I'm feeling pretty down right now because I'm so confused and lost. I have always had a chronic health issue to deal with my whole life. I am a 25 year old woman that has always been underweight ( 100 lbs and 5'4 ), heart conditions (SVT and MVP), chronic infections (especially yeast and sinus), constant colds, mono, viral infections, severe muscle aches, digestive issues like ulcers, bloating, gas, constipation, and of course I was put on several doses of antibiotics and heart medication throughout my entire childhood. In high school I became friends with some vegetarians and so I tried it out for a year. I felt even sicker. I wasn't exactly eating healthy, I just wasn't eating meat. After I stopped being a vegetarian because I was feeling so much worse. I started trying to figure out what I SHOULD be eating. I started with CV...soy protein bars, lots of vegetables and fruit, oatmeal and yogurt, sunscreen, very small amounts of meat and no red meat. You know the drill. I also started working at a health food store so I had a discount for supplements and I started taking so many that I had to get a pill organizer, always believing the next pill would be what I was searching for. Then I went back to being a vegetarian, actually farther because I tried to be a rawfood vegan. I started losing the weight that I couldn't afford to lose, lots of gas, stress over what to eat, very tired all the time still. So starting trying other diets like the macrobiotic and candida diet. I always felt sicker at first and then wouldn't have the energy to keep up with and then I would fall off the wagon again. Also, I am a student so sometimes I would get the chance to eat right and other times my day would be so stress filled that nothing would digest right and I would resort to comfort foods. Then I was tired of not eating, not sleeping, stressing and I noticed my friends that smoke pot, ate, slept, and had very little stress. I gave it a try and I have to admit, smoking did help me relax a little but at the same time I seemed to have very little self control over what I would eat, and what I would always eat was lots of sugar. I became pregnant in December. I had just gotten married to the love of my life and I was definitely more open and relaxed. Even though I still had most of these health issues I became pregnant. At first it seemed like it was too soon, but I was still very happy. Except that I felt worse than ever. The inflammation was outrageous all over my body. Sinus infections that kept me from sleeping. Colds and morning sickness. Couldn't eat anything without feeling worse, and couldn't NOT eat because I would become so weak and lightheaded. Worst yeast infections of my life. Now I even had heartburn and acid reflux to add to the list. All of this was supposed to be "a part of pregnancy" but I was so miserable I couldn't relax and enjoy the process of creating life. I had always looked forward to the experience and here I was, more depressed and in pain than ever. One day I went in for a normal checkup and they couldn't hear a heartbeat. I was supposed to be almost 4 months, but I had had a molar pregnancy and the baby was dead. The molar pregnancy caused my hormones to be incredibly high and I've had to be monitored for the past few months. (If the hormones don't go down that could be an indicator of cancer.) Fortunately, slowly but surely my hormones have started to go down, and the depression of it all is beginning to lift. It's been three months since I had the surgery to remove the growths and my uterus is STILL swollen. In fact, I still feel swollen. I still feel worse than before the pregnancy. I am so lost as to what to do. I know this is long and might not be read, but I had to get it all out to relieve some of the constant swirling in my head. I am still trying every day to figure out what do eat and what to do. Everything I eat gives me gas and I am still bloated. (still look pregnant) I still get yeast infections unless I take very large amounts of probiotics every day (which is very hard to afford.) When I try to work out my muscles become so still and sore. What I am currently trying is to make our normal dinners "primal for me" so that grocery shop is still somewhat affordable. For example, my husband will eat chicken tacos and I'll have a chicken salad with all the ingredients except the shells. I feel better then when I eat the grains, but I get hungry very fast afterwards and if I don't eat something fatty before bed then I can't go to sleep at all. I'm so tired and I keep catching colds even though it's summer now. I'm also still very very constipated and high fiber seems to make it worse. Herbals don't help at all. Most foods make me gassy. I've been tested for different diseases but none of my issues are "bad enough" to fall under a specific category and I wouldn't take the prescriptions anyways because I feel like they are just bandaids in most cases. However diabetes, fibromyalgia, CFS, IBS all run in my family. I feel that if I can just figure out what's right for me then I can prevent myself from having these issues too. (They seem to set in around their 30's and 40's.) I am so lost and I feel like I am "chasing" health and I know that's not the way to go about it, but I can't relax and "go with the flow" when I still feel terrible. People tell me to relax, or ask me why I still get sick when I try to be healthy. I feel like a fool. All the health advice I've come across contradicts each other and I get even more confused. I would really like to hear of real experiences that may or may not be similar to mine, but most definitely will be more realistic and not so geared towards "one way is the only way." Thank you for any help.
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