderloin w/ butter & salt, 1/6 avocado

            L: Wedge of Laughing Cow Light Creamy Swiss

            D: 6ish oz of chicken breast, pulled pork tenderloin w/butter, spinach sauteed in butter, broccoli w/butter,korean ribeye(1 strip),

            S: (8pm) Chicken salad w/ romaine lettuce, carrots and ranch, a few green beans, chicken breast & pork jerky

            W: to busy w/ homework so i was basically a lazy ass that ate a ton :/

            ED: wanted to throw up, but i controlled myself..
            "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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            • #7
              Hi! You are so lucky that you found out about this so early! I wish I had been so wise when I was 15 Good for you for taking control of your health!

              Do your parents know that your sister is acting like this? It doesn't sound very loving! Maybe you could all have a sit down heart-to-heart and talk about it, if her behavior is triggering your ED it's probably something that should be taken really seriously.

              I hope you get it all figured out soon! If you are new to primal, I'd suggest waiting until you totally have the lifestyle dialed in before you start to IF!

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              • #8
                Originally posted by Tara View Post
                Hi! You are so lucky that you found out about this so early! I wish I had been so wise when I was 15 Good for you for taking control of your health!

                Do your parents know that your sister is acting like this? It doesn't sound very loving! Maybe you could all have a sit down heart-to-heart and talk about it, if her behavior is triggering your ED it's probably something that should be taken really seriously.

                I hope you get it all figured out soon! If you are new to primal, I'd suggest waiting until you totally have the lifestyle dialed in before you start to IF!

                Haha i know i really care alot about my body. And yes actually, my mom is encouraging my sister's behavior as her prom is in two weeks and she doesn't fit in her dress, I have talked to her but she doesn't understand nor does my sister know that i have a bad ED.

                And thanks for your opinion on IFing, i haven't really commited yet and i guess i should get it all figured out first!(:
                "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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                • #9
                  Today was busybusybusy. Really exhausted, i should probably eat breakfast i think thats why i was so freaking tired… Also started my 100push up challenge, only could do 6 hehehe..

                  B: n/a (wasn't hungry, didn't have time)

                  L: Spinach,romaine,baby red salad w/ cut up turkey breast,chicken breast,bacon and 1 hardboiled egg

                  D: 2 pork chops, broccoli w/butter, salad w/ranch dressing, 1 stalk of celery w/ranch, small small portion of pork tenderloin w/butter, 1 slice low-sod bacon, and 8 'drops'( little quarter-sized discs) of 64% dark chocolate. Hehe kinda alot but i was soo hungry & i loveee pork chops

                  S: None!!! yay

                  W: ran 1 mile, light abs

                  ED: good, didn't binge(wanted to) and made an effort to not think about food, it kinda worked.

                  I'm overall pleased with how much i ate, i was worried about my calories and getting enough but the ranch was full fat and i ate kinda a lot and i had a ton of pork chops so i think i'm fine, or maybe i even ate to much?? Whatever, i want my period back, it's been 4-5months

                  Tomorrow i'm definitely eating all three meals as i have a HARD day of cheerleading. Off to go write an essay with a completely un-understandable prompt!
                  Last edited by g3tL@uren; 05-03-2011, 06:19 PM.
                  "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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                  • #10
                    Ahh wonderful day, full of energy and nothing went wrong Breakfast really is necessary for me right now, i think i'll try and ween myself off of it this summer once school is out (no stress). Still need to do my push-ups and stretch before bed but i have like 3 hours…since i just ate hahaha

                    B: 1 whole egg(cage free), pork chop, spinach sauteed in butter

                    L: 1 egg and 1 egg-white hardboiled mixed with 2slice bacon & canned chicken breast, YUM

                    D: Crispy Beef (Basically 'carmelized' (can't think of how else to describe it) beef, sweet and delishious), with salad with unkown dressing from a Sushi restaurant YUM

                    S: (9:40pm) small bit of pork tenderloin with butter and seasoning, 1 drop of dark chocolate

                    W: Cheerleading woohoo

                    ED: Perfect, just thought about food as usual

                    Ahh tomorrow i have cheer tryouts, debating on if i should eat some carbs,like a sweet potato, to give me energy? Well Off to get stuff done, NIGHT!
                    "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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                    • #11
                      Sounds like you are taking care of what needs to be done, good for you! Hope today goes well

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                      • #12
                        Have cheer tryouts in a bit, nervous. I also sat in an ant pile today and now i have bites all up my back and shoulders,bleh hurts like crapp

                        B: 3 pieces bacon, 1 egg

                        L: � sweet potato w/butter & cinnamon, lots of crispy beef, and a salad w/ unkown dressing

                        D: More crispy beef! aha i love the stuff, � sweet potato w/ butter & cinnamon, brussel sprouts w/butter, few bites of pork tenderloin & 7 'drops' of 64% dark chocolate & 1 slice bacon

                        S: oops.. Like 20+ dark chocolate drops. Oh well
                        + some ranch and carrots before bed & chicken
                        W: Cheerleading

                        ED: goood

                        ate a ton today cause i need energy for tonight!! Going to If through breakfaST tomorrow i think..(: Not really doing anything
                        Last edited by g3tL@uren; 05-06-2011, 03:49 PM.
                        "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

                        My Primal Journal

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                        • #13
                          Lazyy Day, actual cheer tryouts 2morrow & volunteering for 4 hours yipeee.

                          Today was the last day of eating high-carb I was doing it to make sure i had enough energy for cheer tryouts all week and as tomorrow is the last Day i don't really need to anymore… Waaaaah it was delicious while it lasted but i can definitly see that i'm bloated and stuff, and i feel like i've gained weight eating like this. Back to my VLC Primal Dairy-free nut-free fruit-free life after tonight at 6:30pm! Wish me luck

                          B:n/a

                          L: two handfuls of a dark choc/raisin/walnut/almond snack mix

                          D: 8ish Pacific Teriyaki Turkey Meatballs, Spinach sauteed in butter, broccoli, chicken,4 chocolate drops,mashed potatos w/ parmesan cheese, pork tenderloin & a spoonful almond butter

                          S: (Went to Central Market, Bulk Aisle hehe) 4 dark choc covered almonds, small sample cup of potato leek soup, bite sized baked cheese, 1 shrimp, 1 honey crusted pecan, 1 bite pork jerky, 1 carrot & 1 okra chip, 11 chocolate drops & 1 1/2 Larabar(chocolate brownie)

                          W: went shopping? Haha

                          ED: goood goood i didn't even think about food that much! I probably ate to much though..


                          Hitting the pillows early today.

                          Edit: I'm so dissapointed, my sister pissed me off and i think i went into a binging frenzy, chocolate,banana,mango,broccoli. ALOT of it. I threw it up. I can't believe myself i was doing so well. I'm trying to forgive myself right now and i'm over it kind of i just can't believe i let this happen. I think it's partially emotional and partially because i've been eating high carb and getting major cravings. I Know what i shouldn't do from now on. Lesson Learned.
                          Last edited by g3tL@uren; 05-06-2011, 08:20 PM.
                          "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

                          My Primal Journal

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                          • #14
                            Volunteer.Tan.Cheer. Fun Day!!

                            B: Egg frittata thing

                            L: Egg frittata, pork tenderloin w/butter, salad w/ranch dressing, handful of blueberries, spoonful almond butter

                            D: A heaping plate of Grilled southwestern style chicken breast & beef. Sauteed onions & green bell pepper, 1 spoonful guacamole

                            S: two popsicles, yikes only 25cals each though. Some guacamole

                            W: walked around leading horses for 2ish hours, Cheer, Hot tubbing!!

                            ED:Pretty good, too occupied to think about it much


                            Tomorrow going out to Supper for Mother's Day. I think i'll have a light breakfast and that, and thats it. I''l probably go to the gym too since i haven't been all week! had a really fun night(: but i'm so self-conscious of my flabby stomach it kinda sucked being w/ all my skinny friends
                            Last edited by g3tL@uren; 05-07-2011, 10:25 PM.
                            "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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                            • #15
                              Happy Mother's Day Everyone! Today i'm going out to a really nice steakhouse to celebrate,delishh. But i've been really down, since i stopped counting calories and eating primal i can tell i've gained fat on my body and i don't know what to do about it. I can't restrict calories as i am recovering from side effects of ED & i really am having an impossible time of fitting in more exercise.. It's so depressing considering swim suit season is soon

                              1: (11 am) two hardboiled egg whites & 1 yolk, 2 scrambled egg whites. 2 slices bacon

                              2: (3pm) A spinach salad topped with a honey poppy dressing,bacon, and eggs w/ 2 slices uncooked mushroom.
                              4-5oz of Filet mignon, 1 'glazed' carrot, sauteed spinach and mushroom, skillet fried potato w/ onion & gravy topping, 3 spears asparagus, a bite of mashed potato,3 broccoli florets, And OMG a peanut butter brownie w/ lots of whipped cream and ice cream. The primal devil. But hey, it was the best brownie i've ever had.

                              W: 20min ab glider workout,stretching, Trampoline!

                              ED: thought about food alot today

                              I literally ate the worst thing possible today, a PEANUT BUTTER BROWNIE. but not big deal i'm probably never going to get it again and it was absolutely delicious! Tomorrow i will do perfect to make up for it! TIme to go take a nap zzZ

                              I've realized that whenever i 'fall off the wagon' i get really depressed and my dieting goes downhill for a few days. Today i'm promising myself that i won't fall of the wagon, going to IF through my first meal tomorrow which will be sometime after 7am. I'm going to try and cut out grazing and snacking and watch my portions by keeping each meal to ~600 calories so that =~1200 a day, maybe more,maybe less. Of course, snacking is really a challenge for me and most of my calories usually come from their.

                              My sister also has prom so i promised her i'd do the cabbage soup diet with her Wed-Fri so i will be undernourished those days, haha w/e.
                              Last edited by g3tL@uren; 05-08-2011, 07:14 PM.
                              "When the climb gets tough, imagine the view from the top"

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