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  • #31
    i just noticed you started a journal. consider yourself stalked

    seriously, HUGE congrats on the body transformations, you are looking downright excellent! do you ever try on any of your old clothes? i keep an old pair of size 14 pants around and put them on [ie, slide em on still buttoned. ha!] to remind myself where i've been.

    and the quitting smoking, too. i know that takes a HUGE amount of effort.

    i seem to be giving you a lot of huge.

    anyway, thought i'd say hi and i look forward to reading your shizz.
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    • #32
      Originally posted by batty View Post
      i just noticed you started a journal. consider yourself stalked

      seriously, HUGE congrats on the body transformations, you are looking downright excellent! do you ever try on any of your old clothes? i keep an old pair of size 14 pants around and put them on [ie, slide em on still buttoned. ha!] to remind myself where i've been.

      and the quitting smoking, too. i know that takes a HUGE amount of effort.

      i seem to be giving you a lot of huge.

      anyway, thought i'd say hi and i look forward to reading your shizz.
      Thank you!! Ah yes, I got rid of 90% of my fat clothes but once in a while I'll put the size 20/22 pants on to remember just how far I've come...It always brings a big kool-aid smile to my face. A friend of mine is a member of a group called Combat Paper where iraq veterans get to tear up their uniforms and make paper/art out of it...I might actually do this with her but with my "fat clothes". I won't compare my battle to theirs in Iraq in any way but it was/is still MY battle. I think it would be cool to make something beautiful out of something that hurt so bad.
      The pain of discipline or the pain of regret? You choose.

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      • #33
        Ah, I wish it had been an exciting day off but I spent most of it sleeping. I woke up early but around 1pm I just collapsed..I think my brain was screaming at me to take a break...its been working overtime lately.

        I got to meet super deluxe Thurs night which was awesome. It was nice to finally meet another PBer. She let me borrow her PB Cookbook and the movie Fathead. I haven't made anything from the book yet but I watched Fathead today and it was pretty good. The first half was basically just an intro to what he planned on doing blah blah..but the 3rd part was a really easy simple way of explaining why carbs/sugar is so deadly to your system and why it's not just calories in/calories out. And while I already understood why it was nice to see such a simplified version of it that I know if I needed to help someone understand why easier this would be the perfect reference.

        I think I'll make my father just watch the last part of this documentary. Maybe it will wake him up more then just having me tell him. I understand why he doesn't believe me...his specialists are shoveling all CW down his throat..and I even allowed it for the first few months...I even cooked the CW shit for him the first few months and advocated for him to eat it..so why would he believe me now that I did a complete turnaround? My father is a Type 1 diabetic and a recent heart attack survivor and has Hep C..and is probably the most pessimistic person you'll ever meet. Fantastic. He's a ticking timebomb. And it's scary. I want to help him so bad but it's just not sinking in...I will give him credit that he atleast listens to what I have to say and he does try *slightly* but I fear he wont completely get it in time. I know he's not going to cut out carbs completely. Its not going to happen..but if I could get him to atleast cut down to 1 carb a day (like 1 piece of toast, or just a side of pasta/rice) I'd be happy. I'm not even going to go there with his Splenda. He would disown me. And I'm only slightly kidding.

        Today:
        1. Eat lots of animals, insects and plants.
        B - 1 egg scrambled w/ 1 tablespoon of kerry gold butter and a fried avocado - recipe here - it was glorious.
        L - no lunch - slept through 75% of daylight today haha
        D - Chicken thigh/leg & cauliflower cooked in coconut oil
        S - A handful of macadamia nuts. 2 cups of coffee with some HC

        2. Move around a lot at a slow pace.
        Nope...not today.

        3. Lift heavy things.
        Nope...tomorrow I'm doing P90X Back & Biceps

        4. Run really fast every once in a while.
        Today was HIIT/Cardio day. I did a 30 minute kickboxing workout. It was actually a fantastic workout, it's been a while since I did a true cardio style workout. I think I will continue to do this 1x atleast every 1-2 weeks...I definitely refuse to fall into the chronic cardio psycho category ever again, but I do enjoy it once in a while.

        5. Get lots of sleep.
        Check!

        6. Play.
        no playing today, but park with the doggie tomorrow morning

        7. Get some sunlight every day.
        I slept through the sun Tomorrow I will definitely lay out in it before work.

        8. Avoid trauma.
        Always!

        9. Avoid poisonous things.
        Day 12 of no poison! (Today was a little rough though, I think thats why I laid down..I feel a lot better physically - sore throat is minimal, cough is minimal...but my anxiety was alittle off today..I feel ok right now and hopefully the anxiety won't become a regular occurence, its really the last thing I need right now.)

        10. Use your mind.
        Not much. I made a new facebook today for primal/paleo type stuff and people - I would have just used my regular one but there is just so much junk and noise and stupidity from hundreds of people I knew when I was like 6 I won't be able to concentrate if anyone actually posts something of value to this lifestyle so I decided to make a 2nd one just for that, if anyone wants to add me - Facebook
        Last edited by SheGlowsPale; 07-24-2010, 01:13 AM.
        The pain of discipline or the pain of regret? You choose.

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        • #34
          Saturday night (last night) I went out after work with a few friends...I didnt drink or smoke! Sometimes it's fun to watch your friends act like morons when you aren't as well lol. My own little challenge is to not drink until my birthday next month..thats going to be slightly difficult..I'm not a huge lush or anything but a lot of my friends are big drinkers so it is a bit of a challenge hanging out with them but I'm pretty determined not to mess up my weight loss by drinking it away. And plus I am alittle worried about the whole drinking/smoking thing. Drinking without cigs is going to be a toughie...to be honest, if i thought I could just have 1 or 2 while drinking and then just go back to not smoking the next day I wouldn't care however, I doubt that is what would happen. I have to remind myself I am a SMOKER, I can't do the whole "just 1 or 2 a day"...its either cold turkey or its a no go.

          Saturday:
          1. Eat lots of animals, insects and plants.
          B - 3 scrambled eggs and a fried avocado (no "breading" on this one..just the avocado itself..not as yummy as the recipe from yesterday but still good.)
          L - no lunch
          D - My first attempt at Cauliflower Crust Pizza - It actually turned out ok...definitely not solid enough to eat with my hands but still pretty good (and Im a new yorker so I'm pretty picky about my pizza) I baked mine for like double what it says to so that it got alittle brown/toasty looking..I think that definitely helped but it was still slightly soggier then I would have liked...Meatza still wins! Cauliflower 2nd place..and coconut flour crust a huge horrible 3rd (really, more like 6975339534875485th. It was that bad IMO.) I honestly havent like much of anything I've ever made with coconut flour...I think the pancakes are probably the best but anything else has been kinda mealy and meh.
          Oh, I topped it with tomato sauce, mozz, and ham.
          S - A handful of macadamia nuts. 4 cups of coffee with some HC...jeez, I really do drink a lot of coffee. It seems to have gotten worse since quitting smoking. I guess there are worse habits to pick up..Ive been pretty good at not overeating as an alternative to cigs so I'm ok with the coffee overload instead. I think I'm going to switch to decaf once I'm done with this jar I have now..

          2. Move around a lot at a slow pace.
          Yep...6+ hours of retail..and a 45 minute walk (after the sun went down...geez, it was hot out.)

          3. Lift heavy things.
          Nope...I know I said I would do P90X Back & Biceps yesterday but I decided I wanted to go for a long walk instead. I will DEFINITELY do it Sunday.

          4. Run really fast every once in a while.
          Not today. Probably Monday or Tuesday I'll do some Tabata sprints

          5. Get lots of sleep.
          Check!

          6. Play.
          Played at the park with the dog. We ran around the ball field..then he played in the water (aww, soooooo happy he was..I tried to get a pic with my phone but it wasn't light enough out and my camera sucks) and then a quick 15 minute walk...The air was so humid and thick even at 5am my breathing was off I couldn't handle a longer walk.

          7. Get some sunlight every day.
          I laid out for about 15 minutes..thats all I could really manage..so hot

          8. Avoid trauma.
          Other then a few stupid customers I always avoid it at all costs.

          9. Avoid poisonous things.
          Day 13 of no poison! Anxiety monster still creeping up a little but feeling pretty good other then that.

          10. Use your mind.
          Eh, I'm sure I did at some point
          The pain of discipline or the pain of regret? You choose.

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          • #35
            Great willpower to resist smoke and drink when out! Impressive! Keep on going on!
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            • #36
              Today consisted of park, breakfast, work, being caught in the rain, P90X, dinner..I think sleep is next. I'm so fucking tired.

              Sunday:
              1. Eat lots of animals, insects and plants.
              B - 3 scrambled eggs with kale and a small amount of chicken leg meat (leftovers )
              L - no lunch
              D - About 2-3oz steak stips with tomatoes and kale chips
              S - A handful of almonds. 3 cups of coffee with some HC. Oh, I also have 4 slices of cheddar cheese slipped in there I've been trying to limit my dairy, that obviously didn't happen today.

              2. Move around a lot at a slow pace.
              6+ hours of retail.

              3. Lift heavy things.
              You betcha. P90X Back & Biceps. I got the sore calluses to prove it

              4. Run really fast every once in a while.
              Not today. Probably tomorrow I'll do some Tabata sprints

              5. Get lots of sleep.
              About 8 hours.

              6. Play.
              Park with the dog again. But today I more sat in the grass and watched him run around while I scowled. I was miss grouchy mcgroucherson this morning...then about 15-20 minute walk around the park.

              7. Get some sunlight every day.
              Nope. I worked all day and got caught in a crazy wind storm coming home.

              8. Avoid trauma.
              No trauma today.

              9. Avoid poisonous things.
              It's officially two weeks! Yay me!

              10. Use your mind.
              Trying to use fitday to track exercise is hurting my brain more then using it. I don't understand why it won't let me get rid of "lifestyle" - It keeps telling me I burned 2300 calories by standing for 24 hours. Why can't I get rid of this? Anyone know? (I know fit day isnt the most accurate when it comes to fitness but I would like to get an estimate) I'm sure it's something simple and I'm stupid.

              EDIT: Wait, I am stupid..I just realized why it does that. Nevermind.
              Last edited by SheGlowsPale; 07-25-2010, 05:37 PM.
              The pain of discipline or the pain of regret? You choose.

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              • #37
                Originally posted by Sungrazer View Post
                Great willpower to resist smoke and drink when out! Impressive! Keep on going on!
                Thank you! Really doing my best!It's actually not as hard as I thought it was going to be. I'm just hoping I don't start over eating to compensate for not smoking...its such a common thing..i don't want to fall into it!
                The pain of discipline or the pain of regret? You choose.

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                • #38
                  Definitely a good idea to start people on the second half of Fathead as I think a lot of people probably get turned off by the first half...

                  I wouldn't worry much about your caffee intake right now...You're doing so much with the cigarettes and food. I feel like I need some iced coffee to get me through the killer NYC heat anyway, so maybe I'm saying that because I want someone to say that to me! I'm in VT right now and I find my mood really perked up as the temperature dropped. I stocked up on bacon here--so much cheaper and yummier than what I can get in Washington Heights. Plus, I just love going to the butcher counter and asking for four pounds of bacon. You just know everyone around me is calculating the odds of my being dead in a year. I love looking in my cart and seeing free range eggs, cream, bacon, steak, kale, brussels sprouts. Took me a while to find eggs that didn't come from vegetarian chickens. I want my chickens eating bugs and worms! Or vegetarians.
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                  • #39
                    I think the lifestyle in fitday is the amount of calories you burn through your basal metobolic rate plus what ever movement you do. Somewhere on the site you fill out how active you are, such as sedentary, active, highly active, etc.. They get your bsm from your weight, I believe. So you can't get rid of it. It is there so it can add your lifestyle calories burned to your exercise calories burned so you can subtract your intake calories and find out what your deficit is or see how many calories you over ate.

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                    • #40
                      Kudos on quitting smoking. Many in my extended family smoke and they always tell me 1) never to start, and 2) it's so difficult to quit. Good to hear you're making the switch without any treatments, too. What do you typically do if/when you get the urge?
                      Are you a college student, trying to navigate college while being Primal? Do you know any other PB college students on a tight budget? Heck, for that matter, are YOU trying to live Primal on a budget? Enroll at Primal University!

                      For after all what is man in nature? A nothing in relation to infinity, all in relation to nothing, a central point between nothing and all and infinitely far from understanding either.
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                      • #41
                        I had a short shift at work today. I seriously need to find a 2nd job again quickly..I hate hate hate job searching/interviews...I need to stop procrastinating.

                        Monday:
                        1. Eat lots of animals, insects and plants.
                        B - 3 scrambled eggs with 1-2oz of steak strips
                        L - no lunch
                        D - Flounder fillet and some peas w/ 2 tbsps of Kerrygold butter (yes, I know, peas are a grain but its all I had left in my freezer. I need to go shopping tomorrow!)
                        S - A handful of almonds (My August challenge is to keep nuts to the bare minimum - like if I'm starving and need a quick snack)..2 sliced pieces of roast beef (cold cut style) and 3 cups of coffee with HC. I might make kale chips again tonight

                        2. Move around a lot at a slow pace.
                        4 hours of retail. then a 45 minute walk..

                        3. Lift heavy things.
                        No way jose..my biceps hurt like aahhhhh.

                        4. Run really fast every once in a while.
                        The last 5 minutes of the 45 minute walk I did sprinting intervals (30 seconds each)

                        5. Get lots of sleep.
                        About 8 hours.

                        6. Play.
                        I'll probably play some tug of war with the doggie later tonight...thats usually much more of a workout for me then it is for him!

                        7. Get some sunlight every day.
                        Yep! I laid out for 20 minutes today...it was a little less humid and disgusting then it has been so I took the opportunity to get some sunshine in.

                        8. Avoid trauma.
                        Always.

                        9. Avoid poisonous things.
                        I haven't had a cigarette in 15 days - doing pretty good. It's weird I'll have these moments of "Oh, hey Im hang out on that park bench for a little while and enjoy the sun and have a cig" and then I quickly go "wait no, I won't be having a cig"..but it doesn't really upset me, more just a realization that it's over. It's a hard thing to grasp sometimes I think. and I'm sure it will take a much longer time to completely grasp it. Day by day.

                        10. Use your mind.
                        Well, I redid my resume and put together all the stores/spas I will be going to tomorrow..I guess that involves my brain somewhat.
                        The pain of discipline or the pain of regret? You choose.

                        Oh look - I made a Journal.

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                        • #42
                          Originally posted by SheGlowsPale View Post
                          9. Avoid poisonous things.
                          I haven't had a cigarette in 15 days - doing pretty good. It's weird I'll have these moments of "Oh, hey Im hang out on that park bench for a little while and enjoy the sun and have a cig" and then I quickly go "wait no, I won't be having a cig"..but it doesn't really upset me, more just a realization that it's over. It's a hard thing to grasp sometimes I think. and I'm sure it will take a much longer time to completely grasp it. Day by day.
                          Great job! I quit cold turkey in 2006. It helped me to 'pretend' i was smoking with my hands and no cigarette . I realized i missed the breathing and lung expansion at the rate that smoking provides... a nice calm relaxing breath.

                          Good luck! You can do it!

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                          • #43
                            superdeluxe - yea, with quitting I don't want to go overboard with restrictions because it's hard enough to not want to eat everything in my house as it is..the coffee actually helps me not eat so often lol..I'm a jerk in the summer..I really don't get along with the heat...I think I have the opposite seasonal depression lol (although, I'm not a huge fan of winter either)...and yay for free range eggs! While I cant afford organic meat right now I do try my best to always go for the organic eggs and dairy..

                            Roberta - thanks! yea, I realized that after I posted...I realized as I put other exercises in the number on the lifestyle calories kept going down lol...it just look me a few minutes there!

                            Velocity - Thanks! How old are you? Seriously, don't ever start. One of my exs started smoking at 29..I swear I should have dumped him for that reason alone. Beyond stupid. Anyways..ya know, 90% of smoking for me was the habit/hand-to-mouth thing...thats why patches and pills and gum would never help me anyway..I try to stay busy and active when the urge hits..my first instinct is to eat more because its something to do with your hands/mouth type deal (this is why smokers gain so much weight when they quit..grrr) but I'll resist that so I'll start to get super anxious so I try to walk it off or even put music on and dance around my apartment (lol, im a dork..but it really helps!)..the anxious feelings are decreasing a little as the days go by..I just hope it starts to get easier instead of harder. It really is an extremely difficult thing to quit but I'm just going day by day.
                            The pain of discipline or the pain of regret? You choose.

                            Oh look - I made a Journal.

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                            • #44
                              Lemonfresh - Ah, thats actually an interesting perspective...I never thought about how you breathe differently when you smoke..maybe I need to try that next time I get really anxious..just a big deep breath like I was inhaling. Thanks for the idea!
                              The pain of discipline or the pain of regret? You choose.

                              Oh look - I made a Journal.

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                              • #45
                                keep it up girl! soon you'll realize how f*n nasty it really is. checked out that band by the way (goddamn gallows). nice. they were actually in cleveland not too long ago. missed 'em by a few days:-(
                                Red meat is not bad for you. Now blue-green meat, that's bad for you! ~Tommy Smothers

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