I'm not sure if I'm 100% primal, but I've been 100% low-carb since the end of 2001. It's been quite a journey, and along the way I have educated myself relatively comprehensively and keep buying just about all the low-carb books out there to keep my commitment high and my knowledge-base wide. Mark's book is now in my shopping basket on amazon!
From 2001 till 2004 I lost approximately 100 pounds. It was always a slow journey; even going low-carb, my body resisted weight loss - I would go for months without losing anything, but I always had faith it would come off eventually, and it did. I started off only semi-low carb, then with the research I was doing realised that Atkins was not the terrible fad diet it was touted to be, and went fully low-carb - and over a year, lost the rest of the weight. I was 33, and weighed less than I had since I was 13 years old.
From 2004-2007 I hovered between about 158 and 146 pounds - and maintained my lowest weight of 146 pounds for about eight months. I generally stuck to low-carb principles (I do eat dairy, although not a lot) 95% of the time, so every so often I had to get stricter with foods and calories to lose the five pounds or so that would creep on.
I got married in 2007 and found myself pregnant in early 2008. I was very, very sick. I tried desperately to stay low-carb for the first few weeks, but just couldn't do it. Hard as it was to imagine feeling sicker than I did all the time, I felt even worse when I tried to stick to low-carb foods. I couldn't even look at protein like chicken or meat or eggs. I'm sorry to say that I ate junk. I threw most of it up for a good few months, but there was a window of about two months when I was only throwing up once a day but still felt too sick to eat protein when I started gaining weight rapidly. About six months into the pregnancy I was able to switch back to low-carb, and didn't put on any weight from them till my son was born. I only put on about 26 pounds the entire pregnancy, so I was really happy about that and expected to be able to lose it easily.
My sisters, who both already had several children, told me that they did not have enough milk for their babies when they tried to low-carb, so for the first few weeks of my son's life, I didn't eat low-carb, as I wanted to ensure a good milk supply. As someone who is horrendously addicted to carbs, I couldn't eat even remotely healthily when allowing myself to eat them. After a few weeks I had put back on the seven pounds that my son was taking up - so I was actually the same weight I was when still carrying my son.
I went back to low-carb, and thankfully still had plenty of milk for my son.
However, he is now 14 months old, and I still weigh 30 pounds more than I did when I got pregnant. I didn't lose *any* of the pregnancy weight at all.
I feel like I've tried everything. I am hovering around 188 pounds, and feel like a failure. I know that I am still doing the best for my body by eating low-carb, but I don't *look* like I want to look, or how I want to look so as to show people the successful face of eating truly healthily.
I have tried to up my fat intake as opposed to protein intake. I have tried to limit my calories. Nothing seems to work. I am already nearly 37 and if my son is to have a sibling, I can't wait too long before trying to get pregnant again, but I'm terrified that I'll put on another 30 pounds I can't get rid of if I go through another pregnancy. I really really want to lose some weight before I get pregnant again and all control (might) go out of the window.
I guess I'm just asking for some advice - anything people can recommend that they think might help me. It is so discouraging to have to do this journey again when I feel that I didn't 'stray' but only ate what I had to eat because my pregnancy was so difficult, and to be 'punished' this way. My 100 pound weight loss and the feeling of control around food I enjoyed for the first time in my life when I discovered low-carb were the things I was more proud of than almost anything. After a lifetime of feeling ugly and different, I felt amazing; finally part of the mainstream, fairly slim and shapely.
I am grateful I am still 60 pounds less than I was at my heaviest, and I am maintaining my weight, and of course my bloodwork is terrific, but the last time I was this weight all I had to do was eat low-carb, and over a twelve month period I lost 25 pounds. It was only when I reached the 150s that I had to watch calories in order to get down to the 140s. It's been a year of low-carb post-birth and I'm still 188 pounds. I don't feel like I have the strength to severely restrict myself for the length of time it would need for me to lose this amount of weight, and I no longer have the confidence that it would work, even if I did restrict myself.
I'm not tall either (5'3") so the weight is more significant than if I was a few inches taller.
Sorry for such a lengthy introduction - and I will be very grateful for any tips. I'm considering trying IF, but worried it'll be too hard to get through the difficult first few fasts when I'm running around after a 14 month old.
Thank you so much,