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  • #16
    b= 3 egg omelette w/ american cheese and bacon-- out to breakfast at a diner. There is nothing better than eating eggy, cheesy, bacon-packed deliciousness while taking full advantage of the jukebox to treat the restaurant to the Beatles, the Doors, the Police, at 8 am. Why, yes, it IS worth the 25 cents-a-song!
    l= 2 all-beef hot dogs with mustard; roasted cauliflower, rasperries
    snack: 2 tbsp Skippy pb. yeah, I know, legumes. Hydrogenation. bad for me. But peanutbutter has a sweet, sweet, seductive siren song, and it was caaaallllling my name. and, my friends, it was delicious.
    d: the cheese and toppings from 2 slices of cheese/sausage/mushroom pizza. mmm. who needs crust? (the Labrador got the crusts, and liked them quite a lot... guess he's out of touch with his Primal side)

    exercise: went for a 4 mile run this morning. 5:30 am, and damn, was it humid. It was completely worth it though, because when I went out, the sun was rising, and the view of the sunrise above the marshes and over the water, seeing the day laid out fresh and clean and glowing, is the kind of thing, the kind of beauty that gives me faith sometimes.

    TOTALS: Cals: 1369; Fat: 172 g; Carbs 17 g; Fiber: 5 g; Protein: 73 g
    (80% fat!! )
    Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


    • #17
      got 8hrs of sleep last night! slept till 6:30, did a kettlebell work out (rack squat/press, halos, double arm swings, bent-over rows)

      b= 3 eggs, vanilla chai tea with heavy cream
      l= 85%lean hamburger patty, chopped up and cooked in pan with garlic and cumin, topped with cheddar cheese.
      s= handful of almonds, can of tuna w/mayo and mustard
      d= 2 eggs, 4 slices reduced-sodium bacon, 1 oz muenster cheese, handful of raspberries

      totals: Cals: 1335; Fat: 98 g; Carbs: 11 g; Fiber: 4 g; Protein: 95 g
      Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


      • #18
        w/o: ran 4 miles, w/ sprints thrown in
        b= 5 slices bacon, 2 eggs cooked in bacon fat, 1/2 cup blueberries and raspberries w/ a splash of heavy cream (delicious!)
        l=2 chicken thighs w/ soy sauce over broccoli florets
        d= romaine lettuce with goat cheese and a hard-boiled egg, lots of london broil steak

        totals: Cals: 1418; Fat: 73 g; Carbs:13g; Fiber:5 g; Protein: 158 g
        Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


        • #19
          You seem to be going strong! Congratulations! Isn't it great how we could stay healthy enjoying bacon, meats, and good ol' fat! I could only imagine how tough it is in college though. I became primal several months ago, and I am currently a grad student. There were plenty of outings to local restaurants where I would have nothing but water, and watch everyone around me go "Why aren't you eating?" while they devour plates of pasta and bread. Someone once told me that by not eating grains, I am cutting out a whole food group. People are funny!

          Keep on posting and updating!
          Here it is, your moment of zen.

          It's a no brainer: The journal of the cerebelum


          • #20
            whoops, haven't updated in a while!

            I went to NYC over the weekend, and had some pretty great food while I was there. I stayed with my best friend, C., who's my college roomie as well. She's actually a vegetarian, and I haven't talked to her much about the PB, but eating-wise it worked out well, anyway. [More on her vegetarianism later, I think, since she's visiting next weekend, and I'm stressing over what to cook]

            Friday and Saturday were both 1400-1600 calories, almost 7 miles of walking both days.

            Friday: 3 hour train ride, got to NYC at noon, and went to a little Italian deli for lunch; I got sausage and peppers and she got a basil-mozzarella-tomato sandwich; I ate 3 links of sausage, and has 2 left over, so I put them in the fridge for Saturday's breakfast, and then we went into Manhattan. We spent about two hours at the Metropolitan Museum, then wandered around until we found a Thai restaurant. We ate dinner at five o'clock, so the restaurant was nearly empty. We're college students, but we have the eating hours of senior citizens! If it means that we never have to wait for tables to open up, then more power to us, I think. I got spicy basil chicken and vegetables, and she got a tofu-veggie curry. We wandered around Barnes and Noble for a while, and ended up spending nearly an hour looking through recipe books with large, glossy photos, aka food porn. lol. (I looked for the Primal Blueprint recipe book but didn't see it! Too bad; I have a gift card.) After walking a bit more, we took refuge in the air conditioned comfort of a grocery store, and then were tempted by, and decided to buy and split a bar of dark chocolate (Lindt 70%)! We ate it as we walked, and it began melting in our fingers in the summer heat. According to my pedometer, we walked over 7 miles.

            Saturday: I woke up early and read for a while until by bff woke up too, then had an egg and leftover sausage for b-fast. We spent the morning near Columbus Circle, then went to lunch at a vegetarian restaurant, where I had seitan satay with peanut sauce and mixed veggies, which was fantastically delicious. We took the subway to Coney Island, where there was a free music festival (The Siren Music Festival). I'd never been to Coney Island before, and I liked it. It has a sort of wild, sticky, neon charm. It was nearly six when we arrived, and the heat had lessend somewhat, but our clothes clung to us and the sun still beat down. i got a chicken kebab for dinner, and C. got a pistachio custard. Then we elbowed our way through the crowd, near the stage, getting quite a bit of beer spilled on our shoes by our fellow (tipsy) concert-goers on the process. The crowd was energetic, buzzed, and sweaty, composed principally of 20-somethings with ironic haircuts, flowered sundresses, retro sunglasses, and ill-advised tattoos--a crowd of hipster stereotypes. Well, C. and I fit in as far as age, eyewear, and clothing choices! The concert ended just as the sun was setting, so we watched the sun go down from the boardwalk. We didn't get back to the campus until 11:30 (1.5 hr subway ride!), so we showered our sweaty selves and got to bed.

            Today: slipped out before 6am to catch a train back to CT. 2 transfers, over 3 hours. I had a handful of macadamia nuts for breakfast, so by the time I got home I was starved; had 6oz leftover sirloin steak, 2 eggs, 2oz cheese, 1.5 cup roasted cauliflower. Dinner is TBA, and I'll do a kettlebell workout after I post this!
            Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


            • #21
              Felt less of an afternoon energy slump today than usual, but got a migraine just before 5pm. I haven't had one in more than a month, but I get an aura, always the same: fingertips start to feel tingly/numb, like they're asleep with pins and needles, then the whole hand (one side only) Sometimes it moves up the arm, then my lips/nose/side of my face start to go numb, and I have spots in my vision. Then I get a whammy of a headache. I don''t know what triggers them. Today wasn't too bad. I was uncomfortable, but functional. Last time, I threw up and I spent 2 hours in the shower with the lights off, which was the only thing that helped. That was one of the worst health/pain experiences of my life, actually, in terms of physical discomfort. Anyhoo, I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow (sheer coincidence), so hopefully I can get some kind of medication that I can take when I get the aura. Also planning on asking the doctor for bloodwork to check for hypothyroidism or vitamin deficiencies (feeling constantly sluggish, always cold, tired, seriously forgetful). Something to look forward to, haha.

              exercise: 30 mins elliptical, 3ish miles walking.

              b-fast: 2 eggs, 3 slices of bacon, slice of cheddar cheese
              lunch: 2 chopped baked chicken thighs with curry powder, sauteed shallots, broccoli florets.
              snack: walked in the door starving, had a tbsp of natural peanut butter. If I were SMART, I wouldn't keep it in the house, but I really don't ever learn! Well, better than inhaling the chocolate chip cookies that were also in the fridge.
              dinner: sirloin steak with a romaine salad w/ avocado slices and goat cheese. So good. Ohh, steak. I love chicken, I really do, but nothing really compares to tender, juicy steak steak steak. Thank you, cows!

              Cals: 1168; Fat: 65 g; Carbs 14 g; Fiber: 5; Protein: 123 g (43.5% protein; 5% carb, 51.5% fat)
              Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


              • #22
                woke up, did 30mins elliptical, 1 mile walk, 3x15 kettlebell swings , 3x15 figure8 squats, overhead press 3x 10 each side, bent-over row 3x 15 each side. (all w/15 lb bell)
                b: 5 slices bacon, 2 eggs, 3tbsp natural peanut butter.
                l; not hungry... too much peanut butter!
                d: 'chicken breast with herbes du provence', spinach salad with goat cheese. (yumm.)

                ugh. I can't resist the nut butters! I was hungry even after my breakfast, and once I got a spoon and the peanut butter, I couldn't stop. well, I guess that qualifies as eat when hungry, stop when full-- I didn't feel stuffed or sick, so I guess it's all good except for the whole peanuts-are-legumes bit.
                Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


                • #23
                  b= 4 slices bacon, 1 egg
                  l= 2 chicken drumsticks w/ sauteed veggies (1 shallot, 1 yellow bell pepper, 1.5 cups chopped broccoli)
                  d= 2 chicken drumsticks, 1 slice cheddar cheese melted on top, 4 squares 85% Lindt dark chocolate.

                  Yeah, I still don't understand people who eat one square a day. The whole bar would have been excessive, but one piece? Ehhh, no. (if it were milk chocolate, I would probs have eaten the whole thing... a reason not to buy milk chocolate!)Maybe eventually I'll learn, but for me, for now, I still can't seem to figure out that it'll still be there tomorrow. I have a lot of trouble with the 80/20 concept. I guess a lot of people have this problem: It's always black and white; I'm a perfectionist. either I'm perfect or I've blown it, and if I've screwed up, I might as well have another cookie, because what the hell, I'm a failure anyway. NO, self, no. What is it they say-- "to err is human, to forgive, divine"? Well, it seems like I need to start learning how to forgive myself, but it's pretty damn hard.

                  anyhoo: 7.5% carb 63.5% fat, 29% protein;

                  Cals: 1313; Fat: 82 g; Carbs 22 g; Fiber 7 g; Protein 84 g
                  Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


                  • #24
                    w/o= 3.3 mile run... slow pace because it is .so. .humid. outside.
                    b= 2 bacon slices, 2 eggs
                    s= 1 oz cheese
                    l=frankfurter, romaine salad w/ italian dressing, 2 oz cheese, a couple pepperoni slices, handful of cherries.
                    s= tbsp peanut butter
                    d= out for dinner; green salad w/ a little house balsamic, big charbroiled salmon fillet.

                    62% fat, 5% carbs, 33% prot.
                    Cals: 1328 Fat: 89 g Carbs: 17 g Fiber: 4 g Protein: 105 g

                    today was ok, foodwise. Good, even. but I'm having a seriously crap body-image day. on Sunday I had a pretty big binge (non-primal); my scale weight is still up 3lbs or so from when I started a few weeks ago. and I know scale weight is misleading, but I feel like I look like crap in the mirror, too. Maybe it's in my head. but I feel soft and pudgy and ick. I have this antsy, anxious feeling... I'm not hungry at all but I feel restless and nervous. Physically, I feel fine, but mentally I'm really on-edge and I don't know why. I've had this self-loathing impulse before; I was depressed in high school, (I still have issues, obviously, but it's not as bad now) and I thought I was the most worthless, undeserving person on earth. It never really extended to my body image, then, though. (of course, now I feel like a failure for being heavier, and also feel like a failure becuase I have shitty body image. wooohoooo.) Every time I see myself in the mirror, or every time I look down at my squished out-thighs when I'm sitting down, I think, gross, pudge, ick, you're gross; I look down and I see my stomach, my thighs, and I think, fatty-fat-fat-- this nasty little voice in my head that wants to beat me up powpowpow all the time. I know I'm not fat, that I have a bmi of 20-21, that's not fat, depending on persepctive, it might even be thin. but it doesn't matter, 'cause I'm 10 lbs more than I was at the end of high school, and that number proves that I suck, at least to some sour twisted bit of myself. ccrapcrapcrap. when does it stop??

                    Jesus, I wouldn't let anyone talk to me the way I talk to myself. I'm not particularly aggressive, but if anyone ever said the things I say to myself to one of my friends, I swear to God, I'd knock him on his ass. But I say them to myself, and I think, hey, well, maybe I am fat. . what the hell. Does everyone, every woman have this masochistic impulse to beat herself up, knock herself down?

                    No cookies in the house to jam in my face, so that's good. I'm not even hungry. Not physically. maybe it's some kind of emotional hunger. I don't know how to express it. I just .want. I want someone to tell me that I don't suck, that I'm not a failure. right, self-psychoanalysis for the win. I don't know if putting this down makes it better or if it solidifies it. I think I feel a little better.

                    Well, I'm going to go to bed early, hopefully I'll wake up in a better mood.
                    Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


                    • #25
                      no breakfast; went on a 5 miles walk/hike.
                      lunch= 3 chicken thighs, 1/3 cup of almond/walnut/peanut nut mix, a few cherries, some green salad.
                      dinner= egg, 2 slices of bacon.

                      Cals=944; Fat= 60 g; Carbs= 16 g; Fiber=3 g; Protein= 91 g

                      Was starving for lunch, but after that, just wasn't that hungry. strange, but w/e.
                      Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


                      • #26
                        We are our own worst enemy! I can trashtalk myself like nobodies business. Youll get back on track, the carb water holding weight sucks! Ive learned evens stress stalls me body must think there is impending danger that will keep me from food for weeks. Holds on to everything! lol
                        grok on!


                        • #27
                          Originally posted by Evita View Post
                          We are our own worst enemy! I can trashtalk myself like nobodies business. Youll get back on track, the carb water holding weight sucks! Ive learned evens stress stalls me body must think there is impending danger that will keep me from food for weeks. Holds on to everything! lol
                          grok on!
                          Thanks, Evita. The water weight is just demoralizing... I know that the number on the scale doesn't mean that I've gained three pounds of fat, and that it really shouldn't mean that much, period. It's such an habit (a bad habit!)

                          And the stress thing is right on! It's too bad that all my body's adaptations, which would have saved my cavegirl self five thousand years ago, are just annoying to me now!! hah.
                          Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


                          • #28
                            w/o= ran 4 miles. it was under 70 degrees this morning, which was a nice change! For the first time in a few weeks, I didn't feel like I was going to dissolve into a puddle of sweat, or look like a tomato after working out

                            breakfast= 2 eggs, leftover sirloin steak from yesterday, cooked in butter.
                            lunch= guacamole on red peppers, 3oz cheddar cheese; burger (about 8 oz of 80% lean beef). strawberry rhubarb crumble with dark chocolate (real) whipped cream for dessert, and it was so, so, so good! mostly avoided the crumb topping.. not particularly primal, but worth it. My carbs were higher than usual, but I didn't feel any kind of crash or sluggishness. So hurrah!

                            toooo full for dinner. cooking up a big batch of chicken thighs that'll be lunch for the week, and they smell pretty yummy. Looking forward to lunch tomorrow!

                            Cals= 1352 Fat= 85 g; Carbs= 43 g; Fiber= 8 g; Protein= 97 g
                            Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


                            • #29
                              w/o: kettlebell workout: did 3x10 rows (20 lbs), 3x20 two-handed swings (15 lbs), 20 squats w/20lbs, and a few other assorted exercises. My thighs feel a little bit stiff today, so hopefully I'll be sore tomorrow-- it'll reassure me that I had a good work-out today! (hoping for a pain in the rear end, lolz)

                              b= 2 eggs scrambled, 4 slices bacon. I cooked the bacon crispy today for a change, but I realized that I really do like it better a little softer (and more fatty!). 2 squares Lindt 85% dark chocolate.
                              l= chicken thigh and a cup of broccoli/cauliflower blend. The chicken was good- baked in the oven, with a red chili paste/coconut oil rubbed on for flavor. Maybe I should have marinated it rather than just throwing it in, but it was still yummy.
                              d= tuna salad. I used an entire family-sized pouch of Starkist chunklight tuna (12 oz), tbsp of olive oil, tbsp of Parmesan cheese, chopped dill pickles, spoonful of whole grain spicy mustard, chopped celery. LITERALLY the most tuna I have ever eaten in one sitting! This is what happens when I get to lazy and it's too humid to use the oven.

                              totals:: Cals= 1160; Fat= 64 g; Carbs=15 g; Fiber= 4 g; Protein= 125 g
                              Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)


                              • #30
                                my inner thighs were pretty sore today... yay for kettlebells yesterday! No workout this morning.

                                breakfast was 2 eggs, 4 slices of bacon.

                                then I was sitting around the house, since I don't/can't sleep in, and therefore wake up at 5.30-6 every single morning, and don't leave for work till 9. Yeah. That's right. I'm 20 years old, and I've slept past 7 am maybe twice in the past three months. I don't know what it is; circadian rhythms? could be tied to my mild depression/insomnia; my aunt, who's a nurse, told me that this kind of morning insomnia/early waking thing is related to anxiety for most people who experience it. Whatever. It's useful sometimes, but means that I have to go to bed early if I want a full nights rest; it doesn't matter if I go to sleep at 9.30 or at 1 am, I'll still be awake by six. Haven't used an alarm clock in at least 4 years.

                                Point is, I was sitting around the house, bored. So I had a nibble of some rotisserie chicken, which turned into about 6oz of chicken, plus a chocolate chip-walnut cookie. Whoops. Bright side: there is a whole plate of cookies in my refrigerator. and I did not eat them all. Also, my head did not explode because I slipped up-- this is also good. SO. I ate the lunch I packed for work at noon-- chicken thigh, broccoli/cauliflower, 1/2 oz of cheese. Skipped dinner; I'm a little hungry now, at 7.30, but I'll be fine. By the time I wake up tomorrow, it'll have been a 18 hr IF. lemons into lemonade and all that.

                                totals: Cals= 1201; Fat=78 g; Carbs= 45 g; Fiber= 5 g; Protein= 80 g
                                Life consists with wildness. The most alive is the wildest. (Thoreau)